A thing to note about me is that I am on the Autism Spectrum with Asperger Syndrome and part of having Asperger is you display mass interests in certain topics and you also struggle hard to understand social ques in every day life eg hard to know what's a Joke and sometimes accidentally saying things that don't seem bad to you but very bad to others

So my story is I used to have these friends wel call them MT and TD MT runs a vintage vehicle preservation group in my country and TD is a part of it for a while we where all mates and laughed and Joked. But in December 2019 there was the incident that to this day even though it was an accident and a consequence of my autism I will NEVER forgive myself for MT had lost a relative recently and that night we where all saying dirty jokes to each other and by the time i realised this came out of my mouth it was too late I said I was goin to push him in front of a train and he'd see his relative sooner and since then hasn't spoke to me (understandably).However TD understood that it wasnt intentional and was a slip out and I continued on but however as previously mentioned he was in MTs group. Ever since he joined his group he hadnt been himself becoming more and more quiet and reserved over a period of a year and 3 months and according to another friend who was also in the group they where not treated very right not to the point of slave labour or anything like that but not really treated fairly like being yelled at for small errors having to work real long hours and I'm not sure if this is true but one or 2 where asked to do gardening work for one of MTs colleagues not sure why.But we had noticed on our group calls we noticed that TD was not his old joky laughing self and was just not him I know people mature but this was absolutely nothing like himself and we knew this was very much likely because of the group and him being told not to talk to me and others outside the group.So one day me and other person told him the truth to the matter and he blanked us and sold us out and now I have a bad name among some in the bus world in my country. I acknowledge it's my own fault but what bothers me is that they don't know the full story and are only believing MT and this drives me mental because if they're goin to judge me id want them knowing the full story and to know I regret it and never meant for it to happen thank you for listening