創作這首歌時，融入了很多她的個人情感
讓她覺得非常開心也很充實
感覺到很久沒有像現在一樣開心了
不論是這首歌，或者是對自己的存在，她感受到無比的滿足
她知道很多人替她擔心，但沒有人每天沉浸在快樂世界的
所以別擔憂了，和她一起享受這多彩多姿的世界吧
Calliope Mori - Cursed Night
Rap/Lyrics/Movie: Calliope Mori (me!)
Song track・Mix by: CallioP and kokorobeats a.k.a K’s/Coro
Verse 1
The days are blending together
時間混雜在了一起
Pretending like I don't notice
我假裝自己毫不在意
Drowning in mental fog so thick
沉浸在濃濃的精神迷霧裡
my hands might close where my throat is.
彷彿雙手將我的喉嚨鎖住般的沉淪
Not gonna rap that "I'm cursed"
我不能發聲，因為那詛咒伴隨著我
My words got heavy
我的字句變的沉重不已
And sure enough the steady ebb-and-flow of life subsided
人生總有波瀾，那是理所當然
but I wasn't ready
但我還沒準備好
Last night, I thought up a song
昨晚，我作了一首歌
But I'm too wired to hum it
但壓力大得我甚至哼不出旋律
Inspired sight, like tunnel-vision on the life I got from it
他們說的"鼓舞人心的景象"，我也只能從人生的縫隙中窺見
Not tired yet, right?
「你還不累，對吧?」
Hah.
「哈」
"It's fun," I'll tell ya that much.
我能和你保證「這會很有趣」
Adventures oughta be remembered as such.
那些像美夢般的場景在我腦海裡揮之不去
But, I'm not well.
但，我卻對此感到懼怕
Not today, not tomorrow
今夜像惡魔詛咒般低語，明日的到來也令人害怕
These souls inside my pocket are just sanity I borrow
這些靈魂，只是我借來後殘存的理智罷了
"Sayonara" to the sorrow of eternity alone?
一句「再見」就想擺脫永恆孤寂的悲傷?
Ya, right.
是啊
Part of the joke is that it's all that I've known
令人可笑的是，我對未來還是懵然無知
It's justified - can't help that I romanticize your concern
說真的，我不禁想起你那朝陽般的關心
Now I can fantasize forever if you never say the words "Goodbye"
若你能一直待在我身邊，我就能永遠沉浸在美夢裡
This tainted mind-set really must go free
受汙染的心靈，也能得到救贖
Finding someone so fuckin' wonderful when I'm just so...
但當我真的遇見那朝思暮想的你時，我卻還是...
..."me."
那個"我"...
Hook
Searching by city light,
沿著城市那斑斕的燈光尋找
You'll never find me.
你卻永遠找不著我
Running through a cursed night
穿梭在這詛咒之夜裡
"Do you have a death wish?"
"你是否有個臨終願景?"
Shut the lid tight, it's complicated
將它深鎖靈魂深處，這難以解釋
Could ya not look inside, it's complicated.
別試著往裡面探勘，太錯綜複雜
Somehow, I'm just a page in, but I've cried and I've grown
無意識間，不過一瞬，我就茁長成人
to shut away the conversations of my "highs-and-lows"
不想再聽到那對我高談闊論的譏笑聲
自分の目で見えたいの？ (jibun no me de mietaino?)
你想親眼看看嗎?
この絶望の美しさ (kono zetsubou no utsukushi sa)
這深邃絕望的美麗
Verse 2
Laid back in the cracks of my past, it's kinda funny
沉淪在過去的傷痛中，令人可笑吧
Got sick of the tricking myself into thinking that others would
我已經厭倦自欺欺人了，欺騙自己說其他人是...
only run from me because, as you know, I'm Death-
是因為我是死神...所以才從我身邊離開...
You heard about me?
你可曾聽說過我?
I'm kinda famous, now it's awkward...
我還算滿有名的，雖然有點難開口...
But welcome to my constant state of mind
但歡迎進入我的心靈深境
Like, could you knock first?
不過，下次記得先敲敲門
話せない言葉 (hanasenai kotoba)
難以啟齒的話語
みんなの心配ごとは (minna no shinpai goto wa)
大家對我的擔憂
耳につながらない (mimi ni tsunagaranai)
傳不到我的耳邊
Why's it every time that your kindness
為什麼每次你們的善意
is making my chest unbearably tight?
總會讓我胸悶的喘不過氣來
But, not for the first time
但，這也不是第一次了
A terrible night for a curse,
在這令人害怕的詛咒之夜裡
but don't you worry, cuz it hurts fine.
你也不用為我擔憂，因為我早已習慣
Drunk, lost, CalliP
沉醉，迷失，CalliP
Wandering Rengoku-shi
在冥界裡失魂徘徊
Enlighten me - is this what they call a "sunk cost fallacy?"
突然想到，這就是他們所說的"沉沒成本"嗎?
Frightening, in spite of things I want tossed my way
恐怖的是，儘管我還有很多事沒做
I'm looking everywhere at once and months are passing like days.
但時光仍不著痕跡的倏忽即逝
"By myself" is just better.
"靠自己"永遠是最棒的解答
I know I say that a lot.
我知道我常常這麼說
But if somebody holds you back, then you cannot become god.
但要記得，光靠別人的幫助可不能當個稱職的死神
Lost in the night, 情けない (nasakenai)
仁慈心，迷失在夜裡
Hostile, hostage or free
不論是敵人、被囚禁的或是自由的人
These childish eyes will only show my mind what I wanna see.
這些幼稚的靈魂裡只會呈現出我想看的
Hook
Searching by city light,
沿著城市那斑斕的燈光尋找
You'll never find me.
你卻永遠找不著我
Running through a cursed night
穿梭在這詛咒之夜裡
"Do you have a death wish?"
"你是否有個臨終願景?"
Shut the lid tight, it's complicated
將它深鎖靈魂深處，這難以解釋
Could ya not look inside, it's complicated.
別試著往裡面探勘，太錯綜複雜
Somehow, I'm just a page in, but I've cried and I've grown
無意識間，不過一瞬，我就茁長成人
to shut away the conversations of my "highs-and-lows"
不想再聽到那對我高談闊論的譏笑聲
自分の目で見えたいの？ (jibun no me de mietaino?)
你想親眼看看嗎?
この絶望の美しさ (kono zetsubou no utsukushi sa)
這深邃絕望的美麗
(和聲)
自分の目で見えたいの？ (jibun no me de mietaino?)
想親眼見識嗎?
この絶望。。。 (kono zetsubou)
這種絕望...
自分の目で見えたいの？ (jibun no me de mietaino?)
想親眼見識嗎?
wanna see it?
真的想看看嗎?
fine,
那好
this time, look for yourself.
這次，就讓你親身體會
Cursed night
我認為是寫出自己在獲得新生後爆紅下的壓力
表面上堅強的人，心裡往往是纖細脆弱的
但至少，Calli將它轉化成這首完美的歌曲
最後我想說的是 我一輩子單推森大人啦
Peace!
