Not long into my marriage, I cheated on my husband and lost everything. I thought I was falling in love with the man I was having an affair with. But love has never been kind to me. My new perfect love was shattered and my marriage destroyed.
How I became a cheating wife
I never thought I was capable of doing such a thing. My husband cheated on me once, long before we got married. It was devastating, and took me ages to trust him again. For a long time I used Albion Services (an online service that finds out if your partner is cheating on you through dating apps) to check if he was cheating on me again. That’s how paranoid I became. I know how much cheating can destroy a relationship.
Never thought it would be me doing this to him.
My friendship with a man turned into a slippery slope:
· Coffee became dinner
· Movies led to drinks
· Texts turned into all-night phone calls
Soon, we were falling in love.
Cheating is easy
This other man started out as just a friend who was also lonely with his wife away. Both our spouses are in the military. It felt nice to have someone to talk to and enjoy the summer with.
He started meeting me with flowers, and sending me cards. I started getting more dressed up and putting my makeup on before seeing him. It was a slippery slope from friendship to the night I cheated on husband.
The most frightening thing was how easy it was and good I felt with this other man.
When the fantasy ends
Before our spouses returned we both proclaimed our love for the other. We both promised to tell our spouse that we’d fallen in love. It sounded so easy in our love-filled stupor. Like, we’d tell them and immediately resume our summer romance.
What ended up happening was he wasn’t able to leave his wife. He said he was conflicted and couldn’t leave her. Meanwhile, my husband had no conflict leaving me.
I cheated on my husband and lost everything, meanwhile the man I fell in love with seems to have lost nothing. I’m devastated and alone with my anger, guilt, and double heartbreak.
