Diana, Our Mother Her Life and Legacy documentary | She was one of the naughtiest parents": Prince Harry and Prince William on their memories of their mother Diana, Princess of Wales | By Diana, Princess of Wales | Special picture. Um let's see this is the first time that the two of us have ever spoken about her as a mother Believe it or not you and I both in the first half what you're on the tummy. I don't know yeah arguably probably a little bit too raw up until this point. It's still raw. It's not many days go by. I don't think of her 25th anniversary year feels like a good time to remember you know all the good things about her and hopefully provide maybe a different side of the other haven't seen before. To celebrate the life and legacy of Diana Princess of Wales her sons are sharing their most intimate memories of her for the first time. An incredibly loved her and I and I'm very grateful that love still still feels there. It was that love that that even if she was on the other side of a room that you as a son, you could, you could feel it You had a brother that it's never. It's hard for the foundation through their mother's personal photographs and childhood home movies, the people who knew and loved her revealed Diana we've never seen before. She was always very caring of little people and I suppose the first little person that she cared for. Mother was a total kid through and through. She really enjoys the loft and the fun. She was one of the naughtiest parents She had a very cheeky sense of humor. She loves the card you can imagine. She's very jolly and really enjoys at times making on a mission. But she always understood that there was a real life outside of Palace Walls look at her face in every photograph. There's a positive wonderful I think she wants to make a difference. Diana's death at the age of only 36 shocked the world, and it shaped the lives of her two sons Our defects that I would like to be her son and I got to know for 15 years. I did she set us up really well. She gave us the right tools and as prepared as well for for life and and the best way she could not obviously knowing what was gonna happen. She was a mom, she's still her mom. You know a lot of course as a son, I would say this is the best mom in the world. When we found this fertil recently part of me, never really wanted to look at them and follow me was waiting to find the right time that we were to sit down and look in together. now, she laughing a picture. It's it's so nice she captured some really good sort of portraits of people. Yeah, you can get a snapshot that person Nancy quite quickly, and the funny thing is that there's not that many of her cuz she's always here. First. Yeah. and it's photos of us when we were tiny. Yeah, I've seen it from start from day one. I think it's the pitches here. they want you and they wanna be just growing up. Looking back at it reminding yourself and actually when I started looking through it brought back memories. I put this fire out because we were dressing up thinking that we're looking really cool. Yeah. That's pretty. it's a great for walking right It's the first day at school and probably one of my first tables in me. Turning up thinking I've got my older brother at school. he'll be looking after me when you see me um and then I thought we would like to see uh quite. Special picture and it's you I thought it was well. Where was this. This was our home? I just remember having a skinny legs and still do he's got skinny That's good, but she blonde eyebrows on there as well and your freckled knows your freckles are gone. Now you have such come back every now and then quite funny really. there's a sweet picture of her happy memories. Big Smiley faces She's smarter than us with the love. That's for sure. Yeah. And she was just the best mother ever she was just in go for and and and squeeze you as tight as possible and being as short as I as I was, then there was no escape. you were there and you were there for as long as she wanted to hold you even talking about it now, I can feel the hugs that she used to give us and you know III miss. I miss that I miss that feeling. I miss that part of a family. I miss having that mother to be able to give you those. Give you that compassion that I think everybody needs. She's extremely good at showing her love. She was extremely good at showing you know what we meant to her and you know what feelings meant and I'm also it was to feel behind closed doors. She was a very loving caring mother and an incredibly funny person. One thing I would love to ask him now because I genuinely think that she got satisfaction of dressing myself and William up in the most bizarre outfits matching it was weird shorts and like a shiny shoes with the old clip on and looking back on the photos It just makes me laugh. I just think how could you do that to us and then funny enough? We got the age of William would turn around and go. This is ridiculous. You know, I'm all about the I have to be dressed the same as him and I'm sort of thing they're going hang on a second if you're gonna dress differently, I. It's gonna be there with her dress like this. This is just so I like to think that she had great fun in dressing up. I'm sure that wasn't it, but I surely sound get dressed my kids at the same way. There's not many days that go by that. I don't think of her. you know. I'm sad, sometimes very possibly um you know, I have a small every now and again when someone says something and I think that's exactly what she said or she would enjoy that comment. So they always live with you. people. You know you lose and my mother losing me every day. The House Of Kings Westminster Abbey, for a thousand years the cradle of royal power and today the royal wedding. How proud their mother would have been today? I think it's really is a special moment. The most bitter sweet day, I'm just thinking of you, You know your wedding and you desperately wanting to be there and to share it. do you feel somehow that she wants that I did and II sort of beforehand. You know, I had a lot of time to think about it. I pronounce that lady the amount of life together in the name of the father and of the son and of the Holy Ghost. Amen. When it came to wedding, I did really feel that she was there and you know there's there's times when you look to someone or something for strength and they're very much felt she was there for me. For the first time through the center gateway of at the lay it down. When we see uh perhaps like all worlds, the will be thrown back and we don't see that face. It was on the day of her wedding that Diana first captured the world's imagination. Pageantry and romance when unbeatable combination. The called it the wedding of the century. I Diana Francis hi Donna Francis take the Charles Philip Arthur to my wedded husband. Diana's marriage was a joyous event which everyone could relate to, but it was also an utterly unique experience. Diana was joining the most famous family in the world at the end of the day She was a normal 20 year old No Child Lady Spencer marrying into the institution to to marry into the raw British family and she brought a breath of fresh air to everything that she did. Diana Spencer grew up in one of the grandest aristocratic families in England. Her father was a keen amateur cameraman. The movies he made give us a precious glimpse into Diana's early life. She was always very caring of little people and I suppose the first little person that she cared for. My mother left home when I was two or three and said Donna was the most significant Apa warm female presence in my life and you know we spent so much time together. Our parents divorce was quite tricky for all of us. It was very sort of better. I'm quite had an impact big impact. They never spoken, you know, I do feel that the guy I grew up with had a sort of bundle of insecurities unhappiness is. Because of our own sensitivities and vulnerabilities, she felt able to connect with people who are going through a very tough time and so to give them hope. As she grew up, there was a massive change in Diana, she suddenly felt more confident. Definite blossoming She sort of realized that she was really funny. I mean her sense of humor was fantastic and my friend suddenly started to realize that this little girl was going into a very interesting and very pretty young thing. Diana had a small and intimate circle of friends. In this film, the speaking about her for the first time. The first time I met her, I was playing golf at the bar, but that it was great friends with the Queen and just as I was about to play my shot, his vision of beauty appeared over the horizon full of laughter and energy, and that was the first time that I met Donna and um like everyone who meets her, She certainly a big impact. I'm sure. Shot was violently hooked to a sliced um, but we became great friends from that moment. Lady Carolyn Warren was a family friend of Diana's. I was about 1516 and she would have been just a little bit older than me She was great fun had an amazing sense of humor and could light up the room very caring uh she was always the person who is if somebody was feeling down or that being a bust up with a boyfriend or whatever it was, she was first man in to sort of um give. These are photographs that I remember of Diana when she was working for my sister as a nanny, William Venzee met Diana when she was fourteen, she was shy and she was pretty unsure of herself and um pretty naïve even quite gullible really, so it's quite easy to tease etcetera, but she took it an incredibly good spirits, but you've had. Inkling of what sort of person she was going to be you know wandering around in Jersey's covered in hippos and jeans and slobbing around and she pinched my shirt cut off cuz she thought that was quite a quite a good thing to do. Whenever you saw a launch, you have picked up some trashy romantic novel, you know she was a bit of a dreamer. There was AA side to her, which we wish that somebody would sweep her off her feet. This was the moment they had come from all corners of the Kingdom to see. Princess for Wales I remember on the wedding day going back to my mother's wedding thing well that that's done so we will move on now not realizing that she just becomes a sort of global superstar. She was so young and fresh and vibrant and good looking and unstuff and this was all quite new. uh for for somebody in that position. 3 months after her wedding Diana's life is a working royal began with a tour of whales. There was no training for her new role she was thrown in at the deep end. Accompanying her was a lady in waiting who'd be by her side for the next 10 years, but For both of us was a baptism of fire. It was an extraordinary experience. It was that noise it was a it was the children screaming. you know it must have been very daunting What happened. I think was that everyone out there who didn't know Diana they're having the night's green but by moral moment that I had, they realized this was a such a natural person that wasn't she wasn't trying to be anything other than herself. Her ability to go up to people and put her hand out and just touch them was I think it's remembering it now I can was very moving. Uh means wolf was always that Uh whoever she met didn't matter where you came from what you did. You know she could talk to you um and I think she generally just had a real ability to connect very quickly. Home for Prince William and Prince Harry is Kensington Palace, where they grow up. It's always been a haven a place where their mother tried to carve out an ordinary family life for them. My mother cherish those moments of of privacy and being able to be that mother rather than the Princess of Wales She made the decision that no matter what despite all of the difficulties of growing up in that limelight and on that stage, she was going to ensure that both of us had as normal life as possible. And if that means you know taking us for a break every now and then or sneaking into the cinema or driving for the country lanes with the roof down of her old-school BMW listening to Enya, I think it was lost in the past. All of that was was was was part of her being a mom. She was very informal and really enjoyed it, The laughter and the fun, but she understood that there was a real life outside of Palace Walls and she wanted us to see it from a very young age and really understood some of the real problems in life that you know you can't possibly buy very easily, particularly in this situation. If you if you don't go looking for it. Alright, How are you doing? What's your name? David David, A homeless shelter isn't where you'd imagine a member of the royal family might hang out but the passage London's biggest homeless center is a place where Prince William feels very much at home. It's very well. It's great and it's Tommy in the shoulder. It got so big that we've had to like quickly retainers. At a rate of us, he's gonna be it's gonna be a big boy aren't like he's like his father Prince William has been visiting the passage since he was a boy, His mother first brought him here when he was only twelve. I was quite nervous at the time, but I just enjoyed meeting these people who had incredible stories and who clearly have had a very tough time. My interest in homelessness has come from that that one encounter it's fantastic. look at that. Yeah. That's awesome. Do you find them. Drawing in the arts to help, yeah, I have depression by him I lost my last year. you know, I'm sorry. I love you the times I've seen him. I could just picture it going to the local pub and just have a pint with him. He's not afraid to get his hands dirty, but I think that's just like his his mother. She was uh a soldier for for the royal family. Homelessness was one of the first social issues, which the Princess of Wales embraced. She ventured into some of London's roughest neighborhoods to discover what life was really like out on the streets She woke me up. I love her. You should know I'll see you dressed, especially for me so they. Soros to the cleaners at the moment. Ali was the chief executive of Centerpoint, Britain's biggest homeless charity. He worked side by side with Diana to raise awareness of the plight of the homeless. She took it to heart, but it was wrong that this was happening and what was a very wealthy society, And she told me about it. You know she felt that it was wrong that it was you know deeply immoral The Princess went into battle she made. Hitting speech about homelessness, which landed her in political hot water. I'm appalled at the dangers young people face on the streets and how vulnerable they are to exploitation come against the backdrop of budget cuts has speech was seen as an attack on the government. The princess really is a rather strong and willful young lady here, charming and delightful she is in other ways and the speech that she gave about youth homelessness made its way on to the. The parliament and you know we were accused of politicizing the royal family as a result so I thought she was brave in the in a quiet but resolute way I do I mean you could drop it at any time. you know too hot to handle this is an issue that's quite difficult. That's how the world changes people stand up for what they believe in. I think it was hard for I think it was a real, a real strain of the public role quite often um having to do the stuff that she was doing involved with a certain the charities that she was involved with you know you need you need somewhere to you know to to go and dump it. It's always a sense of enthusiasm and energy around and a lot of work as well. There's always that sort of bubbling going on the whole time. I think she lived a lot of her life, especially in private through us and I think that that sort of childish fun elements really came out when you're spending time with us. Mother was a total kid through and through When everybody says to me, you know so she was fun, give us an example. All I can hear is her laugh in my head and that's sort of crazy laugh of where there was just pure happiness shown on her face. One of her mottos to me was You can be as naughty as you want just don't get caught. She was one of the naughtiest parents She would come and watch us play football and you know smuggle sweets into a sock and I was like let's walk back from a football match and having sort of five packets of Starburst and just the whole shirt was just bulging with sweets and I'm looking around at the top box, throw it all in lock it up. She's a massive card writer. She loves the Reader's card. You imagine and I'll be at school and. I got a call from my mother, she found something you know very embarrassing. You know very funny card and and then some very nice stuff inside, but I think they're not opening in case to teach in the class to see it. There's a couple of memories I have that are particularly funny, Just outside this room where we are now um she organized when I came home from school to have Cindy Crawford, Christy Harrington, Andy Campbell waiting at the top of the stairs. I was probably twelve or thirteen year-old boy that I posted them on and uh I went bright red and didn't quite know what to say and sort of fumbled and I think I pretty much fell down the stairs and the out I was completely not sort of strike that. That's live with me forever by her loving and embarrassing and sort of you know being this sort of a joke. A sense of humor was a vital release of Diana as she began to embrace some of the most controversial issues of the day. There is no danger which is become a threat to us all By the 1980s, the world was in the grip of a terrible epidemic. the gay community have been devastated by Aids but tabloid newspapers ignored their suffering and instead accused them of spreading the disease. Their headlines stirred up a storm of prejudice as a young gay man in Walker endured years of discrimination. People were terrified of catching HIV and a lot of people. We talk about the day that they were diagnosed the day that people stop touching them that from then on it was you know, rubber gloves and masks and gowns, and he heard stories of people going to the dentist and people like dressed up in the space suits to deal with them. At a time when the fear of physical contact with aid sufferers was at, it's height the princess visited the Middlesex Hospital. It has the only Aids unit in the UK. She just walked into that room and there was a gentleman and did what she would normally do to any body else she was meeting She just shook him by the hand. And that picture went viral um run around the world. That was very powerful that she made that contact she just smashed all that fear down by that that that that one that one handshake. The London Lighthouse was at the heart of the Aids epidemic in Britain it provided care for the sick and the dying I was uh an occupational therapist. The London Lighthouse and the death were just relentless. You go home at night. And you went to who was gonna be the next day. The became the London lighthouses greatest champion publicly supporting the charity but also regularly visiting patients often in her own time when you come in, it was like she was shining that smile it just being which is smile, she beamed. um I sound like a fan, but you know that's that's how it was um and uh um and I'm not I. Real person Really, I'm a Republican but um she was an exception. How do I have? how are you say? hi, I don't know how are you nice to meet you Terrell and John was a friend of Diana's and like her a committed Aids activist. Would you come here on out? Yeah? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Prince Harry is joining him at the London Lighthouse to hear more about his mother's work. It was considered to be a gay disease and for someone who was within the royal family and he was a woman and who was straight and just have someone care from the other side was an incredible gift and you can see you can see it in the. I say you look back to these days when actually the reality was doom and gloom. Yeah, absolutely and look at all. That was doing everybody in that photograph is fine this morning because of her. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And she had an energy she look at her face in every photograph. There's a positive wonderful. It's also she had this incredible ability, which he kind of inherited and I told him that he's a thanks very much to make people feel at ease and make them feel that everything's gonna be alright. I haven't experienced many people in my life that have that ability, but she could walk into a room of people and make them feel as if everything was great. World AIDS Day and Prince Harry is in Barbados he's encouraging people to take a blood test. It's the best way to stop the spread of Aids. Alright, so I just take a little bit more from you and take it off. No. I'm not gonna take off Prince Harry's brought on her friend to help spread the word. She's one of the most famous women on the planet. welcome Rihanna, thanks for taking part of course. It was an opportunity to to get Rihanna who has you know over 60000000 followers on Instagram alone and to be able to get someone in her position who has lost quite a few friends to Aids. I think is it's fantastic, You're really made this you made it feel like it's a bird. I just think it's incredible what he's doing to bring awareness to HIV and Aids, and I think the most important thing is to kind of dilute the stigma um as much as possible. Um I think that's the thing that's crippling the most. My mother was a role model. She was someone who had a incredibly young age would put her passion behind something that she genuinely believed in And I think that's fantastic. You know good for her and and thank God for her. I'd worked with Charles and for many many years photographing them. When you work with them all those years and you watch every little thing that goes on, you know you become part of it. all you can't help but feel affection towards them and you know you want them to be happy. And newspapers had been writing a lot of stories of negative stories about marriage and personally I had tried to ignore it because I didn't. I didn't want to read them and I didn't want to believe it so I proposed a bit. The penny didn't really drop for me until we went to Korea. She looked wretched he looked wretched and I thought I thought finally I was going on here. It's very when you look at the pictures that they look very distance from each other, even to the point where they're walking down the staircase. They're walking down a separate set of stairs and there's a wall in the middle and it kind of sums up what was going on at that point, It wasn't a very happy to. That was a bad time for. You know the lights are going out if you like. One person who was deeply concerned with the princesses mother in law. I had to talk to about it, but the moral the cream, which to me about it because she was so worried she's so so you know worried about worried about Diana. After a lunch with our moral and going up high and looking down onto this beautiful setting of Heather and castle and incredibly, important chat, very personal personal chat and the Queen want you to know I was Diana feeling and was it just as bad as as it was and that's a sad discussion. Sad, I said, you know the sad moment really took us that was everything at its worst. And I remember going to see in Kensington Palace when things were particularly easy. Married life. She was you know very emotional. emotional. Suddenly these two boys can thundering around the corner in the dressing gowns so before bed and just watching her face light up going from Snapchat chats of suddenly, you know, I'll never forget that moment that help them. you know crawling all over her and things flying everywhere and through all the difficulty of other stuff at that time, as you can see it's. Thing in her life with her boys. It is announced from Buckingham Palace with regret the Prince and Princess of Wales have decided to separate the Royal Highnesses have no plan who was a point of where our parents split and we're and the two of us were bouncing between the two of them and we probably didn't we never saw our mother enough or we never saw our father enough. You know there's a lot of there's a lot of travel and a lot of a lot of you know um fights on the backseat with my brother of which I'd win So it was you know there was there was all that to contend with and I don't pretend that the people have to deal with that, but um it was it was an interesting way of growing up. Have been hard-to-come-by as a member of the royal family, but following her separation media obsession with the princess reached fever pitch. I remember one to take the trip we were in in Australia and the deal was the palace would arranged for several photo call on the first day. And the understanding was that then okay, let them scare off and have a lovely holiday at this particular day. We've had our phone call so we shouldn't been out with your camera anymore and Diana came out with the boys and they try to go through the town to the sweet shop. I'm the photographer just like running everywhere it was like rats running everywhere. I wanted to be in their face right after them pushing and shoving they were fighting with each other photographers falling over and the boys were frightened and I was in the shop when she came into the shop and he was like she was you know seperated by you know what what are they doing? You know why they're doing this. You know. I've kept my part of the deal. We did our photo call why they're all doing this. you know, we said. you know, don't want the boys upset like this. Excuse me as a parent. Could I ask you to respect my children's space because I brought the children out here for a holiday and we'd really appreciate the space and I'm sure it's possible to just get a picture. No no as a parent, I want to protect children. Than 20 years ago, people would be utterly appalled if they knew exactly what went on. I think it was an industry that lost its way quite heavily not a sense of decency. It's perspective on what was appropriate. You are the Prince of Wales your mother, I don't believe being chased by thirty guys on motorbikes who block your path who spit at you shout at you and who reacts really badly to get a reaction from you and make a woman cry in public to get the face off. I don't believe that is appropriate. I suddenly remember most of the time she ever cried about anything to do with precision. About' out. And I, you know we lived through that and one lesson I've learned is you never let them in too far because it's it's very difficult to get back out again and um you've got to maintain uh a barrier and a boundary um because we crossed it it both sides process. um a lot of pain and problems can come from it. In August, 1996 after 15 years of marriage, the Prince and Princess of Wales divorced. Diana was free to shape a new life for herself. Once the divorce has come through a few times, I saw her, she seemed to be at a better place. Um I think she was happier. Once she was no longer a member of the royal family, She, I think just felt a sense of freedom. She was a very attractive woman and she really love looking good. She was free as a bird, and I think she looked amazing. My mother loved her fashion, she loves her clothes. She wasn't a slave to it. I remember walking around the covers and just there was just so many dresses and so many players and she got so that with all these clothes in the cups believe it or not and I said, why don't you give us a call away? Why don't you do something with us? I'm out for this 19000 here in the gallery at 19000 this year, Diana auctioned off dozens of her dresses 25000 raising millions of dollars for Aids and cancer charities The 30000. Five I knew she was gonna say that 200000. I remember how showed me the the catalog and everything else about it and saying this was your idea and I was like well. I had a good idea so um that was nice. The of Headdresses marked a new chapter in the princesses life from now on she will force the press to focus on what she did and not on what she wore, She put her name and put her image and put her passion and energy into something that she genuinely believed in And she knew that by doing that it was going to have a ripple effect across the whole world. In August, 1997, only 3 weeks before she died. Diana arrived in Bosnia. A country have been torn apart by a brutal civil war. With a million land mines still lurking underground, it was one of the most dangerous places on earth. Diana's guides in Bosnia were too committed landmine activists. And the willingness to take such a crazy risk on these two American, you know Legless Cowboys. We have one leg between both of us who didn't have you know two shackles to rub together in Bosnia, I wouldn't have recommended that she go with us. But she chose it. I wasn't to tell anyone about the upcoming visit to Bosnia, not even the embassy not even your ambassadors. No one would know. Was not an easy trip was rigorous and it wasn't a depressing environment in a post conflict area of bossy and she was mourning tonight visiting survivors. Most people want to get away from pain they can't listen to pain. They can't be fully present in the presence of pain and the Princess of Wales could be there. While she was in Bosnia, Diana met some of the younger victims of the conflict like twelve Year-old girl who lost his leg after stepping on a landmine but keep me on my toes, not quite naughty. It was a Santos that they no really they each other. They stop it make a much clubs and he said early. That was it. Knowledge was fifteen when he met Diana he'd also lost his leg after stepping on a landmine. We know that you are make it to someone put a parliament. School uh to the Scriptures that he told me I'll be good on me yet will be able to that in that. Now, In Diana's Bosnian visit was part of a wider campaign behind the scenes she was pushing for a global landmine ban about a month ago. I found a whole series of letters letters that she was supposed to talk and tell that were dated 31st of August There was sitting on her desk here. She knew exactly what needed to be done. She was writing letters to certain people to say right, you know this is what needs to happen in order for this whole sort of tidal wave to change, and it's only recently over the years that I've actually really understood the fact that she was having in those areas and on an international scale as well. 3 months after Diana's visit to Bosnia Bosnia an international treaty was signed outlawing landlines It was perhaps her greatest achievement. She had the ability to literally change a mindset of millions upon millions of people. Oh my God. it's a leprechaun. You're like a naughty school children. Nice to meet you nice to meet Prince Harry has invited Ken Jerry JoCo and Malik to Kensington Palace to share their memories of Diana's Bosnian visit. So you guys, I mean this was this was it 2020 years ago. This is a reunion. you're both still look the same. you have a little bit less hair. You guys were almost the last people to see my mother you so my mother more recently anointed. I guess it was quite strange for the two of you to have a to have a princess like that coming to come and show an interest in your lives and and and within Bosnia the landmine issue and Ilana Seattles my the only light at the end of the tunnel for us. There's a situation um you know I remember her sentence or law school. Let's go. said the nation will be you are not going to be forgotten and that was important to him and that's stuck in your head forever. It is so it's whenever I had hard times. I remember that sentence. On the twentieth anniversary of Diana's visit to Bosnia Prince Harry is finishing the work his mother began. He's launching a new campaign to destroy every remaining landmine the attention My mother brought to this issue wasn't about politics. It was about people when my mother said goodbye to that August just weeks before her untimely death, she told him he would not be forgotten. Please. Help me keep her word to Zach and Malik and other people like them throughout the world who still need us to finish the job. Thank you. During August 1997, Prince William and Prince Harry we're enjoying summer in the Scottish Highlands. While their mother was away, she constantly kept in touch. A very last memory that I have is a phone call a. The time Harry and I were running around minor in business and I play with my cousins and having a very good time as a kid, I never enjoyed speaking to my parents on the phone. Um I'm been far too much time speaking on the phone rather than speaking to each other because of just the way the situation was and the phone rang and off, he went to go and speak to her for 5 minutes and I think Aaron and I was in a desperate rush to say goodbye and I'll see you later um we're gonna go off and if I'd known now, obviously what what's gonna happen? I wouldn't have been so blessed. And everything else, but some phone calls sticks in my mind quite quite heavily. Do you remember, she said. I do I do. And then Harry Harry Mommy's on the phone right my time. If I go, you know, pick up the phone and and you know and it was and it was her speaking from from from Paris and you know she, I can't really necessarily remember what I said, but all I do remember is is probably you know regarding for the rest of my life. The whole shot the phone calls. and if I'd known that was the last time I was gonna speak to my mother, the things that I would the things I would have said to. It's incredibly hard. I have to sort of deal with that for the rest of my life. I'm not knowing that was the last time I was gonna speak to my mom and how differently that conversation would have would have found out if I had even the slightest inkling that that was that you know her life was gonna be taken that night. The princess was taken to intensive care following a car crash The Press Association announced with a news flash at 441 The Diana Princess of Wales has died, according to. Strangest thing was the thousands of people hundreds of thousands of people, but spontaneously gathered in central London. I've never seen anything like it and I don't expect to see anything like it. Want to actually physically be near her? And I think that was because her humanity spoke to their humanity regardless of the difference in class the difference in life experience that they they saw something of themselves in here. It was very strange after her death. You know the the the outpouring of love and emotion from so many people that had never even met her and there was Willie and I walk around and Palace Gardens here and the sea of flowers all the way from the palace Gates all the way back to to Kinsley High Street. I was thinking to myself. how is it that so many people that never met this woman? my mother can be crying and showing more emotion than than I actually I'm feeling. There's nothing like it in the world, it isn't and it's completely lovely. so I like an earthquake just run through the house and into your life and everything it's just it's your mind is completely split and it took me a while to actually sink in. Prince William was 15 years old when his mother died. Prince Harry was only twelve. You know, I'm losing someone so close to you is is utterly devastating, especially at that age. I think it's sort of really spins you out. you don't quite know where you are what you're doing and what's going on. A family came together and I tried to talk as best we could, but big or small at that age is very difficult to communicate and understand your feelings. It's it's very complicated. After the service in Westminster, Abbey Diana's body was taken to her family home at Oth. There on an island in the middle of the round over Lake, she was laid to rest. The first time I heard was uh at the at the funeral on the on the island and probably like an early since then, maybe maybe once so there's a lot of there's you know. there's a lot of there's a lot of grief that still needs to be and to be let out. He try to rebuild your life and you try to understand what's happened and I kept telling myself that you know my mother would not want me to be obsessed. She's not want me to be done. She did not want me to be less um keeping up. I kept so busy as well, which is good. I that sometimes, but it allows you to kind of get through that initial shock phase um and to the point where I say you know, we're talking as much as maybe five to 7 years afterwards. I was so young II grew up sort of thinking that not having a mom was normal. I think it was a classic case of Don't let yourself think about your mom and the grief and the hurt that comes with it because it's never gonna bring it back and it's only gonna make you make you more sad. People deal with grief in different ways. I'm my way of dealing with it was by just basically shutting out locking it out. For 10 years, I was in the army. I just dug my head in the sand and was just it was just white noise. I went for a whole pair of home' trying to sort my sort myself out. To all the people who have lost all their loved ones in the world, you know it's it just connects you with a very sad club. You don't want to be a member of but um you do have a shared a shared sort of pain that you you can understand to see anyone when you when you meet them. Talking about the loss of parents or children is one of the last great to booze, but poignantly in the years before she died. Diana became one of the first public figures to engage with these issues and one of her best friends launched a bereavement charity. UK is find it Diana as an act of friendship she. she did many things that really supported me personally. Good afternoon I hadn't made many speeches. I was really nervous and so she help me with my speech The Child Bereavement Trust with address problems that affect many people's lives And she came to our launch. And of course, it meant that we were in every newspaper on the news and it gave us the best possible launch we could ever had. She had a very natural gift of empathy just by looking at someone she'd have an idea of what they're feeling and actually I. At that You Cambridge. He has a depth of understanding through his own experience that connects with other people. Prince William has continued his mother's relationship with the charity becoming patron of child bereavement UK Uh II strongly believe everyone wants to help they just don't know how to and they usually end up being stumbling a bit. and then you know just think quiet, which is something the worst thing you can do. you know I was pregnant with her second daughter um and I went to a routine 38 week appointment and and um and they found a heartbeat um gosh already. Emily's Baby Abby was still born. John's daughter Rosie died when she was nineteen at the moment we were talking about what do we do with these ashes? We've still got those so it's hard to let go as well as it's very hard to let go. I wasn't there how you come out of a grief. It's a real defining moment. It doesn't go away. It never goes you have to deal with it, but it's your life in a way right and good, and that's the best way that you can. yeah. Thank you so much I appreciate it and it's so great to be to to be as open and as I Zealand keep the memories alive. This thing is alive. Yeah. Yeah. On the twentieth anniversary of Diana's death, a special garden has been created at Kensington Palace to celebrate her life and legacy Graham Dylan was a young gardener when he began working for Diana. They're all very lucky to to know her work with her and be here at that time. This is uh where I always remember we were looking at images diner and the whites and creams and those pastel shades seem to jump out of this a bit on the page and we thought we could maybe develop a scheme that could that could capture that and and would look really really nice. And I've got taller than I thought they're quite you can see we've got the Fox clubs coming in to now, which is wonderful and we're planting these gorgeous white lilies and then we've got this Super fantastic kind of creamy roses. See the two boys and they're throwing a rugby around or kicking a football into the roses. It was great to see And I'm reminding me of my own garden at home with my kids. Always look back on those days with really great happy memories. When you see the boys good enough for me that brings her back that makes me smile when you turn on the television and see that Harry's been bit wicked doing something that's great. but Diana and you see you know you see William Smile You see the way that they react to people. I'm a mother. People used to say to me will you ever in love with Diana and my answer is, of course, I was in overtime and everybody in the world was in love with Diana, I mean every person of every age group of any sex or denomination or anything that new was in love with her. She was just an extraordinary person. In the years since Diana died two of her grandchildren have been born. How do you keep her memory alive for your children? I think call me talking about Granny Diana um so we've got more photos up around the house of her and we talk about her a bit and stuff and it's it's hard because obviously Catherine didn't know her so she cannot really provide that that level of detail so I do regularly putting George shorts bed talk about her And just try and remind them of that. Um there are two grandmothers. There were two grandmothers in their lives and so it's important that they know who she was and that she existed. She'd be the grandmas that she loved the children's beds um but she'd be an owner. She come and go And she come in probably bath time causes an amazing amount of bubbles everywhere bath water all over the place and um and then leave. I wanna make as much time and effort with Charlotte and George as I can because I realized that these early years, particularly a crucial for children and having seen you know what what she did for us. This one, it was quite quite believe it or not you and I are both in the fish right. You're in the tummy, I don't know. Yeah exactly, And she said she writes on it, said Harry. It's got funny. you're potentially inside that you've that you've got at that point and probably coming. I think I was looking forward to speaking you out whenever you're right. I've always been there as well. Time spent with her the feeling of having her around and being in love as a family as a son, I think that's the most precious special memories to me. And it has been hard and it will continue to be hard. It's not a day that's that Willie and I don't wish that she was. We don't know if she was still around and we wonder what kind of a mother she would be now and what kind of a public role she would have and what a difference she'll be making. It should be proud that her and I have managed to come through everything that's happened and I have lost it and that gives me positivity and strength to know that I can, I can face anything that work for me. We felt you know incredibly loved her and I and I'm very grateful that love still still feels that even 20 years old and I think that's a huge credit to her that II can I can still feel that now.