I feel like I ruined my life. I did so much stupid things in my teens that the damage is irreversible. I wish I could go back. My parents moved to a competitive school district in high school and I didn’t fully take advantage of it to push myself and do well in school ( even though i never truly did well in school) instead i became a weirdo who spoke to creepy dudes on the internet. I’m so disappointed in myself. I had my priorities messed up. I’m 22 and I don’t think i have what it takes to have a fully successful career. I keep getting bad grades in the easiest classes… I got an F in an art class… how… I want to be a experience designer 🧿🧿🧿 but I don’t know sometimes i feel like my goals are out of my reach because I sent nudes to random strangers i don’t know. Is selling nudes for quick cash going to affect my career? I’m scared.
Yep, I actually believe you are putting you goals for the nearest future a bit heigh. And I think you really need to slow down.
From what I can see from your post history its seems like you're panicing. Slow down and breathe.
so selling adult content can ruin my career? i’m scared. i have ambitions
Yes and no. Nobody really knows. Depends on your work and or business, some will be okay some wont.
who won’t be okay…
Its like the question:How long is a piece of string?
It depends.
But no, not everything is lost. You can still make it big etc etc
You are trying so hard to come out of your sexual trauma and you decided to sell adult content ? Are you in even right state of mind ? Do you even realize you need to heal first emotionally and mentally in able to take sound decision. What if something goes wrong ? Some exposure or another trauma ? Please think wisely what you're doing with your life. You're still young and can make wise decisions to set your future right.
Focus on one goal at a time and define smaller steps to take to reach it. You have to let go of the past and work for the future.