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Nightshade

A string of murders in Los Angeles. A ruthless cult. A secret world of vampires. Journalist June Osborne quickly realizes this is not your average homicide case, and finds her life turned upside down in the process of pursuing it. Her number one suspect, the mysterious Nick Blaine, has secrets that may be the key to unlocking it all… but can he help her and protect her from his dark past at the same time?

This is a story about love, loss, and the shadows within. Vampire AU. New chapter every Sunday.


rating: explicit • words: 75k+ • WIP • updated: june 20

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Nightshade, chapter 11: fear of the afterlife

Nick was laying in his bed, surrounded by a nest of silk sheets and pillows. The comforting weight of June’s body rested against his side. The blue glow of dawn peeked through the windows, but he felt no rush to close the curtains. It was the weekend. He knew June wouldn’t have to leave him and they could lay here until the sun came up, when he would drift into a content, dreamless sleep with his girl in his arms.

This was surely heaven.

“What’s it like?” June broke the silence suddenly.

He raised a brow.

“Living forever, I mean.”

“It’s lonely.”

“Even with other vampires?”

“We’re all just lonely together.”

June let out a chuckle that he felt against his ribs. It warmed him— made him smile.

But then her voice grew softer, more serious.

“It’s better than wondering when your time is up though, right?”

Nick took his time forming an answer to that. She waited patiently.

“Death is a natural part of the human experience. Without it… you don’t really feel like you’re living.”

June frowned.

“But I’ve felt like that my whole life.”

Nick looked at her, brows furrowed.

“Most of the time, I feel like I’m simply existing. Getting through the day, through the week, through the year… like it never ends, and I’m wandering aimlessly through the motions with no real purpose.”

Pained by what she was saying, he squeezed her protectively. 

“Is that how you feel?”

June shifted to lay on her stomach, resting her chin on his chest and smiling as she gazed into his eyes.

“Not when I’m with you.”

His heart melted.

“I just think… for some, this sadness is hardwired into us. Maybe… whether we’re vampire or human, we all have to learn how to make room for it.”

Nick stared up at the ceiling and absently ran his fingertips over the curve of June’s hip, taking her words to heart. In all his years, he never thought about it the way she did. He couldn’t remember what it was like to be human, and spent his whole long life resenting his curse.

But was it really a curse? Or was it nothing more than a simple state of being?

“Why are you asking me about this?”

June shrugged.

“Is it wrong to admit that I think about it sometimes?”

Nick sighed, a fist closing around his heart. She was talking about turning… about becoming a vampire like him.

June…”

Then she was gone.

June?”

Nick looked around, finding the bed empty.

Icy cold panic filled his veins as he tried to get up to find her. But he couldn’t. He couldn’t move a single limb.

Everything hurt. His muscles, his bones. In the distance he heard voices. Above, the ceiling of his loft turned into stark white lights that passed him by.

June?”

His throat was suddenly too dry. He could only whisper her name hoarsely. He couldn’t get enough air.

Why couldn’t he get enough air?

“Shhh.” A hand pressed against his chest. It was warm and soft and familiar. “You’re safe, Nick. Don’t try to speak.”

The last thing he remembered before blackness overtook him was a face surrounded by bright white light, hair glowing like a golden halo. His lover’s face. The face of an angel.

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Nightshade

A string of murders in Los Angeles. A ruthless cult. A secret world of vampires. Journalist June Osborne quickly realizes this is not your average homicide case, and finds her life turned upside down in the process of pursuing it. Her number one suspect, the mysterious Nick Blaine, has secrets that may be the key to unlocking it all… but can he help her and protect her from his dark past at the same time?

This is a story about love, loss, and the shadows within. Vampire AU. New chapter every Sunday.


rating: explicit • words: 75k+ • WIP • updated: june 20

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up now: chapter 10 - your god knows his faithful

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Nightshade

A string of murders in Los Angeles. A ruthless cult. A secret world of vampires. Journalist June Osborne quickly realizes this is not your average homicide case, and finds her life turned upside down in the process of pursuing it. Her number one suspect, the mysterious Nick Blaine, has secrets that may be the key to unlocking it all… but can he help her and protect her from his dark past at the same time?

This is a story about love, loss, and the shadows within. Vampire AU. New chapter every Sunday.


rating: explicit • words: 71k+ • WIP • updated: june 13

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up now: chapter 9 - wolf like me

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Nightshade

A string of murders in Los Angeles. A ruthless cult. A secret world of vampires. Journalist June Osborne quickly realizes this is not your average homicide case, and finds her life turned upside down in the process of pursuing it. Her number one suspect, the mysterious Nick Blaine, has secrets that may be the key to unlocking it all… but can he help her and protect her from his dark past at the same time?

This is a story about love, loss, and the shadows within. Vampire AU. New chapter every Sunday.


rating: explicit • words: 60k+ • WIP • updated: june 6

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up now: chapter 8 - love will lead us

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Nightshade

A string of murders in Los Angeles. A ruthless cult. A secret world of vampires. Journalist June Osborne quickly realizes this is not your average homicide case, and finds her life turned upside down in the process of pursuing it. Her number one suspect, the mysterious Nick Blaine, has secrets that may be the key to unlocking it all… but can he help her and protect her from his dark past at the same time?

This is a story about love, loss, and the shadows within. Vampire AU. New chapter every Sunday.


rating: explicit • words: 53k+ • WIP • updated: may 30

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up now: chapter 7 - not afraid anymore

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Nightshade

A string of murders in Los Angeles. A ruthless cult. A secret world of vampires. Journalist June Osborne quickly realizes this is not your average homicide case, and finds her life turned upside down in the process of pursuing it. Her number one suspect, the mysterious Nick Blaine, has secrets that may be the key to unlocking it all… but can he help her and protect her from his dark past at the same time?

This is a story about love, loss, and the shadows within. Vampire AU. New chapter every Sunday.


rating: explicit • words: 43k+ • WIP • updated: may 23

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up now: chapter 6 - i put a spell on you

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Nightshade

A string of murders in Los Angeles. A ruthless cult. A secret world of vampires. Journalist June Osborne quickly realizes this is not your average homicide case, and finds her life turned upside down in the process of pursuing it. Her number one suspect, the mysterious Nick Blaine, has secrets that may be the key to unlocking it all… but can he help her and protect her from his dark past at the same time?

This is a story about love, loss, and the shadows within. Vampire AU. New chapter every Sunday.


rating: explicit • words: 34k+ • WIP • updated: may 16

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up now: chapter 5: ghost in the sheets

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Nightshade

A string of murders in Los Angeles. A ruthless cult. A secret world of vampires. Journalist June Osborne quickly realizes this is not your average homicide case, and finds her life turned upside down in the process of pursuing it. Her number one suspect, the mysterious Nick Blaine, has secrets that may be the key to unlocking it all… but can he help her and protect her from his dark past at the same time?

This is a story about love, loss, and the shadows within. Vampire AU. New chapter every Sunday.


rating: explicit • words: 28k+ • WIP • updated: may 9

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chapter 4 is up now!

nightshade (excerpt)

Nick Blaine never asked to be immortal.

In the year 1901 he was born in the fast-growing city of Ann Arbor, Michigan. His parents and their newborn son, Joshua, immigrated there only a year prior, having crossed the Atlantic ocean in search of the American dream and a shot at a better life for their children.

The road to success wasn’t as easy as the industrial boom promised, but the Blaines managed to scrape by. They gave their sons what little they could. They were satisfied with their humble home. And above all, they believed that everything would work out as it should— as long as they had each other.

But they wouldn’t be able to stay together forever.

A.