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Michael Jackson Wasn’t So Weird After All

Michael is a generous, honest, and sensitive human being, filled with amazing insight and the capacity for love. If this is weird, I want to go live on another planet.” ~ Karen Faye, Michael’s hair and makeup artist for 27 years (Quote taken from the Michael Jackson Fan Club website in 2010, which is now no longer available. The Fan Club is now on Facebook.)

On June 25, 2009, the world lost one of its biggest superstars, Michael Jackson. Michael was born August 29, 1958 and I was born 15 months later. I grew up watching him grow up and reach mega status right before my eyes! He really knew how to sing, dance and grab an audience starting at the ripe age of five years old! Dick Clark, American Bandstand emcee said, “I knew Michael as a child and watched him grow over the years. Of all the thousands of entertainers I have worked with, Michael was THE most outstanding. Many have tried and will try to copy him, but his talent will never be matched.” ~ (Quote is taken from the MJFC website.)

American Bandstand was a TV show that came on for an hour every Saturday between 1963 and 1987 (24 years!) and introduced many artists into our lives, one of the groups being the Jackson 5 then later Michael as a single performing artist. Dick Clark had people in the audience get up and dance to the current songs of the times then had some of those people rate the new songs as they were introduced to the world. It was a fun show! I looked forward to watching it every weekend!

Like most young kids it seemed back then, I loved rock and roll. That was what I mainly listened to in the beginning. Out of rock and roll came different genres of music including hard rock, heavy metal, disco and pop music and, of course, that’s where Michael comes in. I kept up with his career for a time and watched him become an incredibly sexy and handsome young man. As time marched on I noticed he was wearing makeup and I never knew why. I’ll discuss that later in this blog.

Sometime shortly after that I started listening to country music and before I knew it I was a die-hard country music fan. I no longer kept up with Michael’s career, I never knew about his charity work so when he was accused in 1993 and then in 2003 for the same charge, I tended to fall into the web of the media and their lies. Now that I know what I know, my heart goes out to him.

The day Michael died, I did not understand why since I had him pegged as a pedophile, but I cried that entire evening! Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen had opened in theaters that same evening and I was trying to watch it with my daughter and the young man she was dating at the time, but between the very loud movie and crying so hard I had developed a terrible headache! I remember thinking all I wanted to do was leave the theater, go home, go to bed, get some sleep and hopefully I would wake up the next morning and realize it had all been a horrible nightmare!

I finally got home, was getting ready for bed and turned on the TV to see what all was being said about Michael. The program I was watching was focusing on his amazing talent. I couldn’t watch it for long, though, as I had to go to bed to get some sleep for work the next day so I turned off the TV, but I couldn’t go to sleep, so I got out of bed and went on YouTube to see what all the fuss was about (because I had forgotten) and I first pulled up his performance of Billie Jean during his 30th Anniversary Special at Madison Square Garden in 2001. I was blown away (I know my jaw dropped) then suddenly I felt even sadder because I had missed out on his incredible talent through the years.

I started to feel guilty, too, and I continued to cry for two solid months. It probably seems like I’m exaggerating, but I promise I’m telling the truth. It felt like a spiritual scolding and those of you who believe in God know what I’m talking about. It is called chastisement. I decided to do something with that, feeling like I was supposed to. I felt God was tugging on my heart to research Michael, it was a strong urge and I could not ignore it, so I spent countless hours on the internet and bought several books. My mission was to find out if the allegations against Michael were true or not and if he was indeed as weird as I thought he was! Once I did my research and realized that Michael’s love for children was innocent, pure and came from a good place, and that he was not weird at all, I then felt compelled by God to write this blog.

One of the first books I bought for my research is titled Redemption: The Truth Behind the Michael Jackson Child Molestation Allegations written by Geraldine Hughes. She was the legal secretary for Attorney Barry Rothman who represented Evan Chandler, the father of the first boy who accused Michael of molestation, and witnessed firsthand how the two men worked diligently together to frame Michael of child molestation.

Geraldine shared that before Jordan and Michael met, Jordan (at around age 12) had come up with the movie idea for Robin Hood: Men In Tights and Evan thought it was a great idea for a movie. He wound up co-writing the movie with Mel Brooks and David Shapiro. With the success of the movie, Evan decided writing screenplays was what he wanted to do with his life. He had been a dentist, but had been unhappy with that career choice. It was sometime after the movie came out when Jordan and Michael met. The two became close friends and Evan grew jealous of their friendship since he and Jordan had never been particularly close. Despite the jealousy, though, since Michael spent quite a bit of time at Evan’s house visiting Jordan, Evan asked Michael to build an addition onto his home and when that didn’t pan out due to zoning issues, he then asked Michael to buy him a bigger home. Michael said no.

In the meantime, Evan came up with another idea for a movie, but with the second movie he wanted more of a controlling interest. That would require a substantial amount of money, Evan figured 20 million dollars. As Evan was jealous of Jordy and Michael’s friendship and as Michael hadn’t given in to requests made by Evan before, Evan came up with the idea of accusing Michael of child molestation, unless Michael gave him 20 million dollars. About that Geraldine wrote, “Dr. Chandler had specifically stated his motive at this time was jealousy because he perceived that Michael Jackson was stealing his son’s affection away from him. Dr. Chandler was angry, had a motive and saw an opportunity to make money.”

Geraldine wrote, “In order for Dr. Chandler to carry out his plan, he needed custody of his 13-year old son. It would have been difficult to carry out such a plan without full custody or with interference from the child’s mother.”

Evan then hired the meanest attorney he could find, Barry Rothman. If money was all Evan was after (and obviously it was since he never pressed charges to have Michael arrested), an offer was made. Geraldine wrote, “Mr. Pellicano responded to Mr. Rothman’s request via fax stating that their client, Michael Jackson, had done nothing wrong and therefore they would not consider paying the twenty million dollars requested. He did, however, express a willingness to assist the father’s business venture by giving him a $350,000.00 screenwriting deal. He specifically said the offer was being made to resolve the custody dispute and to allow Dr. Chandler a chance to spend time with his son. (This was to overturn Dr. Chandler’s accusation that Michael Jackson was destroying his relationship with his son by spending too much time with him and causing Dr. Chandler to lose his son’s affection.) This was the only claim that Michael Jackson was willing to take responsibility for because in his heart and soul, this was the only thing he may have been guilty of.” (Anthony Pellicano is a private investigator who was hired by Michael’s long-time attorney, Bertram Fields.)

Geraldine continued, “Dr. Chandler refused the counteroffer because it wasn’t enough for him to shut down his dental practice and work full time on writing screenplays. It is my understanding that Dr. Chandler asked Michael Jackson for a film project of five million dollars per year for four years, which totaled 20 million dollars, or he would go public with the child molestation allegations.”

Geraldine wrote, “Mr. Rothman was very firm in this particular meeting and insisted that it was either the twenty million dollar deal or nothing.” Geraldine could hear Mr. Pellicano say, “No way!” and “That’s extortion!” It was then that the world learned of the child molestation allegations.

Evan did not get what he wanted. Geraldine wrote, Michael Jackson settled the civil case for an undisclosed amount of money. The court ordered the terms of the settlement to be confidential and banned the attorneys, parties and court personnel from mentioning the contents of said settlement proceedings. It was speculated, however, that the approximate amount of the settlement was [20] million dollars. It was estimated that Dr. Chandler received approximately one to two million dollars and the balance of the money was put in a trust fund for the little boy until he reached the age of 18. The parents were ordered to relinquish custody over the little boy’s estate, and a retired judge was appointed guardian over his estate.”

In the paragraph above Geraldine referred to this case as a civil case. It was not a criminal case as Evan never pressed charges against Michael and there was no evidence of child molestation found for Michael to be indicted. It was all about greed.

On that topic Geraldine wrote, “I cannot help but speculate that had Michael Jackson gone to trial and not settled this case with Dr. Chandler, he could have won. Mainly because, in my opinion, there was more evidence collected by Michael Jackson’s attorneys and investigators to prove the extortion charges than the police had to show that any type of molestation ever took place.”

For people who have wondered if Michael was innocent why did he settle Geraldine wrote, “It wasn’t until I was shopping for a literary agent for my book that I discovered that many people believed Michael Jackson was guilty of the child molestation charges simply because he did, in fact, settle. I heard people say repeatedly, ‘If he was innocent, why did he settle?’ I did not realize that was how a great majority of people felt. I assumed that people believed in the constitution of this country, which states you are innocent until proven guilty. In the legal profession, settling a case is the most preferred way to resolve a dispute, mainly because of the escalating court costs involved in litigating a case.”

Geraldine continued, “Cases sometimes make it all the way to the threshold of trial, and then settle right on the eve of trial. The settlement of a case, however, has never been recognized in the legal field as an admission of anyone’s guilt. It is cost-effective for all parties involved to settle a case rather than go to trial. Even the Courts require parties to participate in mandatory settlement conferences before going to trial.”

However, Michael was truly innocent and further into her book Geraldine stated, “Two Grand Juries, which consisted of 24 peers in two counties, an extensive search of Michael Jackson’s Neverland Ranch, Century City condo, his parent’s Encino home, and even Michael Jackson’s body search, interviews with over 200 men, women, boys and girls, and even traveling out of the country to interview witnesses, did not produce any evidence to support a criminal indictment for child molestation.”

Geraldine brought out some valid points about Michael’s character. By the time the Chandler allegation took place, most everyone questioned Michael’s sexuality. She pointed out that a lot of Christians make a vow of abstinence, that they refrain from having sex until they are married. Geraldine wrote, “They vow to remain unmarried and commit their life to do the work of God.” She does not claim Michael made that vow, but he certainly devoted “his life to doing the work of God by helping underprivileged children around the world.”

Geraldine wrote, Michael Jackson has always acknowledged and referenced God in his life. He has lived a modeled lifestyle of Godliness. His humanitarian acts and deeds tap into the very heart of God – to help someone in need, to feed the poor, to do for the least and to walk in humility. These characteristics are the very characteristics of Godliness.”

“With all of Michael Jackson’s notoriety, awards, millions of dollars, record breaking statistics and fans all over the world, he remains surprisingly humble, meek, unselfish, always caring for world unity, dying children, underprivileged children and reaching out to a hurting world. He never publicly broadcasted his humanitarian acts and deeds because of meekness and humility.” ~ Geraldine Hughes

On pages 171-175, Geraldine listed the charity work Michael was involved in through the years.

Michael Jackson’s humanitarian efforts started long before the child molestation allegations surfaced, and continued even through the most difficult time of his life. He did not allow his suffering and pain to interfere with his continued efforts to help hurting children all around the world.” ~ Geraldine Hughes

“Be humble, believe in yourself, and have the love of the world in your heart.” ~ Michael Jackson

Another book I bought was Michael Jackson: The Magic, The Madness, The Whole Story written by J. Randy Taraborrelli. Randy had hung out with Michael now and then and he interviewed Michael from time to time. At the back of the book Randy lists a lot of other sources of information as well. He really did his research. He explained so much about Michael that by the time I finished reading the book I felt like I knew Michael personally. I also feel like Michael and I would have been great friends had I ever had the chance to meet him.

Randy wrote about the day that Michael and Mr. Pellicano met with Evan and Jordan for the child molestation accusation showdown. Randy shared that after Michael and Jordan greeted each other with hugs “Evan then walked over to Michael and embraced him. ‘Nice to see you, Michael,’ Evan said. Michael stared at Evan with cold, dark eyes. Under the circumstances, it was an odd greeting by Evan. Later, Anthony Pellicano would say, ‘If I believe somebody molested my kid and I got that close to him, I’d be on death row right now.'”

If Evan truly believed Michael molested his son, how in the world could he have hugged Michael then told him it was nice to see him??? Another piece of proof that this case was all about $$$!

Randy talked about the humiliating body search Michael had to go through to prove or disprove Jordan’s description of Michael’s genitalia, about which he claimed Michael was circumcised. That body search proved Michael to be uncircumcised. (Michael’s autopsy report also mentions that he was uncircumcised, page 18: http://www.autopsyfiles.org/reports/Celebs/jackson,%20michael_report.pdf)

I can’t even begin to imagine how Michael must have felt undergoing a body strip and search for false accusations! It must have been terrible for him!

Randy wrote about LaToya’s live press conference she held in Tel Aviv, Israel in 1993 while on tour, in which she stated that Michael was a pedophile. Later in the chapter, Randy reveals that she was forced to say that from her then abusive husband, Jack, so they could eventually make a half-million dollars on selling their story to tabloid magazines. Randy wrote, “Years later, LaToya would insist that the allegations she’d made against Michael were all Jack’s fabrications, which she was made to repeat against her will. Though it would take a few years, by 2003 she and Michael had cleared the air between them and were, again, close. LaToya also apologized to the rest of her family members; they then all accepted her back into the fold.”

Another book I purchased: Was Michael Jackson Framed? Initially it was an article written for GQ Magazine in 1994 by Mary A. Fischer and due to so many people asking her where they can get the article, Ms. Fischer decided to publish it as a book and did so in 2012.

In the book, Mary discussed sodium Amytal being used by Dr. Evan Chandler to pull one of Jordan’s teeth. She wrote, “In the presence of Chandler and Mark Torbiner, a dental anesthesiologist, the boy was administered the controversial drug sodium Amytal-which some mistakenly believe is a truth serum. And it was after this session that the boy first made his charges against Jackson.”

Mary continued, “The dentist claimed he did so only to pull his son’s tooth and that while under the drug’s influence, the boy came out with allegations.”

Mary quoted Dr. Phillip Resnick, a noted Cleveland psychiatrist: “It’s a psychiatric medication that cannot be relied on to produce facts. People are very suggestible under it. People will say things under sodium Amytal that are blatantly untrue. It is quite possible to implant an idea through the mere asking of a question. The idea can become their memory, and studies have shown that even when you tell them the truth, they will swear on a stack of Bibles that it happened.”

Mary quoted Dr. John Yagiela, the coordinator of the Anesthesia and Pain Control Department at UCLA’s School of Dentistry: “It’s unusual for it to be used [for pulling a tooth]. It makes no sense when better, safer alternatives are available. It would not be my choice.”

Mary quoted a San Francisco psychiatrist, Dr. Kenneth Gottlieb: “I would never want to use a drug that tampers with a person’s unconscious unless there was no other drug available. And I would not use it without resuscitating equipment, in case of allergic reaction, and only with an M.D. anesthesiologist present.” Dr. Chandler did not follow those guidelines. Mary wrote, “He had the procedure performed on his son in his office, and he relied on the dental anesthesiologist Mark Torbiner for expertise. (It was Torbiner who’d introduced Chandler and Rothman in 1991, when Rothman needed dental work.)”

Even though Dr. Chandler claimed he only used sodium Amytal to pull his son’s tooth, it is obvious that he used it so he could feed suggestions to Jordan about sexual misconduct on Michael’s part. Jordan wouldn’t admit to any wrongdoing from Michael and Dr. Chandler had to get him to admit it somehow so he could move forward with his extortion attempt! Greed. It’s a terrible thing!

Before the Chandler allegation came out, Evan had placed a phone call to David Schwartz (June Chandler’s second husband) and David recorded the conversation. It was brought to light after the allegation came out, but only few newscasts shed light on it then it was tossed aside and forgotten about. Here is that conversation:

Chandler: “I had a good communication with Michael. We were friends. I liked him and I respected him and everything else for what he is. There was no reason why he had to stop calling me. I sat in the room one day and talked to Michael and told him exactly what I want out of this whole relationship. I’ve been rehearsed about what to say and what not to say.”

Schwartz: “What has Jackson done that made you so upset?”

Chandler: “He broke up the family. The boy has been seduced by this guy’s power and money.”

Chandler: “I am prepared to move against Michael Jackson. It’s already set. There are other people involved that are waiting for my phone call that are in certain positions. I’ve paid them to do it. Everything’s going according to a certain plan that isn’t just mine. Once I make that phone call, this guy [his attorney, Barry K. Rothman, presumably] is going to destroy everybody in sight in any devious, nasty, cruel way that he can do it. And I’ve given him full authority to do that.”

Chandler: “And if I go through with this, I win big-time. There’s no way I lose. I’ve checked that inside out. I will get everything I want, and they will be destroyed forever. June will lose [custody of the son]…and Michael’s career will be over.”

Schwartz: “Does that help [the boy]?”

Chandler: “That’s irrelevant to me. It’s going to be bigger than all of us put together. The whole thing is going to crash down on everybody and destroy everybody in sight. It will be a massacre if I don’t get what I want.”

Chandler: “This attorney I found, I picked the nastiest son of a b**** I could find. All he wants to do is get this out in the public as fast as he can, as big as he can, and humiliate as many people as he can. He’s nasty, he’s mean, he’s very smart, and he’s hungry for the publicity.”

Extortion to the max! It’s so obvious!

This link reveals that Evan Chandler suffered from bipolar disorder and with that information, it all makes sense. The blog shares that in the fall of 2006 Jordan’s dad attacked him with a dumbbell and Jordan got a restraining order against him. After that, they never spoke to each other again. http://vindicatemj.wordpress.com/2010/05/07/evan-chandler-was-a-psychiatric-case/

The link above also shares that on November 5, 2009, just a little over four months after Michael passed away, Evan’s body was found in his high-rise condo. He had committed suicide. No note was found.

Another book I purchased was Michael Jackson Conspiracy written by Aphrodite Jones. She is a reporter who sat through each and every day of Michael’s trial, watched how it all went down, and realized afterwards that he was truly innocent of all 14 charges brought against him. She was in shock as prior to the trial she was convinced he was a pedophile. It took her some time, but she decided to write a book about what happened in the courtroom. She used her own daily notes to write the book, plus made copies of the court transcript in case she had missed anything. There is a caption on the front of Aphrodite’s book from Mr. Mesereau, Michael’s attorney, which reads, “To anyone who wants to learn what happened in the Michael Jackson courtroom, this is the book to read.”

Aphrodite reveals that during the 2005 trial the most harmful thing that hurt the Arvizo family’s case against Michael was that back in 1998 Janet (Gavin’s mother) claimed that she was physically and sexually assaulted in a JC Penney parking lot by security guards. Upon further questioning by Mr. Mesereau of Ms. Arvizo about comments she made on her deposition against JC Penney, she began to get flustered and admitted there were some inaccuracies on what she had written on the deposition. Aphrodite wrote, “The more Janet admitted to inaccuracies, the more she stated that parts of her JC Penney deposition were untrue, the less people were listening to her.”

It was also discovered that Janet’s two sons, Gavin and Star, had given sworn depositions that they witnessed their mother being assaulted. (Star claimed he witnessed Michael touch Gavin inappropriately.) Aphrodite wrote, “As Mesereau sorted through Janet’s JC Penney deposition, he was able to suggest that Janet had coached her kids about how to testify.” After Janet and her husband, David, had been arrested, fingerprinted and made bail after the JC Penney fiasco, the West Covina police booking information report from the incident “described Janet Ventura Arvizo as having no physical oddities, as needing no special medical attention.”

Aphrodite continued, “But some time after, Janet Arvizo showed up at an attorney’s office making claims of having been physically and sexually assaulted by JC Penney guards.” Janet offered photos of herself with bruises. However, it was then discovered that David Arvizo was an abusive man and that Janet “had been granted multiple restraining orders against her former husband.” As questions were continually being asked, it was obvious that “the Arvizos and their kids were in the habit of using lawyers.”

Aphrodite: “At an early age, Gavin had learned how to sue people for ‘damages.'”

(The photo below depicts Michael with Gavin, Star and Davellin Arvizo in the kitchen at Neverland Ranch. They all look pretty happy and content to me!)

Another harmful thing that hurt the Arvizo family’s case against Michael was Janet’s odd statement that she believed Michael was trying to steal her children away in a hot-air balloon! The family also claimed that Michael was holding them hostage at the ranch! There was a funny moment in the courtroom when Mr. Mesereau asked Star, “How many times do you think your family escaped from Neverland and then went back so they could escape again?” The family had visited the ranch three times.

Michael Jackson Conspiracy also clears Michael in regards to the Martin Bashir mishap, revealing what was truly said and recorded in the unedited version of Living With Michael Jackson. (Michael had his own cameraman filming too. His version is titled Take Two: The Footage You Were Never Meant To See.) In Martin’s edited footage, one of the topics that is discussed is the “baby dangling” incident with Michael insisting, “I was holding that baby strong and tight, and I know better.” He tells Martin that he’s seen parents fling their kids up in the air and catch them. Michael continued, “I got caught up in the moment. I was holding on tight. And it happened for like, two seconds. But, when it gets on the news they slow it down. They make me look like this eccentric idiot dangling this baby over a balcony, like a nut. They don’t show you the whole story.”

Sarcastically, Martin asks Michael if he is actually happy that he dangled his baby over the balcony. Michael said, “I’m not happy that I dangled the baby over the balcony, no. But I’m happy that I let the kids give a wave to him. I didn’t realize that he was over the balcony. You can make mistakes.”

Aphrodite wrote, regarding the unedited footage that everyone watched in the courtroom, “It was clear that the Berlin balcony scene happened because Michael had wanted to please his fans. There were thousands of people outside in a frenzy, hovering below his balcony, begging for Michael to show them his new infant son. When Michael went outside to the balcony, he quickly lifted up his infant so that fans could catch a glimpse.”

Aphrodite continued by saying, “For Jackson fans in the courtroom, it was disturbing to sit and watch Jackson’s innocent gesture in Berlin, as compared to the American media footage, which ran so many times over. The media showed the Jackson clip in a way that made him look crazy, always with nasty comments and rumors flying about Jackson having his children taken away from him. The media couldn’t get enough of Jackson’s ‘baby dangling,’ and they harped on his irresponsibility as a parent.”

Aphrodite: “No wonder Jackson hated the media.”

Please do not continue to be played by the media and believe Michael would have ever harmed a child. There is proof of more lies told regarding the Arvizo allegations and further proof that the media was out to get Michael in this book, hence the title. Come on. I am challenging you to read Michael Jackson Conspiracy.

“In the Michael Jackson case, most media conclusions were shallow, misinformed, and self-serving. I know in my heart of hearts that Michael Jackson was not guilty of these grisly charges.” ~ Mr. Mesereau (Quote is taken from the MJFC website.)

Mr. Mesereau has said that the 2005 trial was a total loss of taxpayer’s money because there was no true evidence presented that child molestation ever occurred. It was a desperate attempt from an overzealous DA whose ultimate goal was to put Michael behind bars. The fact that the DA sent 70 law enforcement agents out to Neverland Ranch to search for evidence proves just how incredibly overzealous he was! Insane!

Azja Pryor, an ex-girlfriend of Chris Tucker’s and mother to his son, wrote a letter to Gavin Arvizo and his family begging them to come clean and tell the truth about Michael’s innocence: https://selfie1982.wordpress.com/2009/07/11/open-letter-to-arvizos-from-azja-pryor

Michael Jackson hung out with credible people, including Elizabeth Taylor who was dearest to his heart because she believed in him and stuck by his side and, like Michael, was a humanitarian. Chris Tucker, George Lopez and Macaulay Culkin took the stand and defended Michael during the 2005 molestation trial. Bruce Swedien, Michael’s sound engineer for many years, said he does not know the Michael Jackson the media describes. Karen Faye, Dennis Tompkins and Michael Bush have said that in all the time they knew Michael they never saw anything to suspect him of being a pedophile and they all worked with Michael for over 25 years. (Dennis and Michael were MJ’s clothing designers.) Karen has shared that when the trial was going on, every morning, when she would meet up with Michael to get him prepared for the day, she and Michael would cry and pray together that the truth would come out. Barry Gibb of The BeeGees named one of his sons after Michael and named Michael as godfather to that son. Miko Brando (Marlon Brando’s son and one of Michael’s bodyguards for several years) made Michael godfather of his children. I hardly believe Barry and Miko would have done all that had they believed Michael was a pedophile. Also, Michael was close friends with Princess Diana who we all know was an advocate for children… just like Michael!

Some people believe that the abused abuse; not in all cases. Someone along the way can stop it. Here is Michael’s take on the subject: “I always said if I ever have kids I will never behave like this way. I won’t touch a hair on their heads. Because people always say the abused abuse and it is not true. It is not true. I am totally the opposite. The worst I do is I make them stand in the corner for a little bit and that’s it and that’s my time out for them.”(Quote taken from the book, The Michael Jackson Tapes)

“It all begins with forgiveness, because to heal the world, we first have to heal ourselves. And to heal the kids, we first have to heal the child within, each and every one of us.” ~ Michael Jackson (Quote is taken from Michael’s speech at Oxford University in England on March 21, 2001. It was a speech promoting his Heal The Kids Foundation: http://www.allmichaeljackson.com/speeches/oxforduni01.html)

With Michael being an abused child he could have very easily held anger in his heart, as oftentimes happens with abused children, and then could have carried those emotions into adulthood and abused his children, but instead of choosing that path, he chose to turn things around for the better good. Since he started his humanitarianism early in his life, perhaps he had actually forgiven his dad long before he thought he had.

On the flip side of that coin is Michael’s mother, Katherine, who he often referred to as a saint. She is a devout Jehovah Witness. She is soft-spoken and polite and all the children took those traits. She had to protect the children from Joseph so Michael developed a protective side to him as well and took children under his wing. Jordan’s parents were divorced and he only saw his dad every other weekend so it looks as if Michael tried to take the father’s place. Jordan might have also shared with Michael that his dad was abusive. After all it was because of Evan’s temper that he and June divorced. Since Michael always had a deep concern for children who were sick, he took Gavin under his wing since he had cancer and Michael wanted to help him heal. To help Gavin, Michael told him to imagine his cancer cells were Pac-Men and to imagine the monsters in Pac-Man gobbling up all the cancer cells. Gavin practiced that and there came a time when his doctor told him his cancer had gone into remission. Michael taught him it’s all about mind over matter.

In 1993 during a televised event, Michael received a Grammy Legend Award presented to him by his sister, Janet. During his acceptance speech, he talked about why he loved to be around children so much. He talked about their playfulness and that they only ask to be loved. He said the reason for inner city crime, large-scale wars, terrorism and overcrowded prisons is because children have had their childhood stolen from them. He revealed his compassion for sick children. His eyes even teared up as he talked about it. It was real heartfelt emotion. (The event is featured on Michael’s Dangerous DVD, cover photo below.) Now keep in mind that 1993 was also the year the Chandler allegation transpired. What was felt to be such a touching moment from Michael at the Grammys, months later became speculation as to what the real reason was he loved to be around children so much… and all over a malicious lie.

Michael Jackson wrote, “I spend a lot of free time – in California and when I’m traveling – visiting children’s hospitals. It makes me so happy to be able to brighten those kids’ day by just showing up and talking with them, listening to what they have to say and making them feel better. It’s so sad for children to have to get sick. More than anyone else, kids don’t deserve that. They often can’t even understand what’s wrong with them. It makes my heart twist. When I’m with them, I just want to hug them and make it all better for them. Sometimes sick children will visit me at home or in my hotel rooms on the road. A parent will get in touch with me and ask if their child can visit with me for a few minutes. Sometimes when I’m with them I feel like I understand better what my mother must have gone through with her polio. Life is too precious and too short not to reach out and touch the people we can.” (Quoted from his book, Moonwalk)

“Everything about Michael is truthful. And there is something in him that is so dear and childlike – not childish, but childlike – that we both have and identify with.” ~ Elizabeth Taylor (Quote is taken from the MJFC website.)

Michael having a childlike mind, heart and spirit is why he could relate to children and their needs. For proof of his childlike spirit, go to YouTube and bring up Michael Jackson Private Home Movies and you’ll see what I’m talking about. He loved to play pranks on people, even on the media, which is why he made up stories like wanting to buy the elephant man’s bones and sleep in a hyperbaric chamber! Unfortunately, those stories backfired on him because after that he was thought of as “Wacko Jacko.”

Please click on the YouTube link below if at this point you still think Michael was a pedophile. This is so adorable! He discovers a bug on the stage and is concerned about stepping on it. He even calls Security to remove it from the stage. He also insists that the security guy doesn’t kill it. When you watch it, you will see Michael’s true essence of sweetness and realize there is no way he was capable of child molestation when he cares so much about the welfare of a bug: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fng9N5OBg6s

My beautiful daughter said something to me once that really touched my heart and I want to share it. She told me God would not have given the kinds of gifts He gave to Michael, the strong desire to help children like he did and the ability to perform songs with such powerful messages as in We Are The World, Man In The Mirror, Cry, Heal The World, Black or White, Beat It and Earth Song, if he were a pedophile. Now isn’t that beautiful? And what a strong point to make! That’s my girl!

Regarding women and relationships, even though Michael would have liked to be in a relationship all along (next paragraph), I don’t believe that was his main priority in life. I believe God placed in his heart a much stronger desire to help children and to heal the planet, and that’s why Michael was a humanitarian to the degree that he was! Even up to the bitter end, in the This Is It concert series, his main theme was going to be about taking care of our planet for the future of our children! I truly believe God put him here to be our modern day angel! How else did he grow to have such strong love and compassion for children, especially for children who are suffering?

This is a quote from Michael from his book, Moonwalk, published in 1988, long before the first allegations in 1993 so he had nothing to prove at the time by writing this: “I believe in love – very much so – how can you not believe after you’ve experienced it? I believe in relationships. One day I know I’ll find the right woman and get married myself. I often look forward to having children; in fact, it would be nice to have a big family, since I come from such a large one myself. In my fantasy about having a large family, I imagine myself with 13 children.”

Here’s a 2009 statistic: 90% of sexual molestation accusations are false. (I got this information from the narrator off of the DVD, Michael Jackson: The Trial and Triumph of the King of Pop.)

Please keep this in mind: Not everything is black and white and there are always two sides to every story. Unfortunately, we never gave Michael much of a chance to tell his.

Now I want to discuss why Michael wore makeup. I tried to find out first through all the countless magazine articles that came out about him right after he passed away, but no luck, so I searched the internet trying to find websites that explained why, again no luck, no mention at all of his use of makeup. However, I did find one that helped me come to the realization that Michael had to wear it. He had vitiligo. The picture below comes from the link below revealing he had the disorder. The picture was taken during the making of his short film, They Don’t Care About Us. http://floacist.wordpress.com/2007/06/10/vitiligo-photos-michael-jackson/

The pictures below reveal the spider bite we heard so much about. The second picture also shows his vitiligo really well:

I also came across a YouTube video where Karen Faye explained Michael’s use of makeup and that it was used to hide the patches of vitiligo. Karen had mentioned that Michael told Oprah Winfrey he had the disorder in his live interview with her on the Oprah Winfrey Show in 1993, the first time he made it public, and he told Oprah that’s why he wore makeup. (I watched that show, but as the years passed I had forgotten about that part of it until I started my research and stumbled upon Karen’s YouTube video.) When Oprah aired a TV special about Michael on September 16, 2009, almost three months after he passed away, she talked about how translucent Michael’s skin was during the live interview with him in 1993. With his skin being translucent, together with the patches of vitiligo, he had to wear makeup. According to Randy Taraborrelli, at some point Michael began wearing what is called pancake makeup and that made him ghostly white so I can understand why he felt the need to wear makeup then as well. He had vitiligo on his lips too so he wore lipstick.

I can’t imagine Michael felt comfortable having to wear makeup, at least not initially. I know Karen said he stated he didn’t see why a man couldn’t wear makeup and I’m thinking if he did say that it’s likely because he had to wear it, he grew used to doing so and defended it by saying that. That makes sense to me. Anyway, he somehow pulled it off and looked amazing with it!

Vitiligo is also the reason Michael often wore long sleeve shirts, hats and sunglasses, and carried an umbrella. The disease can cause skin to blister easily under direct sunlight and those blisters can turn into skin cancer. Randy Taraborrelli wrote, “According to The Handbook of Nonprescription Drugs, as the sun’s ability to darken skin is much greater than that of Hydroquinone to lighten it, strict avoidance of sunlight is imperative. Although sunscreens may help, even visible light will cause some darkening. The preferable packaging of Hydroquinone is in small squeeze tubes. The dosage is a thin application of 2 percent concentration rubbed into affected areas twice daily. Once the desired benefit is achieved, Hydroquinone can be applied as often as needed to maintain depigmentation. Some have noted that Michael’s fingernails seemed brown and discolored on Martin Bashir’s 2003 documentary about him. One possible reason for this is that Hydroquinone stimulates pigment-producing cells in the nail plate, making them darker rather than lighter.”

So, contrary to popular belief, Michael was not trying to become a white man. He was very proud of his heritage! He also was not trying to look like a woman. He traveled the world many times and crowds of people would swarm around him, he performed in concerts on stages with extremely bright lights and cameramen filming him, also paparazzi constantly followed him around taking pictures of him so the fact that he wore makeup to conceal the splotches of vitiligo and used a bleaching cream to rush the process of vitiligo along makes total sense to me and if I were in his shoes, I would have done the same.

Michael also had lupus. In the picture above, he was not wearing blush. He had rosacea, which is a symptom of the disorder. It was around this time in his life that his dermatologist, Dr. Arnold Klein, diagnosed him with lupus. Can you see why Michael felt like he had to wear blush? It almost looks like he’s wearing it anyway.

When we saw Michael in a wheelchair now and then, it was because the lupus made him weak. I have a friend whose sister had lupus and she told me her sister would become extremely weak at times, to the point of either being bedridden or hospitalized because of it. The reason Michael wore masks is because with his weak immune system he was susceptible to germs and getting sick very easily. As we all know, sometimes he was around crowds of people at a time so he had to be very careful.

There is another reason for Michael’s need of umbrellas. Randy Taraborrelli wrote, “There are two variations of lupus: discoid, which is skin deep, and systemic, which can be deadly. As a part of the treatment for discoid, Michael’s doctor prescribed the skin lightening creams, Solaquin, Retin A and Benoquin. As a result, Michael was told that, more than ever, he had to avoid all sun exposure – which is one of the reasons he is often seen shielding himself with an umbrella on sunny days. Also, Michael had to endure direct injections into his scalp of Hydroxychloroquin – a steroid – in painful recurring treatments.”

Due to having lupus, Michael had hair loss, which included his eyelashes and was the reason he wore eyeliner and false eyelashes. It was during the BAD era that I first noticed the eyeliner. Also, he eventually lost his eyebrows and got tattooed eyebrows.

A lot of people do not realize Michael was almost completely bald and he wore wigs. His autopsy report says his hair was sparse and a wig was connected to his head, page 6. http://www.autopsyfiles.org/reports/Celebs/jackson,%20michael_report.pdf

Then there’s the Pepsi commercial in 1984 when Michael’s scalp received first, second and third-degree burns due to bad timing of pyrotechnics going off and catching his hair on fire. Of course he lost some hair then, but the lupus took care of most of the rest of it.

Now about Michael’s plastic surgeries, according to Randy Taraborrelli, Michael’s dad called him Big Nose as he was growing up and what’s worse, his dad would sometimes tell him he was ugly at the same time he was “disciplining” him. That may have become a psychological issue with Michael, making him think he was getting “disciplined” for being ugly. He even said he was constantly trying to make his dad love him, by perfecting his looks, as well as his performances. My heart goes out to Michael!

Due to Michael having a lot of plastic surgeries, it was rumored that his nose was falling off. Utterly ridiculous!! His autopsy report does not mention a detachable nose!!

In the DVD titled Michael Jackson: The Trial and Triumph of the King of Pop, a plastic surgeon is talking about Michael’s many plastic surgeries. He said, in Michael’s defense, his plastic surgeons would present the surgeries to him as touch-ups, that they were not surgeries, when in fact they were.

I want to touch on Michael’s pajama day in court. He was not trying to be disrespectful. He had hurt his back that morning and had gone to a hospital to get it seen about and was running late getting to court. When Mr. Mesereau told the judge what was going on with Michael, the judge told Mr. Mesereau he wanted Michael in that courtroom in 45 minutes or he was going to put him in jail or yank bail so Mr. Mesereau told Michael to get to the courtroom right away, even though Michael wanted to go home and change. Mr. Mesereau takes full responsibility for that.

A lot of people think Michael’s addiction to pain medications began after the Pepsi incident, but according to Michael Bush, Dennis Tompkins and Karen Faye, they say it started nine years after that event when Michael had just undergone one of the many surgeries on his scalp in order to help heal the scarring from the burn. He had not had time to heal from that surgery and was about to perform in front of 80,000 people in Bangkok for his Dangerous tour so it was then that he began taking the painkillers. It was also just before that performance that Michael heard he was being accused of child molestation here in the States so then there was not only physical pain that he dealt with, but emotional pain as well.

The link below reveals what Karen Faye shared in the AEG trial about the types of surgeries Michael underwent just before the Dangerous tour began. They were balloon treatments to stretch his scalp. They were very painful and left him with terrible migraine headaches! The pictures are graphic so beware: https://vindicatemj.wordpress.com/2013/05/18/aeg-jackson-trial-days-8-and-9-karen-fayes-sad-thriller-silenced-by-the-press/

With all of Michael’s emotional problems, which began since childhood with the abuse from his dad and then throughout life with the accusations, his medical problems, the burn to his scalp, his multiple plastic surgeries that included his scalp, balloon treatments and injections in the scalp, I can sympathize and understand his need for and eventual addiction to painkillers. I hope whoever reads this can understand as well.

The picture below was drawn by Michael himself and the words are lyrics to the chorus of his song, Have You Seen My Childhood?

Even though he went through all of the above-mentioned trials in his life, it’s amazing how he still gave us his all, making each and every tour bigger and better, for his fans, and went on to be known as the King of Pop.

Now I wish to share some of the wonderful things Michael Jackson did:

Michael gave money to multiple charities through the years from the proceeds of each and every concert he performed, including the History tour where he gave ALL of his proceeds to charities, and he is even mentioned in the Guinness Book of World Records for the performer who gave the most money to charities in history. http://www.allmichaeljackson.com/charities.html

Michael gave all of his settlement money he got from the burn to his scalp from the Pepsi ad to the burn ward at Brotman Medical Center where he was taken and they named the burn ward after him – The Michael Jackson Burn Center.

Even though Michael was suffering from burns to his scalp in the hospital, he would visit the other burn patients.

Michael gave concert tickets to underprivileged children by his stage.

In the 1990’s, Michael created the Heal The World Foundation to help children across the world with whatever needs they may have and also created the foundation in an attempt to heal the planet from the mess we’ve created.

Michael and Lisa Marie came across a little boy in a Hungary children’s hospital named Bela Farkas with a diseased liver and Bela would have died if a new liver was not found for him so Michael got his foundation to locate Bela a new liver. Michael also paid for Bela’s surgery and continued paying for Bela’s treatment for 10 years after his surgery. Bela is still alive to this day, despite his doctor’s belief that he would not live past the age of 18.

Michael became friends with a young man named Ryan White who was diagnosed with AIDS after receiving a blood transfusion, Michael purchased Ryan a red Ford Mustang, and when Ryan died Michael appeared at his funeral. Michael wrote and dedicated a song, Gone Too Soon, to Ryan.

Michael not only participated in the huge event of We Are The World, but also insisted on helping write the song with Lionel Richie, an anthem that raised over 63 million dollars for starving people in Ethiopia. By Michael’s participation in that, he ultimately fulfilled a long time promise he made to his mother when he was very young, with tears streaming down his face, that one day he was going to do something about the starvation that plagued parts of Africa when he watched an ad with his mom featuring that devastation. Ethiopia is a country in East Africa: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=32z8NhAwMN4

To this day, the proceeds from any We Are The World purchases – T-shirts, CDs, DVDs, etc. – go towards hunger in Africa.

(More than 6,000 radio stations of all music types played We Are The World at the exact same time, 10:15 a.m. Eastern Standard Time, on March 28, 1986! I remember that so vividly and thought it was the coolest thing ever!)

Extending from the We Are The World event the Hands Across America event took place in which approximately 6.5 million people held hands in a human chain for 15 minutes along a path across the continental United States. Participants paid $10.00 to reserve their place in line. From out of the Hands Across America event came Michael’s song and short film, Cry, in which he is pleading for everyone’s help in feeding the homeless in America because he realizes he can’t do it all by himself. It was a cry for help.

Michael helped children in war-torn countries deal with living in those areas through his Heal The World Foundation.

“We share his concern for the children who have been innocent victims of war and, who have suffered because of the horrors of war, many of whom are without families, food or homes. We applaud Michael for his sensitivity and efforts.” ~ BoyzIIMen (Quote taken from the MJFC website)

(The picture below is from a film clip during the making of Michael’s short film, Heal The World.)

After 9/11, Michael helped organize the United We Stand: What More Can I Give benefit concert at RFK Stadium in Washington, D.C., the concert taking place on October 21, 2001 with Michael performing ‘What More Can I Give’ as the finale.

Anytime Michael traveled he visited orphanages, spent a bit of time with each child and took them gifts. He told some children at one orphanage that if the conditions were not better there within 24 hours he would not get on stage to perform the next night and within 24 hours the conditions were better with additional staff, new beds, fresh sheets on the beds, etc.

Michael received the Bambi award in Berlin for his work with homeless children, those who were turning 18 and were about to venture out on their own, because he “gives them so much hope and courage, encouraging them to go forward in life.” When he received this award, he was referred to as an “ambassador of humanity.”

… and the list goes on and on and on. Here is just one of the many websites that share the rest of Michael’s humanitarian work: http://www.michaeljacksonslegacy.org/index.php/his-humanitarian-work

“I love to do things for children and I try to imitate Jesus. I’m not saying I am Jesus. I’m trying to imitate Jesus in the fact that he said to be like children, to love children, to be as pure as children are and to make yourself as innocent.”  ~ Michael Jackson on the Oprah Winfrey Show in 1993.

“I will never stop helping and loving people the way Jesus said to.” ~ Michael Jackson

‎”I hate to see suffering, I hate to see people in need and I feel God gave me a gift, and I have to use it responsibly by giving back and I’ll do it until I have pennies left or the good Lord calls me home.” ~ Michael Jackson

Do any of the above humanitarian acts describe a pedophile? NO! Humanitarianism is a show of “kindness and sympathy extended universally and impartially to all human beings.” THAT describes Michael Jackson to me!

Michael’s humanitarianism reached children on a global scale! He took on huge responsibilities by doing all he did, but he did them. He saw their needs and he worked hard to meet them. How is it that such sweet acts by such a kind and loving man be twisted into something so horrible? Why? Because the mainstream media never talks about Michael’s humanitarianism and instead fills our minds with constant stories of supposed child molestation! The proof of extortion on Dr. Evan Chandler’s part that took place with the recorded phone call between himself and David Schwartz that only few newscasts revealed then dropped is a great example of leaving out something positive for Michael that would have helped to support his innocence yet instead we heard the lies… over and over again like a broken record… to the point of so many people becoming brainwashed!

Martin Bashir is another example when he said, in the original, uncut version of Living With Michael Jackson, “Your relationship with your children is spectacular. It almost makes me weep when I see you with them because your interaction with them is so natural, so loving, so caring” yet when the edited version was watched all over the world Martin said, “Neverland is a dangerous place for children.” Michael and Martin were together in Berlin when the so-called “baby dangling” incident took place as part of the filming of Living With Michael Jackson, but Martin failed to share why Michael was in Berlin in the first place at that time in his edited version of the show and that was to receive the Bambi award that I mentioned before! Newscasts conveniently failed to share that tidbit of information too!

News stations compete for the highest ratings they can get, it’s a scramble to be at the top and, most unfortunately, it’s always at the expense of someone’s reputation! The media knows lying makes for a more interesting story and people are going to stay glued to their TV sets when drama arises! It makes me wonder who’s really at fault – the media or us. Let’s face it. Either way Michael never stood a fighting chance where the media is concerned. But, as you can see below, they are not always correct in their broadcasting:

This is a great time to mention the FBI files that revealed NOTHING against Michael through 13 years of investigations: https://vault.fbi.gov/Michael%20Jackson

Here are two quotes from Michael from his book, Moonwalk, where he gives God credit for his singing and dancing abilities:

“My mother knew her polio was not a curse but a test that God gave her to triumph over, and she instilled in me a love of Him that I will always have. She taught me that my talent for singing and dancing was as much God’s work as a beautiful sunset or a storm that left snow for children to play in.”

“I’ve always joked that I didn’t ask to sing and dance, but it’s true. When I open my mouth, music comes out. I’m honored that I have this ability. I thank God for it every day. I try to cultivate what He gave me. I feel I’m compelled to do what I do.”

On the Oprah Winfrey Show in 1993 Oprah asked Michael, “What do you want the world to know about you most?” He said, “To be a great artist. I love what I do and I would love people to love what I do and to be loved. I just simply want to be loved wherever I go, all over the world, because I love people of all races, from my heart, with true affection.”

“When Michael Jackson sings it is with the voice of angels, and when his feet move, you can see God dancing.” ~ Bob Geldof (Quote is taken from the MJFC website.)

“When God was giving out talent, He gave all of it to Michael Jackson.” ~ Babyface (Quote is taken from the MJFC website.)

“He’s incredible. He’s a genius. Just to be in the same room [with him], I felt everything I wanted to accomplish in life has been achieved… That aura… that’s incredible that aura is…” ~ Akon (Quote is taken from the MJFC website.)

Michael’s aura… I have read so many comments about his powerful aura and how when he walked into a room somehow the molecules changed and just to be in his presence was awe-inspiring! That has to come from God and Michael’s closeness to Him! There’s no other explanation for it: http://www.truemichaeljackson.com/his-aura-light-love-the-effect-he-had-on-others/

“I’m just so happy. It’s a dream come true. When MJ comes in the room to interact with us, his presence is just amazing. He’s pretty cool. I really like him a lot.” ~ Orianthi Panagaris, Michael’s lead guitarist, in This Is It

In the movie, This Is It, when Michael is telling his band that the beat has to be funkier and he can’t stress that enough, he says it in the kindest way and ends the statement saying, “It’s all for love.” He says that several times in the movie and the other times he ends the statement spelling the word “love” and spells the word in the air as if to further put it out in the cosmos: “It’s all for love, l.o.v.e.”

“Once every several centuries of mankind, God sends somebody special, a wake up call, somebody to enlighten the people the way to be, somebody to bring people together. I think Michael was a gift from God that He sent to show people how to be, how to love.” ~ Jonathan Moffett, Michael’s drummer, in the Memories of Michael portion of This Is It

“We need to bring love back into the world, to remind the world that love is important, love is important, and to love each other. We’re all one.” ~ Michael Jackson in This Is It

“No matter how hard sometimes the world came down on him, he only reacted back with more love.” ~ Kenny Ortega, Michael’s director and choreographer off and on since the late 1980’s, in the Memories of Michael portion of This Is It

“He was an angel walking the planet.” ~ Kenny Ortega in the Memories of Michael portion of This Is It

Michael was just the loveliest soul and I always left having had an experience with Michael where I felt that I came out the other side looking at the world differently, looking at myself differently.” ~ Kenny Ortega in the Memories of Michael portion of This Is It

Michael’s main desire was to make the world a better place, which was one of his anthems… “Heal the world, make it a better place, for you and for me and the entire human race. There are people dying, if you care enough for the living, make it a better place for you and for me.” The other anthem was… “I’m talking about the man in the mirror. I’m asking him to change his ways. And no message could have been any clearer. If you want to make the world a better place take a look at yourself and make that change.”

This rendition of Michael’s Man In The Mirror is so incredible and you can clearly see and feel God working through him in this performance! Every time I watch it I feel like I’ve just been in the best church service ever: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ul-g8rLpMvo

The Bible says we are to judge a tree by the fruit it bears. “Even so, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a bad tree bear good fruit.” ~ Matthew 7:17-18. Yes, Michael had an abusive dad, but he also had a very loving mother, she was his saving grace (as was God) and as I mentioned before Michael took her traits. His good fruit is the magnitude of his humanitarian work and now his children are performing humanitarian acts of kindness! “Every good tree bears good fruit.”

“Ever since I was born, Daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine. And I just wanted to say that I love him. So much.” ~ Paris Jackson, July 7, 2009, Michael’s Memorial

“He was a king, a king of hearts and a king of entertainers, a king of imagination, king of a father and king of a friend and really, you know, if I could have I would have crowned him myself.” ~ Kenny Ortega in the Memories of Michael portion of This Is It

Come on everyone. It is time to open your minds and your hearts where Michael is concerned. He was not a pedophile. He was not Wacko Jacko. He was not such a weird man after all.

Brenda McDonald

I dedicate this blog to Michael Jackson who loved the world and everyone in it, who gave of himself body and soul, not only in his music and dance, but also in love, kindness and compassion like no other entertainer before him, and continues to give even in death. ‘I wish I would have known you in this lifetime, Michael’til we meet in Heaven!’







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143 Responses to “Michael Jackson Wasn’t So Weird After All”

  1. Jan Says:

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us!
    Have you seen the articles about mj on http://www.charles-thomson.net. He is a great journalist who really does research properly and has done some great articles on mj. Also, I would recommend mary fischer article from GQ magazine and the mjeol 2 community page they have a video of tom mesereau who states he wanted jordan to take the stand in 2005 because he had witnesses to testify that Jordan had told them he had lied for his father. Please consider joining http://www.mjtruthnow.com.

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you, Jan, for your comment! You are the first to respond!

      Yes, I have read Charles’ writings on MJ! He and I have even written each other from time to time. You mentioning Charles reminded me I needed to send him my blog, which I did just a few moments ago. Thank you for that. Now I haven’t read his blogs on the FBI files yet, but I’m about to. I have also read Mary Fischer’s article. I haven’t checked on the other items you’ve mentioned though. I will.

  2. Michael's Latina Lover Says:

    Hey Girlfriend,
    I’m sure you know who this is, yes Michael’s Latina Lover~~
    You did a beautiful job writing this. My lover, Michael would be proud! I am truly blessed to have a friend like you.
    May I also add that Michael will be in our minds and hearts forever. Talent like that never leaves someone’s mind……or heart.
    To a sexy, loving, handsome gentleman, Michael Jackson…oh how I thank you for just being you! I love you for bring a smile to my face everytime I see a picture of you or any one of your sexy videos. I will never grow tired of my Michael.

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you, Gloria, for your sweet comment! I really worked hard on this project, giving every bit of it a lot of thought, and even asked God for his help from time to time on how to word things. I felt God had placed it on my heart to write a paper so I could not have left him out in the writing of it! No way!

  3. Maria corleone Says:

    Brenda,I want to cry ,with tears of JOY ,for this heartfelt honest ,article,They are FEW AND FAR between and much desired.Michael is a human being ,a man,a dad ,a son ,a brother a cousin an uncle.If we stopp and look at thim Not as an idol ,no never ,i KNOW HE WOULD NOT WANT THIS EITHER,but just as simply ,Michael ,a wonderful person,who loves to entertain people all over the world ,we will clearly see who he is!!If only the media had dug deeper,to see who he is.love to you Brenda and bellisimo,bravo,standing ovation,Leela

    • brenda Says:

      Maria thank you so much for your kind words! Michael was such a caring person with a huge heart and he did not deserve any of the crap he went through. I also feel badly that he had to deal with all his health issues and then deal with people making fun of him and not researching anything, just falling for whatever garbage the media wanted to throw out there, including me at one point in time, but no more. I love Michael Jackson dearly and I can tell you do too.

  4. jalitaspeaksout Says:

    wow, michael just had so much drama in his life.
    he’s at peace now. it really hurts sometimes when i think about it.
    great article !

    thankyou for commenting mine btw.

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you very much. Yeah he went through a lot, didn’t he? My heart aches for him. At least now he’s in heaven with our King and he’s well and healthy and no longer has to deal with all the garbage that is still being said about him.

  5. Janette Says:

    I love how you can tell how much love you have for this man…everyone judges the book by it’s cover. It is the human in us, and once the mind is set that is it…till it takes something bad to happen to them and/or they want to take the time to read up about them. Thanks for sharing this and your thoughts of everything. Love you girl!!! :0)

  6. Debby Says:

    Hi Brenda, I really love it when people get the truth out about MJ. I have a couple of comments. I have seen Michael’s home videos with Mac Culkin and his cousins pushing him in a pool, from the diving board and from the side of the pool. When his hair was wet you could see his entire hairline. He also got drenched in the making of “Stranger in Moscow” where you could see his entire hairline. I have worn wigs before when dressing up and there is no way it would stay on after doing all of that. Now maybe in the last couple of years, the comment about wigs maybe, I do not know. But you have to be careful with everything you read. Also you praised Randy Taraborelli’s book. Did you know that in his first book he admitted to fabrications in order to sensationalize? Since publishers would not publish a positive book about MJ, I do tend to question some writers. I understand that he was a good journalist and spent a lot of time with MJ in the early years and I am sure there is a lot of factual information, but why would a confidante fabricate for sensationalism? Aphrodite Jones had to self-publish because she could find no publishing company to help her get the truth out because it reflected pretty positively on Michael. I am just saying read things with caution when it comes with anything negative about Michael. I know I do.

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you Debby for your comment. First of all, you have to remember he suffered second and third-degree burns to his scalp from the Pepsi commercial 25 years ago. Hair is not going to grow back after those kinds of burns. I know that in the autopsy reports it is mentioned that MJ was bald or partly bald with a tattoo across his scalp from ear to ear. I believe that is in one of the links I provided for people to read. I tried my best to provide proof of what I was writing about, hence the reason for the links. I did not know about Randy Taraborrelli admitting sensationalism, but I’m going to leave what I have in my blog about him and his book. I thoroughly enjoyed reading it, and I’m proud of him for admitting that. That took some courage. I especially like his last paragraph in the book on page 713: “What can I say about the death of Michael Jackson, a guy I first met when he was just ten and a person I have interviewed and written about so many times over the years? It states the obvious to say that there was never any other person like Michael, and there’ll never be anyone to take his place. Yes, he had his demons. Like all of us, he had his flaws. The last fifteen years of his life, in particular, were so very challenging. However, I like to think he is at peace now. I’m not, though. Not now, anyway. And I know in my heart things will never be quite the same for me…not without Michael.” Now to me that is love, and Randy must have been feeling guilty about sensationalizing or he wouldn’t have admitted to doing so. Regarding Aphrodite’s book, I pretty much said the same thing you’re saying. I’m not going to change a thing about what I’ve said as I feel my blog was given to me by God and blessed by Him. I still appreciate your comment, though, and appreciate you reading my blog! Thank you.

  7. mjlover4life Says:

    Brenda, I just read the whole story and it was beautiful, but I just have to correct you on one thing Geraldine Hughes the author of Redemption was the legal secretary of the Chandler’s lawyer{the first accusers}everything else is right on point and thank you for posting this website, that’s what Michael needs more positive things written about him. thank you for this again I love it and I love you for posting it.
    Rest in Piece my angel we are going to halp clear your name I love you Michael Joseph Jackson forever.
    thank you again Brenda. I love it.

    • brenda Says:

      Wow. Thank you very, very much! I feel like I should take a bow or something! Well I stand corrected. I want to thank you for pointing that fact out to me regarding Geraldine Hughes. I researched it after I read your e-mail and you are absolutely correct. I am going to change it. After all, I do want to be right about everything….or else why write anything at all? Thank you again for your loving comments! I love you too.

  8. Paulie Says:

    Thanks for your wonderful post. Michael has many fans those you never left and those who are back again. We older fans remember him from the beginning, lost touch, and rediscovered him on Youtube, with dropped jaws. About a year before that fateful June 25th day, I had come across a remix vid of him dancing in various venues to the tune of Sexy Back…mesmerized, I stayed glued to Youtube for about an hour, saying Wow! Wow! I forgot! No wonder! I bookmarked it, to view it again and again. And then the horrible happened and it was no longer available. But 1,000s of Youtube vids again, purchases of all the books you mentioned, including Opus, the History tour and Dangerous tour DVDs, 1,000s of picture and Youtube downloads, I’m reliving the talent and genius of Michael Jackson. I have viewed TII 13 times in the theater and 1/2 dozen times more at home. It’s not too late and I’ve never abandon him again.

    • brenda Says:

      Oh Paulie, a person after my own heart. I felt so bad for having turned my back on him ya know? I really did, which is part of the reason I cried for two whole months. I still can’t hold back my tears from time to time. However, like you, realizing I had missed out on so much during the years, I decided to play catch up and have bought eight DVDs, seven of which are his performances, which includes This Is It, and one DVD about MJ called Michael Jackson: The One. Also, like you, I watched TII multiple times, not as often as you though. I saw it eight times, each time loving it more than the last! He still had IT!! I haven’t purchased the Opus although I would love to. It’s out of my price range right now. Also like you, I will never abandon him again! Thank you SO much for writing!! It seems we have a lot in common.

  9. mjlover4life Says:

    Brenda did you read the Uri Geller Hypnotized Michael yet? if not here it is,
    Psychic URI GELLER once interviewed MICHAEL JACKSON under hypnosis to find out whether the superstar was innocent of the child sex allegations which rocked the last few years of his life.
    Spoon-bending performer Geller – who was pals with Jackson throughout the 1990s – offered to put the pop superstar in a trance to help improve his eating habits.
    But Geller secretly used the opportunity to probe the star about Jordy Chandler – the boy Jackson was accused of molesting in the 1993.
    Chandler received a multi-million dollar out of court settlement from the star and Geller was determined to find out whether the pay-off was an admission of his friend’s guilt.
    He explains, “(Michael) said to me suddenly, ‘This mind power that you have – can you send it to me? Can I feel it? Is there some food I can eat – I don’t want to eat junk food – can you make me healthy?’
    “And I said to him, ‘Will you allow me to hypnotize you?’ and he said, ‘Yes! Wow! Can you really hypnotize me?’
    “So I put him into a trance and I confronted him under hypnosis – I asked him, ‘Michael, did you ever touch a child in an inappropriate manner?’ And Michael answered immediately, ‘No I would never do that.’
    “So I asked him, ‘Why did you pay off Jordy Chandler?’ and he said, ‘I had enough – I couldn’t take it any more.’
    “I pulled him out of the trance – he never knew this – but to me this was a private validation that this poor man is innocent.”
    Jackson was accused of child molestation again in 2003 in relation to 13-year-old Gavin Arvizo. He was cleared of all charges at his 2005 trial

    and I want to ask your permission if I can give your post to Face Book and/of My Space?
    I want to ask you before I do anything because I know that you answer all of the posts and it might be to much for you.
    if you didn’t read the Uri Geller yet here it is for you.

    • brenda Says:

      No, I didn’t know anything about that. Thanks for the info and sending the links! You might not be able to see them here, but I can see them in my personal mailbox. I will definitely check that out. You do have my permission to put my blog on your Facebook and My Space. I’ve been putting it on my own Facebook page, but the more people I reach the better!! Thank you for wanting to do that and thank you for showing me respect by asking me first!! I love that!!

  10. UnoU1it Says:

    Brenda, this is a well-written accounting of our angel’s precious life that touched on many important events and misconceptions about him. The day I heard “the news” I nearly collapsed. I lost weight, I couldn’t sleep, I was disoriented for weeks — I took it that hard. I am one month older than Michael and so I grew up listening to him and watching him excel at everything he tried. Throughout his career, I have gotten his posters, tshirts, books, trading cards, medallions, 8-tracks!, albums, VHS tapes, CDs, DVDs, banners, and even a 6-foot cutout. I have hundreds of magazines, and thousands of photos on various hard drives. Michael was there during important moments of my life and even affected me to the point that I made the decision to raise foster children in the 1990s — 28 of them. His music makes me smile, laugh, shiver, and cry. We will never see anyone like him again and it is still devastating to think he will never grace us with another interview. I will miss Michael forever, but I will never forget him.

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you!! I know what you mean. Right after he died I caught an offer on TV for two lithographs of him, which I purchased and have hanging on one wall along with one of his Billie Jean posters in the middle. Under those pictures I have a really nice setup of five magazines and five books I’ve collected. On another wall I have a This Is It movie poster with a placard from one of the theaters I saw it at, then under those items an MJ calender. That is right beside my desk. I have four T-shirts now and eight DVDs. Between you, Paulie (above) and myself, and most likely from all the other people who have written me, I believe it is safe to say we all have Michael Mania.

  11. UnoU1it Says:

    Brenda, I just saw mjlover4life’s post and I’d be happy to post your blog link on my FB and MySpace page as well. We need to keep positive information about Michael in the forefront of everyone’s minds. He deserves the best representation we can provide. It underscores the true fans’ feelings and might even bring over some of those with lingering doubts about the chaotic moments of his beautiful life. Let me know if it’s okay with you.

    • brenda Says:

      Yes, you do have my permission and thank you for asking me first as well! You guys are awesome for asking me first and for wanting to post it as well! I am really touched ya’ll!! (Sorry about the slang there. I am from Texas. hahaha)

  12. mjlover4life Says:

    Brenda, I don’t know if you have already seen this the Michael Jackson case and you wouldn’t believe why Sneddon wanted to get rid of Michael Jackson it’s on the Sneddon part I don’t want to give it away but I’ll post it on here for you it’s long but it’s more proof of Michael’s innocence. let me know after you read it it’s long but worth the read.

    P.S. after you read this let me know what you think o.k.

    • brenda Says:

      Okay. I will read it after work this evening and get back with you on it. Thanks a bunch!!

      Oh wow. I love that!! Thanks for sending it! I might just include that in my blog!

  13. mjlover4life Says:

    Brenda no problem you can add that in here that’s what I posted it for
    anything to clear Michael’s name and I’m always on the lookout for anything that will clear his name. go right ahead.

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you. I don’t know exactly where I will fit it in yet or when I will do it. I am mulling over it. Thank you very much for your help! You’ve been awesome! You are right, any way to spread the word is good. That’s why I have no problem with you posting my blog on your MySpace and FaceBook pages, you and UnoU1it, or anyone else who asks.

  14. mjlover4life Says:

    Brenda, when it comes to posting your blog on my Face Book I haven’t figured out how to put it on mine yet but when I figure it out I will. Do you cut and paste it on there? I’m kind of new at this cutting and pasting thing right now, but like I said when I figure it out I will.
    and your welcome anything for Michael’s vindication right?
    and I will help in anyway I can I had 2 of my friends post on here to Paulie and UnoU1it them two are my friends from another forum
    I’m trying to get more of my friends to post on here to.

    • brenda Says:

      You can copy and paste it. You take your mouse and drag it across the link without clicking on it then do Ctrl-C for copying, then go into FaceBook and do Ctrl-V and that will paste it. Yes, anything for vindicating Michael. Enough is enough. If nothing else, the media and ex-fans need to realize that Michael’s children might be reading the negative garbarge about their dad and consider how hurtful that has to be for them. Michael himself may not be affected anymore, but those children have got to be and so we all need to do our best to vindicate him. Thank you again, mjlover4life, for all your help and for sending your friends! The more the merrier girl!! And hey, I have seen your call name before. I’m thinking it’s in the Michael Jackson Tribute Portrait website. Is that one of the sites you’ve been writing in?

  15. mjlover4life Says:

    thanks for telling me how to copy and paste in on my face book and your right about his children, and yes I put my name everywhere on mjtruth now, on the m.j. dot, and everywhere I’m making it my mission to clear Michael’s name. for him and his 3 innocent children especially the two oldest that are old enough to read and go on the internet. I’m doing it for all of them don’t get me wrong but Blanket isn’t old enough to go on the net yet. and again thank you for telling me how to put it on my Face Book.and do you know of any other sites that I should put my name?I’ll be more than happy to put it anywhere.
    thanks again for your blog.and whatever else I find I’ll give it to you.

    • brenda Says:

      As far as children being seven years of age are concerned and knowing how to use a computer, computer usage is taught as early as kindergarten or first grade now and was taught then when my now 18-year-old daughter was that age. I have an eight-year-old great nephew who is a very bright boy and knows how to use the computer, probably a little better than I do, and can read and comprehend very well. I realize Michael’s children are home-schooled so Blanket hasn’t been taught computer usage in school. However, he probably watches his siblings use the computer and has probably picked up on their skills….if not theirs then someone else’s. Also, he has probably heard what Prince Michael and Paris have to say about what they read.

  16. mjlover4life Says:

    Brenda, yes I understand that children of today are smart but look at how Michael protected them children from the media I’m not saying that Blanket don’t know how to use the computer but I know how Michael sheltered them from the negativity and the only channel’s that were on all of his T.V.’s was Disney and Nickelodeon do you have the DVD the untold story of Neverland all of the T.V.’s were programed to them two channels, and I don’t know what they are doing at Katherine house I don’t know what they are watching or doing on the computer,and I pray to God that they don’t read any negativity online, or anywhere else.

    • brenda Says:

      Absolutely. That is my prayer too, but if they are reading the garbage, thank God there are those of us who are willing to stick our necks out against those who are so stubborn and so willing to believe the worst. We must keep pushing for Michael!! I mentioned the children earlier stating that if nothing else we must do it for them, but Michael is the real reason I wrote my blog because, like I said, I am really tired of the trash talk. Thank you for your love for Michael and for your support. If I see you on the MJ Tribute Portrait site I will holler out to you. I go under bmcdonald. When I got on there way back when, I was not much in the way of neat call names so that’s what I have.

  17. mjlover4life Says:

    Brenda I read your post again and realized that you didn’t know if Redemption was for sale, yes it is you can get it on Amazon.com for $20.00. I don’t know if you could buy from Amazon,
    sorry my computer is acting up I can’t give you the link but look on Amazon.com. I just thought I’d let you know that Amazon.com has it I have it and read it it was a good book.

    • brenda Says:

      Okay great; thanks! I had been to Barnes & Noble, and Borders, and they both told me it was out of print and I would have to order it used. I just haven’t had time to try to locate it. I appreciate the info!

  18. mjlover4life Says:

    no problem from one lover to another of Michael Jackson

  19. mjlover4life Says:

    Brenda we have a forum for Prince 1s, birthday where I am and I havea nephew Angel who will also be 13 on the 13th. they were both born on the same day and they will both be 13,tomorrow, I don’t know about the same time but they were both born on the same day and same year.

    • brenda Says:

      Oh that is fantastic!! Well tell Angel Happy Birthday and give him a hug from me! Prince Michael came from an angel, Michael, and Angel’s birthday is the same day as Prince’s! How cool is that?!? I’m glad you shared that with me!

  20. mjlover4life Says:

    do you want to hear something else, I have a sister Donna and her birthday is on Paris’ birthday April 3, and my oldest son Joey and Blanket have the same birthday February 21.isn’t that strange I think I was meant to love Michael, that’s to much of a coincidence. and I love Michael.

  21. Geraldine Hughes Says:

    Thank you for writing this blog and mentioning Redemption: The Truth Behind the Michael Jackson Child Molestation Allegation (2004) book that proves Michael Jackson was NEVER a child molester. I worked for Evan Chandler’s attorney in 1993 and witnessed the extortion plot, launched as child molestation only when Michael Jackson refused to pay them $20 million dollars for a movie deal. In loving memory of Michael Jackson, his family and children, I am determined to clear Michael Jackson’s name. Thank you for the wonderful work you are doing as well. Redemption is available on Amazon.com. I encourage you to get a copy and find out how the FALSE child molestation allegations all began.

    • brenda Says:

      Geraldine…..Thank you SO much for taking the time to read and comment on my blog!! I know you are a busy woman in trying to vindicate MJ…..and doing whatever else you do in life on top of that! I’m happy beyond measure that you enjoyed my blog and I can’t wait to receive my autographed copy of your book like we discussed on Facebook!! I would much rather get it through you instead of Amazon so that I can get your autograph! As soon as I read it, I will write an addendum to this blog to share more information about your book and the plot! Thanks again my new-found friend!

  22. Tulika Says:

    It was lovely reading it 🙂 I knew ewerything already but seeing it put together comes out as very strong.. I’ll post your link on my page 🙂 I want the trash talk to STOP!

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you Tulika. Yeah I want the trash talk to stop as well. I am so fed up with it. Thank you for posting my blog on your page!! The more people it reaches the better. So far I’ve only had one person tell me my blog revealed things to them they had no clue about. This is a friend I work with. She didn’t write that in my Comments section here. She wrote me a personal e-mail through work. I want to change a bunch more people’s minds, though, so as many people as it can reach the better!! Thanks again!!

  23. RG Huffman Says:

    Thank you so much for your search for the truth pertaining to Michael’s life, the pain and suffering that he endured from his childhood on. He was surely sent into this world with a mission and a God given purpose that he put forth every bit of gifted talent he could produce. We do, as his fans and people that were blessed by his talent, his humanitarisim, and his great compassion owe him the redeeming grace of leaving the world with his true legacy. The legacy that he fought so hard to leave the world and his precious children. The legacy of L.O.V.E.<3 Thank you so much for your efforts and I would like to leave you with the link to my blog as well. Let's do what we can to right so many wrongs done to a most beautiful spirit of a wonderful, loving and gifted man.
    God Bless

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you so much for your nice comment! Michael had such a loving and kind soul and carried so much on his shoulders, never asking for anything in return except for love. That’s all. And the world turned on him. I totally agree with you that so many wrongs need to be made right. I will read your blog! Thanks for sharing it! Thanks for reading mine, taking the time to comment and for your support. May God bless you as well.

      I just read your blog and wow!! I am really impressed! That first picture you have of Jesus hugging MJ was the background on my computer for a very long time! I just recently changed it to another picture of MJ, but I do have the one of Jesus and MJ hugging saved so that I can always go back and put it up again! Thanks again for your blog! Again, wow!!

  24. Darlene Says:

    Hi Brenda I am in the process of reading The Magic, The Madness, The Whole Story: Michael Jackson written by J. Randy Taraborrelli. at the moment. I find that everything you are mentioning in your blog to be so true. Its like everything you have been talking about in your blog has been floating around in my head for a very long time. I just didnt know how to process it at the time though. I share Michaels birthday 29/8/ he was born 1958 and i was born 1961. Some of the first songs I remember is Ben, ABC. I was so blown away by him I just couldnt believe his angelic voice. He was so cute back then and turned in to a very hot sexy man. His dancing was just like so amazing. Us virgos pretty much bend over backwards to help people and its like we attract the leeches that suck us dry both financially and emotionally. We feel that no matter what we do it is never good enough and often told the same. Unfortunately I had a mother that was like Michaels father. I still cry for Michael for a lot of reasons, I cant believe how the world has treated such a very special person. Shame on the world. Its ashame that we couldn’t fix things for him while he was alive. But whatever his fans manage to accomplish will certainly put things right for his children and future generations. I always have loved Michael and will always love him.
    Your blog was fantastic to read thankyou so much.

    Not sure if your aware Brenda REDEMPTION is available on Amazon.com from the author Geraldine Hughes. I am waiting on my copy now.

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you Darlene! I love Randy’s book, very informative….a lot to read, I know, but it’s worth it! Sometimes it will seem like he’s being mean about Michael, but don’t get angry and stop reading it. What he says is leading up to a point. There were a lot of times I would think, “What? How could he call himself Mike’s friend and then write that?” Just stick to reading it and you’ll see what I mean.

      I love your comment about my blog being so true. I tried very hard to stick with the facts and then decided to provide links to back up what I was saying. People can say they have read this and they have read that somewhere, but I thought it important to back my thoughts up with facts. Thanks for acknowledging that!! Michael had dealt with too much hearsay in his life, lies and false accusations as we all know, so when I was writing this I decided it had to be factual. I’m so very happy that shows! I don’t even like how at the end of the Tribute message I talk about how I read about the Tribute Portrait being taken from major city to major city and being hung in a museum because I failed to find the story on that so I can provide the link to it. I probably read it off the Tribute Portrait website itself and it’s constantly changing so I don’t know if I could even find that any longer.

      You’re right about his children. I just wish people would stop and realize that what they continue to say about Michael is affecting those children and it’s not good…not good at all! Are those children going to have to go through the remainder of their lives defending their dad on nothing but false accusations??? My heart really goes out to them!

      As far as Geraldine’s book goes, I have purchased it!! I even got an autographed copy from Geraldine herself! In case you might not know, she is on Facebook. If you have a Facebook account, look her up! It was through Facebook that I ordered the autographed copy of her book! Every once in a while she will get on and give us MJ fans information that the rest of the world doesn’t know yet pertaining to Michael. She is still fighting the fight for MJ to this day, being very proactive out there in California fighting for justice for Michael, trying to make sure Conrad Murray gets tried for murder. I love Geraldine!!

      Thank you again for your very nice comment! God bless you!

  25. Aida Says:

    Brenda, thank you very much for this great article. I’m sure Michael is proud of you. Articles and comments such these make Michael happy. Thank you again. I’m happy when Michael’s happy.
    God bless you!

  26. Claudia Viviana Castro Says:

    All i can say is THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH !!!! GOD BLESS YOU !!! I love MJ more than any person in the world.. and i love people who stand for him. You have a true friend here if you need one !!!!

    • brenda Says:

      You are very, very welcome and I love MJ too! After all, who can resist?!? Even those who say they don’t like him are still mesmerized by him or they wouldn’t keep up with their constant negative comments. No one can convince me otherwise. God bless you too, Claudia, and I will keep in mind what you said about the friendship thing!

  27. hattie Says:

    that was good. i love mj. we all love mj. he will never b forgotten. i heard a something the other day. YOUR FINGERPRINTS NEVER LEAVE THE ONE YOU TOUCH. michael jackson touched the whole world. his finger prints are every where. in music, dance, video, even in the way people do movies. he was great. u cant go anywhere he hasnt touched in one way or other

  28. Andrew (MJsoldestfan) Says:

    Thanks for the great article, Brenda. You’ve given a lot of people hope that the Truth Will Prevail!!! Michael is sadly and greatly missed by me. I’m only 4 months older than Michael. I always knew he was innocent of the charges as he was so innocent and childlike. He wouldnt hurt a fly, literally. All of us who loved Michael will always have his back and it is time for the slanderous Media to do right by him. I know it wont happen however as Michael has always stated, and I quote “In a world filled with hate, we must still dare to hope. In a world filled with anger, we must still dare to comfort. In a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream. And in a world filled with distrust, we must still dare to believe.” These are the words I stand by daily.

    Thanks again and remember It’s All For Love……L.O.V.E !!!

    • brenda Says:

      You’re welcome Andrew and thank you so much for your kind words! I think if I would have stayed in touch with Michael’s career and had known about his humanitarian efforts in the first place, it wouldn’t have been so easy for me to turn my back on Michael like I had. I still feel so guilty about that and I’m trying to work through it. I was telling my daughter earlier today that everything happens for a reason, though, and if I had not turned my back on him and then rediscovered him like I did after his death in doing all the research I did, there is a high possibility this blog wouldn’t have been written. In looking like at it like that, it makes me feel a little better about myself. I’ll tell you what, I’ll never turn my back on him again, that’s for sure. And…you’re right…it’s all for love…L.O.V.E.

  29. Patricia Combs Says:

    Hello Brenda. This is the first time I have seen your blog. You have touched on almost all the contraversies of Michaels life. Yes, I remember American Bandstand, etc. I am one of the “older” ones that grew up watching Michael. He was born in August 1958, I was born 1957. I wanted to marry him when I was young. I fell in love with that cute boy back then. As I grew up and matured, my love grew, but also did my appreciation and awe of what a talent God had given him (and us).
    Michael truly touched all of us. He definetely touched my heart. When he passed, I was so devostated, and still am.
    The man was so tortured by his fame, it makes me cry. The talent, the humanitarian efforts, the love he brought to all of us and how much he cared for the world – is nothing short of angelic!
    I do not do well in putting my feelings in writing, but since he has gone, I find myself creating poems – just feelings are pouring out of me.
    God Bless you for the words.
    I will miss Michael forever! He was our gift from God!

    • brenda Says:

      Patricia…I know exactly what you mean. I never knew I had the ability to write like this either. The words just seemed to flow from me. Don’t get me wrong. There was a rough draft and then there were corrections, and from time to time I will still think of something else important that needs to be brought to light and I’ll get back into my blog and add that thought. So…I know I haven’t said this before, but I actually suggest people check back now and then to see if I’ve added anything else.

      Like you, I feel God and Michael go hand and hand. Michael was definitely a man after God’s own heart. What an amazing person! Like you, I was very devastated over our loss of Michael and like I say in my blog I could not stop crying for two solid months…even though I had not been a fan. I still lose self control once in a while over him being gone, but I am stronger. After all my research had taken place, I felt God was moving through me to write a blog, but I knew nothing about how to set one up. Had absolutely no clue. I then decided to just go ahead and write my thoughts, if nothing else just for therapeutic purposes to help me get through it and to keep my thoughts on “paper” so to speak. I was just going to keep it on my desktop and get back in it from time to time when I would start to feel down again and to even add things if need be, but then as I was typing it I started feeling like I should get all this out there to the world…I needed to share it! I then remembered my daughter had taken a short course on web design so she assisted me with it. I thank God for her and that short course she took! What a blessing she has been…first that beautiful comment she made that I included in this blog and then that course! God works in mysterious ways!

  30. Patricia Combs Says:

    God does work in mysterious ways! You have been able to put your feelings and thoughts down so well. I am trying to do that myself. However, my feelings, my love and my sorrow are in my heart.
    I have always been a Michael fan. Even when they were the Jackson 5 —- it was always Michael.
    Besides all the wonderful things he has brought to us and the world, something else I credit him with is the fact that I did not grow up racist. My parents were old fashioned and pretty racist (remember, this was the late 50’s and 60’s). Like I said previously, I grew up loving a black kid when I was so little. My parents did not forbid me to watch or listen to him, but they were not crazy about him/them. I do not think Michael has been credited enough with how he broke through that barrior of racism. He enabled millions of us to grow up with open minds, loving everyone. Also because of this, a new generation came to be. My children do not have a racist bone in their bodies….. I do credit that to Michael.
    I am so glad you can put your thoughts and feelings into this blog and it does help me reading it and responding to it. It brings us all together to work through our times of sorrow. We are united as one and hopefully we all can expand this and bring love and understanding to the rest of the world we touch.
    Michael touched us, now it is up to us to touch others.
    God Bless You and keep you well!

    • brenda Says:

      You are absolutely right. You know, I know we all miss him terribly (uh-oh here comes some tears) and I am so VERY, VERY angry at Conrad Murray right now (I refuse to call him Dr.), but with Michael’s passing came this new desire from all of us MJ fans (even those of us who were, then weren’t but are back) to want to help others, be kinder to people of all races, color, creed, nationality, etc. His death has also brought people together from all across the world in so many ways. It’s HORRIBLE that he’s gone from us, but look at what has happened because of it. In light of that, MJ will always be with us…in our hearts…in our minds…and we will forever be better people because of his passing. I have to look at it like that or I’ll go crazy. (Here come more tears.) Patricia…thank you so much for your comments. Stay in touch with me from time to time. Any of you who have written me, write me back from time to time if you’d like. Also, I’m on Facebook and if any of you are look me up!! To those of you who haven’t written me, you can look me up on Facebook too. I don’t want to exclude any of you!!

  31. Patricia Combs Says:

    Thank you. I will look you up on facebook. What are you listed under?

    • brenda Says:

      Just my first and last names, Brenda McDonald. You can’t miss me. I’m wearing a Fedora with a Michael Jackson T-shirt on and I’m with two of my nieces on either side of me, both dressed like MJ. We were celebrating my 50th birthday with an MJ theme. Thanks! I’ll look forward to “meeting” you on Facebook!

  32. Patricia Combs Says:

    That is why I truly believe that God had his plan for Michael. He has brought all of us together.
    What are you listed under in Facebook. I will add you as a friend.

  33. TherrieAnne Says:

    just checking in! Do you have a new blog posting for today? If so send me the link because i have huge internet connection problems and might not get to see it on this pc!

    XO, T

  34. Malaika Says:

    Thank you. Simply thank you.

  35. MiJacDK Says:

    Hi Brenda,

    I’ve just finished reading your blog that I found purely by coincidence. I’d love to post it on my Facebook profile too and enable other danish fans to get the whole picture.

    Like you I am determined to vindicate Michael.

    I’ve been a fan of Michael for 28 years, he’s influenced my life in such a profound and positive way, that I have now dedicated my Facebook profile almost entirely to him, I keep reaching out to other fans around the world, I’m active on the Tribute Portrait site as well and I’m always on the look out for new uploads on you tube.
    Michael WAS innocent and it’s time the media realizes this!


    I’ve reached out to the biggest tabloid magazine in Denmark, daring them to follow the upcoming Justice4Michael event on Twitter. Link above.
    I’ve aked them in a nice but firm way, to please write about the event, but in a truthful and kind way, without any untrue trivia and namecalling. “If you can’t abide by that request and help vindicate Michael, don’t even bother to write anything!”

    May I post your blog on my Facebook profile and perhaps on The Tribute Portrait as well?

    • brenda Says:

      Of course you can post my blog on your Facebook profile and on The Tribute Portrait site as well, and thank you SO much for wanting to do so! Thank you for asking my permission as well. I’m proud of you for writing to that tabloid magazine! What a great idea and I must say took a lot of courage! Good for you! You’re more than welcome to look me up on Facebook too. I just go by my first and last name, nothing fancy. Oh you know what? I keep having trouble getting my blog linked to Twitter and I don’t know. If you don’t mind, would you please post it on Twitter for me as well until I find out what the problem is? I would really appreciate that. I’m also on Twitter under mjkeeponshining. You can look me up on it as well. As a matter of fact, you will be my first Twitter friend.

  36. kiara nixon Says:

    This is sooo wonderful!
    I believe every single word said in this blog. To all the haters: If this doesnt clear his name up for you, then clearly you are ignorant and dont know a miracle when you see one.

    I love you michael

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you so much Kiara! I keep hoping one day someone, several people preferably, will write me and tell me that I have totally changed their minds about Michael. That is the purpose for this blog after all. I’m so glad you enjoyed it! I love your first name – beautiful!

    • kiara nixon Says:

      so do i! i wish people would change their minds too 😦 they are missing out on so much.

      and thankyou, its an irish name and means small and dark. 🙂

      • brenda Says:

        Yes they are, Kiara. They are missing out on a whole lot of things going on for Michael right now…and missing out on us MJ fans sharing a lot of love between us…even across thousands of miles and across oceans…just like Michael wanted people to do all along!! Remarkable isn’t it???

      • Kiara Nixon Says:

        Sorry it took me so long to reply Brenda!

        They are missing out on so much! Like the ‘Hope Chest’, the sunflowers at Forest Lawn, and the list goes on! What other fan bases around the world has this much unconditional love, admiration and devotion? Exactly!
        Your blog is amazing, i love it very much! Theres so much truth in it, and surely if the ‘haters’ read it they would think again, i hope.

        Lots of L.O.V.E,

      • brenda Says:

        Thanks sweetie! That is my hope – that this blog will help people see Michael in a different way. He so deserves to be recognized for the true man he really was.

  37. Wanda Speener Says:

    I loved it,It Was a great read.I cried the entire time I was reading what you arote.I wish that more people woud take the time to read this.I never wavered from believeing in Michael,I always knew he was innocent.I loved him from the moment he came out with Off The Wall and I Love him so much now.I miss him everday and every moment.I have not been able to watch his This Is it Because everytime I even see his face or hear him sing I break down and cry.Watching This Is It is to final for me.It still feels like a nightmare everyday,I’m hoping one day I will wake and it will be a hoax or that it never happened.My Heart is severely broken.I know he is in a better place where he can’t hurt anymore but it makes me sad to know that he couldn’t have a normal life and couldn’t sleep or eat half the time because of the media and evil people.I am a dot already and very proud to be a part of something for him.He was an Angel here on earth guiding us and giving us hope and God has finally taken him home.I know The Good Lord is proud of him,Because I know that all of us who love him are proud of him everyday and thankful we had him when we did.

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you Wanda! Now you’ve made me cry. I am going to write more on this, but unfortunately it’s time for me to start working. I will come back and write more to you as soon as I can.

      I’m still going to write more to you Wanda! Please be patient with me! Look for more from me sometime between 12:30 and 1:00 today.

      Okay Wanda, here goes. I’m so sorry I had to keep putting you off. I understand you not being able to watch This Is It yet. I myself watched it eight times on the big screen plus more since I’ve purchased it, but we each have our own way of dealing with his passing. I still miss him a lot too, some days are better than others. The thing that maintains me is knowing that he is in Heaven and he is no longer ill, no more vitiligo, no more lupus and he’s getting all the rest and peace he could EVER hope for. The media cannot bring him down any longer. However, his children are still here and they must be affected by all the negativity and so we must do all we can to help clear his name…..and we are! You want to know what I really wish? I wish all of us MJ fans could somehow come together in one huge place and just show each other some MJ love. Unfortunately, oceans do separate a lot of us. I guess that day will have to wait until we all make it to Heaven…not that I’m rushing that or anything…but can you imagine???

  38. Lucy Says:

    Thank you so much for sharing this wonderful thought of yours. I wish people all over the world could read this. I’ve been a fan of Michael for 40 years and will be his fan for the rest of my life. I will never forget him. Until now, I’m still grieving for his sudden death.

    Can I copy your blog? Can I post it in my facebook profile. I want to spread this..Can I?…Thank you so much.


    • brenda Says:

      I know what you mean Lucy. I’m still grieving myself. Yes, you may post my blog on your Facebook profile! I would be honored if you would! Thank you so much for offering to do so and thank you for reading my blog! I’m so glad you liked it!

  39. MiJacDK Says:

    ok, uhhhm I’ve posted your blog and I’d LOVE to have you as my friend on Facebook, but there are SO many Brendas LOL….what is your last name?

    As of yet I don’t have an account on twitter, but I’m making one expecially for the justice4michael event and I’ll reach out to you there as soon as I figure out how :o)

    Thank you for your kind words regarding the danish tabloid magazine. We can only hope they listen or at least follow the event and take notice. Often times whenever fans are interviewed the media makes sure to reach out to people, that are kind of crazy. People who have no life besides Michael, people who’ve changed their ovn appearance with surgeri to look like him, so they can ridicule the fans and make us all look like weird people in the eyes of the non-fans. That is SO sad, but so predictable too, because they distorted the truth about Michael so naturally they’ll distort the general image of us, his fans and believers too…..

    • brenda Says:

      Ooohhh okay. I assumed you were on Twitter. So sorry for the assumption there. I do know what you mean about the tabloid magazines, I sure do. Bless your heart for trying and who knows what good will come of it?!? God bless you!

      OH, I go by Brenda McDonald on Facebook…nothing fancy. lol

  40. MiJacDK Says:

    Why thank you and God bless :o) I’m looking you up on Facebook, see you soon I hope

  41. Suvie Says:

    Hi Brenda,
    I read your blog entry with gr8 joy! Thank you. I have begun to love MJ afer his death…I had known nothing about him except the tabloid junk…his death for some reason coaxed me to find out the most famous man my-self.

    And boy at the end of my 8 month old journey scraping the media dirt off Michael Jackson, I found a real gem…a gem like no other!

    Have you read “Dancing the Dreams” by Michael jackson himself, asking since you have not quoted it here? It is the most wonderful insight into the man Michael was…please do if you haven’t. Also would recommend, http://www.innermichael.com…its wonderful!

    PS: As far the MJ biography by T. that you have praised, I have seen its review on Amazon n fans don’t like it…would you want to read the 1 star rating to find out yourself why they consider it authentic. Please don’t take it otherwise…its all for L.O.V.E.

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you Suvie! No, I haven’t read Dancing the Dreams but I will. I honestly didn’t know anything about it. I will locate and read the link you mentioned as well. You’re not upsetting me about not suggesting Randy’s book. Not at all. However, I have made my own decision to like it. I know there are times when it seems like Randy is dogging Michael (sometimes I would want to quit reading the book myself for that very reason), but if people can just make themselves continue to read on, they will find that he is leading up to a point. Most of the time when it seems Randy is dogging Michael, it is Randy trying to say how easy it would have been for the public to think the way they had thought at the moment. But if the reader will just push on, they will find Randy goes into explanation as to why those things couldn’t be true. It’s just like reading the Bible. You can’t just take one scripture out of the Bible for it to have true meaning. You must read the other scriptures surrounding it as well. Please keep in mind, too, that I feel my blog is God inspired and God placed it on my heart to mention Randy’s book. Even though there are some things that seem detrimental to Michael’s character from Randy’s book, he still made some very good points about Michael, points I haven’t found from anywhere else, and since I wanted and needed to back up what I was saying with links and quotes, I used Randy’s book in a lot of cases for that purpose. Randy also wrote a very moving last paragraph in the newest part of the book after Michael passed away. When I read it, I realized just how truly Randy loves Michael. It made me cry. I’ve quoted it already for someone else, but I’m going to quote it here again so you won’t have to go searching for it: “What can I say about the death of Michael Jackson, a guy I first met when he was just ten and a person I have interviewed and written about so many times over the past years? It states the obvious to say that there was never any other person like Michael, and there’ll never be anyone to take his place. Yes, he had his demons. Like all of us, he had his flaws. The last fifteen years of his life, in particular, were so very challenging. However, I like to think he is at peace now. I’m not, though. Not now, anyway. And I know in my heart things will never quite be the same for me…not without Michael.” Now that is a very beautiful statement!!

  42. Salma Says:

    Nice .. but you didn’t mention the fact that he only had three plastic surgeries and all were for his nose. the first was when he broke his nose but it didnt affect the size alot, but then the second was because he had trouble breathing at night because of his first surgery. And the third because the second one didn’t make his nose look good enough.
    “Everything about Michael is truthful. And there is something in him that is so dear and childlike – not childish, but childlike – that we both have and identify with.” I love this quote. ❤

    "Michael’s childlike mind, heart and spirit is another point in fact that he wouldn’t have been a pedophile. When you get a chance, go to YouTube and bring up Michael Jackson Private Home Movies and you’ll see exactly what I’m talking about. Another way of looking at it is, Michael’s childlike mind, heart and spirit is why he continued to have such love and compassion for children…always."
    And it's true, michael was the most charming in a childlike way, and he said once "Before I would hurt a child, I would slit my wrists."

    Michael is a generous, honest, and sensitive human being, filled with amazing insight and the capacity for love. If this is weird, I want to go live on another planet.” This is what everybody should say.

    And this is Michael's Most beautiful quote: "If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with."

    visit this website : http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/authors/m/michael_jackson.html
    it has all his our beloved one's quotes

    Foever michael, Forever you will stay in out hearts <3<3

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you for your comment, but I have to tell you that when Michael had written his book in 1988 he had had only three plastic surgeries, but after the book was written he had more. If you ever get a chance, watch Michael Jackson: The Trial and Triumph of the King of Pop and there’s a plastic surgeon on there that talks about how Michael did have multiple plastic surgeries, but that in Michael’s defense some doctors would tell him, “We need to fix this and we need to fix that, but it’s not really plastic surgery, it’s just a touch-up” when it really is…but that’s how the doctors would present it to him to sell him on the idea. Also, there is an article from one of Michael’s closest friends, David Gest, who talks about Michael having a fetish for plastic surgery and that oftentimes they would go together to have their faces worked on. Once again, that was most likely because of doctors telling Michael touch-ups needed done. There are several other articles on it, just do some research. Trust me, my research was extensive. It’s okay that Michael had many plastic surgeries. He couldn’t help it. He was never satisfied with his looks and a lot of that is because of the teasing he got as a child from his dad and brothers and that’s why I made sure I mentioned that in my blog. Besides, it was Michael’s face Michael could do whatever he wanted to with it.

      That quote that you gave me from Michael about entering this world knowing you are loved, I have that on a lithograph of Michael I have hanging on my bedroom wall.

  43. Susan Brookes Says:

    Hi Brenda, You have worked amazingly hard with this wonderful informative blog!! I have like yourself read all the aforementioned books and many more besides. MICHAEL JACKSON The King of Pop,s Darkest Hour by Lisa D. Campbell is an excellent read. Michael was very impressed with the book and the accuracy of her work. Another book by Shawn Henning called MICHAEL JACKSON The Book the Media Doesn’t want you to read is an inspiring read. Michael touched the lives of millions – he was a musical Genius, a Dreamer and a Visionary. The Greatest Entertainer in the World and one of the most sensitive human beings that ever was. Never after Ego Gratification but Public Awareness – he Enhanced ALL our lives.Through ALL his Trials and Tribulations he stood for TRUTH. He prevailed through his darkest hours and emerged STRONGER but still innocent, Childlike and Trusting. Still Loving and Benevolent. He Transcended EVERY Barrier. Utterly misunderstood and misrepresented with a limitless compassion for children and humanitarian issues. How can anyone who GAVE so much be the subject of so much HATE? Betrayed, Persecuted, Hurt,and Humiliated by the World Media their hatred of Michael often reached levels where ALL Journalistic integrity was lost. STORIES not FACTS that had NO SUBSTANTIATION or TRUTH written to create FRENZY or to DESTROY him. His motives were twisted and his sincerity questioned. Why was a person who GENUINELY cared constantly derided?? Only now after his death is he getting the love and respect he deserved while alive. He was a PURE, TIMELESS POP GENIUS. He had a beautiful heart, enormous talent and was an extraordinary human being. His spirit continues to unite us ALL ACROSS THE WORLD. He maintains the RESPECT and ADMIRATION of millions of Fans Worldwide including a new generation. He continues to reign as the UNDISPUTED KING OF POP. Michael – You will be FOREVER in my heart. We WILL make that Change.

    • brenda Says:

      Thanks Susan. I have worked extremely hard on this blog and I’m very happy it shows. Thanks for mentioning those other books to me. One I knew about, the other one I didn’t – Michael Jackson, the King of Pop’s Darkest Hour. I will purchase those as soon as I can. Yes, Michael was a sweet, truly wonderful, sensitive, caring, extremely generous person and it’s horrible the way he was treated and is still treated, and all over a pack of lies that should never have gotten started in the first place. My heart goes out to him now and forever. His life here on Earth will surely be missed, but I keep him in my mind and heart all the time. We all love you Mike! God bless you Susan!

  44. joyce cerutti Says:

    I am a dot also!! #236833 and I am on his upper lip!!!!

  45. Betty Byrnes Says:

    Brenda, Great Job! I love all the pics and quotes and links. Terrific! Thank you for all the time and effort you have put into getting the truth out there about Michael Jackson’s innocence. God bless you, my friend!

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you Betty! I’m so glad you like it! I was hoping you would be one of the ones to revisit my blog! I really appreciate that! As far as my time and effort goes, I love defending our MJ!! And…I know you do too!! Love you my sister!!

  46. what did you do today, raincoaster? « raincoaster Says:

    […] things are lately, so it’s not just me or Vancouver, it’s everywhere) I’d read her MJ post (she was polite YAY and said she’d read mine, so reading hers was the least I could do, and […]

  47. raincoaster Says:

    There’s a lot of food for thought there. You’re the sixth or seventh person to recommend the Aphrodite Jones book, so maybe I’ll take a look at it.

    • brenda Says:

      You really should! It’s wonderful! She also did a show about Michael and the 2005 trial on her TV special, True Crimes. This was done back in April of this year. It is available on YouTube.

  48. Kikinha Says:

    Hi there!!
    Congratulations, this blog is very good!! I didn’t knew that Michael had lupus..
    Thanks for show us this. I want to defend Michael and protect him!! He’s sweet…and pure!!


    kiss 😉

    P-S — Comment my blog too, please: http://www.mjgirls-kingofpop4ever.blogspot.com

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you so much! I really appreciate the compliment! I will read yours as soon as I’m done with my workday! 🙂

      • brenda Says:

        I checked out your blog and I love it! It’s beautiful, very creative! I tried to comment off of it, but it wouldn’t let me. It locked up my computer. 😦

  49. Linda K Says:

    Hi Brenda

    I just finished reading your blog and dipping in to some of the links etc. I am so happy to read anything positive about Michael and you do him proud – thank you!

    Unlike yourself and many others I never for one minute believed the paedophile claims about Michael. I am one of MJ’s ‘older’ fans – I was 19 when Michael shot to fame with the J5. My favourite song back then was ‘Ben’ I also had pet rats and saw the film Willard it was written for. I have watched Michael grow from an adorable amazingly talented child, to a sexy and so gorgeous young man and then, as he matured, to a wonderful multi talented artist but most of all an amazingly, gentle and caring human being who loved children and hated seeing them in pain, hurt, orphaned or sick. He used his fame and money to improve the lives of so many. He had such compassion and felt physical pain at other’s suffering. He cared on a global scale and did something about it on a global scale.

    (Shame on his accusers! – May God be their judge!) How could anyone mis-judge MJ so badly, and be prepared to believe such ill of him? And from the media of all people who have for years been renowned for their lies and spin. I can understand how there are many out there who have grown up believing ‘if its in the papers, or on the TV, it must be true!’ Fortunately I grew up believing the opposite – They can fabricate anything they like to make money, and do so! (Michael’s ‘death by media’ case in point!) They don’t care whose life they trash along the way.

    I never believed Michael capable of what he was accused of (I feel sick using that word in the same sentence as MJ’s name) it seems so disrespectful. I know Michael was innocent. I knew that in my heart when he was alive + still know it now. Isn’t it time the media put the record straight and admitted what they did? Perhaps then they may just regain a little credibility! Although I doubt it, as they’ve kept quiet about it for too long now.

    I am not a ‘young, crazed or obsessed fan’ – I believe in justice, honesty and truth. I will always fight for Michael’s good name. He was a God given gift to this world but the human race wasn’t evolved enough to see that. Such a shame.
    Thank you for putting the truth out there Brenda, God Bless you. xx

    • brenda Says:

      Thank you Linda! I still get upset with myself knowing I fell into what the mass media put out there about our Michael. The only way I am able to vindicate myself on that is that God turned that around by using me to study up on MJ and discover that he was not capable of such acts. As I know now God moved through Michael to be the kind of giving person he was, I also know in my heart of hearts God gave me this blog and to Him I give all the praise and glory!

  50. Melvy Says:

    Hi brenda truth fanstastico your blog is God bless you greetings


  51. ButterFlyGirlFly Says:

    Brenda, Thank you so much for posting your blog. It is so refreshing to read and view factual information on Mr. Michael Jackson. I never believed that he was a pedophile or was capable of ever molesting children. Sneddon was hell bent on bring MJ down at any cost(the tax payers paid a lot) and try and to destroy him, he definately had some twisted vendetta against MJ.

    It is only through websites like yours and others that will continue the fight to make sure everyone knows the TRUTH about a gentle man whos only desire was to love, be loved, help children, and make the world better. Thank you again.

    • brenda Says:

      Awww thank you so much for that! I have spent countless hours on this research and I am so glad it’s paying off with sweet comments like yours! I really appreciate the time people take to write me! 🙂

      Oh and I know what you mean about Tom Sneddon. He is such a snake in the grass isn’t he? Sneaky and slimy!

  52. Tina Says:

    This is great, the way you’ve localized all this important information about Michael’s innocence. I love finding blogs like this that try to present all the facts, but also back it up with links and resources. I truly hope that one day all the lies about Michael will be shattered by the truth, so that his legacy can live on untainted by all that hate. His children deserve that.

    Anyway, thanks for this. I’ve bookmarked this post and will refer others here! Take care.

  53. Martin Mezzabotta Says:

    This is an absolute triumph.

    God bless you Brenda.

  54. Liz Blade Says:

    Simply a truthful honest blog about a truthful honest man.. Whom I will always love. You should be proud of writing this Blog Brenda.

    ❤ Liz. Its all for LOVE.. L.O.V.E

    • Brenda Says:

      Thank you Liz. God encouraged me to study up on Michael to discover he was innocent and it was then God who had me write this blog to prove that fact to other people. You see, God turned my judgment of Michael around for the better good so everything happens for a reason. If God can change my heart and mind about Michael, then other people’s hearts and minds can be changed. I feel God used me to prove just that.

  55. Liz Blade Says:

    I have always believed in Michael, Like i said I was beaten daily at school because of it.. I would take more beatings just to bring that man back.. I was made out to be a freak, because I choose to love someone who in LaToya’s words God-Like. for he was in my eyes and he forever will be. God Bless Michael, his children, his family and the people that only see Michael for how pure and true that man really was. Long live Peter Pan Michael Jackson.. 1958-forever.

  56. Kristin Says:

    Dear Brenda
    This is what every hater should read! This Blog sets everything straight that they twisted.Thank you so much.I also admire that you answer every single comment.I belong to the new generation of MJ-fans,(Im 14 years old) but I discovered Michael before his passing.Ive been a fan for about 2 1/2 years and it changed my life so much.My life before Michael seems empty,meaningless and superficial to me now. Im sure hell be with me for the rest of my life and beyond.

    • Brenda Says:

      Wow I haven’t had a positive comment in so long I was shocked to get one! Thanks Kristin! Thanks for the compliments; I really appreciate them! Yes, Michael will be with you and me as long as we never forget him and never let him go! He will always be in our hearts! I love him SO much and I can tell you do as well!

  57. Kristin Says:

    Hi Brenda I forgot to ask you if I can post the link to your blog on Twitter and Facebook. 🙂

    • Brenda Says:

      Yes, you’re more than welcome to post my blog on Facebook and Twitter!! I’m tickled pink you asked me!! Look me up on Facebook as well!! 🙂

  58. phyllida0522 Says:

    Wow Brenda, thank you very much for posting this! Before I read this, those cases Michael had been involved in really seemed too complicated to me and I just didn’t know who to believe, although i had faith in Michael. And now i finally understand it! And you gave all the proofs to show that Michael was innocent. Thank you so much!! i also found those links really helpful. I’m gonna buy those books you mentioned one day! I really love Michael. I’m not ganna say that i’m the no.1 fan of his cos so many people love him as much as i do, but i’m one of his no.1 fans!
    The website salma gave is really helpful too.

    I love you so much, Michael, really. You haven’t gone, you are not dead, and you will not go, i’m not lying to myself, i’m telling the truth.

    hope you well Michael, in your heaven, and hope all Michael’s fans well and happy.

    • Brenda Says:

      Thank you! I’m SO happy you like it! I felt compelled by God to write it and I loved working on it every minute! He was an amazing man, just like a big teddy bear that you just wanted to squeeze and never let go!! LOL!

  59. joyce cerutti Says:

    Wonderful blog dear Brenda!
    Joyce Cerutti

  60. Veronica Says:

    Hi there; I want to give my love to everything that´s written about Michael Jackson and his good heart. I felt much pain when he was treated bad and unfair by mean people and in the news och magazines or wherever. He was too good for this world sometime´s and he just wanted to be himself just like anyone – famous or not.
    Thank You Brenda 🙂 I was very happy to find this blogg.(found it when I was searching for an old friend with the same name in tx, actually she loved Michael very much and was born on the same day, not year though.:-))

    • Brenda Says:

      Thank you Veronica! I’m really happy you like it! I worked really hard on it, perfecting it, and it was all for love, L.O.V.E! 🙂

  61. Tasha Vach Says:

    My only wish is that the whole world reads this and continues to study the anatomy of Michael’s life and realizes the absolute truth and beauty of this incredible God sent human being! L.O.V.E ❤

  62. E Says:

    This is so poorly written I am aghast at your train of thought?! “Michael Jackson helped so many children, was a generous , caring loving man” etc etc, so he can’t be a pedophile? That isn’t fact; it is opinion. What about all the gentle old grandfathers who are wonderful grandparents, and molest their nieces and nephews? What’s the difference? You make me laugh.

    • Brenda Says:

      You obviously don’t know the difference between fact and opinion. I went through painstaking efforts to make my blog all about FACTS so that no one could blame me for not providing them. That’s why pictures are shared and links to YouTube videos are provided and proof of books I’ve read that share nothing but FACTS!

      The author of “The Magic, The Madness, The Whole Story: Michael Jackson” is J. Randy Taraborrelli who is not only a journalist and author, he was also a friend of Michael’s and they had known each other for the majority of their lives. Therefore, I would consider him to be very knowledgeable about Michael and consider that his book is based on FACTS.

      Michael Jackson Conspiracy” was written by Aphrodite Jones who is a journalist and started out as a Michael basher at the beginning of the 2004/2005 trial against Michael Jackson. However, by the time she sat in the courtroom every single day of that trial and wrote tons of her own notes and then compared her notes to the courtroom transcript in case she missed anything, she realized Michael was completely and totally innocent! Her book is based on her notes and that transcript, and she played out the ACTUAL DRAMA in that courtroom in her book! If you want to know what happened in that courtroom I urge you to purchase her book and read the FACTS!

      Also, in “Michael Jackson Conspiracy,” the first allegations from the first family to accuse Michael (the Chandlers) are cleared as well based on FACTS!

      “Redemption: The Truth Behind the Michael Jackson Child Molestation Allegations” is written by Geraldine Hughes who was an EYE WITNESS to the events that took place in the law firm where she worked, the same law firm that was hired by the Chandler family who claimed Michael molested their son AND SUED Michael Jackson for child molestation. ($$$$) Ms. Hughes being an EYE WITNESS means her book is based on FACTS!

      Both families (the Chandlers and Arvisos) SUED Michael Jackson for money! They didn’t go to the police to turn Michael in and have him arrested and put in jail. They SUED him for MONEY! ($$$$) FACT!

      My blog has been out now for 3 years and 4 months and in that time, you are the first person to attack me in this way and I can’t help but feel that it is because of these new FALSE allegations brought about by Wade Robson.

      This Wade Robson character has done the SAME EXACT THING as the Chandlers and Arvizos! Wade claims he’s not coming forward now to get his hands on money, but I don’t believe that for one second! Now that is my opinion…… BUT I can back up my opinion with FACTS!

      First off, he is filing a CREDITOR’S claim and that means that if he wins with his accusations, he is up for a settlement! ($$$$) Second of all, in the 2004/2005 trial against Michael Jackson, Wade underwent grueling direct examination and then cross-examination and then redirect examination and then cross-examination again, followed by another redirect examination, etc. and still maintained through ALL of that pressure that Michael Jackson NEVER did anything of a sexual nature to him. Wade was 22 years old at that time. By that age, a person knows what molestation is and he sat on that stand, UNDER OATH, and stated he was NEVER molested by Michael. Now, seven years go by (2012) and he claims he underwent a nervous breakdown and he contributes that breakdown to Michael supposedly molesting him for seven years, between the ages of 7 and 14. If that’s even true, why didn’t he come forward in 2012? I’ll tell you why I believe he didn’t and back it up with a FACT!

      Even before the Conrad Murray trial took place in 2011, everyone knew, across the globe, that the Jacksons were filing a lawsuit against AEG Live for hiring Conrad Murray. If the Jacksons win the case, they stand to be 40 billion dollars richer! Wade obviously rode things out until it was broadcast that there definitely will be a trial between the Jacksons and AEG Live and that jurors were being selected. Either the very day that that news broke OR just a day or so later, Robson filed his CREDITOR’S claim! ($$$$) FACT!

      Also, below is a note that a good friend of Michael Jackson tweeted regarding Wade Robson that has also been shared on Facebook and this is another FACT:

      “I was at the ranch when Wade and his mother were there. He was a happy kid and his mother was always there.

      I suspect this is just another case of attempted extortion. Wade has a family now and I suspect that he needs the MONEY. I think he saw the immense wealth in the Michael estate and his mouth watered. Michael is no longer here to defend himself.

      I was around Michael many times in the presence of children. Michael had a great respect for all people and especially children. He would NEVER have harmed a child — physically or psychologically.”
      ~ David Nordahl, friend of Michael Jackson for 20 years

      When Michael and Jordan Chandler were hanging out together, Jordan’s mother and sometimes his dad were always around.

      When Michael and Gavin Arvizo hung out together, the rest of the Arvizo family was always around. Chris Tucker and his now ex-girlfriend, Azja Pryor, were at Michael’s ranch the same weekend that Gavin Arvizo claims Michael molested him. Azja wrote the Arvizo family a long letter, asking them to please come forward and tell the truth that Michael did NOT molest him! Here is a link for you to check out and see for yourself: http://ohnotheydidnt.livejournal.com/37103996.html

      When Michael hung out with Wade Robson, Wade’s mother was always around (as you can see above) and so were other people (David Nordahl for one as you can see above). FACT!

      Michael wouldn’t allow children to visit him at Neverland Ranch unless one or both parents, or in one case grandparents, visited as well. That was a stipulation that HAD to be followed or the children were not allowed to visit. FACT!

      Below is a very recent article from TMZ regarding a statement from Taj Jackson about his Uncle Michael and how Michael helped him through a difficult time when a family member on his mother’s side molested him (and it’s so odd that you yourself used the reference of nieces and nephews being molested):

      “TMZ’s full story:

      5/16/2013 12:05 PM PDT BY TMZ STAFF

      And Michael Helped Me Cope

      Michael Jackson’s nephew Taj Jackson — Tito’s son — just revealed he was molested by a family member on his mom’s side when he was a kid … and says Michael personally consoled him after the incident.

      Taj dropped the bombshell on Twitter this morning during a tirade aimed at MJ accuser Wade Robson.

      During the tweet session, Taj claimed he’s in a unique position to judge Robson’s sexual abuse allegations because he knows what it’s like to have gone through such a traumatic experience.

      “That is how I KNOW Wade is lying. Because I AM a survivor,” Taj tweeted. Followed by: “I was sexually abuse (sic). By [a family member] on my mom’s side of the family when I was a kid.”

      As for Michael, Taj says MJ “was a support system for me and my mom” during his abuse ordeal … he even tweeted a picture of a note he says MJ wrote to his mother. The scrawl reads:

      “Dee Dee please read this article about child molestation and please read it to Taj (and his siblings) … it brings out how even your own relatives can be molesters of children, even uncles or aunts molesting nephews or nieces. Please Read. Love MJ.”

      And Taj makes it clear — he thinks Robson is LYING for CASH.

      “What people will $ay and do for money and to $tay relevant is $ickening. De$perate times call for De$perate mea$ures. #Money.”

      If after reading all of this here you still have doubts about Michael, then all I can say is you have a cold, hard heart and are just blind to the FACTS!

  63. Raven Says:

    Your experience is so very similar to many of us! Like you, I had drifted away from Michael for several years-and, like you, I believed most of the negative press-until June 25th, 2009, when my inexplicably overwhelming guilt and sadness compelled me to start researching.

    I do want to make one small correction to your post, though. LaToya’s first book never states that Michael is a pedophile. In fact, she portrays her brother very sympathetically and positively in that book (he is one of the few family members who do NOT get the sting of her barb in that book). It was only some years afterward, in 1993 at the height of the Chandler accusation, that she gave that press conference in Tel Aviv and went on several talk shows, speaking against Michael.

    • Brenda Says:

      Awww, the more people that tell me I wasn’t the only one who doubted MJ until he died, the better I feel about myself. Thank you for that.

      I have also fixed my statement about LaToya’s “book in 1993.” I am so very thankful that you brought that to my attention. I strove for perfection in my blog when I wrote it and thought everything was correct in it, but girl was I mistaken about that one! After I saw your comment, I contacted a friend of mine who can answer every question there is about MJ and he confirmed that you are right so I fixed that portion of my blog. I couldn’t resort back to Randy Taraborrelli’s book as my copy of that book got destroyed in a fire I had in my apartment a little over two years ago. But thank God my friend could answer my question. Again, thank you so much for correcting me on that! It is much appreciated!

  64. Laura Lynn Wilcox Blackstock Says:

    I am so glad you took the time to research and write this blog for fans of MJ…we all know his kindness and know that he could never harm a fly! You are blessed and I know he is smiling..for you are just one of his many warriors here on earth to fight for the truth..I hope other people who were swayed by the tabloid trash will read your blog..it is wonderful and coming from a MJ fan..it is wonderful..thanks again.

    • Brenda Says:

      Oh thank you, Laura, I really appreciate your comment! I loved working on this blog! After the epiphany that I had right after Michael died, any research I did on him after that I found myself thinking, “Please don’t say he was a pedophile, please don’t say he was a pedophile” because I wanted to believe that my epiphany was real and I was not let down! All the positive books and websites taught me what a really truly wonderful person MJ was and that all he wanted in life was to make everyone else happy and teach us how to reach happiness by reaching out to others and helping others and by being the best we can be at whatever we do, especially in loving others! What a true inspiration he was and I really wish that’s how everyone knew him! When I read comments now by people who knew him personally and read how they could feel God with Michael and how being in his presence was so awe-inspiring, I really wish I would have met him myself personally and could have experienced that! Oh well, in the next life……! 😀

  65. Ronnie Says:

    He was a good man and eveyone did miss understood I’m a big fan

    • Brenda Says:

      Yes, he was a good man, Ronnie, a wonderful man! I miss him very much. I recently read this quote from Les Garland, cofounder of MTV, regarding Michael and shared it on Facebook last night. “What a great world it is because he was here, and what a huge hole we’d have if he hadn’t been.” I can’t even imagine now what this life would have been like without Michael and I don’t want to imagine it.

  66. Brenda Says:

    You’re welcome Denise! Anything to defend MJ’s honor! Your parents sound like very wise people to me being such big MJ fans! 😀 Yeah I love Billie Jean and Smooth Criminal, definitely my two favorite MJ short films! As far as spiritual messages go, Man In the Mirror and Heal the World are tops in my mind and I’ve never seen anyone move people emotionally and spiritually as well as Michael could! And still do! I have that Munich DVD and I still get goosebumps and get very emotional when I watch it to this day! He is truly a legend!

    As far as Oprah goes, she hasn’t always been very supportive of Michael. The 1993 interview between Oprah and MJ was in January and the allegations first surfaced in the summer of 1993. It is my understanding that after those allegations came out, Oprah made a statement addressed to MJ about it not being proper to sleep with boys in the same bed. I am not sure exactly when she said that and I tried to find a YouTube video of her saying that just before I answered this note from you, but I can’t seem to locate anything on it. I have someone I can ask about it who might be able to help me locate it and I’ll have to get back with you on that.

    In my opinion, Martin Bashir is a snake in the grass. He made MJ believe that his depiction of him would be fair and forthright, yet he turned around and stabbed MJ in the back by making up horrible innuendos about him throughout the show. I’m so happy that MJ hired his own cameraman to record those interviews between himself and Martin Bashir in case Martin tried to pull something. MJ must have become wise to just how low people will go what with the false allegations and all. In the 2005 trial, the court showed both versions of that interview. Both interviews are very different in comparison! If you get a chance, order yourself a copy of Michael Jackson Conspiracy by Aphrodite Jones and pay special attention to the two different versions of the interviews in the book. You’ll see for yourself the extent to which Martin Bashir betrayed MJ! It blows me away every time I think about it!

  67. Fabiana Says:

    Thank you for sharing such precious information on MJ. Despite I am not a fan of him, I had always believed he was innocent, because his eyes showed it. Everytime I look at his eyes on pictures or videos, all I ser are the sad eyes of a love thirsty child. Just look at his eyes on pictures of his childhood and compare it with more recent ones. The eyes are the window of the heart.

    • Brenda Says:

      I truly adore your comment Fabiana! It’s so beautiful, and I have often said the same thing about his eyes! They truly said it all about his sweet spirit and his innocence! Thank you so much for your comment!

  68. Joe Says:

    Clearly hindsight is 20/20 now and it is clear that Michael Jackson molested young boys. I understand your denial at the time considering how unbelievable it is/was, not much different than the guilty Catholic priest molesters. But we all know people, especially men, tend to need some sexual outlet and Michael had none, except throngs of little boys (never girls). It is very sad, I think MJ could have been molested himself, possibly by his brothers who were themselves molested. Taj his nephew admitted to abuse by a family member. And in large families like the Duggars we know it is possible, so it could also have happened to the Jacksons. It is very tough to watch, but please watch Finding Neverland with an open mind, and you’ll see that MJ got progressively worse. He started withering away not from accusations, but from guilt since he knew it was wrong. A 30-40 year old man doesn’t need 7-12 year old companions, and why always young boys?

    • Brenda Says:

      Hindsight is not 20/20 with me. I know God placed it on my heart to research Michael back then and to then write a blog about what I discovered and I’m not going to change my belief on that. Because there are new allegations on the same old stuff? No! I don’t need to watch a four-hour movie on the lies spewing forth from Wade Robson and James Safechuck’s mouths. Wade and his family are opportunists who took advantage of Michael’s generosity for quite a few years. Quite a few years, mind you, and there wasn’t a night that Michael didn’t abuse him? Oh really? Then why did Wade stay with Michael sometimes night after night then keep going back there to visit at his own free will? I don’t buy that Michael sexually assaulted him for a minute, especially rape! Mild, soft-spoken, shy Michael Jackson? Who only began grabbing his crotch while performing as a message to the media because of all the crap they always put him through? Wade said Michael groomed him, yeah but not the kind of grooming he’s going on about. Michael loved mentoring all children. He loved helping them and advising them on career moves and such, and if he believed in someone strong enough he would pay for their college education to help get them there. That’s the only kind of grooming he’s guilty of. The reason Michael hung out with children so much is because 1) he was a man/child and 2) he preferred to hang out with children because he felt that children only wanted to be around him for him being him, not because they wanted financial gain. Because he was as successful as he was, people sued him often and he felt children didn’t want anything monetary from him. They just wanted to hang out with him because he was fun! He was playful and funny, would have pillow fights with the children, have water balloon fights and Michael was notorious for playing pranks on people. Michael’s naivety is what got him into trouble because he didn’t stop to consider that some of those very children that he took under his wing could then grow up and quite possibly come up with the same lies that they knew were brought up against him before and people just might believe them because it is a rehash of old accusations! Michael told Wade he knew Wade could be a successful filmmaker. That’s a compliment, not something Michael said to get into his pants! That’s absurd! Michael was a HUGE humanitarian. He gave so much money to various different charities, including paying for children’s funerals, like I said earlier paying for children’s college education, responsible for children’s playgrounds being built, responsible for children’s hospitals being built, paid hospital bills for families who couldn’t afford to pay them, bought turkey dinners for families who couldn’t afford to have turkey dinners and the list goes on and on and on. No one gives that much and then turns around and hurts children. The way I see James Safechuck is that he’s a monkey-see-monkey-do type of guy and only came forward as well to see what he could get out of accusing Michael too. They both need to get jobs. Oh that’s right, Wade can’t get jobs because he’s burned too many bridges in the industry and no one wants to work with him. He was a choreographer for Britney Spears back when she was dating Justin Timberlake. Wade and Britney had an affair and it tore Justin apart. He wrote a song called Cry Me A River over all of that. Everyone who has ever worked with Wade in his choreography classes or on the film he tried to create says he’s got a big mouth on him, has made fun of boys he’s worked with on being gay to other boys in his class. Wade is a womanizer. He dated one of Michael’s nieces for seven years (Michael set them up!) and Wade cheated on her with Britney Spears and other women yet the Jackson family still talked to Wade. I could go on and on here as to why you shouldn’t just take Wade and James’ words at face value, but it’s late and I need to get to bed. There’s a link I’m going to give you to read that reveals a lot of the charity work Michael participated in well before the first allegations in 1993 and well after those allegations into 2005 until someone stopped taking notes on his humanitarian efforts. Here it is: https://www.michaeljacksonslegacy.org/index.php/his-humanitarian-work – please read it. It’ll blow your mind! I’ve read from several people that the reason Michael had trouble sleeping at night is because he was always trying to figure out what all else he could do to help heal the world. It was not because he suffered from guilt. He wasn’t guilty of anything.

      P.S. The reason for the alarms in Michael’s bedroom is because he had an intruder once, someone who was a huge fan and he out-stepped his boundaries by entering into Michael’s home. The alarms were not installed to alarm Michael so that he could stop molesting children before anyone entered the room.

  69. Cari Says:

    This is a beautiful memorial to Michael ❤️

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