The Tragic Real-Life Story Of Al Pacino

Alfredo James Pacino, better known as Al Pacino, is undoubtedly an icon of our times. He's spent more than 50 years as an actor and is the face for many legendary movies including The Godfather, Scent of a Woman, Scarface, Dog Day Afternoon, Dick Tracy, and The Irishman. He is a method actor who has led a rich life and inspired generations with his talent and unique persona on screen. Pacino is also the recipient of many honors including an Academy Award and two Emmy Awards.

Pacino is a deep thinker who is not afraid of getting honest. He once told The Guardian in a 2015 interview that he has thought about mortality. "You don't think about it yet, but it will come to you," he said, adding that the realization that things do come to an end does hit everyone. He's well-known for being a hardcore method actor and doesn't believe in stopping or quitting. Pacino has claimed that, even if people question his acting skills as his career progresses, he simply doesn't see the point in giving up.

Pacino is an acting legend with many fans across the world, no doubt. But even devoted fans may be unfamiliar with the most tragic moments from his life, like the loss of his mother when he was still struggling to be a full-time actor. Let's take a look at Al Pacino's life, including his ups and downs through the years.

Al Pacino was endlessly fascinated by the arts, even as a kid. As illustrated in a New Yorker piece, Pacino would often take to performing wherever he was, including on the streets. In fact, he was called "the Actor." "We'd act out parts from joke books and comic books," he revealed. He added that he knows a lot of kids star in videos these days but things were different back then and it wasn't common to watch street urchins act out plays in the Bronx. His old neighbor Ken Lipper revealed that Pacino always had that spark in him and "was full of drama." He was not afraid to warm up to different characters and would often experiment out in public.

Pacino was also good looking. His looks and talent both got him noticed early on as girls in the neighborhood admired him, calling him "Sonny Pacino, the lover bambino." The actor was witty too and would use his acting skills to befriend other kids and confuse bullies, something that definitely worked to his advantage. It was almost like he was destined to become an acting legend in the future and achieve success.

When he was a struggling actor, Al Pacino didn't have a lot of money or connections but he was adamant and resilient enough to get through the tough times. "There were times when I was young when I could have used money," he told The Guardian, explaining that he'd even briefly spent a few nights in a storefront. Perhaps that experience taught him to not turn to materialistic things in life. He said he'd simply never been keen on materialism.

It also helped that Pacino truly loved what he was learning. He would read voraciously and meet all kinds of characters on the streets of downtown New York (via Interview Mag). He explained that it helped that he was young and poverty didn't seem that big of a deal at that point. Pacino could survive it because of his age — and with the age-old street slice of pizza. "You just have yourself to deal with. A piece of pizza goes a long way ... But you could live on anything at that age. It doesn't matter. You extract every bit of that piece of pizza," Pacino reflected. His enthusiasm for acting didn't fade in the least and he continued working on it as he learned to survive in the real world.

Al Pacino benefitted from joining the Actors Studio when he was 23, evolving as an actor and polishing his skills under the guidance of director Lee Strasberg. However, Pacino knew he was not like his contemporaries who came from privileged backgrounds. He felt inadequate and different at that point. "I knew I was this vagabond kid," he said (via The Telegraph).

Even at auditions, Pacino realized that as an Italian-American, he didn't look like his competitors. He felt like an outcast but didn't let that bring him down, knowing he needed to be patient for the right gig to come along. "I knew, when the opportunity came, all I'd have to do is be there," he told The New Yorker. Pacino did find himself struggling at times, filled with self-doubt. When he started working on the play "Creditors" and was with actors who'd received classical training, he felt like he couldn't go through with it and wanted to leave the show. Luckily for him, he had director Charlie Laughton, his friend, mentor, and teacher who spoke to him and quelled his fears and doubts. Sticking with the hard material of "Creditors" had been so transformative for Pacino, an image of him in the Off-Off-Broadway play still sits on his mantelpiece.

Al Pacino often turned to alcohol to cope. Being the method actor that he was, he found himself feeling overwhelmed after each performance and felt the need to reward himself, according to the biography Al Pacino: A Life On The Wire by Andrew Yule. In fact, he had his first drink when he was just a teen. He liked the way alcohol made him feel but it started getting in the way of his relationships. For example, when he was in a relationship with actor Jill Clayburgh and had one of his binges, he was barely able to focus on anything around him. Clayburgh told him that she was lonesome, but he was too inebriated to hear it.

Pacino wasn't able to kick his addiction for a long time and once said, "I need that drink after the show, I really need it." However, his loved ones knew this was becoming a problem. He finally acknowledged his drinking problem thanks to his friends and made a decision to get sober in 1977. "My friends finally made me realize that drinking was an addiction," he said. "After each show, I felt entitled to a reward, but now it's ice cream and Oreo cookies!"

Playing a role as iconic as Michael Corleone was a major move for Al Pacino, who found himself being propelled into the limelight all of a sudden. This transition wasn't exactly easy for the actor who wasn't sure how to deal with his newfound popularity. In fact, according to the Hollywood Reporter's Awards Chatter Podcast, he was so disillusioned that he decided to seek professional help to cope. "It [fame] is a big thing to get used to," Pacino explained. "I remember [director and actor] Lee Strasberg saying to me, 'Darling, you simply have to adjust.' And you simply do. But it's not so simple."

He found himself in therapy, attending his sessions five days every week in a bid to manage his mental health. In fact, he would continue with his therapy sessions for 25 years and also choose to take it easy in the 1980s, sticking to doing only five films through that entire decade. "I just wanted to move away from the pace of the whole thing, and it was good for me," Pacino said.

Al Pacino really likes his space and wishes for anonymity. He told The Guardian that he doesn't recall the last time he could simply be out in public without stressing about it and hasn't been able to be outside with his kids. "I haven't been in a grocery store or subway for years. It's hard for my children to go out publicly with me," he admitted, explaining that fame as a concept has evolved drastically over the years and is not how it used to be two decades ago. He recognizes the value of being out and about and not being spotted.

As detailed by the The New Yorker, even when Al Pacino had decided to take a break from acting in the movies after Revolution, he felt happier and didn't feel pressured." It is the very nature of fame that the light is on you a lot," he explained in the interview. "I sort of wanted to turn the light out of my face, so I could see."