A Disordered Mind: 2015-01-04

Saturday, January 10, 2015

Summer: Weather and events guide in St. Petersburg, Russia.

Summer: Weather and events guide in St. Petersburg, Russia.

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Dali’s civil war soldier with one eye…?

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Found images of Twickenham Studios, have eaten Hagen-Daz Ice cream…

"I Lived With You" (1933) Ivor Novello, Ursula Jeans & Ida Lupino - YouTube

…Ernest Palmer – my step grandfather was Ernest Palmer Swindell…

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Like my parents Pink Dodge we had in 1963, we listened to most of them…

Rock And Roll Revival: October 2008

My 11th grade pic and a senior year photo look like this…

1929 Thayer Academy High School Yearbook~Photos~Baseball~Boston~Braintree~Golf | eBay

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Young-Lady-with-Gloves,-1930 WomanGreenDress

I had a hot plate like this is college…

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Gun on Cat Man Against Crime…

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Friday, January 9, 2015

The Wild Bunch (1969) - IMDb

"If they move, kill 'em,"

The Wild Bunch (1969) - IMDb

The other hypnotic suggestion in the Woman in Green…

The woman in Green script, photographed the flower in 2004 and found the film in 2009.

You must sit

down. Mr. Holmes.
You'll feel yourself
going drowsy.
Don't fight it.
Give in to it.
Because you do want
to sleep. you know?
Just fix your eyes on
this one white flower.
Floating on the water.
Empty your mind of
every other thought.
Follow the motion
of the water.
So smooth.
Not a ripple.
Waters of forgetfulness.
Steady.
Deep.
Strong.
Strange. Isn't it.
How the light
is reflected.
Little specks of light
that move and move.
It's restful here.
It's peaceful.
It's friendly.
And you're very close
to finding what
you're looking for.
You'll find them soon now.
The guilty ones.
When you're rested.
Gentle waters
closing over you.
Steady.
Deep.
Strong.
Drawing you down.
Down.
Down.
Sleep.
Sleep.
Sleep.
Here he

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A bullet proof leg…?

The woman in Green script…

That will do.
The other leg
is waterproof.

You must sit
down. Mr. Holmes.
You'll feel yourself
going drowsy.
Don't fight it.
Give in to it.
Because you do want
to sleep. you know?
Just fix your eyes on
this one white flower.
Floating on the water.
Empty your mind of
every other thought.
Follow the motion
of the water.
So smooth.
Not a ripple.
Waters of forgetfulness.
Steady.
Deep.
Strong.
Strange. Isn't it.
How the light
is reflected.
Little specks of light
that move and move.
It's restful here.
It's peaceful.
It's friendly.
And you're very close
to finding what
you're looking for.
You'll find them soon now.
The guilty ones.
When you're rested.
Gentle waters
closing over you.
Steady.
Deep.
Strong.
Drawing you down.
Down.
Down.
Sleep.
Sleep.
Sleep.
Here he

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This is the 64 Belvedere I owned, it was baby blue, much like the Plymouth we had in 1970 which was dark green…

…push button controls but I thought they were on the right of the steering column and not on the left…I am seeing the push buttons on the right.

This dude might be in Baltimore Maryland…

I saw this in a dream vision, I felt like a little girl and was terribly frightened…updating

…it seemed I was in a dark blue vehicle and it felt light weight, like it was going to float off the road.  I don’t remember anything after that.  In 1974 I fell face first in Lake Mattamuskeet after drinking wine and beer with friends.  I walked down to the water’s edge and fell in…Rupert who was with us on the lake, died in 1977 after falling asleep at the wheel and running off the road, into a canal in front of his home in Hyde, NC…he never owned either of the vehicles below…

The first image is a Ford Galaxy 500 and the second a Lincoln continental.  I recognize the second and third dashes clearly but the body type of the car was more like the one at the bottom…

In the fall of 1978 I signed up for Criminal Justice curriculum at Pitt Community College…I did own a Plymouth Fury III in July of 1978,  like the one below.

Mr. Bennett managed the ECU bank in Swan Quarter, NC, where I drove my Volkswagon into a corn field in 1970.

Lincoln dash Lincoln cont dash 1

…Ford Galaxy 500…

1966 Plymouth Fury III… 

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Kirsty Scott: How the theft of the Stone of Scone in 1950 inspired a new movie | Film | The Guardian

Kirsty Scott: How the theft of the Stone of Scone in 1950 inspired a new movie | Film | The Guardian

I said this is what happened during Freud’s years in Austria…

On March 16, the citadel was captured and those Jews left alive were murdered. The mob then stole the records of debts to Jews from a nearby cathedral and burned them.

United Kingdom Virtual Jewish History Tour | Jewish Virtual Library

United Kingdom Virtual Jewish History Tour | Jewish Virtual Library

Many Jews were murdered, some allowed themselves to be baptized. Twenty-four hours later, Richard I found out about the riots and ordered that the Jews be protected.

United Kingdom Virtual Jewish History Tour | Jewish Virtual Library

Nuts film - “brief case”, triggering The Woman in Green…

I’ve seen someone who looks like Richard Dreyfus put something in a brief case very anxiously.

Kay's Place, History, Television and Entanglements...

I was in the hospital, knocked out with Atarax and I thought S kissed me on the lips…

This was in it…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 8:21:41 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/9/9d/Jean-Honor%C3%A9_Fragonard_-_The_Stolen_Kiss.jpg

Kay's Place, History, Television and Entanglements...

…I didn’t think of Snow White at the time…

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Previous Posts…

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What's In Kay's Mind 2

Today, July 27, 2012, 11 minutes ago

This is exactly why I no longer trust them…

Today, July 27, 2012, 11 minutes ago | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

In writing the previous discourse I was reminded of the Rabbi who wrote the book, Why Good Things Happen to Bad People, which I read in part. I couldn't buy all that

What's In Kay's Mind 2

The book, The Law of Psychic Phenomena, by Hudson alludes to the need for others to process our information at night (Night People) while we sleep (While You Were Sleeping), the actual title of the book is, Why Bad Things Happen to Good People.  In essence the erroneous title is an admission of causing harm and wrong doing and still profiting, “it is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than it is for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven”.  You would believe how that has been twisted to suit the rich man.

deconstruction (criticism) : Deconstruction in philosophy -- Britannica Online Encyclopedia

Today, July 27, 2012, 19 minutes ago | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

deconstruction (criticism) : Deconstruction in philosophy -- Britannica Online Encyclopedia

Discourse on Deconstructing the Deceits…

Monday, August 07, 2006

Having been "out in the world" for nearly 34 years I have seen the differences is the way children in rural communities are educated as compared to those educated in more urban communities where there is a higher concentration of people and tax dollars and more advantages for the creative instructors. Children are encouraged to be more creative in urban schools while those from rural schools are trained to be less creative and more logical, in hopes of obtaining a decent reliable job or career. This divides the rural student from his creative abilities and when he or she is challenged in an arena of students who have been encouraged to be creative he or she cannot meet the demands and often finds him/herself yielding his/her creative abilities to another. Creativity, so they think, is better left to the economically advantaged. Can you imagine walking around with half of your mind missing [I have half a mind to...] and half of your brain non-functional, out of psychic balance? What does this do to one's physiology? Plenty, but who cares. There is no law that says that one has to surrender one's creative abilities to anyone yet because we live in a Capitalist Society which seems to rule the day, the economically disadvantaged are dissuaded from pursuing such indulgences while being encouraged to lavish their attentions on those who pursue the creative life by supporting and buying the results of their creative efforts. What is actually happening here is that those who are being relegated to the more logical side of nature are being robbed of their intellectual property, their creative genius and their most private thoughts and feelings and in return are being fed advertisements for their products, etc. There is something innately wrong with this one sided deal.

In writing the previous discourse I was reminded of the Rabbi who wrote the book, Why Good Things Happen to Bad People, which I read in part. I couldn't buy all that he was saying, I knew there had to be another explanation and I don't know if he just wasn't telling it or he truly didn't know himself. This was before I read anything about synchronicity, scripts, patterns, or anything at all written by Carl Jung. I learned a lot from Jung's experience with the patient and the scarab beetle and the more I learned about psychology the more I could see what was going on between him and his patient that even he didn't disclose in his writings, his own defense mechanisms at work. My how illusive they can be. I admit having little knowledge of Psychology or Psychoanalysis at all, Jung was a bit much to fathom but I was drawn in immediately after reading Man and His Symbols. Phathom that, a hick from the sticks reading Jung? To what is the world coming? Unfortunately my discoveries came 32 years too late. Of course this was anticipated well in advance, my not making this discovery until it was too late to do anything about it and I am suppose to chalk it all up to life. Fortunately for me, I also encountered books about being held accountable and that of course applied to those who take unfair advantage as well as to myself. What was I accountable for? Having been born into a blue collar family? Having grown up in a rural community? Having a blind father? Or, having lost the best part of myself to some stranger, having poisoned my mind with someone else's thoughts and feelings, having neglected myself in the worst way possible and having ignored the fact that there are self indulgent, thoughtless people who will do you harm, steal from you with little concern about doing it and so denying myself the protection from them I rightly deserve. When there is no grub on the table one can become the cannibal's victim and we are suppose to douse ourselves with the A-1 before we spread ourselves before them, fresh kill. This is the harshest of realities I have tried to deal with and often the anxiety is so intense that I resort to the comforts of my agoraphobia. If I were rich I would never go out or if I lived in a place where I could get my food and supplies delivered you would never see me. When I do the daily chore of trying to maintain psychic balance expends more of my energy than I desire to give to it and I have little left for anything relaxing or enjoyable as I am busy trying to sort through the day, where I've been and with whom I have conversed and collecting the pieces of myself. Why do they call me anti-social when it has been my attempts to socialize that have been abused? The double bind again, the old damned if you do, damned if you don't. If they tell you you're anti-social you behave in a way that says you aren't and then they get you. It is a trick, this socializing thing, a lure to suck you in, plain and simple...

See Eric Fromm, Authoritarianism

The idea of being swallowed up (in the movie it's more about men being swallowed up by women, the male anima) is depicted in Spielberg's Artificial Intelligence, when robot lover boy and David hitch a ride to fantasy land designed to look like a mall. They enter one of the many gaping mouths of a woman's head that is a tunnel eventually leading David to face who he really is.

Kay F Gibbs

A female put over by a male Jew – Unamuno ~ Mamunia ~ Mamuno

Today, July 27, 2012, 34 minutes ago | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Miguel de Unamuno - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…looks most like Armenian for mother.

Arms are too short…

Today, July 27, 2012, 51 minutes ago | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Walking Man Under X-Rays. 3d Render. Stock Photo 55563673 : Shutterstock

The arms are too short…

Today, July 27, 2012, 52 minutes ago | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Walking man radiography stock photo

It’s quite clear to me the intent was to manipulate masses of people for personal purposes of the Jews…

Today, July 27, 2012, 2 hours ago | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…and then they discovered stem cells and that has been the sole purpose of all these linguistic manipulations to get women to abort their babies and why the film Love From a Proper Stranger was made and why and how we have found ourselves deeply in debt economically.  An obsession with “eternal life”, I’m sure has something to do with it.  I can’t speak for anyone else but I surely know this has been the case in my family and with me.  What they have done is despicable, reprehensible and illegal. 

After reading Melanie Klein, realizing her work was very important and finding its truth validated by my own life, I was puzzled as to why California clung to Freud’s ideas.  Now I know.

Coming full circle – Bernays ~ Unamuno…

Today, July 27, 2012, 2 hours ago | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Unamuno was possessed of a Jew…

I have been hearing and thinking “ you’re stupid”, a lot.  Not sure if it’s from the film Century of the Self, as I was quite offended and enraged by what I learned in that film.

That’s interesting since his people are known for it too…

Today, July 27, 2012, 2 hours ago | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

result of the 'herd instinct'

Edward Bernays - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…I think this is a big fat lie.

Incoming…

Today, July 27, 2012, 2 hours ago | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“That’s why she quit crapping up”.

Let’s get this straight, there was no intent to crap up and has never been.  This constant television viewing has been the result of slick linguistics (memes for the millennia) in films and mostly television, used to induce the viewer to continue watching TV or listening to music, even hypnotizing the viewer so they can be controlled, unfortunately causing them to be subjected to the content in the films rather than merely entertaining or teaching them anything.  We are victims and we have to be warriors.

So I would appreciate it if you would refer to my psychological addiction as just that rather than “crapping up”.  And who knows, it could be someone I am possessed of rather than myself.

Saw it in the 80’s…

Today, July 27, 2012, 12 hours ago | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: It happened again…

Another Holmes victim?

Today, July 27, 2012, 12 hours ago | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Hypercube…

It happened again…

Today, July 27, 2012, 12 hours ago | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Judy Garland looks like HH Holmes…

Yesterday, July 26, 2012, 11:04:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Scenes from this in Suspect film…

Yesterday, July 26, 2012, 10:55:10 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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This might be one, I really liked Hanky Panky by Madonna…

Yesterday, July 26, 2012, 10:47:50 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Stairs in the HH Holmes structure…

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I recall Bridgewater being mentioned a few times by my father…

Yesterday, July 26, 2012, 9:48:11 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Jesse Pomeroy - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I think she is one of HH Holmes’ victims…

Yesterday, July 26, 2012, 6:51:55 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Gloria Swanson - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…I ate a lot of Swanson frozen dinners.  I met a Parker, a Young and I have been to the Roxy.

In at least one of the murder’s by HH Holmes I think he was trying to kill his feminine parts…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 11:56:21 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

If Jesus was suffering from multiple personalities…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 11:54:19 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: The first Mata Hari...

…then the Temple Priests and the 12 disciples were all part of the psyche…I think there were 12 Temple Priests also.  The death of Jesus would mean freedom for all of them, freedom from consciousness of their evil thinking.

The first Mata Hari...

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 11:50:04 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

There has been some debate among historians regarding Mary Magdalene's character, specifically whether or not she was a prostitute. I have reason to believe she was the first mata hari or spy. I also have reason to believe prostitution was a way for the Jews to determine who was Jewish and who was not and she was the madam, so to speak and that she had a relationship with Judas Iscariot and not Jesus and that she bore Judas Iscariot children. Nor do I believe that Jesus died on the cross. I also believe she was backed by the Temple Priests.

I also have reason to believe Katherine Edwina Gibbs had discovered these facts before her death.

Kay F Gibbs

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Something I wrote in 2006…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 11:45:51 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Re: The first Mata Hari...update 4

Could there be a connection to Jack the Ripper? Statements were made in graffiti declaring Juwes innocent of the killing spree and could there be any connection to Robert Stroud's behavior and associations with a prostitute?

In 1989 I drew a picture of a woman with no head, hands or legs below the knee. I have no idea where it came from but I had heard sometime afterwards that the police were looking for a killer who had dismembered a female body that had washed up on the shore. I was in the psychiatric hospital at the time I drew the sketch. Then there is also the events recorded about the assaults on the Daughter's of Wisdom who also existed during the time of the Marquis De Sade, in which it was reported that sexual orgies were held among the priests and nuns. I was born in a Catholic Hospital, Maryview Hospital in Portsmouth, VA, managed by the Daughters of Wisdom. My father bought a canary for us when we were children and he attacked it one day out of the blue, knocking it and the cage to the floor. We got rid of the bird. My mother's grandmother is Elvira Jones.

How can these events be associated? Repetition compulsion, which gives rise to the importance of bringing to consciousness the cause of one's behavior. Re-enactment of traumatic events are also part of the Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome symptomatology. Not only could some male figure have been caught up in a re-enactment but the prostitutes as well, in the Jack the Ripper case, as in some of the incidents the women could have drawn the violence upon them, not knowing down what path there psyches were leading them. This means that some of the killers may not have been the Ripper but could have been copycat killers who were acting out the Ripper's behavior, explaining why the modus operandi was a bit different or altered. Of course some could have simply taken advantage of the fact that there was a notorious killer running free and could have acted out their aggressions knowing it would be blamed on the Ripper. Or, some desperate person seeking validation could have read De Sade's books and could have been acting it out in a more violent manner. See movie, Out of the Mouth of Madness. KFG

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More thoughts on appetency…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 11:15:13 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

It is easy to see that in the stage of appetency, one’s instincts for survival are dependent on the behaviors acquired and this acquisition will continue until one has acquired behaviors that ensure survival of the individual and the species, why on the one hand, George Bush’s Presidency was especially important symbolically, to the Nation, individually and as a whole and on the other his Presidency presents the Nation with many social problems. It is also becoming clear to me that when one does not acquire these needs successfully within the family, one will resort to acquiring them elsewhere, stealing and resorting to all sorts of trickery if necessary, in order to acquire that which is necessary to survival. This may be the real underlying causes of rape and other sexual crimes.

Even in my own family it is apparent that I was put in the position of educating my siblings and parents rather than my parents educating me. Of course there were a host of other problems my family were not even aware of that disrupted our lives.

Jean-Luc Nancy - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 10:34:57 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Jean-Luc Nancy - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Eating cheese…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 10:24:21 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Bataille was diagnosed with cerebral arteriosclerosis

Georges Bataille - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

“I always wondered if The Story of O was related to that man (Sade), now I’ve come as close as ever…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 10:22:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…yes, at someone else’s expense.

“you’ve made good money, Miss Gibbs”…?

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 10:16:04 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What planet are you on cause I’ve made nothing from any of this stuff, its gone into someone else’s pocket.

Thank you all…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 10:02:06 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…now I feel like I can rest myself for a little here…

I recognize this man in here…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 9:55:03 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Georges Bataille - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

My God I didn’t even know it was Merrick…:o

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 9:41:57 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: 5+ years ago I struck out across the street to the mall with this on my arm…

Emmy Lou is the baseball fanatic…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 9:40:05 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

5+ years ago I struck out across the street to the mall with this on my arm…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 9:34:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: It also just occurred to me she could have been mixed up in Frederick Hohenstaufen’s bird caretaking…

…some people thought it was something new from the hospital.   I didn’t know about Frederick then, I was just goofing off.  It never occurred to me it might be a splint on an arm.  I don’t know anyone who has broken an arm.

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MDA – and we little Jesuses will be the ones getting bounced around…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 9:16:10 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

MDA

This is the pattern I developed, running around getting run down, joining the Army, then psychiatric hospitals…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 9:12:38 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: After reading more, her starvation appears to be a case of attempted murder…

…jail and prisons, eating myself fat then going out and getting run down again.

Re: sleep hypnosis…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 9:10:42 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I was taking pseudoephedrine, Dexadrine, and black beauties to stay awake in college.  I also did MDA.

HH Holmes was the victim of a repetition compulsion…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 7:28:06 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: It also just occurred to me she could have been mixed up in Frederick Hohenstaufen’s bird caretaking…

…but unconscious therefore uninterested in finding the cause of his behavior.

The Care Takers – Barbara’s film about Mother Orchid.  Could Empress Elisabeth really have been overweight and no one could see it?

It also just occurred to me she could have been mixed up in Frederick Hohenstaufen’s bird caretaking…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 7:24:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Her habits seem like those of a dominatrix…

…and that her corsets were manifestations of Frederick’s attempts at healing a bird with a broken wing.  Things I have come across in my past all seem to be parts of the history.  I did once find a bird with a broken wing and had an inclination to want to bandage the bird up but was deterred because of possible viruses, etc.

There also seems to be the possibility Ahkenaton plays a role in the possible murder of Nefertiti. 

Try barley, it works…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 6:46:26 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Gamma-Hydroxybutyric acid, aka GHB

» Sleep Hacking Part 3: Falling Asleep Fast with Biochemistry The Bulletproof Executive

I ate some yesterday at about 7:30 PM.  By 8:30 PM I was so drowsy I couldn’t hold my head up.  I took my vitamins before the meal with skim milk.   I fell sleep for two hours.  This was the second time I had fallen asleep yesterday.

Unfortunately I didn’t fall sleep last night after going to bed and was up and down all night.

This tells me that magnesium also inhibits motor activity.

I am tired of this dirt you’ve put me into and I want out of it…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 6:27:34 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I have no interest in reading novels and avoid reading them…updated

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 5:48:23 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Amazon.com: Depraved: The Definitive True Story of H.H. Holmes, Whose Grotesque Crimes Shattered Turn-of-the-Century Chicago (9780743490351): Harold Schechter: Books

This could be who was writing it while I got my ass in trouble over it and nearly killed.  I do know a Harold Smith.  Red-headed.  So you are related to the Smith’s or mixed up with them, Schecter/Becker/Smith whoever you really are.

I’m sure he’d recognize these.  Maybe Sir Phillip Gibbs’.

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“Come on now”, “this shit’s got to be cleaned up”…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 5:39:47 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I have no interest in reading novels and avoid reading them…

…I think I’ve already done that, I’ve acted it out stupid.  You are burning my synapses for the things I’ve already been through, you are ripping my me off.

GET OUT.

She went up the stairs and couldn’t go further…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 5:05:49 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…there was a brain game I downloaded on my PC.  It worked like a maze.  You had to identify the hidden parts of the brain to move from one level to another.  When I reached the end there was a glitch in the program and it would not advance.  It was something some software developer created but couldn’t figure out how to advance or just didn’t bother.

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I think I know what’s going on…

I think I know what’s going on…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 5:01:28 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…there was a brain game I downloaded on my PC.  It worked like a maze.  You had to identify the hidden parts of the brain to move from one level to another.  When I reached the end there was a glitch in the program and it would not advance.  It was something some software developer created but couldn’t figure out how to advance or just didn’t bother.

However, this is interesting given the nature of HH Holmes’ creation as parts of the mind…

There is something going on about glycine and glia and someone’s lost some of their glia or brain tissue…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 4:55:39 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…they are thinking glia may be formed by glycine.

Phineas Gage?

I think it has caused collagen like growths on my neck and could be what happened to Joseph Merrick or someone he was possessed of.

I weighed less than 110 lbs here…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 4:26:16 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I ate excessive amounts of fat and not enough protein.  I took no vitamin supplements at all.  I lost muscle mass.  My sleep problems were due to things I had seen on television and people likely projecting their non-sleep states away from themselves while they remained in a hypnotic television viewing state.

I slept well as a teenager when my father wasn’t cutting up (trying to keep us out of trouble with his family history ((Hall and Woodhouse) and the television)). 

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After reading more, her starvation appears to be a case of attempted murder…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 4:23:39 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Her habits seem like those of a dominatrix…

My Aunt’s name was Mamie Elizabeth Gibbs, she died of a stroke.  She was not fat, she did consume it.  It is my thinking possibly, Empress Elisabeth’s future incarnation might have been riddled with still yet another murder attempt.

The natural destiny of a Queen is to give an heir to the throne. If the Queen is so fortunate as to provide the State with a Crown-Prince this should be the end of her ambition - she should by no means meddle with the government of an Empire, the care of which is not a task for women... If the Queen bears no sons, she is merely a foreigner in the State, and a very dangerous foreigner, too. For as she can never hope to be looked on kindly here, and must always expect to be sent back whence she came, so will she always seek to win the King by other than natural means; she will struggle for position and power by intrigue and the sowing of discord, to the mischief of the King, the nation, and the Empire...[8]

When I added Epsom Salts to a plant I had it died from too much water…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 3:43:24 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Plants have an additional use for magnesium in that chlorophylls are magnesium-centered porphyrins. Magnesium deficiency in plants causes late-season yellowing between leaf veins, especially in older leaves, and can be corrected by applying Epsom salts (which is rapidly leached), or else crushed dolomitic limestone to the soil.

Magnesium - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…it started to rot at the base.

I question this considering what I have discovered, it is mimicking some brain neurotransmitter…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 3:28:47 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Hypomagnesemia may result from a number of conditions including inadequate intake of magnesium, chronic diarrhea, malabsorption, alcoholism, chronic stress, and medications such as diuretics use among others.

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Hypomagnesemia - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Or wrapping a mummy ~ Cleopatra…?

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 3:09:27 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Her habits seem like those of a dominatrix…

Holmes House, base of a Pyramid…?

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Madame Dimanche…?

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 2:54:44 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Her (Empress Elisabeth of Austria) habits seem like those of a dominatrix…

Her habits seem like those of a dominatrix…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 2:53:41 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Funchal – yes I have used and eaten fennel for the lungs…

The Marquis de Sade?   Someone must have made her feel guilty for eating or complained of her appearance which caused her to binge in private.

This would be the Funchal connection to Empress Elisabeth of Austria ~ Barbara Stanwyck.  So, this was the source of my binge eating and weight obsessions.

Sissie -this is what my Aunt Mamie called my Aunt Bessie…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 2:27:00 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

From an early age, she was called Sisi by family and friends.

Empress Elisabeth of Austria - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

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Empress Elisabeth of Austria - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 2:12:14 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Empress Elisabeth of Austria - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

A dike is a dyke is a lesbian??????

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 2:09:53 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

the dyke in Pena

Funchal - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…MIS-INTERPRETATIONS DUE TO HISTORICAL IGNORANCE.

Incoming…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 2:07:15 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I haven’t been saving that girl from a damned thing Taylor”…

That obsession with the Brits is your problem.

Funchal – yes I have used and eaten fennel for the lungs…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 2:05:10 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Funchal - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Drawing interpretation…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 1:58:43 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…a friend of mine has feng shuied this scene in his home.

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Durer’s mother?

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 1:42:22 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Banff ~ Banfi…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 1:40:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I’ve had a few bottles of Banfi Chianti, not bad.  Like the Ruffino Reserva better.

Incoming…

Wednesday, July 25, 2012, 2:12:23 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Boy do I have news for them, their pocketbooks will be dwindling while they sleep”.  “We’re not working for them anymore”.

“I think you’re queer”.

I think you are ignorant.

I did this in 1999…

Tuesday, July 24, 2012, 10:40:29 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Mrs. Gulch and the Wicked Witch of the East with her curled up toes…

Tuesday, July 24, 2012, 10:33:32 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I recognized this after I felt my own toes want to curl up after my niece has seen The Wizard of Oz…

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That girl is glad she took the LSD…

Tuesday, July 24, 2012, 1:58:02 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…spoken as if I had committed some great sin.  The greatest sin is to remain ignorant of the truth.  I can see the fear of discovery of the truth would drive others who stand to lose a great deal, to wish to cover up these facts and findings.  We’d all do well to use it at least once to prove to ones self there is a mind outside the self and it has a powerful affect on one’s behavior.  Like I said if the drug could be made safer I would do it again without hesitation and certainly with another present. 

What I have discovered since that time is that the amino acid glycine inhibits kinesthetic activity in the area of the parietal lobe and when it is reduced manic depressive like symptoms occur.  It is my thinking that someone associated with those discovering this amino acid must have taken it, finding these results.

“Oh where is that kid”…

Tuesday, July 24, 2012, 1:56:56 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…must have been Stanwyck’s son…or Payton’s mother…

Messages enter the brain and then the brain works to achieve the results of the message, like “sleep”…

Tuesday, July 24, 2012, 1:50:51 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…people are more receptive to messages when they are in a hypnotic state or asleep.  For one to be controlled constantly they would have to be in a constant state of hypnosis.  However, once the brain has created these messages or processed a film or read a book, it is stored in the mind and it is there that it comes to life again and where others may be subjected to its content.  If the brain is defective it will create a defective replica of that which it recorded.  

The only reason you are even questioning my mental capacity is so you can squirm you little…

Tuesday, July 24, 2012, 1:31:48 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…asses out of this trouble you’ve suddenly found yourselves in up to your eyeballs.  If I were shoving my face into the TV NOTHING WOULD BE SAID ABOUT MY BEING DISABLED OR DELUDED BY THE TV OR FILMS OR BOOKS.

FOR ONCE TELL THE TRUTH.

I did a graphics design like the sketch on the right located in the room on the bottom at the head of my bed…

Tuesday, July 24, 2012, 1:24:50 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…there are other similar drawings on the wall of my room.  It was burgundy with black background.  I never knew about this film as I had never seen it and had already been elevated by the Iranians.  I was working at Nichol’s Disocunt Center at the time I lived at 403 B in this image.  I also lived there in 1975.

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Incoming…

Tuesday, July 24, 2012, 1:21:05 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“We are special people”.

This is what these murdering, marauding, thieving, sick mind controlling bastards think of themselves, while they are killing people and their babies.  THEY THINK THEY ARE SPECIAL.  TO WHOM?  CERTAINLY NOT MY ASS.

Is this the real HH Holmes?

Tuesday, July 24, 2012, 12:28:36 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Also in 1950, Dr. Joseph Stokes of the University of Pennsylvania deliberately infected 200 female prisoners with viral hepatitis.[38]

Unethical human experimentation in the United States - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

My roommate at 403B was thought to have hepititis.

“I need to go to a sound proof room, I can’t stand the noise”…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 10:18:53 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I was afraid of the loud band music as a child” – Kay F. Gibbs

Suspect ~ “looking for Wood”…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 10:04:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Wood, could she have been one of the HH Holmes victims…

Wood, could she have been one of the HH Holmes victims…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 9:58:26 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…pushed down the chute…?

I think this is one I was mixed up in…I don’t recall this film…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 9:56:01 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…wasn’t this kind of bold for the 60’s?

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I recognize the ceiling in this film…I have seen this film it was in the late 60’s…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 9:51:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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This is where we were deluded by the book, The Law of Psychic Phenomena…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 9:39:59 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

There are advantages to writing left-handed.  The left brain is where most of the intelligence resides.

What's In Kay's Mind 2

Incoming…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 9:37:50 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I hate this girl is left handed”…

I think this is referring to an artist or writer as opposed to a ball player batting left-handed.  There are advantages to writing left-handed.

This is where Blue Velvet came up…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 9:33:53 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I met Dennis – someone w/TB ~ Barbara…

I met Dennis – someone w/TB ~ Barbara…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 9:32:45 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Along with fellow newcomers Gary Lockwood and Phyllis Diller, Sandy made her movie debut in playwright Inge's Splendor in the Grass (1961), a movie quite welcoming of Sandy's neurotic tendencies. In the minor but instrumental role of Kay, she is an unwitting instigator of friend Deanie's (played by an ambitiously unbalanced Natalie Wood) mental collapse. Despite this worthy little turn, Sandy would not make another film for five years.

Sandy Dennis (I) – Biography?

…collecting cats, repetition compulsion…?

Throwing the rocks at the light haired people…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 5:13:15 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Stoning of St, Stephen

Stevie was the Yoder’s young son.  We apologize for our ignorance.

Chiaroscuro – blond hair – brown/black hair – light/dark – my daffodil…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 5:09:05 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Chiaroscuro - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Lorenzo Ghiberti ~ St. Stephen…I have been aware of Ghiberti since my beginning making these connections…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 5:07:16 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

creating the things from Madame Dimanche surgery…

Mephisto Waltz…

Hypercube…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 4:09:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Banff Hotel ~ base of the Ark ~ Tuzigoot – I feel certain the drawings I did were of the Sedona area…

…falling through the disintegrating cube, landing on the shore….

I think Elise at A Southern Season is in some of this stuff…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 4:07:17 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Connection…?

Monday, July 23, 2012, 3:50:43 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Leslie Castle…

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Bike Cycle ~ rickshaw

Monday, July 23, 2012, 3:40:54 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…someone was riding a motorized recumbent cycle a few days ago…H-building.

I was riding my bicycle around the cemetery in Beaufort County…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 3:36:14 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…does the soul revisit the body’s resting place?  Did my Uncle Richard do this or some other cyclist…

Someone keeps falling out of a chair and rolling onto the floor…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 3:35:24 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

STOP IT.

A replica of Gibbs’ Radcliffe Camera is photographed out here…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 3:31:17 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: The Gypsies…at Walton on The Naze, Essex, England

Gibbes image on Ipatiev house site looks more like Niels Bohr…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 3:23:55 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Ipatiev House

HH Holmes ~ Charles Sydney Gibbes ~ P. Gilliard ~ Romanovs…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 3:21:40 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Port Huron ~ Lake Huron ~ Huron Gibbs…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 3:20:01 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Businesses

Goshen, Illinois

vintage 60's Chartreuse Gingham floral full by ingeniousrehab - updated

Monday, July 23, 2012, 3:11:22 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

vintage 60's Chartreuse Gingham floral full by ingeniousrehab

Char woman - Toulouse Lautrec…

This image bears a resemblance to Chicago and the location of the Industrial Arts Center in 1983…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 3:04:40 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

http://www.putmans.co.uk/OldWalton_Esplanade+ETerr_Assets/347-Eascliff-Terrace.jpg

I am not fond of chartreuse…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 3:01:51 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I do like Cher…what I said was I actually hate chartreuse.  Was she one of the victims?

The buses in Raleigh had seats this color.

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The Gypsies…at Walton on The Naze, Essex, England

Monday, July 23, 2012, 2:59:24 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Putnam’s Photographers

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There were two Doctors in my family living in Chapel Hill, I met the woman who kept house for them…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 2:39:45 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I hit on this too…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 2:38:46 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Barnard Lea

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I think he was drugging some of them if not all of them to get them under his control…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 2:32:46 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: What's In Kay's Mind 2: The oven type sketch I did – this looks very similar to my dream…updated

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The many mansions of this man…?

Monday, July 23, 2012, 2:29:12 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Aristoxenus (physician) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Architectonica Maximus….

Monday, July 23, 2012, 2:22:01 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Dante's Hell? | Flickr - Photo Sharing!

This is likely the first floor or basement of a castle or the Paris Catacombs…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 2:20:51 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I recognize many of the Horror films I’ve seen as likely part of this history…

Dante’s Hell ~ Canaan – I’ve been to “Canaan and I want to go back again”…

Places in Canaan maybe…?

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Salt Mines of Soledar…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 2:15:10 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

http://englishrussia.com/2012/03/30/salt-mines-of-soledar/

Correction not Vasiliev I meant Vesalius, Andreas…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 2:11:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Banff Hotel ~ base of the Ark ~ Tuzigoot – I feel certain the drawings I did were of the Sedona area…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 2:03:40 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I am acquainted with Paula Glasser who lives there now…

Banff Hotel – This place is quiet magnificent. 

TuzigootThe Sedona Lodge

An upside down submarine?

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This is the other sketch I made, March 2012, later than the other one I also have a pencil sketch…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 1:28:21 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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The Gay Sisters – I see what’s happening…updated

Monday, July 23, 2012, 1:21:36 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The other ghosts at the hotel aren’t as helpful. In 1932, a bride died on her wedding day when her dress caught on fire and she tumbled down the stairs.

13 of the World’s Most Haunted Hotels | The Jetpacker

The Frank Lloyd Wright House in the area…

Look at this.  It resembles my Praying Mantis picture…someone was praying in people.  They started that series but then it stopped. I had seen it once or twice.  That was after I did my sketches. 

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This is similar to what he created…update 3

Monday, July 23, 2012, 2:48:17 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…he may have invented this attachment.  I also used it to cut out circular mats.

Based on what I was doing it is likely an architect was creating a pattern for a round window.  My Uncle did make a pair of wagon wheel styled coffee tables my cousin.

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Compass and extension…updated

Monday, July 23, 2012, 2:21:25 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…The extension was a steel rod flat and all four side.  A u-shaped piece with a hole for the pencil slipped onto the rod.  A wing nut type screw with a copper head was used to tighten everything together.  It was attached to my Rotring Compass with a piece which came with the compass.  This permitted me to draw extra large circles using pen and ink.

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This is like the compass set I had, mine is an older model and has the hoop at the top.  It was a very nice.  As you can see the extension which comes with it is not very long I had Niel (kneel) make one for me, approximately 12 inches long.  Nothing fancy but worked well.

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I lived on Hazelwood Avenue in Anderson Heights, Raleigh, NC…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 1:33:16 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Castle Leslie was designed for Sir John Leslie, 1st Baronet.

William Henry Lynn - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Wiley was living in the K building here…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 1:21:30 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Wiley Lynn - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

David Lynn (architect) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Monday, July 23, 2012, 1:17:54 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

David Lynn (architect) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Amber Lynn – ?????

Monday, July 23, 2012, 1:15:37 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Amber Lynn - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Hillside Strangler – possible HH Holmes victim – a milner? (Milner Hotel – I stayed there one night) ( J.R. Milne?) maybe…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 1:10:00 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Five days later, on November 6, 1977, the nude body of another woman was discovered near the Chevy Chase Country Club. Similar to Judith Lynn Miller, she had been strangled with a ligature. The woman was identified as 21-year-old Lissa Teresa Kastin, a waitress, and was last seen leaving work the night before she was discovered. Whereas some of the other victims were prostitutes, Lissa Kastin was a characteristically "good girl" who had also worked part time for her father's real estate and construction business. A ballet student, she was saving money to continue her training and hoped to become a professional dancer.

Hillside Strangler - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…one who operates mill…Strangler in the Swamp film, repetition compulsion…Moth Man…

So you thought I was a Copycat…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 12:46:45 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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21 nielson Avenue, Everett, MA - Google Maps

Monday, July 23, 2012, 12:10:43 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

21 nielson Avenue, Everett, MA - Google Maps

…The Cell – there could be a body buried in that cellar if it is a cellar…I remember that cellar from my childhood, I thought we had one but we didn’t…I was playing under the back porch of the neighbor’s house…

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I WANT THIS OFF MY COMPUTER NOW…

Monday, July 23, 2012, 12:03:33 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

cookie:kay@stephhicks68.hubpages

This is the chocolate fudge cake I got from Shoney’s…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 11:42:10 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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I think some other people were stealing or he was selling the property of the people he killed…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 11:03:50 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Lucy is in my story I posted along with a lot of other stuff…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 11:03:06 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

OFFICIALLY HE LIVED WITH WIFE MYRTA AND THEIR BABY LUCY, AND AT WILMETTE, JUST OUTSIDE CHICAGO.

MURDER HOTEL - A DMP Production

I did get on the L-Train while I was in Chicago…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 11:01:20 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

NARRATOR:
HOLMES SAYS HE NOW INVITED MINNIE WILLIAMS ON A TRAIN TRIP.

MURDER HOTEL - A DMP Production

…Minnie mouse…

Here’s a real eye-popper for you…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 10:58:24 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Leslie’s roommate after I left was Niel and that is how he spelled it.  He made a compass extension for me from steel.  I don’t have it any longer, I don’t think.  It was in my things in Engelhard when they had the flooding.  I didn’t retrieve it from the storage cart.  It wasn’t very complicated.  It was used to draw large circles.

This looks like my sister’s house too…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 10:52:25 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Very Ornate Victorian House | Flickr - Photo Sharing!

Susan in this film looks like she could be Susan Dimmock ~ Vasliev…updated

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 10:42:32 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: The Gay Sisters (1942) - YouTube

…she looked like she was faint of breath in the film…

Extreme Measures film…there was a tunnel from somewhere to the hospital.  We went on the Chesapeake Bay Bridge Tunnel once or twice when I was a little girl…

The shovel in the bottom left corner reminds me of a film Blood Moon or something like it…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 10:32:24 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: What's In Kay's Mind 2: The oven type sketch I did – this looks very similar to my dream…updated

…about a school teacher burying a body in the back yard.

What's In Kay's Mind 2: The oven type sketch I did – this looks very similar to my dream…updated

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 10:29:28 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: The oven type sketch I did – this looks very similar to my dream…

The stairway in this sketch likely leads to a locked door, as in the London Asylum…this reminds me of my dream about being in a room and wanting to rent a room.  I was with my father.  The rooms were oddly connected, I remember that distinctly in my dream.  I went to the Industrial Arts Museum while I was in Chicago. 

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After getting out of prison, I stayed in the upstairs of my cousin’s house…updated

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 10:23:55 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: What's In Kay's Mind 2: The oven type sketch I did – this looks very similar to my dream…updated

…I woke up abruptly before daylight, unable to breath…my cousin was going to call for help but I put my head between my legs and started to feel better.   I had taken some medicine.  My cousin told me to throw them away.

You are right, they have been picking through my personal experiences and I am aware of it…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 9:56:19 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The oven type sketch I did – this looks very similar to my dream…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 9:42:47 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

MURDER CASTLE OF H.H. HOLMES! EXCERPT FROM "HAUNTED CHICAGO"

…I was in Chicago in 1983

Ernest Holmes (priest) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 8:43:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Ernest Holmes (priest) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

This may have been something Prince Albert, James Gibbs or Hawksmoor may have had on the mind…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 7:38:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I have seen Gibbs’ Arch…

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Jean mentioned something about Circe’…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 5:55:25 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

did they confuse Siren the Ship with

My father said his ship did dock in the Philippine Islands before going on to Okinawa and Iwo Jima.

She wanted to run her car into the bridge abutment…

How I saw our apartment…updated

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 5:46:36 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…for the most part it was exactly like this except for the corner closet…water closet?

My sister’s current house has a bathroom at the front of the house on the right as you face it.  Her house also has a bay window.

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This would be the road in front of the house during after a snowfall… 

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Thomas Starr King – John Henry Gibbs…? updated

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 5:31:36 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Thomas Starr King - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Barbara Stanwyck receiving her AFI Star Award…

I know a Carma Starr Cox from Hyde County.  Her mother was a school teacher.

ADHD – ADD?

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 5:25:02 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Lompoc, California - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Beale or El Segundo Air Force Base…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 5:19:56 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I think Pete Neal, a friend, the one who sold me my first car…

There is one in Goldsboro, NC also…

Barbara Payton ~ Nuts ~ Claudia Draper…?

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 5:12:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Jean Wallace ~ Sharon Tate…?

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 4:45:56 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Jean Wallace - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

My niece’s accident…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 4:39:13 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Cul-de-sac (1966) - IMDb

Familiar…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 2:59:51 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

There is a sadness that you are hit with upon entering. It stays with you the entire time. The basement consists of draconian cells made of thick steel bars and old stone. There are still (at that time in '98) metal fixtures on the walls that were once used to chain patients to the walls. The top floor has a large boarded up area on the roof, that can be seen from the outside, that was utilized for sunlight as that was the room in which lobotomies were performed. And many other surgeries.

THE EXPLORATION PROJECT: London Asylum for the Insane - London, Ontario

I have a leather strap on the other wrist engraved with some flowers I think…I was also strapped down twice, once in 1990-91 in prison and again in 1994-95 at Butner.

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Notice the header on the Exploration site is similar to my image below taken in 1976-77 while I was living at the London Inn…is it the Long Water in London?

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Barrow Hospital | Flickr - Photo Sharing!

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 1:57:20 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Barrow Hospital | Flickr - Photo Sharing!

Creepy to me…but not as creepy as the London Asylum.

Jumping off bridge, Scripps, Twilight Zone, Twenty-Two…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 1:54:00 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I nearly forgot my room mate Jean Baird communicated to me that she once had the inclination to run her car into a bridge abutment while intoxicated, what sent her to AA.

The base of the bridge looks like a corridor…maybe in a hospital or tunnel, maybe the underground train tunnel.  Sounds like the CookThiefHWHL.

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The Gay Sisters (1942) - YouTube

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 12:33:18 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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I can see how Melatonin would help growth…

Sunday, July 22, 2012, 12:04:32 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Awakening the Pineal Gland – blindness and medications…

…I think it has something to do with growth in addition to taurine.  It certainly helped block TPL seizures from music.  Doses at 25-30 mgs definitely have a rebound effect but Gaba helps with that.

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Awakening the Pineal Gland – blindness and medications…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 11:52:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I had an experience I now think was the pineal.  I was taking some medication (Abilify).  After a day or so it felt like someone had inserted a hot wire into my brain.  My visions have been getting clearer ever sense that time.

While they have been getting clearer, I stopped taking the Abilify because it made my heart race, I have been taking Melatonin internally and sublingually.  I reasoned that by taking it internally, it would break down into its derivatives, tryptamine being one of them.   It has a powerful affect during the daylight hours and I am sleeping better at night, especially when I include the 2mg chlorpheniramine maleate.  This would then get converted into serotonin and melatonin.  I have also been eating some aged cheese (6 year) that has been beneficial as well but since it has a lot of fat I have been cautious.  The cheese seems to calm me down with out making me too sleepy.  I am eating very small amounts.  The combination is clearly improving my ability to see what is going on. 

This may explain how I was able to see the house in Boston in Virginia.  My grandmother was blind for many years.  I don’t know exactly when she first saw me but I am guessing this had an affect on my brain.

Department of Gender & Women's Studies

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 11:47:20 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Department of Gender & Women's Studies

Likely Barbara Barnes in Maryland, therapist

Look at this…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 10:24:12 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Alex Grey

Painting - Pulling Apart – Age 18

I Love the Name of this Site…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 10:13:12 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Humans Are Free: How to Clean Up the Pineal Gland

But I think this kind of constant vision would be due more to night time projections from frightened people or people who work at night and sleep during the day.

I know I have only one brain but it seems possible to possess many compartments of the mind, like Jesus said, “In my house are many mansions”,  He was suffering from multiple personalities, of which Gad was one.   Some of the physical differences came from having no mirror of the self, from always seeing the other species or sex, rather than from seeing oneself.

I know someone who has been drinking Evans whiskey some of which I have had…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 6:41:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

William Evans

Limerick Township, Montgomery County, Pennsylvania - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I did think of Arsenic and Old Lace…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 6:34:51 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: 23” (seconds) into this clip I thought I heard, “ok comic get up stairs and put a crawl space on…

My brother was hit in the head with a hammer by the little girl next door…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 6:32:09 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Across the hall Tori, then 3 years old had witnessed the crime that left her mother's skull irreparably broken.

Anne Scripps - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…she (whoever she is) committed the murder…

“alright ms. Gibbs I’m not enjoying this little charade…”

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 6:25:23 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

You’d better leave me alone.

My father was in the merchant marines for a short time and so was my cousin…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 6:24:00 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

a former merchant mariner

Anne Scripps - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

In 1993 while in Chapel Hill…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 6:21:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Anne Scripps - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…I forced the passenger in my car at the time to get out.  My mother fell out of a truck my sister was driving in the late 80’s. 

Tappan Zee Bridge - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 6:13:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Tappan Zee Bridge - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Gastrointestinal bleeding – bleach – hominy…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 6:12:25 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Someone was hanged on the wheel…

23” (seconds) into this clip I thought I heard, “ok comic get up stairs and put a crawl space on…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 6:03:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…she is actually saying, “put your false face on”…

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I was thinking about the glass in my vision…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 5:46:35 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I called Rice Glass about some glass for a picture.  Likely my father called the glass company about replacing the pane in the workshop in Portsmouth.

Rice ~ Rhys , pronounced like Reese I think as in Reese’s peanut butter cups, which I consumed frequently.  Rhys-Jones connection…might have lived near Barrow Gurney…

Elvira Jones my great grandmother, was said to have been mentally ill, could have been connected to someone at Barrow Mental Hospital…something about wanting to jump off a bridge, this is likely also why I almost jumped off the parking deck…If I have ever been as close to death that was it, not even the overdoses came that close.

Bonnie Prince Charlie – said to have abused women…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 5:33:16 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

St. Bonaventure Bonnies - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

There was a Huron Gibbs…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 5:25:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Hurons

Joseph de La Roche Daillon - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Librax along with the other anti-cholinergics I was taking blocked my own memories…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 5:22:27 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2

…and subjected me to the content of the mind, just as the PCP did.

I recall the pills I was given in 1972…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 5:16:26 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Joseph de La Roche Daillon - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…for gastrointestinal problems had La Roche on them, little green capsules…

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Someone was hanged on the wheel…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 5:08:45 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Thomas de Gournay was involved with the murder of Edward II at Berkeley Castle in 1327.[5]

Barrow Gurney - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…could be the King of Ai too on an olive tree…

Gastrointestinal hemorrhage – bleach – I had mentioned this before someone may have consumed some bleach or had their mouth washed out with it…

My Aunt Bessie used to pour aspirin into her Royal Crown Colas…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 5:00:45 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…so was it really Katherine?  Was it really Garbo who left California and went to New York?

She drank them all the time…

Esophageal varices ~ liver cirrhosis…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 4:56:59 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Esophageal varices - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…cause of intestinal bleeding.

Re: Repetition compulsion…updated

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 4:50:07 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…so my behavior is indicative of a number of persons wanting to commit suicide, Barbara Payton or one she is possessed of, being one of them.  Gastrointestinal hemorrhage could be from arsenic used to treat syphilis.

I heard something about a rash recently…I of course do not have one…

You cannot die from drinking too much fluid, the body eliminates it.  Intestinal hemorrhage, sorry could be aspirin rather than arsenic.

There is a young man with a top hat featured in one of Cher’s music videos also…updated

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 4:33:19 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: This looks like Cher in Suspect and Moonstruck…

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  the man standing next to Cher looks like my father – and it does looks like the Indian I picked out on top…there would be Holmes in the background on the left

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Since I am now aware I am connected to Cher…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 4:07:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: There is a young man with a top hat featured in one of Cher’s music videos also…

…it is likely I projected this onto Cher.   I do have relatives in Illinois.  My cousin went there in the 80’s.

Shortly after the episode at the Paddock with the poppers…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 3:57:48 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: This looks like Cher in Suspect and Moonstruck…

…I left and went to Raleigh where I got onto Joseph Murphy whose work seems based on Ernest Holmes’ and I have eventually come to purchase his work. 

This looks like Cher in Suspect and Moonstruck…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 3:52:01 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…he bears a slight resemblance to Klosowski…however it is slight

Repetition Compulsion – unconscious content in the mind – Ted Bundy

This man is clearly not of the same species as Klosowski although his ears indicate he may be possessed by him or one who looks like him.

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Sam my AA sponsor had a book of limericks…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 3:45:44 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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…I think there is some connection to it there too, Uncle was an Insurance salesman…

This was during the time I was extremely paranoid still from seeing The Exorist basically because of my fear of being possessed and punishment  I didn’t need an exorcism I needed synaptic connections.

Barrow Gurney - here’s my water wheel location…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 3:38:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Barrow Gurney - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Pottstown, PA connected to Barrow Gurney…

Barrow Gurney Hospital – Bristol | derelicte – urban exploration

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 3:33:23 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Barrow Gurney Hospital – Bristol | derelicte – urban exploration

Welton, Iowa…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 3:31:43 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Nurse Welton had her own agenda and in her usual curious manner
which got her into this profession anyway, and her concern for
others, she felt the compulsion to ask Kate how she came to
be at "The Gurney", Gurney Memorial Hospital's Psychiatric Unit
that is...

What's In Kay's Mind 2

Lady of Burlesque pt7 - YouTube

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 3:29:07 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…based on Gypsy Rose Lee, G-String Murders…mixed up in New York Burlesque ?

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Saturday, July 21, 2012, 3:03:25 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Welton, Iowa - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Barbara Stanwyck film?

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 2:57:16 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: A vision at noon…

“I’m going to make this kid the smartest invesitgator”…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 2:56:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

It sounded like Barbara Stanwyck.  I did always like her in films.  Barbara Payton?

However a hostile environment did create his problems…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 2:54:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The most striking aspect of the test results is the patient's total denial of responsibility for everything that has happened to him. He can produce an 'alibi' for everything. He presents himself as a victim of circumstances and blames other people who are out to get him [...] the patient attempts to assure a sympathetic response by depicting himself as being at the mercy of a hostile environment."

Section of report detailing Gacy's 1968 psychiatric evaluation.[36]

John Wayne Gacy - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…how can you be sure he or his father were not mixed up in something outside their consciousness?  HH Holmes?

I sprayed pepper spray at two dogs…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 2:52:07 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

On August 30, 1968, Gacy persuaded one of his employees, an 18-year-old named Russell Schroeder, to physically assault Donald Voorhees in an effort to discourage the boy from testifying against him at his upcoming trial. The youth agreed to lure Voorhees to a secluded spot, spray Mace in his face and beat the youth upon the promise that if he did so, he would be paid $300.

John Wayne Gacy - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I know some of this man’s story is mixed up in it, how I am dumbfounded to say…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 2:49:00 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

John Wayne Gacy - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…News reports maybe or the book Killer Clown.  The name Voorhees is very familiar.  I was hearing Maurice…Maurice Chevalier or Maurice Gibbs.

A vision at noon…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 2:33:26 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I have been looking at snow pictures in the last few days.  It was cold, a man was walking from the warehouse like area behind the counter with the glass.  I seemed to be standing in the middle of the merchandise area with a coat or sweater draped over my left arm.   I was thinking about taking a job part-time.  The woman behind the counter was a blond, red checkered shirt (Woolrich type).  The man with the glass was wearing leather gloves.  I was about to approach the counter when the woman walked into the warehouse behind the counter.  I followed her, it was like a wood working shop.

This place looks a little like Fitch Lumber in Carrboro, but then it could be in Youngsville where my sister lives.  It could be up north, like New York, I found an Olean in New York.   

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This is another I started, May 1999, but was distracted

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 1:44:10 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

                          Setting

The setting of this movie takes place, first in the ward of
a psychiatric hospital.
The main character, Kate, is seated on the edge of the hospital
bed in a ward room nervously smoking a cigarette.  She's wearing
black and white shorts and a black shirt.  She gets up meanders
around the room, then sits down again.  She continues to puff
on the cigerette.  She starts to get up again when the nurse
comes in.  She is dressed in street clothes.

               Nurse:  Hi, Kate.  My name is Delores.  I'm going
                       to be your primary nurse while you are
                       here.

Kate responds in a slow, monotone voice...

               Kate:  Uh, hi!  What's a primary nurse?

               Nurse:  A primary nurse is the person who is
                       responsible for your care while you are
                       in the hospital.  I'm here to answer
                       any of your questions.
               Kate:  Uh, I see, ok.

               Nurse:  My regular shift is second shift so you
                       won't see me during the day but  you
                       will see the doctor and the med students,
                       so they will be able to help you also.
                       They will take you down to finance in
                       the morning, to make arrangements to
                       make arrangements for the bill.

               Kate:  Ok.

Nurse Welton had her own agenda and in her usual curious manner
which got her into this profession anyway, and her concern for
others, she felt the compulsion to ask Kate how she came to
be at "The Gurney", Gurney Memorial Hospital's Psychiatric Unit
that is...

               Nurse:  What brought you to the hospital if I
                       might ask?

               Kate:  I was going to kill myself.

               Nurse:  I see.  Did you have a plan?

Kate lowered her eyes as if she were ashamed of feeling the
way she did.  She held back the tears and in a low shaky voice
she murmured...

               Kate:  Yes.  Actually I had two.

By Kate's response she knew Kate was serious and listened
intently as she spoke.

               Nurse:  May I ask what they were?

Kate frowned. Nurse Welton was annoying her with her questions
about what happened.  Kate wanted to forget about it.

               Kate:  Well, I guess the one that landed me in
                      here was that I was going to hang myself,
                      I just flipped out and started throwing
                      shit all over the place, then I grabbed
                      some rope I had just bought, jumped       
                      into my car and started driving.
                      I mean I was on my way to do it and       
                      something compelled me to stop at a       
                      friend's house.  When she realized what
                      I was going to do,she got me to go to
                      mental health, and they got me in here.
               Nurse:  Why do you want to kill yourself?

Kate's brow knitted tightly with discontent at the question...

               Kate:  Boy, lady I just got here!  Give me a
                      break.  I really don't want to talk       
                      about it right now.  I'm very tired.
                      and I'd like to go to sleep.

Nurse Welton reached over to touch Kate's arm and Kate withdrew.
Nurse Welton sensed that Kate was going to be a tough one to
deal with.  She stood up and walked to the door...

               Nurse:  Ok.  You get some sleep.  I'll be here
                       tomorrow night and we can talk some more.

Kate took a drag off her cigerette.  She was starting to get
angry.  She crushed the butt in the ashtray and exhaled the
smoke with a quick puff.  Nurse Welton exits the room.  Kate
is uneasy and restless by now, she plops down on the edge of
the bed...

               Kate:  Goddamn nosy bitch!  I wonder what        
                      she's going to do with that information?

Kate undresses and puts on her pajamas.  She starts mumbling
to herself...

               Kate:  What the hell am I doing here anyway?

Her roommate comes in.  Kate is startled and jumps backward
and nearly falls...

               Kate:  hey, you're in the wrong room. 

Kate catches herself on the side table and calls for the nurse.

               Kate:  Nurse! Nurse!

She reaches for the call button but can't find it.

               Kate:  Oh, where is that damn call button...Nurse,
                      Nurse!

Kate's roommate steps back from the door and waves at the nurse's
station, then enters the room carefully...

               Roommate:  Shhhh!  It's ok, it's ok.  This is
                          my room too!  My name is Doris.  Nice
                          to meechya!  How ya doin?

Doris extends her hand but Kate refuses to take it.

               Kate:  Geez, you scared the hell out of me!

               Roommate:  Oh, I,m sorry.  You sure are jumpy
                          Honey.  Didn't Nurse Welton tell you
                          this was a ward room?

               Kate:  yes, but she didn't tell me I'd be sharing
                      the room with anyone.

               Roommate:  Figures!  I bet she was pluggin away
                          atchya, askin all kinds a questions,
                          huh?
               Kate:  Well, uh,...

               Doris:  Oh, it's all right honey, you can tell
                       me, anything.  Me and that ole battle
                       axe have had a few go' rounds.  I know
                       What she's like.  Anyway, I'm sorry honey,
                       I surely didn't mean to give you a start
                       like that.  I'll just knock or give you
                       some warning next time, so's I won't
                       scare ya, so bad, ok?

               Kate:  That's fine. Sorry I did that, I am a
                      little jumpy.  I've never been in a       
                      place like this before and I don't know
                      what to expect. I've been living alone
                      too and I've gotten used to hearing every
                      noise and bump in the night.

Kate slips between the crisp white sheets, props her pillow
against the wall and tries to relax.  She starts to wonder about
how she ended up in a place like this.  Where did things go
wrong, she thought to herself...she turns to Doris...

               Kate:  Ever been in a place like this before?

               Doris:  Honey, I've been in this hospital twice,
                       this is my third visit.  They haven't
                       gotten it right yet.  

               Kate:  It, what's it?

               Doris:  My medicine.  Damn pills I've been takin'
                       ain't helped atall.

               Kate:  What kind of medicine?

               Doris:  Oh, I don't know what they call it, I
                       keep forgettin.

               Kate:  Well, if you don't mind me askin' what's
                      wrong' with you?                          

               Doris:  They say I'm schizophrenic.

Kate's eyes grew wide.  Oh, God she thought to herself.  She
knew a little about that illness because of her father.  She
grew even more uneasy...Doris could tell she was getting
uncomfortable...

               Doris:  Don't worry honey, I ain't gonna flip
                       out or nothin' like that!  I just get
                       a little outta touch with the real       
                       world every now and then.  I don't get
                       violent or anything like that.

Kate sighed with relief.  Her father would periodically get
violent...her memories were still very vivid...

               Kate:  Oh.  Thank you for telling me that.

               Doris:  How bouch you, whatcha in here for?
                       Pretty thing like you oughtta be married
                       with a arm full of babies!

Kate's upper lip started to twitch and she could feel her blood
pressure go up 50 points...

               Kate:  Yep, you are definitely schizo, she mumbled
                      under her breath..
                      Oh, I'd rather not talk about it if you
                      don't mind.                               

Kate put on that pretty little thing smile that was so far from1:37 AM 7/21/2012
the way she really felt.  She felt dishonest...                 

               Doris:  Not at all hon, just remember what I
                       said.  Any time you feel like talkin'
                       I'll listen.

               Kate:  Ok, thanks.  I'm getting tired.  I'm going
                      to go to sleep.

Kate slips down in the bed, curls up in a little ball, tucks
the pillow under her head and closes her eyes.  Her mind starts
drifting...what happened she thought to herself...why do I want
to die?  She rolls over and falls asleep.

                                Scene II

                      6 AM the next morning

     Scene opens with a nurse bolting into Kate and Doris's
room...

               Nurse:  Ok, ladies time to get up.  Breakfast
                       Will be here shortly.  Get your showers
                       and get dressed.  Let's go ladies.

Kate barely moved a muscle.  It was the best sleep she had had
in months... Doris bounces out of bed...

               Kate:  What time is it?

               Doris:  Oh, probably about 6:00.

               Kate:  You're kidding.  That early?  No wonder
                      I don't want to get out of bed.

               Doris:  Do you want to get your shower first?

               Kate:  No, that's alright.  I'll wait, that
                      way I can sleep a little longer.

               Doris:  Alright.

Doris heads for the shower and slams the door.  Kate raises
her head from under the covers.

               Kate:  Damn, she mumbles to herself.

After a few minutes the nurse comes in again...

               Nurse:  Miss Gibbs, time to get up!  Lets go,
                       hon.

Kate throws the cover off and sits up on the edge of the bed.

               Kate:  I'm up, I'm up.  Goddamn this is as bad
                      as the army.

Doris sprints out of the shower half naked...

               Doris: What did ya say hun?

Kate was getting angry.  She started screaming to the top of
her lungs, flailing her hands up in the air...

               Kate:  I said, this goddamn place is as bad as
the army.  Get me the hell out of here!

The charge nurse bolts down the hall...

               Nurse:  what's going on in here ladies?

Kate standing by her bed, is about to burst...

               Doris:  Nothing to be concerned about nurse Kate's
                       just a little upset.  She'll be alright
                       as soon as you get her one of them shots.
               Nurse:  Doris, you worry about Doris and get
                       yourself dressed.  I'll worry about
                       Miss Gilman and let's keep it down. This
                       is a hospital.  Ms. Gibbs why aren't
                       you showered and dressed?

Kate's face reddens with more anger...

               Doris:  Oh, I just got out of the shower nurse,
                       she let me go first.

               Nurse:  Well, Ms. Gibbs lets get showered and
                       dressed.

Kate starts to chuckle and in a smart aleck manner retorts...

               Kate:  Why nurse, are you going to shower with
                      me this morning?

Doris bursts into a full belly laugh...

The nurse shakes her finger at Kate vigorously.

               Nurse:  Ms. Gibbs, get your shower before I      
       call the orderly down here to give it                    
       to you.

Kate can no longer contain herself and explodes...

               Kate:  See what I mean.  Every damn where you
                      turn there's always some ASSHOLE trying
to tell you what the hell to do, every minute of every day.
Aaaggghhh!

Kate starts pulling at her hair...The nurse steps back...Kate

starts to stamp her feet and scream...

               Kate:  I'm sick of it!  I'm sick of all of it
and all of you.  Goddamn it.

               Nurse:  Ms. Gibbs if you do not quiten yourself
                       I will have to call the orderlies to
                       put you in restraints.

By this time several other nurses had gathered outside Kate's
room... Kate sat down on the edge of the bed, took a deep breath

                      and started to cry...

               Kate:  Why can't you people just let             
         me get some rest, please.   All I need                 
       is SLEEP PLEASE!  Goddamn it!

The charge nurse told everyone to leave and then sat down on
the bed next to Kate...

               Nurse: do you feel better now, Ms. Gibbs?

               Kate:  Hell no!

Doris glared at Kate. The nurse seemed upset at her response.
She hadn't expected that...

               Doris:  your turn to shower Kate.

Doris was afraid Kate was asking for trouble.  She tried to
divert the nurse's attention.  Doris had been strapped down
and it wasn't a picnic.  The nurse gets up to leave...

               Well, Mss gilman,  get your shower and you can
talk about it in group.

Kate grabs up her towel and washcloth and heads to the shower.

               Kate:  Damn, I thought the hospital was a place
                      where
                      you went to get well, you know, rest and
                      recuperate!  You people are a bunch       
                      of sadists.  This is like being in the
                      Army again and I certainly didn't get
                               any rest there. 

She pauses a moment before stepping into the bathroom...

               Kate:  Group, what damn group.  I'm not going
                      to group.

               Doris:  Oh, you won't believe what they have
                       us doing all day.  You get your shower
                       before the witch comes back in here.
                       We can talk later.

               Kate:  Damn, I can't believe it.  May be you
better fill me in before I get into trouble.

Kate steps into the shower and slams the door.  She turns on
the shower and lets the warm water wash over her for several
minutes. 

               Kate:  Wouldn't it be nice if you could just
wash away your past and your troubles like this?

She mumbled to herself, watching the water slip down the drain
and out of sight...she lost track of time and the nurse knocks
on the door...Kate is startled back to reality...

               Nurse:  Miss Gibbs, you need to get out of that
                       shower and get dressed, your breakfast
                       is waiting.

               Kate:  Ok, ok, ok!  Jesus, get off my back       
                      already. 

               Nurse:  What's that hon?

               Kate:  Nothing, I'm coming.

Kate rushes out of the bathroom, grabs her clothes and goes
back in and shuts the door.  She starts dressing...She exits
the bathroom zipping up her blue jeans...

               Kate:  God, I've got to get the hell out of here.

               Doris:  I know, it's like being in prison, isn't
                       it?

               Kate:  Well, I guess that's where you need to
                      be if you're trying to kill yourself.

               Doris:  Well, I'm glad they don't go to those
                       extremes around here.

               Kate:  Yea, I guess I am too!  Thanks for waiting
                      for me, let's go!  I hope this shit       
                      is worth getting up at 6:00 am for.
               Doris:  Well, it has been pretty decent since
                       I've been here.

               Kate:  I hope so.  I haven't had a good meal
                      in a weeks.

Kate and Doris exit the room adn head toward the dining area.

                      SCENE TWO

     Scene opens with Kate and her Doctor in her office...

               Doctor:  Kate, may I call you Kate?

               Kate:  Sure.

The Doctor stands behind her desk and extends her hand to Kate...
Kate refuses to accept her hand and plops down in the chair
in front of her desk...Doctor sits down in her chair...   
               Doctor:  I am Dr. Young, Miss Gibbs.  I'm going
                        to be working with you while you are
                        here
               Kate:  Yea, well that's good to know!

               Doctor: How are you feeling today?

               Kate:  Like shit!

               Doctor:  I gathered that.   Did you sleep well
                        last night?

               Kate:  I suppose I did.  I didn't wake up until
                      that nurse came barrelling into the room
                      at 6 am.  I don't sleep very well
                      anyway.  Can't I get a private room with
                      a do not disturb sign or permission to
                      sleep later or something like that? 

               Doctor:  well, we like to encourage the patients
                        here to follow a routine schedule and
                        get involved in the groups here as part
                        of your treatment.  I'd like to see
                        how you do before I recommend something
                        else.
Kate snaps a quick response.

               Kate:  Fine!

The Doctor pulls her chair up to her desk.  she rolls her pen
in her hand severl times...

               Doctor:  Nurse Welton tells me you are here      
        because you wanted to kill yourself.                    
        Is that true?

               Kate:  yes, I guess so.  I was on my way to do
the dirty deed when my friend intervened and took me to mental

health.

The doctor is taking notes periodically...Kate shifts in the
chair a little as the Doctor folds her hands under her chin...

               Doctor:  would you like to tell me why you wanted
to end your life?  That seems like a pretty drastic measure
for such a young person.

The doctor leans back in her chair...Kate swings her legs over
the arm of the chair and leans on the opposite arm and casually
discusses her motive...

               Kate:  Drastic measures for tragic lives doc.

               Doctor:  Do you think your life is a tragedy?

Kate gets up and starts to walk around the room, then she stops
in front of the window...She stares out into the parking lot
of the adjacent building...

               Kate:  Shakespeare was a genius at writing
tradgedies, Doc, I'm a genius at living them. I mean, if you
took a look at my life, you'd know what I mean. 

Kate leans on the front of the Doctors desk...

               Kate:  I'm 34 years old.  I have no career, no
husband, not even a boyfriend, I lost my job, I've lost my
apartment now, because I'm in here and I'm about to lose my
car, and I've lost my self respect because of my drinking.
My life has been one disappointment after another.  I didn't
finish college, my father committed suicide, my mother tried
to kill herself, I was molested as a child, my father broke
my nose, I've been raped, even raped by a damn woman, how much
more tragic can you get than that?

               Doctor:  Please sit down miss gibbs.

               Kate:  Why?  Am I making you nervous, Doc?

               Doctor:  Quite honestly, yes it does.  I don't
know you very well, and I don't know what to expect from you
so if you would please remain seated during our discussions
I would appreciate it. I understand you are upset.

Kate is astonished by the Doctor's honesty, no one has been
that honest with her before.

               Kate:  No problem doc.

               Doctor:  So...

The doctor exhales and Kate sits down in the chair again...

               Doctor:  It is apparent that you have suffered
some serious trauma in your life.  It is also apparent that
you measure your life according to material things.

               Kate:  Doesn't everybody?  Damn, most of my
friends from higschool and college are married.   They have
their exciting careers, their nice homes, decent cars, a couple
of children.  they are living, their lives. And they haven't
been through nearly half the shit I have! Why am I not living
mine? 

Kate is starting to get frustrated and angry.  The doctor crosses
her legs and leans back in her chair...

               Doctor:   You know, Kate, Not everone is         
         materialistic,
               Kate:  Well, I am dammit, and I find it hard
to believe, that people aren't materialistic, except of course
nuns and priests, but even they have to have some amount of
money to survive.

               Doctor:  Ok, well, why aren't you living         
        your life then?

               Kate:  How the hell do I know!  If I knew the
answer to that question I wouldn't need to be here now, would
I doc?  I need to get the hell out of here.  You are pissing
me off.

               Doctor:  I'm making you angry so you want to
                         run away.

               Kate:  hell yes.  I don't like to be angry.

               Doctor:  Are you afraid of your anger?

               Kate:  That's it, I'm leaving.  I'm going back
                      to my room.

               Doctor:  Very well, I'll be by your room this
                         afternoon to check in on you.

               Kate:  well that's comforting to know.

The Doctor stands and opens the door to her office...     

               Doctor:  Have a good day Ms. Gibbs.

               Kate:  How the hell can I do that, you just fucked
                        it up!

The Doctor sits back down and begins making some notes, then
closes her notebook and Kate flies out of the doctors  office
slamming the door behind her.  She heads off down the hall...

The Doctor gets up from her chair and rushes to the door...she
calls to Kate...

               Doctor:  Ms. Gibbs, would you come back to my
               office please?

Kate knows she is about to get the third degree.  She looks
a little embarrassed...then strutts back to the doctor's office.

               Doctor:  Miss Gibbs, let's you and I get one
thing straight before we go on this little journey.  I am going
to respect you while you are in my care and I expect you to
respect me.  From now on you will not leave this office in the
manner you just did!.  Is that clear?

The doctor reaches out to touch Kate's arm...Kate steps back...

               Doctor:  Kate, not everyone gets through this
life without suffering from some tradgic event or some trauma.
It does appear that you have had more than your share of trouble.
Maybe together we can get you through this without hurting
yourself anymore.

Kate responds curtly...

               Kate:  Well, I guess we can talk about that and
               the subject of respect tomorrow, huh!

Kate breezes down the hall and bumps into another patient...

               Kate:  Oh,Sorry, I'm not paying attention to
what I'm doing.  I'm a little upset right now. 

               Patient:  I can understand that.  There seems
to be alot of that going on around here.  I think they
deliberately try to piss us off.  They must get off on seeing
us get angry and weepy and all that emotional shit. 

               Kate:  What's your name?  I haven't seen you
on my side of the unit.

               Patient:  my name is Lucy. 

Lucy smiled kindly at Kate.

               Lucy:  I have a private room over on the other
side, room 456.  Come and visit me sometime.

Suddenly yellow flags went up in Kate's head.  Uh oh, she thought
to herself.  Lucy seemed a little too friendly to Kate.  what's
she got on her mind, Kate wondered.

               Kate:  Ok, I'll do that.

Kate went to her room and slept. 

4 pm the Doctor arrives at KAte's door, Knock knock...Kate raises
her head from the pilow.  Doctor is standing at the foot of
her bed...

               Doctor:  Ms. Gibbs, do you feel like talking?

               Kate:  Oh, yes, I guess so. 

Kate sits up on the edge of the bed as the Doctor pulls up a
chair.

               Doctor:  How do you feel this afternoon?

               Kate:  A little more rested I guess.  Doc...

               Doctor:  yes...

               Kate:  ...I apologize for this morning, slamming
               the door, I mean.

               Doctor:  thank you for apologizing.  That is
something we will work on together...

               Kate:  what's that?

               Doctor:  your anger!

               Kate:  Oh, that...

the doctor stands and prepares to leave...Kate remains seated
on the bed...

               Doctor:  Is there anything you need Kate, before
               I leave for the day?

               Kate:  No, I can't think of anything.

                      Scene four

Later that evening in the day room.  Several patients are seated
around the room, watching the television.  Kate comes out of
her room and enters the dayroom.  She notices Lucy sitting in
a rocking chair.  Lucy has on a white cotton gown with a shawl
wrapped around her shoulders.  She inquires of Lucy..

               Kate:  Hey, Do they keep popcorn around here
for the patients? 

               Lucy:  I don't think so, but I have some in my
room.  You can have it if you like.  It's the microwave kind.

               Kate:  Thanks, I've been craving popcorn all
day.  I can get some tomorrow if you tell me where to get it.

Lucy starts to rock in her chair, anxiously.

               Lucy:  I can get it for you since I have a pass.

               Kate:  Thanks.  When can you get a pass?

               Lucy:  Oh, that comes after you have been here
awhile.  The nurse will let you know.

               Kate :  Thanks.

Kate heads off to the kitchen to fix the popcorn.  Suddenly
Kate hears someone screaming from the dayroom.  She darts into
the room to find Lucy being tackled by two orderlies...Kate
covers her mouth in suprise...

               Kate:  What the hell's going on?

Kate asks of another patient.

               Patient:  uh, I don't really know, I wasn't
watching.  A male patient comes over to Kate...Kate's
pulse starts to race with fear...

               Bill:  I saw you talking to Lucy, I guess...
Kate interrupts him...

               Kate:  hey, I didn't say anything to her, I mean
I just...

Bill stops Kate...waving his hand in front of her face...

               Bill:  No, no, no... 

Bill wraps his arm around Kate's shoulders.

               Bill:  Lucy goes through these little spells
every now and then.  She sort of freaks out, ya know.  I think
they call'em panic attacks or something like that.  Sometimes
they have to strap her down for a few hours.  Don't worry, She'll
come out of it.

Bill pats Kate on the back.

               Bill:  Hang in there kid, it gets better.

Bill chuckles puts his sun glasses back on and returns to his
chair.  The orderlies cart Lucy off to the rubber room.
Kate falls into a chair with the popcorn Lucy gave her.  She
puts a handful in her mouth...

               Kate:  Damn, I can't eat this.

Kate sets the full bag of popcorn in the chair next to her.
Another patient comes over and sits in the chair with the
popcorn.

               Patient:  hey, are you going to eat this?

Kate looks angrily at the patient.

               Kate:  No!  Get the hell away from me.

The patient, a mousy, overweight young woman named linda, hair
uncombed, acned skin, bad breath, gets upset at Kate's attack..
she nervously asks Kate for the popcorn...

               Patient:  Can I have it?

               Kate:  Sure, take it. 

Linda grabs the popcorn and starts to leave...

               Kate:  Hey, I'm sorry I yelled at you.  I'm not
having a goood day.

linda sits down again... Kate looks irritated...she didn't want
to carry on a converstion...

               Linda:  Did you see what happened to Lucy?
                       I've seen it before you know.

               Kate:  Yes.  I don't really want to talk about
               it.  Please just take the popcorn and go somewhere
               else.  I don't feel like talking.

Linda jumps up quickly...

               Linda:  Bitch, I was just trying to be nice to
                       you!

Kate jumps up too...

               Kate:  Liar, you wanted that fucking popcorn.
                      You aren't concerned about Linda, or being
                      nice to me,and it doesn't look like you
                      much care for yourself.  Look at yourself!

Linda starts to cry and runs over to theother side of the room
and squats in the corner...a nurse comes running after hearing
the loud voices in the nurses station...

               Nurse:  what's going on in here ladies?

the nurse walks over to Linda...

               Nurse:  let's get up and sit in a chair Linda,
                        are you alright?

Linda's crying and starts to choke on the popcorn...Kate starts
to run over to help, but the nurse stops her with her hand...

               Kate:  Ms. Gibbs, just go sit down, I'll handle
                      this.

Linda starts complaining about Kate...

               Linda:  I was just trying to be nice to that
lady...

She points to Kate...

               Linda:  ...and she was so ugly to me!

Linda sticks out her tongue at Kate...

               Nurse:  Linda, stop!  That is not appropriate
behavior.  Don't bother Ms. Gibbs, if she doens't want to talk.
I'm sure there are other patients here who will talk to you.

Linda sits in a chair and starts to rock back and forth...Kate
stops the nuse...

               KATE:  I didn't mean to upset her, I just didn't
feel like having a converstion.

               Nurse:  It's ok Ms. Gibbs.  Just go back to what
ever you were doing and don't say anything else to her.

The nurse leaves the room and everything is back to normal for
the time being...Kate decides she's had enough for one evening
and goes to her room...there she finds Doris sitting on the
edge of her bed talking to herself...she stops at the door and
listens...

               Doris:  I don't know, it just comes and goes,
                       you know, I can't seem to get rid of
                       the things, where did they come from?

Doris scratches her leg, then points to the floor as if she
were looking at something crawling on the floor...Kate decides
to enter the room...

               Kate:  Huh, huh!  Hey, Doris, what's up?
                      How's your day been?

Kate falls onto her bed...Doris gets up and starts rummaging
through her dresser draw...

               Doris:  I don't know if I've had a good day or
                       not, I can't find my socks.

Doris continues fumbling through her dresser drawer...

               Kate:  Doris, did you take your medicine today?

Kate gets up and walks toward her...

               Doris:  No, I stuck the damn thing under my      
       tonque, I'm tired of this stuff!

Doris reaches into her gown pocket and pulls out the pill and
shows it to KAte...

               Kate:  Doris, you better take your pill, you
                      are a little out in left field right now.

Kate grabs a cup from Doris's night table and pours her a glass
of water...

               Kate:  Ok, Kate, I'll take my pill.

Doris pops the pill into her mouth and gulps down the glass
of water kate hands her.  Water trickles down the side of
Doris's mouth and she wipes it off with her gown sleeve...

               Doris:  Thanks Kate.

Kate puts her arm around Doris and gives her a hug...

               Kate:  anytime Doris.

               Scene five

This scene opens with Kate and her Doctor again in the doctor's
office...

The Doctor is seated in her chair, poised and relaxed...Kate
is seated in the chair next to the Window, somewhat nervous
and  anxious, but trying to appear calm and relaxed...

               Doctor:  How did the rest of yyour day go        
yesterday, Kate?

               Kate:  Ok, I guess, except for my roomie, she
                      didn't take her pill and she was around
                      the bend for a little while, but I got
                      her to take her pill, so...

Doctor shifts in her chair a little, then leans toward her
desk...

               Doctor:  That's good.  I'd like to discuss some
                        of your experiences with you if you
                        don't have a problem with that, this
                        morning.

               Kate:  Well, I thought we might talk about respect
                      this morning.

               Doctor:  We can talk about that too, but I'd
                        like for you to focus on some of the
                        things that have been going on with
                        you in our sessions.

               Kate:  Fine with me, what would you like to start
                      with?

               Doctor:  What seem to be bothering you the most
                        right now?

               Kate:  I guess I seem to think alot about what
happened to me in the army. It seems like a dream to me, now
but I know it happened.

               Doctor:  would you lke to tell me what happened?

               Kate:  I don't know if I can, but I'll try..

               FADE OUT

               FADE IN

Scene opens with Kate standing in front of the American Flag
and saluting several Army Officers.  She is taking the oath
as part of her final enlistment into the Army and will be
boarding a plane for Alabama...

               Recruiting Officer:  Congratulations ladies and
gentleman, and good luck.  Some of you will be shipping out
today, so let's get loaded up and we will transport you to the
airport...

Kate is not quite ready for the step she is about to take, and
begins having second thoughts.  With a wide-eyed look she mumbles
to herself, as she climbs into the van that will transport her
to the Raleigh-Durham airport...

               Kate:  God, what have I done, I don't want to
                      do this!  Shit, I just gave up three years
                      of my life to the Army.

Kate is quiet on the ride to the airport.  She makes her way
to the terminal, shows the attendant her ticket and then boards
the plane...Kate has never been on a plane before...

               Attendnat:  do you have your ticket Ms.?

               Kate:  yes, here it is.

               Attendant:  Thank you for flying Eastern Airlines.
                           Go right through that gate, you will
be changing planes in Atlanta, for Anniston Ala.

               Kate:  Ok, thanks.

               Attendant:  Have a good flight!

               Kate:  thank you.

Kate walks down the long passageway to the plane.  She boards
the plane with reservation.  She hands the attendant her ticket
and the attendant dirests her to her seat.  Kate gets belted
in.  Once the flight got underway,

“I love to work”

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 12:53:12 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…Lemmon?

I think Pete Neal, a friend, the one who sold me my first car…

Saturday, July 21, 2012, 12:41:13 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Tom Neal (I) - Biography

…was mixed up in his baggage.  He died in his recliner in his living room.  I think my cousin Robert Cahoon Jr. may have been in it also and he died in an automobile crash.  I think someone elevated their brainwave activity way beyond normal.  My cousin was so hyper he had to drink and take drugs to stay calm, why he was intoxicated the night he had the accident.  Elevated brainwave activity can also cause heart failure.

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I forgot about this story I was writing…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 11:30:39 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I had a dream about Gurney – Gurney Hospital…

…mostly about myself being in the hospital.

The first setting of this movie takes place in the ward of a psychiatric hospital. The main character is Kate. She is a strong willed, opinionated, sometimes meek and timid, young woman.

Kate is seated on the edge of the hospital bed in a ward room nervously smoking a cigarette. She is dressed in a shirt and shorts. She gets up and meanders around the room, then sits back down. She continues to puff on the cigarette. Kate starts to get up again when the nurse comes in. The nurse is dressed in street clothes.

Nurse: Hi Kate. My name is Delores. I’m going to be your primary nurse while you are here

Kate responds in a slow, monotone voice…

Kate: Uh, hi! What’s the primary nurse?

Nurse: A primary nurse is the person who is responsible for your care while you’re in the hospital. I’m here to answer any of your questions.

Kate: I see, okay.

Nurse: my regular shift is second shift so you won’t see me during the day but you will see the doctor and the med students. They will be able to help you also. They will take you down to finance in the morning to make arrangements for your bill.

Kate: Okay.

Nurse Wallace had her own agenda and her usual curious manner which got her into this profession anyway, and her concern for others, she felt compelled to ask Kate how she came to be at “The Gurney” Memorial Hospital’s psychiatric unit, that is…

Nurse: What brought you to the hospital, hun?

Kate: I want to kill myself!

Nurse: Do you have a plan?

Kate lowered her eyes as if she were ashamed for feeling the way she did. She held back tears and in a low shaky voice she murmured…

Kate: I did have a plan, actually I had two.

By Kate’s response, nurse Wallace knew Kate was serious and listened intently as she spoke…

Nurse: May I ask what your plans were?

Kate frowned. Nurse Wallace was annoying her with her questions about what happened. Kate wanted to forget about it…

Kate: well, I guess the one that landed me in here was that I was going to hang myself. I just flipped out and started throwing shit all over the place, then I grabbed some rope I had just bought, jumped into my car and started driving. I mean, I was on my way to do it and something just stopped me… something made me go to my friends house. When she realized what I was going to do, she brought me here.

Nurse: Why do you want to kill yourself?

Kate’s brow was knitted tightly with discontent at the question…

Kate: Oh boy, lady I’d just got here! Give me a break. I really don’t want to talk about it right now. I’m very tired and I would like to sleep.

Nurse Wallace reached over to touch cakes harm and Kate withdrew. Nurse Wallace sensed Kate was going to be a tough one to deal with. She stood up to walk to the door…

Nurse: okay. You get some sleep. I’ll be here tomorrow night and we can talk some more.

Kate took a drag off to her cigarette. She was starting to get angry. She crushed the butt in the ashtray and exhaled the smoke with a quick puff. Nurse Wallace exits the room. Kate is uneasy and restless now, she plops down on the edge of the bed.

Kate: Goddamn nosy bitch! I wonder what she’s going to do with that information?

Kate undresses and puts on the hospital pajamas the nurse gave her. She starts mumbling to her self…

Kate: what the hell am I doing here anyway?

Her roommate comes in. Kate is startled and jumps backward and nearly falls…

Kate: hey, you’re in the wrong room!

Kate catches yourself on the side table and calls for the nurse…

Kate: Nurse! Nurse!

Kate reaches for the call button but can’t find it…

Kate: Oh, where is that damn call button… nurse! Nurse!

Kate’s roommate steps back from the door and waves at the nurses station, then enters the room carefully…

Roommate: Ssshhh! It’s OK, it’s OK. This is my room to! My name is Doris. Nice to meecha! How you doin?

Doris extends her hand but Kate refuses to take it…

Kate: Geez, you scared the hell out of me!

Doris: 0h, I’m sorry. You are jumpy, honey. Didn’t nurse Wallace tell you this was a ward room?

Kate: yes, but she didn’t tell me I’d be sharing the room with anyone.

Doris: figures! I bet she was plugging away atcha akin all kinds of questions, huh?

Kate: well,uh..

Doris: oh, it’s ok, you can tell me anything. Me and that old battle axe have had a few go rounds. I know what she like. Anyway, I’m sorry honey, I surely didn’t mean to give you a start like that. I’ll just knock or give some warning next time so’s I won’t scare you to so bad, ok?

Kate: that’s fine. Sorry I did that. I am a little jumpy I guess. I’ve never been in a place like this before and I don’t know what to expect. I’ve been living alone too and I’ve gotten used to hearing every creak and bump in the night.

Kate’s slips between the crisp white sheets, props her pillow against the wall and tries to relax. She starts to wonder about how she ended up in a place like this. Where did things go wrong, she thought to herself…she turns to Doris…

Kate: ever been a place like this before?

Doris: funny, I’ve been to this hospital twice. This is my third visit. They haven’t gotten it right yet.

Kate: it? What’s it?

Dryers: my medicine. Damn pills I’ve been takin’ ain’t helped atall.

Kate: what kind of medicine?

Doris: 0h, I don’t know what they call it, I keep forgettin.

Kate: well, if you don’t mind be asking what’s wrong with you?

Doris: they say I’m schizophrenic.

Kate eyes grew wide. Oh God, she thought to herself. She knew a little about the illness because of her father. She grew even more uneasy…Doris could tell she was getting uncomfortable…

Doris: don’t worry honey, I ain’t gonna flip out or anything like that! I just get a little out of touch with the real world every now in then. I don’t get violent or anything like that.

Kate sighed with relief. Her father would periodically get violent…her memories were still vivid…

Kate: oh. Thank you for telling me that.

Doris: how about you, wadda ya in here for? Pretty thing like you ought to be married with an arm full of babies!

Kate’s upper lip started to the twtich and she could feel her blood pressure rise…

Kate: yep, you are definitely schizo, she mumbled under her breath…

Oh, I’d rather not talk about it if you don’t mind.

Kate put on that “pretty little thing” smile that was so far from the way she really felt. She felt dishonest…

Doris: not at all Hun, just remember what I said. Any time you feel like talking I’ll listen.

Kate: Thanks. I’m getting tired. I’m going to go to sleep.

Kate slips down into the bed, curls up in a little ball, ducks the pillow under her head and closes her eyes. Her mind starts drifting…”what happened” she thought to her self…”why do I want to die”? She rolls over and falls asleep.

Scene II

6 AM the next morning

scene of opens with a nurse bolting into Kate and Doris’s room…

nurse: okay ladies time to get up. Breakfast will be here shortly. Get your showers and get dressed. Lets go ladies!

Kate barely moved a muscle. It was the best sleep she had had in months…Doris bounces out of bed…

Kate: 0ooohhhh, what time is it?

Doris: probably about 6.

Kate: your kidding? That early? No wonder I don’t want to get out of bed.

Bars: do you want to get your shower first?

Kate: no, that’s all right. I’ll wait, that way I can sleep a little longer.

Doris: all right.

Doris heads for the shower and slams the door. Kate raises her head from under the covers…

Kate: damn!

After a few minutes the nurse comes in again

Nurse: Miss G…., time to get up! Let’s go, hon!

Kate throws off the covers and sits up on the edge of the bed…

Kate: I’m up, I’m up. Goddamn this is as bad as the Army.

Doris sprints out of the shower half naked…

Doris: what did you say, hun?

Kate was getting angry. She started screaming to the top of her lungs, flailing her hands up in the air…

Kate: I said, this Goddamn place he is as bad as the Army. Get me the hell out of here.

The charge nurse struts down the hall…

Nurse: what’s going on in here ladies?

Kate standing by her bed, is about to burst…

Doris: nothing to be concerned about nurse, Kate is just a little upset. She’ll be alright as soon you get her one of them shots.

Nurse: Doris, you worry about Doris and get yourself dressed. I’ll worry about Miss Gilman and let’s keep it down. This is a hospital. Ms. Gilman why aren’t you showered and dressed?

Kate’s face reddens with more anger…

Doris: 0h, I just got out of the shower nurse, she let me go first!

Nurse: well, Ms. G. let’s get showered and dressed.

Kate starts to chuckle and in a smart alec manner retorts…

Kate: well nurse, are you going to shower with me this morning?

Doris burst into a belly laugh…the nurse shakes her finger at Kate vigorously…

Nurse: Ms. G., get your shower before I call the orderly down here to give it to you.

Kate can no longer contain herself and explodes…

Kate: see what I mean! Everyday and everywhere there is always some asshole trying to tell you what the hell to do, every minute of every day, AAAAAAGGGGGHHHHHH!

Kate starts pulling at her hair…the nurse steps back…Kate starts to stamp her feet and scream…

Kate: I’m sick of it! I’m sick of all of it and all of you. Goddamn it!

Nurse: Ms. G., if you do not quiet yourself I’ll have to call the orderlies to put you in restraints.

…by this time several other nurses had gathered outside Kate’s room. Kate sits down on the edge of the bed, takes a deep breath and starts to cry…

Kate: why don’t you people just let me get some rest, please! All I need is sleep please! Goddamn it!

The charge nurse told everyone to leave and then sat down on the bed next to Kate…

Nurse: do you feel better now miss G?

Kate: Hell no!

Doris glared on. The nurse seemed upset at her response. She hadn’t expected that…

Doris: why nurse, she’s just having a good old-fashioned temper tantrum! She’ll be alright. Kate, its your turn to shower!

Doris was afraid Kate was asking for trouble. She tried to divert the nurse’s attention. Doris had been strapped down and it was no picnic. The nurse gets up to leave…

Nurse: well, Miss G., get your shower and you can talk about it in group.

Kate grabs her towel and washcloth and heads to the shower…

Kate: Damn, I thought the hospital was a place where people went to get well, you know, rest and recuperate! You people are a bunch of sadists. This is like being in the Army again and I certainly didn’t get any rest there.

She pauses a moment before stepping into the bathroom…

Kate: group, what damn group. I’m not going to group.

Doris: 0h, you won’t believe what they have us doing all day. You get your shower before the witch comes back in here. We can talk later.

Kate: I can’t believe it. It may be better for me to leave before I get into trouble.

Kate steps into the shower and slams the door. She turns on the shower and let’s the warm water wash over her for several minutes…

Kate: wouldn’t it be nice if you could just wash away your past and your troubles like this?

She mumbled to herself, watching the water slip down the drain and out of sight…..she lost track of time and the nurse knocks on the door…Kate is startled back to reality…

Nurse: Miss G, you need to get out of that shower and get dressed, your breakfast is waiting.

Kate: okay, okay, okay! Jesus, get off my back already.

Nurse: what’s that hon!

Kate: nothing, I’m coming.

Kate rushes out of the bathroom, grabs her clothes and goes back and shuts the door. She starts dressing… she exits the bathroom zipping up her blue jeans…

Kate: God, I have to get the hell out of here.

Doris: I know. It’s like being in prison isn’t it?

Kate: well, I guess that’s where you need to be if you’re trying to kill yourself.

Doris: I’m glad they don’t go to those extremes around here.

Kate: yea, I guess I am too! Thanks for waiting for me, let’s go! I do hope this stuff is worth getting up at 6 AM for.

Doris: it’s been pretty decent since I’ve been here.

MARACAIBO 1958

Friday, July 20, 2012, 11:08:03 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I am sure this is one – Cai – Kai, someone was trying to figure out how to pronounce it, pronounced like Kay and I was going to use Cai as a pseudonym.

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My grandmother’s second husband looked a lot like Serling hear…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 9:42:01 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Rod Serling - IMDb

I did not know about this but Kay drank a lot of the beer…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 9:18:43 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Schlitz Playhouse of Stars - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Something happened at Laurel Canyon…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 9:16:53 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Laurel Canyon, Los Angeles - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…I clearly recall this place being mentioned…

Hyde County Shangri la, The Goose Inn Lodge…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 9:09:47 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…likely Nazimova’s Garden of Allah in Hollywood.

Barbara Payton ~ Jean Wallace ~ Jean Acker…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 9:07:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Sunset Boulevard for prostitution.[10]

Barbara Payton - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I think it was Wallace…

Tone ~ Sunstone…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 8:51:53 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Franchot Tone - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I walk through Sunstone on my way to Whole Foods

“I want some ice”…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 8:37:00 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I had a dream about Gurney – Gurney Hospital…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 4:50:07 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Poisonous messages, they’ve been programming me to go to the mall.

The Law of Psychic Phenomena…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 4:47:55 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What I have read so far is clear the PDF I am checking is priming the reader to believe we are always at the mercy of others where our minds are concerned.  This PDF in and of itself seems to be a form of mind control and who knows, maybe Hudson was being controlled.

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Clearly to me…updated

Friday, July 20, 2012, 4:08:02 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…The Jews have a problem in coping with reality which has promoted the kind of thinking that exists in Hollywood, in the publishing industry and often in music.  I have nothing against entertainment per se’.  I am offended and angered at the manner in which my family has been manipulated into being proponents of the machine which has caused our demise particularly the premature loss of my relatives.

This is undeniably abuse of our constitutional rights, it is undeniably mind control/coercive persuasion and the blatant manipulation of those they could hook into viewing these films, affecting those who would likely never choose to indulge in it, by the nature of enmeshments and psychic connections.

THEY HAVE THE NERVE TO ACCUSE MY PEOPLE OF BEING TRICKSTERS.

Re: Rainbow…updated

Friday, July 20, 2012, 4:05:26 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

There is an Army Street which crosses Water Street.  I joined the Army but someone likely went to Army Street.  Maybe Jean Wallace aka Greta Garbo came here.

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My friend Laura owned an Oldsmobile Delta 88, we hit a deer on our way to my house from college for the weekend.

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My acquaintance Thad owned an Eldorado like this and played the lottery.  My sister Mary Ann and her husband gambled in Atlantic City, NJ several times.

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I Love Trouble film has an older model car like this.  The Dodge we owned was like this one below with the fins on the back only it was tan in color.

Eldorado The name comes from the words in Spanish in El Dorado, meaning "the gilded one" [or the man of gold]. "The" is the Spanish equivalent of "." Cadillac selected the name to display a convertible car built in 1952 to celebrate the golden anniversary of the company. It was suggested in a competition at the home of Mary-Ann Marini, nee Zukowsky, and Cadillac’s merchandising staff. The company adopted the name of the limited edition, top of the line 1953 Cadillac convertible. It quickly changed to "El Dorado" (two words) to "El Dorado" (one word).
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Incoming…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 3:40:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“dummies”.

Someone on the Internet wanted to know how and why there were so many rich Jews in Government…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 3:37:13 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…controlling this country.

They have their answer.

I made a CD for Water and it states…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 3:35:54 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Re: Rainbow…updated

…I love water, water is necessary, I drink plenty of water…

I think now this was something about Water Street, someone loved gambling or at least this was the message out into someone’s mind.

Incoming…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 2:41:47 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“You love television Ms. Gibbs”.

I heard this about a month ago, just failed to blog it.

This looks like Durer’s Pond and Ansel Adam’s Lyell Fork Yosemite photograph…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 2:15:25 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…someone was fishing at Yosemite maybe.

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Bonaventure Avenue, CA had a hit on it…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 1:58:49 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

and returned to the earlier school of St. Bonaventure.

Order of Friars Minor Capuchin - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…where the fisherman may have come from…

2001 films…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 1:36:42 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

All rented from Visart Video – One of the employees there looks like Rizzoli on Rizzoli and Isles but isn’t Harmon.  She put me on to the Mirren films.

Wag The Dog – June 1998

The Cell – 04-04-01 *

Mythos 2.2 Enlightement – 04-04-01

Mythos 2.1 Inward Path – 04-04-01

Girl Interrupted – 04-06-01 *

Lost Souls – 04-07-01 *

Power of Myth – Message & Heroes – 04-08-01 – I read the book in 1988.

Wonder Boys – 05-01-01

Mummy – 05-01-01

Matrix - 06-04-01 *

Frances – 06-02-01

A Clockwork Orange – 06-29-01- I was curious as to what this film was about, I didn’t like it after I saw it.

Border – 06-29-01 - Boring

Red Violin – 08-14-01 *

Blue Velvet – 07-02-01 – interesting psychology

One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest – 07-02-01 *

Hanging Up – 08-16-01 – good comedy

Midsummer Night’s Dream – 10-06-01 – I don’t think I actually watched much of this either, not a big Shakespeare fan.

Waco: Rules of Engagement – 11-07-01 – I hardly recall this film

General’s Daughter – 11-07-01 *

My Name is Abbie – 11-09-01 *

Aileen Wournos /Selling – 11-09-01 *

Romeo and Juliet – 12-31-01

Story of Us – 01-12-02

O’Brother Where Art Thou – 03-04-02

Down From The Mountain – 03-07-02

Wag The Dog - 06-06-02

Cooler Climate – 04-04-02

One Flew Over The Cuckoos Nest – 06-08-02

Don’t crank up noise…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 12:39:58 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I have to have AC, it has been nearly 100 degrees here for many days, I cannot do without it, sorry.

Westwood. CA…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 12:38:24 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I tried to watch Wag The Dog in 1998 but I was too scared/paranoid and couldn’t get through it.  I viewed it again 06/02/2002.  It was around this time of year I viewed it in 1998, I had written the story Audacious Avarice. 

It was last year I started making connections from where I had been staying when I wrote the story to a place near Fresno, CA.

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I really liked Niels a lot in Frasier…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 12:36:22 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I really liked Niels a lot in Frasier…

I was watching this in 1999-2000.

21 Nielson Avenue…

I was seeing this but it wasn’t in our house.  She might have been the one who was locked in the closet or ate the mothballs.

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I have seen the inside of this place in a vision dream like state…

Friday, July 20, 2012, 12:12:56 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I drew a sketch of it.  I thought it was somewhere else in California.  I also found a possible connection to Washington State.

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Duality of Nature…?

Friday, July 20, 2012, 12:07:02 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The first picture is of the pond and the snow scene is on the opposite side of the road.  The Camelot Snow scene was taken January 2009.

I used Rainbow 54 as a password while banking at BB&T 2009 to January 2010.

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Rainbow Drive Westwood, CA below.

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Pyramid Lake, NV

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 11:41:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Someone on Pine Street, CA in the nearby community went fishing at Pyramid Lake.  Tamarack is familiar.

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Other things I found…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 9:58:03 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Like possible passwords:

Dogbreath

ForWhomTheBellTolls

VelvetUnderground

MP3SansaJVC

Zebrapurrlikeacat

Y2Kcollapse78

Despite what someone may have heard, I have no cancer and have never been diagnosed…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 9:54:07 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…my cousin was diagnosed with breast cancer and died in 1997.  My grandmother died from gallbladder cancer from dipping snuff, she died in 1995.  My mother’s second husband had lung and throat cancer from cigarette smoking and died in 1994.  There are other instances of cancer, such as Mrs. Phipps.  I have viewed numerous commercials regarding smoking and cancer.

If I have it, no medical professional’s told me about it.  These cleaners clearly do not know what they are doing.

I know this one is mixed in the mass…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 6:02:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…because of the music and Kirkland is one of the stars or characters…I used that name in my story…

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This is what’s happened I was caught up in the acting out while someone was penning her story…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 5:50:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I was not particularly enthused over Wilder…

No Blade of Grass (1970) – bombing in this film…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 5:44:41 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Katherine – also bombing included at end…

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Jane Wyman Presents The Fireside Theatre (TV Series 1955–1958) - IMDb

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 5:39:21 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Jane Wyman Presents The Fireside Theatre (TV Series 1955–1958) - IMDb

There is an Amber Migyette in Hyde County, married…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 5:34:50 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Forever Amber (1947) - IMDb

…her mother owned some very colorful Bantam Roosters…they also owned a hotel and restaurant.

Greta Garbo ~ Jean Wallace…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 5:21:47 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Gary Larson's Far Side Cartoons

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 5:21:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Gary Larson's Far Side Cartoons

I was not particularly enthused over Wilder…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 5:18:22 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Cornel Wilde
(21 September 1937 - 30 August 1951) (divorced) 1 child

Patricia Knight (I) - Biography

…if there is a connection to my film preferences and these marriage partners.

I liked Gary Wright’s music as well…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 5:10:57 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

David Wright
(? - 22 May 1996) (his death

Patricia Knight (I) - Biography

I really liked Niels a lot in Frasier…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 5:05:32 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Niels Larson
(24 October 1954 - 1971) (his death)

Patricia Knight (I) - Biography

I don’t know any Knights but I know a McKnight…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 5:00:49 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Patricia Knight - IMDb

Jean Wallace (I) – Biography – update 4

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 4:59:20 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Jean Wallace (I) – Biography

I have driven while drinking but have had no tickets.  I did lose my license, for driving without a license.

I had a roommate who had two snakes, no spiders but we did have a white cockatiel, two fish tanks, a cat, a skunk, a ferret, a hamster and two long haired guinea pigs.

I ate at Wendy’s frequently…

I did land on The Mall in London, the red road…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 4:06:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I heard, “I’m going to blow up this mall”…

These stairs may be on the inside of the Everette, MA house…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 3:35:17 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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What's In Kay's Mind 2: Part of the repetition compulsion…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 3:33:41 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Part of the repetition compulsion…

I recognized this house.  As a child I thought we had a doorway that was at an angle like the room on the bottom floor of this house.  When I started trying to sketch it I I realized the doorway was not as I once thought.  Then I located this house on google maps.

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John Kidd ~ Thomas Kyd…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 3:26:35 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

John Kidd (chemist) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

The Help film…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 3:24:11 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Part of the repetition compulsion…

…”I put shit in it”…this could be wood and could have been symbolism for the name Wood or they put a Jew into it…

Beatles ~ butterfly ~ butterpie, put it in the butterpie…I had deduced it was a pill with either a butterfly or Aigner engraved on it…

Dover chocolates?

Part of the repetition compulsion…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 3:06:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

green things, we did eat a lot of eggs and my father occasionally drank buttermilk.

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These are the malted milk balls we ate a few times when we were children.   I have been drinking this milk and started getting the Ovaltine.  I can’t seem to stop drinking it, despite being told to stop because of my brain problem.

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Other passwords have been…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 11:54:26 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Voodoo which is related to music and a film…

I must be connected to someone here…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 11:31:20 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…Rainbow used to be my password.  Rainbow 54

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This looks almost identical to Camelot and Chapel Hill…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 11:25:53 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Franchot Tone - IMDb

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 11:11:04 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Franchot Tone - IMDb

My childhood…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 10:56:49 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I recall having had erotic feelings about my mother’s hands.  I am certain this came from tending to baby’s diapering, however I wasn’t breast fed.  I wrote about this in a technical way.  I felt it contributed to why some children develop talents as architects, pianists, painters or even surgeons.  We had toys as children related to all three of these professions.   It was told to me I was slow to develop speech which would explain why I have had difficulties speaking in public.  I think the only time I was able to be comfortable in front of people was in high school when I gave the graduation invocation.  I may have had help. 

I did not develop the acting out habit until I was beaten as a means of correction.

I recollect sketching my own hands in college, one of Ronstadt’s albums seemed to reflect my viewing my own hand while I was sketching it.  The music was from my mother’s second husband and some from my own self.

Three arches again…

Thursday, July 19, 2012, 12:09:18 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…”I wish I had a door like hers”…

“Miss Phipps you are a very observant woman”.

There was a Phipps in Hyde County, she worked with the EMS service.  Dissociating the observer.

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This furniture seems familiar to me…

Wednesday, July 18, 2012, 11:19:54 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…not like I’ve seen it but like I’ve been around it.

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This is what our TV sort of looked like without the legs…

Wednesday, July 18, 2012, 11:03:14 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Danz Family: FDR's First Television Broadcast

…it was big and heavy and we had a cabinet for with jalousie type doors…

I have been having lots of physical sensations over the last few weeks…

Wednesday, July 18, 2012, 10:51:15 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…the tooth I broke in an accident is hurting and sensitive and my head injury has been noticeable off and on…

This looks like my father’s when we lived in Portsmouth…

Wednesday, July 18, 2012, 10:39:07 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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I love Trouble…

Wednesday, July 18, 2012, 10:35:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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I met a Ray Huggins when I was in Asheville with the Beta Club Convention…

Wednesday, July 18, 2012, 10:26:10 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…he came to see me just after he joined the Army and took off for his training.

“My boy fell head over heels for that girl”.

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This is what’s affecting my physique right now I can tell…

Wednesday, July 18, 2012, 10:19:12 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…it looks like there is someone facing the creature but attached to its body.

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This is one of them, never seen it but have seen the Agatha Christie version I think…

Wednesday, July 18, 2012, 10:17:56 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Falling out of bed as a child…

Tuesday, July 17, 2012, 1:24:56 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…someone getting rolled off their bunk on a ship in the ocean possibly or The Little Rascals.

Incoming…

Tuesday, July 17, 2012, 12:54:57 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I can’t get this bitch to go to sleep”…

“That would be you and me”.

Wrong

“I been wating for that girl to get some sleep”

I will go to sleep for her.

And I’ve had enough of your crap too…

Tuesday, July 17, 2012, 12:48:30 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Take it to the limit one more time…

Tuesday, July 17, 2012, 12:47:45 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

more programming.

This visualization is called Green is Not Your Enemy…

Monday, July 16, 2012, 10:01:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I didn’t notice this until just now.

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I wonder about this…

Monday, July 16, 2012, 3:39:15 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Such a trance is not to be confused with sleepwalking, as the patterns are entirely different. Castillo (1995) states,

Mediumship - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Clairaudience - “that would be you Ms. Gibbs”.

That could be any of us, is any of us who give attention to the self and inhibit one’s own brain function long enough to hear.  Brain dead?  If I am it’s because of the noise exposure at FCCW and music.

People walking around reading novels…

Monday, July 16, 2012, 3:25:05 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I see them frequently.  They either are ignorant or have no concern for others.

King of Kings film…

Monday, July 16, 2012, 3:14:29 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Your projections will fail to affect Kay Gibbs’ behavior regarding this blog…

Monday, July 16, 2012, 3:01:35 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Neurolinguistic Programming

Monday, July 16, 2012, 2:59:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Neurolinguistic Programming

Still trying to blame my blog for the problems in the system and mismanagement (really people lining their pockets)

Monday, July 16, 2012, 2:59:08 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Trying to blame my blog for the problems in the system and mismanagement (really people lining their pockets)

Incoming…

Monday, July 16, 2012, 2:57:53 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I’m tired of your god damn blog”.

Who cares what you are tired of.

Trying to blame my blog for the problems in the system and mismanagement (really people lining their pockets)

Monday, July 16, 2012, 2:49:55 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…solves nothing.  These ideas have been around for ages, they have been used against the masses.  Slick carpet baggers coming here stealing our money.  Maybe we should ask how much the computer age has contributed to the economic downturn as well.  To go back to the way we were would be tantamount to suicide.

This is why I thought my mother set fire to the house and why I tried to jump from the top of the parking deck…

Monday, July 16, 2012, 2:25:15 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

She learns that Mr. Rochester's wife set the house on fire and committed suicide by jumping from the roof.

Jane Eyre - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…I was never exposed to these novels.

I’m so glad you asked this question Alicat…

Monday, July 16, 2012, 2:14:38 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What has happened to our society that we accept and embrace a series based on a pedophile who abuses and uses a fifteen year old, and teaches him the ways of bdsm? I'm…

Fifty Shades Freed: Book Three of the Fifty Shades Trilogy: E L James: Amazon.com: Kindle Store

Too many novels, too much television, too much music, too much pornography.  We have become the crap they’ve sold to us poisoning our own sense of dignity and integrity and simple good behavior.  No more Pride and Prejudice, no more Jane Eyre, no more Sense and Sensibility.  Patriarchal testosterone infecting feminine sensibilities.  We are a nation out of balance.  I can’t imagine what we’d be like had we read and seen this much intelligence.  Want to understand the present recession.  This is it.

Cinematic license or mind control…

Monday, July 16, 2012, 1:28:11 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Katherine is killed on a solitary mission to blow up some unnamed government target. That's cinematic license,

Amazon.com: Katherine: Sissy Spacek; Art Carney; Jane Wyatt; Henry Winkler; Julie Kavner, Jeremy Kagan: Movies & TV

…a certain imprisonment or death for some less knowledgeable viewer to act out.  Did this influence the Blacksburg, VA killings?

Katherine (TV 1975) – IMDb – seen this…

Monday, July 16, 2012, 1:20:44 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Katherine (TV 1975) - IMDb

…interesting film, a suspicious mind would certainly question the motives…keeping the poor, poor.

This is who Lois Gibbs from Hyde County looked like to me…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 11:12:00 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Alexei Petrovich, Tsarevich of Russia - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

“Stupify that one” – Harry Potter…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 9:55:47 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Evolution of the Soul?   I found some questionable things in the book in the short time I viewed it today.

Albert Speer ~ Albert Nobbs

Dover Street Chocolates – Kay Gibbs has eaten them, long while back

Eduard Buchner ~ yeast, Egyptians ~ “They would have done better had they known it was going on inside them instead of outside them”, ~ fermentation?

I wanted to go to Brigham Young University…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 9:50:11 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…that’s me Kay Gibbs that is…could be someone from England

This is where I got the belt…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 9:39:39 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

soho district london england - Google Maps

The Serpentine

…three arches bridge

I went on a paddleboat ride at a lake in Raleigh about 25 years ago…

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We used to go through Hertford from Portsmouth to Hyde…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 8:46:20 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Bede Payne…? - updated

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 8:38:53 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Roman Catholic

  • St Bede's, Baldwins Lane

Croxley Green - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…I did see The Piano.  I thought it was familiar.

I lived on Dickinson Ave…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 8:34:10 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Croxley Green - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I have a lot (bundle?) of drawing paper…

Bob Hudson was my therapist in 1988…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 6:51:09 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Miracle Worker…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 6:27:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“She’s eating like a gdamn animal”…

“I’m going to run the dm people away from around here”…

This is part of the problem also…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 3:43:56 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Renovascular Hypertension - What Is Renovascular Hypertension Video

Incoming…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 3:38:56 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I want to kill all these people”…

I was told my blood pressure was 169/89 recently at the VA…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 3:35:33 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I think it is someone who was on Zoloft 300 mgs or so…

I am taking no anti-depressants.

My Uncle Will was a Shriner and he had also been to the VA hospital…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 3:23:20 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I think it is someone who was on Zoloft 300 mgs or so…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 3:20:38 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…very hyper person at the Durham VA.  Big tall man about 250 lbs, dark hair, glasses.  I was at the Dutch Village, he didn’t bother me, he was trying to help.  I think he’s a writer.

My experience would indicate PCP blocks some motor activity which means it is inhibiting dopamine…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 3:13:23 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

PCP may also work as a dopamine reuptake inhibitor.[14]

Phencyclidine - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…not enhancing its effects.

This could be the cause of my sleep paralysis or that of someone who took it but no one was leaning or hovering over me at the time I took it.

I have listened to Joseph Murphy’s, How the Subconscious mind removes mental blocks…updated

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 2:39:08 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“If you repeat a negative thought or action (this works for positive acts as well) over a period of time, you will place yourself under a the compulsion of a habit.  The law of the subconscious is compulsion.  I am not altogether certain this is true.  You can certainly create it.

Page 31 on Kindle • The cause of bloody stigmata In Hudson’s Law of Psychic Phenomena, page 153, he states, “Hemorrhages and bloody stigmata may be induced in certain subjects by means of suggestion. “Dr. M. Bourru put a subject into the somnambulistic condition, and gave him the following suggestion: ‘At four o’clock this afternoon, after the hypnosis, you will come into my office, sit down in the armchair, cross your arms upon your breast, and your nose will begin to bleed.’ At the hour appointed the young man did as directed. Several drops of blood came from the left nostril.

Murphy, Joseph (2010-05-12). The Power of Your Subconscious Mind (p. 31). Martino Publishing. Kindle Edition.

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I read this book in the ‘80’s.

Several years ago I proceeded to create a nose bleed in myself.  I might add that I had a personal interest in this as my father suffered from severe nose bleeds until he had surgery.  The original of this book was published in 1963, my father’s problem started in 1965 after he lost his site, so it was likely one of the VA doctors who read this book and figured out what to do.  First I learned what caused blood coagulation.  I discovered isoleucine causes the blood to coagulate.  Then I proceeded to eating protein, then started taking amino acids and stopped taking isoleucine.  I developed a nose bleed and awoke one morning with blood splatters all over my pillow.  I couldn’t figure out how it got there.  It was later I purchased the book again The Power of Your Subconscious Mind, and discovered the above.

Now I see why some believe AA to be a cult I have experienced.  On page 228 Murphy speaks about a binge drinker who’s belief that he was weak and helpless kept him stuck in his drinking problem.  The first step of the 12 steps states, admitted we were powerless over alcohol, that our lives had become unmanageable.

Logically this is true and makes sense but to the subconscious, it is simply food to feed the problem.  I know, I went through it and know from experience saying, I was an alcoholic and powerless kept me slipping repeatedly and no one bothered to say anything until I heard an airline pilot’s story and what he was doing to stay sober.  You can believe it or not.  Wisdom for the taking.  I am being helped so I am helping others.

Clearly this is evidence the films, Twenty-Two and The Woman in Green have the capacity to hypnotize and by other means to control the behaviors of others.

The law of psychic phenomena - Google Books

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 2:35:12 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The law of psychic phenomena - Google Books

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Dr. Walker raped his patient…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 2:31:08 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The evolution of the soul, and other essays - Google Books  published 1904

…this was mentioned while I was on the psychiatric unit at Pitt Memorial…

Bottom of page 8 top of page 9,

The limitations of power in the subjective mind consist in the fact that as long as the soul inhabits the body, it is normally amenable to control by suggestion. That is to say, it accepts as veridical every suggestion imparted to it. This apparent deficiency is to a great extent supplied in this life, and wholly in the future life, by the faculty of intuitive apprehension of essential truth.

It is possible someone could have been editing out this part of the book but I did read it myself in its entirety…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 1:39:10 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I have listened to Joseph Murphy’s, How the Subconscious mind removes mental blocks…updated

I also suffered sleep difficulties for nearly the length of time mentioned in the book.

Now this really is synchronistic as I shut down the PC and opened the book to this page…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 1:24:22 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Synchronicity, An Acausal Connecting Principle, CG Jung…updated

…page 83, “he distinguishes between the minds on the one hand, which are the images of the divinity, capable of knowing the system of the universe, and imitating something of it by architectonic patterns, each mind being as it were a little divinity in its own department…” - more important things said after this.

“For perception is unconscious”.

No I have not really gotten into this book yet, the reason I purchased it was because I wanted to know more about it.  As I said I read about synchronicity in my other Jung books.  I may have read the first 20 pages.

I did research the architectonica maximus and turritella oblongata…I did discover a video about paleodictyon nodosum fossil shown below also…

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Incoming…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 12:07:11 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I think it’s time we give everybody a fair shake here”…

This film also, hole in building, three arches…I have seen neither of these films…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 4:10:27 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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…this tree below was along the Bolin Creek bike path.  This is what really started it for me as I had drawn the sketch above, then found the tree below and then the tree on the Washington State Road.

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I think my cousin Ruthann may have been the derivation of this architectonica maximus seeking…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 4:01:08 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Now this really is synchronistic as I shut down the PC and opened the book to this page…

…she majored in Biology and has a high IQ.

Synchronicity, An Acausal Connecting Principle, CG Jung…updated

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 3:28:42 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…page 37, the experiment is based on 4x4 lines consisting of a random number of points which the questioner marks in the sand or on paper from right to left…

I had not read this book at the time I did these sketches.  I had this page book marked but had not read it until tonight, 2:30 AM when I opened the book where this page is book marked.  Someone with whom I am connected, must have read this and from these lines I created these drawings.  This is how my mind works in relation to what I was hearing.  I am hardly dangerous.  I read some about synchronicity in Jung’s other books which excluded these details.  I recall experiencing something of it while on UNC campus when a ladybug landed on my coat.  I had been talking and writing about someone referred to as ladybug.

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The Hub or center can represent, not only Kings or Pharaohs, as it did in ancient Egyptian times, but also Corporate America; the Mental Health Industry, the Film Industry, the Music Industry, the Book Publishing Industry, The State or Federal Government, the Military, etc.

I picture the scene from the Wizard of Oz, when the Wizard demanded that Dorothy, the Scarecrow, Tin Man and the Cowardly Lion kill the wicked witch and bring him her broom (could be symbolic of her success). It is symbolic of not only the business that employed Judy Garland who portrayed Dorothy, but of many industries that, in essence, collect stories and ideas. Who was the wicked witch? Could Dorothy's story be a re-enactment of something that already happened? Could it have anything to do with Ancient Egypt? And an even more interesting thought is how the pyramid relates to Mt. Sinai, mentioned in the Bible. According to researchers Mt. Sinai has never really been located. What if it were symbolic of something like the pyramid idea I have expressed here. What if Sinai had some hidden meaning like Sin-ai, as in a mountain of sin. Suppose Moses were trying to express the idea that his killing of the pharaoh's soldier spread a "mountain" of killing and Sin among his people, which prompted his writing the ten commandments. But the sins of the mind would be more lethal than those already acted upon and maybe Moses figured this out. And killing of any kind, justified or not, is only going to breed more killing, and irrespective of what is in the Bible, the law of the land says that murder is against the law.

Think of Hitler and his regime. I never believed he was capable of amassing such a large number of followers all on his own and these simple drawings show how it was possible that he may have been influenced in his childhood, by transferences from the people around him.

Think about Waco and Timothy McVeigh.©

Kay F Gibbs

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Frames of Mind, by Howard Gardiner

Transferences

A personal note: The definition of transferences given by Gale Encyclopedia, does not mention the transference of thought, from one person to another without verbalizing it. I have personally experienced this phenomena, and I use the term phenomena loosely. I have been the recipient of thought-transferences from others, as well as having transferred thoughts to others, unaware, at first, of what I was doing. During a therapy session I finally became aware of this as the therapist had picked up on one of my thought transferences and she let me know that she was aware of what I was thinking. Some call this Extrasensory Perception. I consider it another stage in mental development, the logical stage beyond emotional transferences.

Silence of the Lambs?

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 2:38:42 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The Magic Skin, by Honore de Balzac

Someone painted their outside light orange…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 1:34:55 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Soho - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I went to the Westminster Church…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 1:10:31 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

City of Westminster - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I had a liking for the Macabre – Helen?

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 12:47:14 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Le Macabre

Soho - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Apparently there is some question as to the existence of Bond Street, Chesapeake, VA…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 12:12:04 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I went to the Planetarium in Virginia in 1965-66…

…I assure you any attempts at making me look like a schizophrenic or psychotic will fail.   Bond Street, Plummer Plantation, Chesapeake, VA is very real and existed exactly where I said it was.  I have no appreciation nor interest in your game. 

And of course my elementary school records from Deep Creek all exist and are in my possession and state that address as being where we resided.

Now, there most likely was a psychic connection to Bond Street, NYC and Bond Street London and my father or Katherine became enmeshed with persons living in NY.

Chapel Hill fog…Footsteps in the Fog film…

Sunday, July 15, 2012, 12:05:57 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Goodwin has a gate at the front of the property like the one in this film.

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Bond Street (1948) – IMDb – Doesn’t sound familiar to me…

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 11:45:35 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Bond Street (1948) – IMDb

…the actors’ and actresses’ names sound familiar.

The Inner Circle film…

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 11:33:36 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Someone could have ? me w/a weight around my neck Johnny Strange”.

I think we really have Virginia Woolf to thank for paying attention to streams of consciousness.

There must have been a chocolates shoppe on Dover…

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 11:24:50 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Dover Street - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…maybe Albert Nobbs…? :)

I went to the Planetarium in Virginia in 1965-66…

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 11:17:47 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: This was during the time I knew the man who made prosthetics…

This was during the time I knew the man who made prosthetics…

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 11:15:17 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

This is the scene from The Cell, I mentioned…

…leg sculpture – I know someone who makes prosthetics…I have been in his work shop…

I think this is from someone I have met in the past 5 years, Claudia an Art Historian, studying Michelangelo.

What's In Kay's Mind 2: This is the scene from The Cell, I mentioned…

The Nichol’s party…

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This one too, been acting this out…

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 10:06:40 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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I think this has something to do with my drawings…never seen it - updating

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 7:53:19 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The Inner Circle (1946) – IMDb

We lived across the street from the McGowans.

I’ve got holes in the toes of several pairs of socks.

I do recognize this film now, I was mixed up in it in 1988-89…

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 7:47:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Boeing (707) Boeing (707) (1965) - IMDb

I had no recollection of it in 1988-89.  It was a year after I was beaten, why I likely forgot or dissociated it.

Now I understand why Escher created the Three Worlds the way he did…

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 12:53:09 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…it is interesting to note Kay’s head injury occurred on the same side of the head.  Kay was reminded of the injury when she hit herself in the head with her camera last night trying to swat a bug away.  Although the injury happened 44 years ago, it is still sensitive.  Apparently the event triggered these memories today.  Art work she did including a plaster cast of a friend’s face and an ashtray made to look like a castle and a moat, parts depicted in Mephisto Waltz, are also indicative of the removal of the horn.  Scenes in The Woman in Green might also be related to her surgery.   So TWIG must have been about Charcot.

Since her grandfather had been in France and Germany during WWI this may be how they came about information about it or someone her family were connected to visited the Mutter Museum.

“I remember Joe Caswell pretty much going along with what i wanted to do in Art class and that was the result.”

The Harry Potter book, The Sorcerer’s Stone may contain information about it.

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This looks like many things…

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 12:48:56 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

George Washington, a geisha dancing, a child in pigtails…

It is my niece goofing off…she is quite creative.

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Let’s be clear about this…

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 12:35:28 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I am learning.  I stopped listening to music with lyrics at home because of what I have learned and what I have been experiencing and Rizzoli and Isles is proof of it.  I have no interest in music much anymore, as I am more interested in what I am doing now with this blog.

I play no instruments despite short lived lessons as a child, I have no professional involvement in music.  I was threatened with psychiatric hospitalization if I did not stop listening to rock n roll as it was making me crazy and taking up my brain activity.  It was hurting me and I was unconscious of how it was hurting me.  It was also hurting others of which I was unaware.

Leave me alone about it. I want to hear no more about it.

Edward was my neighbor for awhile here at Camelot…

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 12:27:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Edward Potter went to Mississippi in 2008 or so…

…he was a student at UNC don’t recall what he was studying.

Some of my story is starting to sound like a detective story I think…

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 12:24:45 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Now I understand why Escher created the Three Worlds the way he did…

…getting hit in the head wandering the streets, feeling paranoid, going into a psychiatrist’s office…

Edward Potter went to Mississippi in 2008 or so…

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 12:16:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: This is the scene from The Cell, I mentioned…

Claudia is from Mississippi.

This is the scene from The Cell, I mentioned…

Saturday, July 14, 2012, 12:13:56 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…leg sculpture – I know someone who makes prosthetics…I have been in his work shop…

I think this is from someone I have met in the past 5 years, Claudia an Art Historian, studying Michelangelo.

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My Jonquil yin/yang drawing…

Friday, July 13, 2012, 4:30:16 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Lyrics such as

"I'm called little Buttercup, dear little Buttercup, though I could never tell why.
Still I'm called Buttercup, poor little Buttercup, sweet little Buttercup I!"

would bring the house down.

Dr. Hawley Harvey Crippen: Of Passion and Poison — Act Two: The Wife — Crime Library on truTV.com

…maybe he was mixed up in the Ripper…

The only Belle I know is Mrs. Belle Neal, deceased.  There was also a Myron Gibbs, sister Bettie Lou, in Hyde, moved away.

Albert DeSalvo - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Friday, July 13, 2012, 4:19:15 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Albert DeSalvo - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I’ve had visions of someone bending their fingers back by pressing their hands down until the were injured…

“You write another word I’ll break all your fingers”.  I heard this several times.  Kay Francis?

Dr. Hawley Harvey Crippen…?

Friday, July 13, 2012, 4:11:50 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

http://www.trutv.com/library/crime/notorious_murders/family/crippen/2.html

He looks like St. Francis Exupery.

An Act of Murder – going down the ravine – where I was raped.  The woman was raped on the ravine, either poisoned or had her neck broken and left in a car crash or man fell asleep at the wheel killing his wife, unrelated to the boy’s death.

This could also be related to Sleeping Tiger.

I figured it this way…

Friday, July 13, 2012, 3:57:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: This is the 4th street where someone my father was connected to lived…update 4

An Act of Murder was part of the Slander film.

The boy’s mother became so despondent and depressed she took an overdose of pills and ended up in Bellevue.   The car crash was a scene from the man who hit the boy.  The boy was killed because his mother crossed the street in front of parked cars. 

The murder in Act of Murder was a real murder, a dead body taken off and left in a car accident, death by poisoning.

“Jumping jupiter” ~ Van Johnson?…

Friday, July 13, 2012, 3:56:26 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

This is familiar to me…

Friday, July 13, 2012, 3:46:02 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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1ST CLASS FORK 1905

A very early Elkington plate first class fork date coded for 1905, a rare early piece that is in good condition for age with only a couple of small areas of plate wear and marks comensurate with age.Nicely marked with company logo which is very slighty worn. Item #210

Cunard Line - theboatdeck.co.uk

My Aunt Mamie had china with a design similar to this one, same color…

Friday, July 13, 2012, 3:24:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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My brother and sister, cousin and I collected a lot of bottles like these…

Friday, July 13, 2012, 3:10:12 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

SS Republic Shipwreck

…after the canal was dredged in Hyde County.  Henry Gibbs also had a huge collection.

I purchased these.

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This could be it…

Friday, July 13, 2012, 2:58:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Chamber Pot with Gold Trim

White porcelain chamber pot vintage French country by lapomme

Friday, July 13, 2012, 2:45:49 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

White porcelain chamber pot vintage French country by lapomme

…the lipper?

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Soup/salad bowl in my Waechtersbach set.  I prefer it to the smaller one I have.

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French Vintage bowl

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Bowl I found at thrift

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Could be a derivation of this one…

Friday, July 13, 2012, 2:23:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Cunard Line - theboatdeck.co.uk

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QUEEN MARY CHAMBER POT

In fine order with only slight rubbing to the gold band around the rim, no chips or cracks. Made by Minton and with great Cunard White Star logo on bottom. 20cm across the bowl. A lovely highly collectable thing! Item #1029

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QUEEN MARY CHAMBER POT

reverse of item

Peeing in the ashtray ~ Chamber pot…updated

Friday, July 13, 2012, 1:43:56 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

January « 2012 « spydersden

…And Along Came a Spider…

This is what the ashtray looked like with the decorative design on the handle around the edges of the ashtray, with a bit of gold trim around the edges.

So someone likely was thinking people ought to just urinate into the streets, why Ms. Perly behaved the way she did while intoxicated.   It was likely the store owner who was in possession of someone harboring those thoughts.

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The ashtray was shaped like this, no perch for the cigarette or cigar…

Friday, July 13, 2012, 1:41:02 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Collectible Ashtrays French Porcelain Ashtray Set Antiques & Collectibles

the trim was lighter in color and nothing in the center.  The design on the inside was on the corners of the ashtray.  It could have been a candy dish.

Shoot to Kill (1947) – I think this is one too, “lipper” is what I found…

Friday, July 13, 2012, 1:15:50 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…”I like film noir”, whoever was viewing these gave me the propensity to view cop shows.

Lippert

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Might be one…

Friday, July 13, 2012, 1:00:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I survived at least five suicidal attempts.

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Passive viewing does have an impact on one’s brain…updating

Thursday, July 12, 2012, 10:01:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…the Twilight Zone film, Twenty-Two, was likely part of some hypnotic, mind control experiment continued from The Sherlock Holmes film, The Woman in Green.   The Doctor in the forefront of the film is hypnotizing his patient to sleep. 

Now you see the power of the subconscious mind and what can happen with passive viewing and how powerful and illusive it is.  The painting in the background of the Twilight Zone scene was part of the unconscious content of my mother’s mind, to whom I am connected.   I acted out some of the film as did my niece during her childhood.  Acting out makes it more difficult to recollect a movie or something one has read or seen.  I kept taking pictures of the background until I started to make connections to it outside the self, then my acting out behavior to films.

Update:  A German Prisoner?

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The Deadly Mantis (1957) – YouTube – Never Seen It

Thursday, July 12, 2012, 12:38:59 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…The Law of Attraction…

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The Law of Attraction…

Thursday, July 12, 2012, 12:33:59 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: The Deadly Mantis (1957) – YouTube – Never Seen It

…must click on link to view previous post.

Here’s what I’m finding…updating

Thursday, July 12, 2012, 12:23:41 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

… located the following books at the PTA Thrift recently.  I have read none of these books but I have acted out some of their content.

How To Work A Room

Book of Mormon

The Age of Paradox – Never read it ~  I created this to describe different parts of the mind, I knew nothing of this book at the time, found it today at the ChapeL Hill Village Plaza Thrift Store.  I’ve been eating donuts lately.  I did not buy the book.

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Practical Candle Burning Rituals

Bad Girls of the Bible

Advanced Candle Burning Magic

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The Little Prince - “he lives a B-612 ~ 612 B

Guns Germs and Steel

“You promised me a novel”…

Wednesday, July 11, 2012, 4:11:11 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…still can’t find the connection.

This looks very similar to the Mecca Restaurant, downtown Raleigh, NC…

Wednesday, July 11, 2012, 4:09:26 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…there is a softball field near here…Lindsay Wagner film…

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126 West 4th Street – Three arches, floor where they lived…

Wednesday, July 11, 2012, 3:35:55 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Someone’s got flies crawling all over them…

Wednesday, July 11, 2012, 3:28:24 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The Little Prince - “he lives at B-612 ~ 612 B

Wednesday, July 11, 2012, 3:23:01 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I am guessing, not having checked this out, that the little boy who was killed by the car and who was the subject of the film Slander, lived at 612-B 4th Street in New York, near Bellevue Hospital.

We lived at 614 East 4th Street, Portsmouth, VA until 1963.

My father’s friend’s name was Wood or Woods…

Wednesday, July 11, 2012, 3:14:17 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Katherine Woods

The Little Prince - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I worked at Hair By Natures Way on two different occasions , 1982-1983 and again in 1985…

Wednesday, July 11, 2012, 2:55:21 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I worked with someone named Michael.

Matisse, Plumed Hat ~ Ionides ~ Diane Keaton film with poodle…

Wednesday, July 11, 2012, 2:44:14 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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I think this has been part of my problem with the visualizations…

Wednesday, July 11, 2012, 12:45:50 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Hulu - Brain Twisters - Watch the full movie now.

…and mind control.

Callaway Went Thataway (1951) - IMDb

Tuesday, July 10, 2012, 9:52:14 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Callaway Went Thataway (1951) - IMDb

my buzzard pictures.

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This is the 4th street where someone my father was connected to lived…update 4

Tuesday, July 10, 2012, 1:58:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Bellevue “Cube” ~ Davis Library UNC…

…in New York, near Bellevue Hospital.  They later moved to Bond Street maybe, whereas we moved to Bond Avenue in Chesapeake, VA from Portsmouth.  Someone’s child may well have been hit by an automobile, as Kay walked out into the street at age three.  Was it depicted in this film Slander?  It is the same year I walked into the street.

Someone walking in front of parked cars, crossing the street.

http://kayfgibbsstayingalive.blogspot.com/2012/06/i-fear-this-film-caused-my-little-5.html

A real shocker…

Tuesday, July 10, 2012, 12:39:49 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

After videoing this scene, several days later I observed two Starlings attacking a crow in front of the mall in the parking lot on the hood of a car.  After a minute or so they took to the trees, still attacking the crow.

So Melanie in the film Birds, or the bird shop owner may well have lured the birds to Bodega Bay.  Why?  Caged?

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And a nightingale sang in Berkley Square…

Tuesday, July 10, 2012, 12:30:48 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Google Image Result for http://i.ytimg.com/vi/AA-tlGThk34/0.jpg

And this…

Tuesday, July 10, 2012, 12:51:37 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Art.com - Find the Perfect Frame

Like this giclee and frame vanilla mat works well…

Tuesday, July 10, 2012, 12:47:22 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Art.com - Find the Perfect Frame

Like it…

Tuesday, July 10, 2012, 12:30:44 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Art.com - Find the Perfect Frame

Art.com - Find the Perfect Frame

Tuesday, July 10, 2012, 12:23:40 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Art.com - Find the Perfect Frame

Love this

Like this frame…

Tuesday, July 10, 2012, 12:17:57 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Art.com - Find the Perfect Frame

mat doesn’t match mine.

July 19th, 1974, I saw this concert…

Monday, July 09, 2012, 3:28:10 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Diamond Dogs Tour

Bellevue “Cube” ~ Davis Library UNC…

Monday, July 09, 2012, 3:20:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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I’m using photoimpact 4.0 software purchased in 2003 with a Microtek scanner…

Monday, July 09, 2012, 3:05:04 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Ulead PhotoImpact - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

My Uncle Hugh has come up many times in the history…updating

Monday, July 09, 2012, 2:35:09 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I’ve been getting the Leucine so it might have shut down my synaptic activity.  My biceps are bigger though, feel stronger.

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They think I have been ripping you off with my articles, I haven’t.  I’m not thief, I read and comprehend very well.  I also have my own experiences so I know what i am talking about.

My Uncle Hugh has only one eye.  He was a WWII veteran too.

I have been using my magnifier up to 200%.  My eye health must be declining. 

I did the Escher overlay with 80-90% transparency.   Those are the numbers I use frequently when mixing images.  Most of the time I stay at the 50% mark. 

I wonder if the lithium they gave me in prison and then I later purchased at the health food store in 1995, had some affect on my health, I seem more nervous my hands shaking and my vision problems.

I haven’t used my blenders in awhile, I was using them frequently in 2003-2004.

I’ve been threatening to sue these people about the writing a lot.

No news of my Uncle Hugh lately, he’s taking it easy, getting older.

“These Americans give us the recipe”…

How to make a cake – two eggs, 1 cup milk, 1/2 cup oil blend well, pour into pan cook for 25 minutes.

I’ve seen lobster tails on sale recently for $9.99, the other day they were reduced to $3.99.  They are frozen and then thawed.

My cake been buying for 5 years now…

Monday, July 09, 2012, 1:48:20 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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THIS IS SCARY - BUT YOU MUST HEAR THIS ! part 1 of 4 - YouTube

Monday, July 09, 2012, 12:52:07 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Someone was aware the month of October would bring some war memories to the surface - 

The Central Powers launched a crushing offensive on 26 October 1917.  My grandfather, John Hadley Weston, was in Germany with the 113th Infantry.

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Cast a Dark Shadow (1955) - YouTube

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 10:07:56 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Rear Window ~ Witness to Murder ~ Someone Behind the Door ~ Sleeping Tiger…

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 9:28:54 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Cloudburst (1951) – YouTube ? - updated

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 9:18:32 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

This might be the film I connected to Cate Eddowes and the Marcus Car…

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The psychiatrist looks a bit like Charles Sydney Gibbes…

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 8:52:01 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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What's In Kay's Mind 2

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 8:05:51 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2

I think this is what triggered some connection to this film The Act of Murder.  I was messing around with the Escher eye and decided to stick them together.  I noticed the eyes had dark circles around then as does Frederic March in this film.

“If I can navigate”, I have said this…

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Scene I recall from the mystery film…

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 7:12:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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This film is familiar, however it isn’t the one I’ve been looking for…

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 7:01:00 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…although it may be related to this film in that someone either psychically perceived the woman’s wish to take her life or she was influenced to do it by a group of people…I have experienced this numerous times, someone trying to inflict negative thinking into my mind.

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Shadow Of A Doubt Part 1/11 - YouTube

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 4:59:38 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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The Glass Key (1942 film) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 4:40:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The Glass Key (1942 film) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

My neighbor ~ “I’m a Nazi sympathizer”…

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 4:35:56 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Once Upon a Honeymoon - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Schultz ~ Hogan’s Heros…

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 4:28:51 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

M.A.P. cocktail recipe

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 4:06:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

M.A.P. cocktail recipe

Sex In The Dunes cocktail recipe

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 4:04:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Sex In The Dunes cocktail recipe

Achilles Heel cocktail recipe

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 4:02:20 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Achilles Heel cocktail recipe

kiss on the beach cocktail recipe

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 4:01:16 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

kiss on the beach cocktail recipe

Frog Juice cocktail recipe

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 3:59:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Frog Juice cocktail recipe

Strawberry Woo Woo cocktail recipe

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 3:58:32 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Strawberry Woo Woo cocktail recipe

Scalding myself in the shower in the psychiatric hospital in 1989…

Sunday, July 08, 2012, 3:47:50 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…and beating my hand on the shower wall.  Someone sleeping who saw the film Someone Behind the Door, mixed in with my mother scalding her leg which could be from anything.    Hot shower scene, Psycho, I had not seen it at the time of my hospitalization. 

Then Sleeping Tiger was mixed in with these ladies at the mall playing Mah Jong.  BR and I played checkers, had a few beers and then we played music and started dancing.  I walked home and got online and went right to the film.

This movie’s been going on since 8:00 PM…Never seen it before tonight…

Friday, July 06, 2012, 11:41:17 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Here is the problem…

Friday, July 06, 2012, 11:32:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“…the patient felt attracted towards the father-analyst’s penis; but it is a sadistic penis…

That is also Heinrich Racker in my x-ray I think along with Otto Rank…?

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Enmeshments are real…

Thursday, July 05, 2012, 11:59:06 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: “I’m going to kill you”…update 4

Kay Gibbs has no affiliation with the music or film industry and Kay Gibbs has never worked in the music or film industry.

“I’m going to kill you”…update 4

Thursday, July 05, 2012, 11:54:58 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: “She’s threatening people”…

…I did post that it was communicated to me that Smetzler claimed Hammond was going to kill me.   Seems no one believes me so they had to put it in a film.  The only people I know who play piano is my friend BR who I had not yet met at the time and my Aunt who played an organ.  I did not have my glasses at the time as they had been stolen, along with my wallet and personal ID, in Chapel Hill around May of 1993 at Cobb Terrace.

Smetzler instigated the whole thing.  She told Hammond something, I’m not sure what, then Hammond told Smetzler she was going to kill me and Smetzler later told me this while we were talking one afternoon when she communicated her crimes to me.

Those are her eyeglasses she was wearing at the time she assaulted me, however it is my x-ray taken after she assaulted me.

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I thought it was my mother’s second husband who viewed westerns frequently when ashore from fishing.

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a relic overseeing Camelot parking lot…

Thursday, July 05, 2012, 12:13:34 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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The Official M.C. Escher Website

Wednesday, July 04, 2012, 2:44:53 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The Official M.C. Escher Website

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My Escher…

Wednesday, July 04, 2012, 1:28:24 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I settled for a crescent Field Mouse color which matches a color in my love seat, like the one on the far right.

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Skinny Girl vodkas…

Wednesday, July 04, 2012, 3:26:20 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

vodkas

A Girl's Dream cocktail recipe

Wednesday, July 04, 2012, 12:32:51 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

A Girl's Dream cocktail recipe

A Good Fook recipe

Caffee del Mare cocktail recipe

Wednesday, July 04, 2012, 12:29:46 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Caffee del Mare cocktail recipe

Carbomb cocktail recipe

Wednesday, July 04, 2012, 12:28:09 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Carbomb cocktail recipe

Frisbee cocktail on the car…

Wednesday, July 04, 2012, 12:26:39 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Frisbee cocktail recipe

This is one of them for sure…

Wednesday, July 04, 2012, 12:24:03 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

woo woo cocktail recipe

Sex On The Beach – good recipe'…

Wednesday, July 04, 2012, 12:19:52 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Sex On The Beach cocktail recipe

Alabama Slammer – never had it sounds delisch…

Wednesday, July 04, 2012, 12:13:31 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Alabama Slammer cocktail recipe

Nick's Magic Orgasm – like these ingredients without the schnapps…

Wednesday, July 04, 2012, 12:04:09 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Nick's Magic Orgasm cocktail recipe

Shitbag Orgasm cocktail – never had it will try it…

Tuesday, July 03, 2012, 11:53:28 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Shitbag Orgasm cocktail recipe

Cosmopolitan – my favorite…

Tuesday, July 03, 2012, 11:50:49 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Cosmopolitan (cocktail) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Link up

Disaronna on the rocks.

I am a gibbon…

Tuesday, July 03, 2012, 11:46:17 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Gibbon (cocktail) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

A young woman who worked at Dillard’s looks like him in his youth…

Tuesday, July 03, 2012, 11:32:16 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

File:Albert Victor 1875.jpg - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I saw him yesterday…

Tuesday, July 03, 2012, 11:30:44 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

File:Prince Albert Victor, Duke of Clarence (1864-1892) by William (1829-18 ) and Daniel Downey (18 -1881.jpg - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Albert, Prince Consort - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Tuesday, July 03, 2012, 11:29:33 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Albert, Prince Consort - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I really like this print…

Tuesday, July 03, 2012, 11:15:29 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

artnet Galleries: Dream (Mantis Religiosa) by M. C. Escher from Skot Foreman Fine Art

…I have admired it many times and even purchased a book which contained the print. 

It has just occurred to me this is connected to my childhood molestation.

I know someone else who’s getting cooked like it but I’m not sure she’s aware of it…

Tuesday, July 03, 2012, 1:56:08 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Incoming…

They are hurting people.

Incoming…

Tuesday, July 03, 2012, 1:41:53 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“That’s your Aunt’s head you are cooking up”.

Boy someone is truly confused about the difference between the mind and brain and is trying to confuse me about it.  It may have been her mind but it was Kay’s body and brain exposed to the noise, stupido.  Kay is the one being hurt here.

See this is what these writers and musicians do.  They use other people’s brains to cook up these tunes and books then they just mooch off of you. 

Kay Frances Gibbs born 11-18-1954 has never made a single dollar from music, books or films.

Now you know why people despise them.

Incoming…

Monday, July 02, 2012, 11:26:55 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“This girl died on the operating table.”

No this is someone who was executed by lethal injection and you hateful bastards nearly caused me to have a heart attack from taking potassium bicarbonate which gets converted into potassium chloride in the body..

This is the price the State’s citizen’s pay for the establishments immunity.  In fact, I wrote a letter and called the Attorney General’s Office regarding dangerous statements in the Driver’s Manual.  I got a response in which they were only changing the time the mid-day siesta would be occurring.  I was shocked as it is clear they either did not believe the statements and the way they are written are a problem or they just don’t care.

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Lethal injection…

Monday, July 02, 2012, 11:05:24 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Ted Bundy maybe, I did see this film.  I was directed to view it to study the psychological aspects of the case.

What the hell do we eat for protein?

Sunday, July 01, 2012, 10:38:16 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Milk and beef have sialic acid.  Grains and plant proteins have phytic acid, some legumes have protease inhibitors.  Chicken and eggs have too much cystine.

WHAT DO WE EAT???????????????????????????????????????????

This one too…

Sunday, July 01, 2012, 10:28:51 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

WGTS - 91.9 FM Takoma Park, MD - Listen Online

Someone keeps repeating that…

Sunday, July 01, 2012, 10:23:04 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: “She’s threatening people”…

…if they don’t know what they are doing they don’t need to be connected to me.

“She’s threatening people”…

Sunday, July 01, 2012, 10:02:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Death in Love scene when traumatized mother goes to visit her autistic son who plays piano and the neighbor complains about his playing.  She tells her, “I will kill you”, if you stop him from playing.

Radio 91.2 - Radio 91.2 – this one too I think…

Sunday, July 01, 2012, 9:37:25 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Radio 91.2 - Radio 91.2

Black and Tans - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Sunday, July 01, 2012, 9:02:42 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Black and Tans - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Stop drinking the milk…

A Dangerous Woman (1993) – IMDb – Have not seen it – correction, I have seen it…

Sunday, July 01, 2012, 8:14:51 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

A Dangerous Woman (1993) - IMDb

WPGT 91.1…

Sunday, July 01, 2012, 4:31:35 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…this one too!

I went there when I recovered my stolen vehicle in 1996.

I’m connected to someone who is or has listened to this station…

Sunday, July 01, 2012, 4:20:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

WZLX - Boston, MA - Listen Online

Recurrences or flashbacks is because they have not dealt with that which is in the mind…

Sunday, July 01, 2012, 3:15:49 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…cheese may act in the body like DMT.  Cheese contains tryptamine.  5HTP could also act like DMT.

I thought and wrote that I thought melatonin had something to do with growth.  I have had no knowledge about DMT, but may have been given it at a frat-party while at college.  Now you know how Einstein thought he discovered the atom.  Did he really only re-discover Adam? 

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Nightmare last night…

Sunday, July 01, 2012, 3:10:22 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I was awakened early yesterday morning trying to scream and could not.  Someone had my hands and there were other people putting their hands on my stomach and grabbing at my clothes and I could not get them to stop.  Finally I was able to scream and woke myself up.

5 people have seen this…

Sunday, July 01, 2012, 2:42:34 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I have been eating salads with bacon and eggs – “let’s go have bacon and eggs…there are other things in it I recognize too.

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Hearing it, didn’t see all of it…

Sunday, July 01, 2012, 12:41:13 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Austin Powers: The Spy Who Shagged Me (1999) - IMDb

I saw a little boy, limping, with his father at the mall several days ago, then a few days later I found this…

Saturday, June 30, 2012, 11:26:00 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I was afraid to say anything until I woke up yesterday morning with my back feeling stiff.  I said, “my back is stiff as a board”, then I knew for sure it was possible to affect one’s physical condition as my mother said it all the time.  As soon as I said it my back got better.

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Gorgeous…

Saturday, June 30, 2012, 1:45:04 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Christina Aguilera and Cher at the LA premiere of Burlesque -Daily Celebrity Photos - Glamour.com (Glamour.com UK)

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Grace M ~ Jacqueline Bisset….

Saturday, June 30, 2012, 1:25:46 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Ok, I see this is where some species acquired higher pitched voices…

Saturday, June 30, 2012, 12:39:12 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

and sometimes helium and nitrogen.

Natural gas - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

My pictures…

Saturday, June 30, 2012, 1:37:57 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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I picked out this Michelangelo about 10 years ago.

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The Quick and the Dead…

Friday, June 29, 2012, 4:39:24 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Waters' descriptive abilities are extraordinary. Her limning of the physical and psychological constraints of Millbank prison are dead on. And this book contains what may be one of the creepiest passages of writing I have ever read. Margaret has gone to a spiritualist society, where she has seen moulds of human parts, including one which is supposed to be the hand of Dawes' spirit guide, Peter Quick. She imagines that hand coming to visit Selina in prison.

Reading My Life Away: Affinity

Dead Part of The House…

Friday, June 29, 2012, 4:32:19 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: “Oh baby doll…” – have not seen it.

Like my friend Ward said, “the mind controls the brain…”

Friday, June 29, 2012, 4:30:42 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I know this is why I ended up in prison…

I have never read any of Waters’ novels. 

I know this is why I ended up in prison…

Friday, June 29, 2012, 4:28:42 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I know this is the shape of the Millbank Prison…updating

I know this is the shape of the Millbank Prison…updating

Friday, June 29, 2012, 4:22:50 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

and synchronicity being what it is, there certainly must be a connection to that prison.  My living area does resemble an office.

The front of the Millbank Prison has three arches…

The interior design looks like the flower on Bonnie Prince Charlie’s hat with one additional section making it like the Star of David.

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I have drawn several pictures with circles around them.  I wonder if they were memories of someone in the gas chamber.  I of course was in a gas chamber in the military during my training.

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“Oh baby doll…” – have not seen it.

Friday, June 29, 2012, 4:15:43 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Wade, molested by her father…

Wade, molested by her father…

Friday, June 29, 2012, 4:14:06 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

There, she is drawn to Selina Dawes,

Reading My Life Away: Affinity

Inmate or prison psychologist?

My acquaintance Johnnie Watson’s father was a prison supervisor…

Friday, June 29, 2012, 4:01:38 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…There was a prison camp in Hyde County in his youth.  He worked for the Pentagon after his WWII service in the US Navy…he is now deceased. 

My Aunt O’lean Davis’ father was a Methodist minister…

Friday, June 29, 2012, 3:56:07 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I know this is the shape of the Millbank Prison…updating

They were creating a physique…

Friday, June 29, 2012, 2:41:06 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…wearing banners…

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No more paying for the music…updated

Friday, June 29, 2012, 1:48:39 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…other peoples’ wellbeing are at stake, children, pregnant women, the elderly, and peoples whose jobs rely on their hearing like Doctors.  We love the lyrics and the poetry, it’s just gotten too excessive.

Stick to your ATP for energy or if you want to cook your damned brain.

I want to spend the next several months saving money…

Friday, June 29, 2012, 1:27:59 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…and moving out of my noisy apartment.

There are issues between the Israelites and the Gibbonites? (Gibeonites)…

Friday, June 29, 2012, 1:22:00 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I think are related to the holocaust. 

What I have found is a propensity for them to dissociate more frequently than most species.  

This is going on…

Friday, June 29, 2012, 1:14:48 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

University Mall :: Event :: Sweet Carolina Music Series is Back for a Second Season! ::

Circle around an island…

Thursday, June 28, 2012, 6:32:30 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…drew it while I was in the psychiatric hospital.

It had a palm tree and a boat and a cloud with a silver lining – 1989

Wrote the Tranquility Island story.

Another circle had a highway going between two mountains and the sun going down – in the early 80’s.

Another circle had a daffodil in it – 1987.  It was splitting into two daffodils, a dark one and a light one like a yin yang but the flowers both in the same direction.

Here’s a piece of Kay’s story…updated version

Thursday, June 28, 2012, 6:12:30 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Patient storms into Doctors office...

The Doctor is writing.

Doctor: Can I help you?

Patient has both arms propped on the Doctor's desk.

Patient: I hope the hell you can. I am going stark raving mad and I can't stop it.

Patient turns quickly and plops down in the chair in front of the Doctor's desk.

Patient: I've been tormented by all of these voices and I need you to do something about it.

Doctor not sensing a real urgency in the girl.

Doctor: Well, I normally require an appointment and an evaluation before I start treating people. Would you care to make an appointment?

Patient: I need to get started now, I don't think I have time to make an appointment.

Doctor gets up and walks round to the front of her desk and leans on it.

Doctor: You mean right hear right now?

Patient: Yes dammit, right now. Can't you hypnotize me or something?

Doctor: What do you mean you don't have time?

Patient: Someone's trying to kill me.

Doctor: Maybe you should be talking to the police instead of me.

Patient: I've talked to the Police, they think I'm crazy.

Doctor: Oh, I see.

Patient: Please don't let me leave here?

Doctor: Well, are you worried you might hurt yourself, because if you are, I can arrange to have you taken to the Psychiatrict Ward at the Hospital.

Patient: How long will that take?

Doctor: We'll that depends on you. I must warn you that a commitment could last as long as 3 months or more.

Patient: Oh, damn. I just want the voices to stop.

Doctor: Well, why don't you go home take a nice hot bath and come and see me Sunday afternoon.

Patient: How about Saturday afternoon?

Doctor: No, I don't work on Saturdays.

Patient: I can't wait that long, please, I need to talk to someone right away? I'm going crazy here. Aren't you people suppose to care or something?

Doctor feeling guilty.

Doctor: Well, I suppose I could cancel my afternoon affair.

Doctor feeling the patient is sincere and is concerned for her well being. She takes her glasses off.

Doctor: Ok, Saturday afternoon.

Patient somewhat relieved.

Patient: Thank god.

Doctor: Are you sure your not going to hurt yourself or anyone else?

Patient: Yes, I just want these awful voices to stop. I really feel like I'm going to go nuts.

Doctor puts her glasses back on, sits down at her desk and pulls out her prescription pad.

Doctor: Do you take drugs of any kind?

Patient: No. Well, yes I've been taking over the counter stuff so I can sleep. I do drink a bit to drown out the voices.

Doctor: Tell you what I'll do, I'll give you a prescription for a sedative just for tonight so you can get a good nights rest. No alcohol, can you handle that?

Patient: Yes.

Doctor: Then come back here tomorrow.

Patient: Thank you.

That evening. Doctor goes to a dinner party. She converses with a colleague.

Doctor: I have this person who came into my office today, demanding to be treated. My first impression is that she's psychotic, possibly multiple personalities as well. She claimed someone was trying to kill her.

Colleague: Well are you going to treat her?

Doctor: I don't know yet.

Colleague: Are you going to get paid?

Doctor: I don't care about the money, I've got money. It's the girl, she seems so damned distraught and aggressive. I don't know if I'm up for it. I'm not fresh out of medical school you know.

Colleague: I know a young doctor who probably could see her.

Doctor: Well that's the trouble of it. She came to me. I'm curious as to why she came to my office. She could have gone to anybody.

Ivy storms into the Doctor’s office...

Dr. Sylvia Kirkland is finishing her notes from her last patient. Suddenly she hears a commotion in the reception area outside her office. She is about to get up from her desk when a young woman flings open the door and perches herself at the front of Kirkland’s desk. Kirkland in her cool calm manner, ” Young lady what so you think you are doing?” Ivy with both hands propped on the Doctor's desk, I need to talk to you right now, it cannot wait, your next available appointment is in two weeks and I may not have two weeks. Ivy turns quickly and plops down in the chair in front of the Doctor's desk, “I've been tormented by all of these voices and things and I need your help”. Well, Kirkland replies, it is customary that one make an appointment, not sensing a real urgency in the girl. Would you care to make an appointment? Ivy sits up in the chair, her voice getting louder, I told you, I need to get started now, I don't have time to make a fricking appointment. Kirkland gets up and walks around to the front of her desk, looking down and leans on it, looking down at Ivy, you mean right hear right now? Yes damn it, right now, Ivy cants. Can't you hypnotize me or something? Kirkland now sensing the young woman’s anxiety, and speaking in a soft voice, yes I could but it wouldn’t be in your best interest or mine. Now, what do you mean you don't have time? Ivy, in a much lower tone, I think someone's trying to kill me. Kirkland furrows her brow, then maybe you should be talking to the police instead of me. Ivy getting restless again, I've talked to the Police, they think I'm crazy. Oh I see Kirkland responds, while walking around to her chair. She puts on her glasses and sits down, “so you think I ought to believe you and commence to doing something about these voices right away, do you Miss? Ivy Porter, my name is Ivy Porter, I’m from the United States, Ivy replies. Well what are you doing her in England? I’m vacationing, says Ivy. Kirkland now looking concerned, are you worried you might hurt yourself, because if you are, I can arrange to have you taken to the Psychiatric Ward at the Hospital. No I’m not homicidal, well maybe I’ve felt that way a few times but not now. How long would it take to get me into the hospital, asks Ivy.

Please don't let me leave here?

How long will that take?

We'll that depends on you. I must warn you that a commitment could last as long as 3 months or more.

Oh, damn. I just want the voices to stop.

Well, why don't you go home take a nice hot bath and come and see me Sunday afternoon.

How about Saturday afternoon?

: No, I don't work on Saturdays.

I can't wait that long, please, I need to talk to someone right away? I'm going crazy here. Aren't you people suppose to care or something?

Doctor feeling guilty.

Well, I suppose I could cancel my afternoon affair.

Doctor feeling the patient is sincere and is concerned for her well being. She takes her glasses off.

Ok, Saturday afternoon.

t somewhat relieved.

Thank god.

: Are you sure you are not going to hurt yourself or anyone else?

Yes, I just want these awful voices to stop. I really feel like I'm going to go nuts.

Doctor puts her glasses back on, sits down at her desk and pulls out her prescription pad.

Do you take drugs of any kind?

No. Well, yes I've been taking over the counter stuff so I can sleep. I do drink a bit to drown out the voices.

Tell you what I'll do, I'll give you a prescription for a sedative just for tonight so you can get a good nights rest. No alcohol, can you handle that?

Yes.

: Then come back here tomorrow.

Thank you.

That evening. Doctor goes to a dinner party. She converses with a colleague about her patient over wine.

I have this person who came into my office today, demanding to be treated. My first impression is that she's psychotic, possibly multiple personalities as well. She claimed someone was trying to kill her.

Colleague: Well are you going to treat her?

I don't know yet.

Colleague: Are you going to get paid?

I don't care about the money, I've got money. It's the girl, she seems so damned distraught and aggressive. I don't know if I'm up for it. I'm not fresh out of medical school you know.

I know a young doctor who probably could see her.

Well that's the trouble of it. She came to me. I'm curious as to why she came to my office. She could have gone to anybody.

My sister, Mary Ann, has been eating Le Seur peas for 15 years…

Thursday, June 28, 2012, 5:41:50 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What happened to Abberline?

Thursday, June 28, 2012, 5:39:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Victim # 3 Elizabeth Stride Body Found September 30, 1888

The Five Known Victims of Jack the Ripper (Caution - Some pictures are graphic and gruesome)

I went to school with a Lamb, looks like Nicole in her youth, very pale, platinum blond hair.

1993, walked to the police station after being raped by Skinner…updating

Thursday, June 28, 2012, 3:40:06 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

After being in the Billingsgate Street Police Station for drunkenness,

The Five Known Victims of Jack the Ripper (Caution - Some pictures are graphic and gruesome)

So BF Skinner was enmeshed with someone from Hallowell or someone from Holloway prison in London or one of the asylums who may have been connected to the Ripper…a family of Burruses lived in my hometown…Burrhus is Skinner’s first name, so someone took his first name, maybe some of the Halloway or Hollowell Prison people from Pennsylvania, Maine…so there must have been a psychic connection to some of the people in Hyde, NC which also means the Ripper history spread from Hyde England.

1977 I was arrested for public drunkeness…

I might also be connected to one of the Psychiatrists or psychologist and an inmate and Kelly.

Pottstown and Hallowell Prison in Pennsylvania – had a dream about a man hanging from a water wheel, a man named Potts.

Sharon Stone must be one of the lawyers in one of the cases…

I am an American…

Thursday, June 28, 2012, 3:06:09 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

remember that.

Oh my gosh…

Thursday, June 28, 2012, 2:19:03 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Clint Eastwood looks a bit like one of the ripper victims…

Liz Stride or Cate Eddowes, Cates Pickles…?

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“That stuff’s not fit to eat”…

Thursday, June 28, 2012, 2:16:39 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: We ate hominy for a short while…

Could this be Princess Grace being harassed?

Thursday, June 28, 2012, 2:04:06 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Incoming…

Nicole is one of the many very beautiful faces in cinema…

Thursday, June 28, 2012, 1:58:51 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Look At Her Beautiful Face: Look At Nicole Kidman Beautiful Face

…one of the facets of her appearance I noticed right away was facial symmetry.  Her face is quite balanced, something I started paying attention to when I began taking notice of photographs of people, and photographing myself in particular.   Kidman has a quiet elegance about her one can see immediately in her face.  I see a touch of innocence while her eyes reflect the keen intelligence of a mature thinking person.

I personally have had a thing about symmetry most of my adult life.  Where it came from I cannot be sure but only one other actress I am aware of was so obsessed with her appearance and that was Joan Crawford.  I think Crawford, and the people she associated with, were more careful about what she was creating on film and on the set than most. 

Clint.

Incoming…

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 4:33:09 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“You know what we did to those people”…????????

We ate hominy for a short while…

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 4:27:30 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I’ve used a lot of bleach…

Glycosylphosphatidyl inositol-anchored protein (GPI-80) gene expression is correlated with human thymoma stage - Sasaki - 2005 - Cancer Science - Wiley Online Library

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 4:04:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Glycosylphosphatidyl inositol-anchored protein (GPI-80) gene expression is correlated with human thymoma stage - Sasaki - 2005 - Cancer Science - Wiley Online Library

Incoming…

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 3:30:05 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“You promised me a novel”.

See, they hound you until you turn on the damned television.

NO WAY.

Incoming…

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 3:15:17 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“We are going to have to stay out of it until she succumbs”.

“Isn’t this exciting”, to quote someone I heard…

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 12:28:14 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I fear this film caused my little 5 year old cousin to be hit by a car and killed in the 80’s…updated

…now do you think it’s exciting?

This is what the Gibbses look like and the young Howard Hughes was her other half for awhile…

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 11:33:01 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

the carbro printing process [group] most recent on FlickeFlu

…her mother was married to a Jew after she left Katherine’s biological father.  Kay Francis was her stage name taken from Dwight Francis’s mother Kay.

My Aunt worked for Dr. Wright in Beaufort County in the 30’s-40’s.

This is a spider monkey not a Gibbon, Gibbon’s do not have tails…

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 11:14:16 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Gibbon monkey | Flickr - Photo Sharing!

Google Image Result for http://www.americanlocalads.com/images/gibbon-monkey-for-adoption_20110316054118_Gibbon.jpg

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 11:02:24 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Google Image Result for http://www.americanlocalads.com/images/gibbon-monkey-for-adoption_20110316054118_Gibbon.jpg

I guess they didn’t believe Moses killed the Egyptian Soldier either casting a mountain of sin onto themselves…

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 10:58:56 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: If the holocaust never happened these people are nothing more than murderers…

Kay Francis: An Adorable Spirit

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 10:55:05 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Kay Francis: An Adorable Spirit

“I think the Gibbon evolved into the chimpanzee.”

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 10:53:55 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

It’s pretty clear to me that would be the case.

If the holocaust never happened these people are nothing more than murderers…

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 10:34:31 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I fear this film caused my little 5 year old cousin to be hit by a car and killed in the 80’s…updated

My people didn’t even come from that time period, by that I mean we were here in America 200 + years before that event supposedly took place.

Now who is wearing the guilt?

I fear this film caused my little 5 year old cousin to be hit by a car and killed in the 80’s…updated

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 2:05:30 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Johnson’s dialogue near the end is definitely the cause.   I suspect it was some sort of revenge tactic for anti-semitism.   I’ve never seen it.  I myself was nearly hit by a car after walking into the street with a coat and handbag and heels imitating my mother or the woman in the film.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pqEiQ40OtfQ&feature=related

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Hundreds of Kids Still Hit by Cars and Killed Each Year, Despite Sharp Decline in Pedestrian Death and Injury Rates

Wednesday, June 27, 2012, 1:55:12 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Hundreds of Kids Still Hit by Cars and Killed Each Year, Despite Sharp Decline in Pedestrian Death and Injury Rates

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I wrapped myself, like these men, in paper sheets while I was in prison in 1990, although mine version…

Tuesday, June 26, 2012, 9:01:03 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The Virgin and Child with St. Anne - Albrecht Durer - WikiPaintings.org

…did look more Egyptian.  Kathy Russell and a few others witnessed it.

This image looks similar on the left.   There was a long flap at the top, then I wrapped the cloth around the waist to hold it in place, then the groin area, then one leg then another.

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I saw Maximillian I today…

Tuesday, June 26, 2012, 8:02:29 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…he was having dinner at the K&W where I had dinner this evening.

I am stuck in the July to September prison stuff…

Tuesday, June 26, 2012, 8:01:13 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Look what I found…

Tuesday, June 26, 2012, 4:21:13 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…this is where I’ve been over there and why I have been drinking gallons of milk…

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What I invested in my tools…

Tuesday, June 26, 2012, 2:48:45 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…this does not include my numerous computers and software.

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Rheem Answering Machine recording [Audio File] - YouTube

Tuesday, June 26, 2012, 3:00:17 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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We clear the airways, Kay Gibbs will deal with her brain…

Tuesday, June 26, 2012, 1:57:49 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Now stop talking to her.

Movies I have seen…

Tuesday, June 26, 2012, 1:44:38 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Just some of the movies I've seen...

Age Of Innocence, Fatal Attraction, Disclosure, Beginning, Officer And Gentleman, Indecent Proposal, 48 Hours, Agnes Of God, China Syndrome, Manhattan Murder Mystery, Twelve Angry Men, Blink, Revenge, Last Of The Mohicans, Witches Of Eastwick, China Moon, Twelve Monkeys, Air Force One, The King And I, Casablanca, It Could Happen To You, Look Who's Talking, The Piano, Coming Home, The Good Son, Mask, The Masking, Vampire In Brooklyn, Purple Rain, The Abyss, 2001 A Space Odyssey, Jaws 1234, Ghost, Seventh Sign, Strip Tease, Carrie, Fried Green Tomatoes, Don Juan, Desire Under the Elms, God Father, Scent Of A Woman, Gone With The Wind, Psycho 1,2, Mrs. Doubtfire, Tootsie, Rain Man, Philadelphia Story, The Graduate, Peter Pan, Snow White Night Of Terror, Terminator 1,2, Robocop, Aliens 1234, Alien Resurrection, Lawn Mower Man, Pretty Woman, Born Free, Silence Of The Lambs, Ten Commandments, Moses, Exodus, Noah's Ark, Vincent, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Hunt For Red October, Poseidon Adventure, Titanic, Renaissance Man, Dr. Zhivago, A Star Is Born, The Mirror Has Two Faces, Places In The Heart, Funny Lady, Funny Face, Mame, Prince of Tides, Red Corner, Road To Wellsville, Rosemary's Baby, Exorcist 12, Saturday Night Fever, Grease, Personal Best, Equus, Speed, Wish Master, White Men Can't Jump, Tommy, Volcano, Eyes Of Laura Mars, Event Horizon, Gattaca, Gorky Park, Children Of The Corn, The Golden Child, With Honors, Hello Again, Hunchback Of Notre Dame, Sherlock Homes, Father Of The Bride, Beaches, Armageddon, Sliver, Greatest Show On Earth, The Bodyguard, Field Of Dreams, Boulder, Man In The Gray Flannel Suit, Color Purple, Malice, Escape From Alcatraz, Love Story, Midnight Cowboy, Escape From LA, Unlawful Entry, East of Eden The Big Chill, Delores, As Good As It Gets, Three of Hearts, Beverly Hills Ninja, The Accused, Nell, Beetlejuice, Mr. Mom, Pacific Heights, Boys in the Hood, Dracula, King Kong, Streetcar Named Desire, Breakfast at Tiffany's, Fatal Beauty, Jumping Jack Flash, Sister Act 12, Private World of Junior Brown, The Hustler, Jerry Maguire, Top Gun, Child's Play, Children Of A Lesser God, Single White Female, Point of No Return, Pretty Woman, West Side Story, Contact, Schindler's List, ET, Close Encounters Of The Third Kind, Dr. Jekell and Mr. Hyde, Death On The Nile, Desperately Seeking Susan, Diary Of A Mad Housewife, Three Days Of The Condor, A River Runs Through It, Electric Light Horseman, The Sting, The Great Gatsby, Another Stake Out, Color Of Night, Extreme Measures, Casino, In His Father's Shoes, Herbie, Island Of Dr. Moreau, Birdman of Alcatraz, Lethal Weapon 12, A Raisin In The Sun, Look Who's Coming To Dinner, African Queen, Out of Africa, Bridges Over Madison County, Three Mules For Sister Sarah, Mimic, Norma Rae, Silk Wood, Eye For An Eye, Terms of Endearment, Mommie Dearest, Sybil, Three Faces Of Eve, Flubber, Shawshank Redemption, Whose Afraid of Virginia Woolf, Serpico, Species, Tommy Boy, Days of Wine and Roses, Coal Miners Daughter, Poltergeist 12, Amityville Horror, Pet Cemetery, Christine, Mr. Jones, Cliffhanger, Rocky 1234, Rambo, Journey To The Center of The Earth, Wizard Oz, Fire Starter, Bad Girl's, Itsy Bitsy Teenie Weenie Yellow Polka Dot Bikini, Little Rascals, The Firm, Desperate Measures, Pelican Brief, What About Bob, Powder, The Fly, Batman, Friends, Ordinary People, Steel Magnolia Is, Taming of the Shrew, Summer's End, Wag the Dog, Willie Wonka And The Chocolate Factory, Frankenstein, Wayne's World, Till There Was You, Chances Are, Three Three Men and a Baby, While You Were Sleeping, The Net, Three Muskateers, Down and out in Beverly Hills, Grumpy Old Men 12, Grumpier Old Men, Out Of Towners, Lion's Heart, Double Indemnity, Nora Desmond, Whatever Happened To Baby Jane, Hush Hush Sweet Charlotte, They Hand That Rocks The Cradle, Little Man Tate, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Wolf, The Deep, Annie Hall, Dave, French Kiss, Prelude To A Kiss, Julia, Intersection, Final Analysis, Trading Places, Discreet, Resurrection, Mash, Splash, Forest Gump, Maltese Falcon, On Golden Pond, Total Recall, Twins, Kindergarten Cop, Moon Struck, Death And The Maiden, Copycat, Amadeus, With Malice, Exit to Eden, Thornirds, Blue Lagoon, Arthur, Fly Away, 20,000 Under The Sea, Brainstorm, The Paper, Superman, She Devil, Sound of Music, Bird Cage, Beyond the Poseidon Adventure, Airplane, Towering Inferno, Dirty Harry, Thunderbolt And Lightfoot, Treasure Island, Edward Scissorhands, Lolita, Milk Money, Ice Castle, Basic Instinct, Miracle On 34th St., Murder On The Orient Express, Money Pit, To Kill a Mockingbird, It's A Mad Mad Mad World, It Happened One Night, Come Back To The Five and Dime Jimmy Dean, One Fine Day, Alice In Wonderland, Fortune Cookie, Victor Victoria, Miracle Worker, For Weddings And A Funeral, Nine Months, Michael, Phenomenon, Quiz Show, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, How The West Was Won, Glass Menagerie, Assassin, Indiana Jones Raiders Of The Lost Ark, Indiana Jones Temple of Doom, Batman Returns, The Big Squeeze, Where The Boys Are, Blue Hawaii, Paradise Hawaiian Style, Child's Play Two, Cops And Robbersons, The Cotton Club, Thelma And Louise, Free Willy, Fatherhood, 42nd St., Scorned, Hard Vice, Hell Raiser, House Arrest, It's My Turn, Baby Boom, First Husbands' Wives, Hotel New Hampshire, Jumanji, Mannequin, My Fellow Americans, My Girl, Karate Kid 123, Urban Cowboy, Notorius, Tucker, A Path Of Blue, Truman, Wallace, The Package, Piranha, Prison Heat, Anna Karenina, Scrooged, Shrimp On The Barbie, Sleeping Beauty, The Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Cable Man, Roxana, Woman In Red, Dances With Wolves, Die Hard One And Two, My Fair Lady, Who's Harry Crumb, Space Jam, Heavens Knows Mr. Allison, Coming To America, All Of Me, Something To Talk About, The Misfits, Problem Child, House Road Warrior, David And Bathsheba, American President, Bonnie and Clyde, Predators, Protocol, Taming Tammie and The Bachelor, Pink Panther, Home Alone, Bird on a Wire, Point Break, Dirty Dancing, When Time Ran Out, Dirty Dozen, Magnificent Seven, Cocoon 12, The Jerk, Bringing Up Baby, Children's Hour, Tin Cup, Late Spring, On The Town, The Third Man, Easter Parade, Hamlet, Red River, Treasure of the Sierra Madre, Miracle on 34 Street, The Best Years Of Our Lives, Against All Odds, The Big Sleep, Great Expectations, It's A Wonderful Life, A Matter Of Life And Death, My Darling Clementine, Brief Encounter, Les Enfants Du Paradis, Double Indemnity, Henry V, The Magnificent Ambersons, Yankee Doodle Dandy, Citizen Cane, Maltese Falcon, Grapes Of Wrath, Philadelphia Story, Pinocchio, Thief Of Baghdad, His Girl Friday, The Great Dictator, Anatomy of a Murder, Ben Hur, North By Northwest, Rio Bravo, Some Like it Hot, Bridge Of The River Kwai, Vertigo, Touch Of Evil, Godzilla King Of Monsters, Requiem For A Heavyweight, The Searches, Guys And Dolls, Rio Grande, Kiss Me Deadly, Mr. Roberts, Rebel Without A Cause, Caine Mutiny, On The Waterfront, Said East of Eden, Seven Samurai, Rear Window, From Here to Eternity, Stalag 17, High Noon, Moulin Rouge, Singing In The Rain, A Christmas Carol, The Day The Earth Stood Still, All About Eve, Streetcar Named Desire, Sunset Boulevard, Night And The City, Easy Rider, Cool Hand Luke, The Wild Bunch, Once Upon a Time In The West, A Face Of War, How the Grinch Stole Christmas, Dr. Strangelove, Goldfinger, Mask of Red Death, Tom Jones, The Man Who Shot Liberty Valance, The Manchurian Candidate, The Hustler, A Raisin In The Sun, Saturday Night/ Sunday Morning, West Side Story, Wild River, Being There, Taxi Driver, Life of Brian, Network, Dog Day Afternoon, Nashville, The Man Who Would Be King, Blazing Saddles, American Graffiti, Badlands, Deliverance, The Last Picture Show, Little Big Man, Vanishing Point, Last Tango In Paris,, Woodstock, Gigi, A Fish Called Wanda, Conspiracy Trial of the Chicago Eight, Empire Of The Sun, Prizzi's Honor, Blade Runner, Fast Times At Ridgemont High, Airplane, Blues Brothers, Empire Strikes Back, Raging Bull, Dante's Peak, A Distinguished Gentleman, Jumping Jack Flash, Nuts, Yentl, The Main Event, Funny Lady, For Pete's Sake, The Way We Were, Pussy Cat, Funny Girl, Hello Dolly, What's Up Doc, All Night Long, The Woman's Room, Speed, The Omen, The Running Man, The Long Hot Summer, The Face In The Crowd, The Hallelujah Trail, Torn Between Two Lovers, Falcon Crest, Dynasty, Mr. Dodd Takes the Air, Flight Angels, Honeymoon for Three, You're In The Army Now, The Last Weekend, Night And Day, The Yearling, Cheyenne, It's A Great Feeling, Lady Takes a Sailor, Stage Fright, Magnificent Obsession, How to Commit Marriage, The Two Mrs. Carrolls, Gentleman's Agreement, High Society, The Little Foxes, Mrs. Miniver, Shadow Of a Doubt, Search For Bridey Murphy, Cat On A Hot Tin Roof, Suspicion, Gas Light, Morning Glory, Spit Fire, Woman Of The Year, Pat and Mike, Desk Set, Suddenly Last Summer, Rooster Cogburn, Love Affair, Grace Quigley, Roman Holiday, Sabrina, Funny Face, Love in The Afternoon, Breakfast At Tiffany's, Children's Hour, Charade, How to Steal a Million, Two For The Road, Paris When it Sizzles, The Unforgiven, Secret People, My Fair Lady, Stagecoach, Laura, Tobacco Road, Heaven Can Wait, The Ghost and Mrs. Muir, The Egyptian, Personal Affair, Black Widow, Toys In The Attic, Pleasure Seekers, South Pacific, Good Ship Lollipop, Bright Eyes, Poor Little Rich Girl, Since you Went Away, Fort Apache, National Velvet, Father Of The Bride, A Place The Sun, Ivanhoe, Last Time I Saw Paris, Rhapsody, Giant, Cleopatra, The Sand Piper, The Only Game In Town, Goodbye Mr. Chips, Pride And Prejudice, Madame Currie, Julius Caesar, Pepe, Singing Nun, The Robe, The Grass Is Greener, Spartacus, The Big Country, Life At The Top, The Robot, Pied Piper, Wizard Of Oz, The Man That Got Away, Arthur, Love Finds Andy Hardy, Strike Up The Band, Girl Crazy, Zigfield Follies, Hat Check Girl, Flying Down To Rio, Gay Divorcee, Top Hat, Follow The Fleet, Shall We Dance, Stay Door, I'll Be Seeing You, It had to be you, Monkey Business, Camille, Rebecca, A Million To One, Gunga Din, Ivy, Beyond A Reasonable Doubt, Flight to Tangier, Serenade, Voyage To The Bottom Of The Sea, Glass Bottom Boat, Tender Is That Night, From Here To Eternity, Blue Angell, Adventures Of Robin Hood, Why The Caged Bird Sings, Ali Baba, Charge Of The Light Brigade, Santa Fe Trail, Airport 77, The Swarm, The Quiet Man, Mr. Hobbes Takes A Vacation, Parent Trap Only The Lonely, Buffalo Bill, Sentimental Journey, Quiet Man in Havana, Spencer's Mountain, The Rare Breed, Big Jake, Abbott And Costello In Hollywood, Abbott And Costello In The Foreign Legion, Abbott And Costello Meet Dr. Jekyll And Mr. Hyde, Abbott And Costello Meet The Mummy, Abduction, Abe Lincoln In Illinois, The Abominable Snow Man, Abraham Lincoln, Absence Of Malice, The Absent Minded Professor, Absolute Power, The Accused, Ace Ventura Pet Detective, Ace Ventura: When Nature Calls, Adam's Rib, The Adams Family, Addicted To Love, Adventures Of Don Juan, The Adventures Of Frank And Jesse James, The Adventures Of Otis And Milo, Adventures Of Mark Twain, It, The Adventures Of Priscilla Queen Of The Desert, The Adventures Of Rin Tin Tin, The Adventures Of Sherlock Homes, The Adventures Of Tarzan, The Adventures Of Tom Sawyer, The Affair, An Affair To Remember, The Affairs Of Deadbeat Gillis, Against All Odds, Airports 35, Cup, Aladdin, Aladdin And His Wonderful Lamp, Aladdin And The King Of Thieves, Alexander The Great, Sender's Ragtime Band, Healthy, Ellie Bob In The 40 Seems, Allis, Alice Doesn't Live Here Anymore, Alice In Wonderland, Alice Through The Looking Glass, Alice's Restaurant, All The President's Men, Alligator Eyes, Alligator, Alligator To The Mutation, Altered States, The Amazon Scum American Judah Low, American Graffiti, An American In Paris, An American Werewolf In Paris, Amity Village Three The Demon The Amorous Adventures Of Moll Flanders, And I Can't, Analyze This, 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They have a nice bamboo blanket at Virgina Gail’s shop at U-Mall…

Monday, June 25, 2012, 10:01:07 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I was amazed at how soft it was.

We watched this too…

Monday, June 25, 2012, 9:46:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Teletubbies . Welcome to Teletubbyland! - PBS Kids

My niece watched this and I saw it with her a few times…

Monday, June 25, 2012, 9:45:33 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Pikachu | Pokemon.com

…then I went to Wilmington.

“This girl gets residuals”…

Monday, June 25, 2012, 4:33:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Kay Gibbs has never gotten residuals from Hollywood for anything nor from any other industry.

“I know they’ve been doing that, I’ve heard them”…

Monday, June 25, 2012, 3:59:47 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

These moochers have copped my password and altered my links to NLP…

Monday, June 25, 2012, 3:54:14 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

1ST AMENDMENT RIGHTS VIOLATIONS

privacy violations

High fat diets are causing the people you writers are connected to to lose their appetites…

Monday, June 25, 2012, 3:25:36 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: “She needs to be killed”…Never seen it – update 4

Monday, June 25, 2012, 3:22:57 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: “She needs to be killed”…Never seen it

Since prison, I visited several pawn shops and a gun shop after getting out of prison.  I pawned my word processor several times and the Brother notebook I had.  I looked at and shot a .22 caliber pistol.   I purchased a deck of cards, three cameras, binoculars, which I gave as a gift, and a knife (from a shop in Wilmington).  I also purchased a .22 rifle I returned.  I had a pair of white handled revolvers (toy) when I was a child.  I found all of these items in the scene below…

I have had at least 6 tape recorders.   I Sony Walkman Recorder, a Panasonic Desk Recorder, a GE Desk Recorder, a Panasonic Micro-recorder,  an Olympus Digital recorder and a Sansa MP3 player which records..

My sister owns a .32 snub nose pistol and took lessons to use it.  I shot a .38 revolver with my uncle when I was about 10 years old.

So you see where my money has gone, wasted on acting out a bunch of crap.

I am very angry about it.

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These are among items I currently have in my apartment.  I also have a Canon Camera and a digital camera.

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This is how I ended up when I got my apartment in 1999…someone’s home theater system.  I only watched Frazier and some rentals.

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Christmas 1999

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The Shuttered Room (1967) P1 - YouTube

Monday, June 25, 2012, 2:17:14 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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A clear case of dissociation…

Monday, June 25, 2012, 2:06:29 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: What's In Kay's Mind 2: “She needs to be killed”…Never seen it – update 4

Like I said passive viewing does get recorded on our brains and is alive and thriving in our minds…

Monday, June 25, 2012, 2:00:34 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: What's In Kay's Mind 2: “She needs to be killed”…Never seen it – update 4

This too – using the stairs at Davis Library – Professor Sharpie – Never seen…

Monday, June 25, 2012, 2:27:03 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I have four or five sharpie pens.

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The Limping Man (1953) - YouTube

Monday, June 25, 2012, 2:17:04 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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I think the man on the left below is the one who experienced an earth quake…I mean I had this man when we had the earthquake here on the east coast recently.

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“She needs to be killed”…Never seen it

Monday, June 25, 2012, 2:00:55 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

,,,definitely this is around…I recall looking into a window like this in my dream and then acting it out somewhere…

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Definitely this is it, I was using my magnifying glass to look at a picture...Never Seen It

Monday, June 25, 2012, 12:28:29 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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I think this is in here…

Monday, June 25, 2012, 12:19:54 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Conversation Piece (1974) - IMDb

A lot of prisoners were let out of the mental institutions in England…

Monday, June 25, 2012, 12:19:39 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…and they came over here.  Why I posted that.  

The bartender took 20 ponds out of the register.  Hall and Woodhouse.

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My friend Claudia told me about this, it might be the upside down JP…

Sunday, June 24, 2012, 3:22:05 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I haven’t had this but I have smoked Kent Cigarettes…

…so it stands to reason the Ripper murderer may have liked Pimm’s cup no. 3 (I think this is the one, not sure) and smoked cigarettes from tobacco grown in Kent.  Another friend has been rolling his own cigarettes for as long as I have known him, that was since 1996..

… it could be Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, the author of the Sherlock Holmes novels…

my father rolled his own cigarettes for a short time and smoked a pipe.

It is Inspector Abberline.

I haven’t had this but I have smoked Kent Cigarettes…

Sunday, June 24, 2012, 3:10:06 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Pimm's - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

This may be the source of the chest pains, rebound effect from the quinine…

Watched some of these, likely already cleaned up…liked this one too!

Sunday, June 24, 2012, 12:44:24 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Amazon.com: Scarecrow and Mrs. King: Season 2, Episode 1 "To Catch a Mongoose": Amazon Instant Video

This is one – Loved this series with Estes and Kapture…

Sunday, June 24, 2012, 12:30:26 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Amazon.com: Silk Stalkings: Season 1, Episode 15 "Domestic Agenda": Amazon Instant Video

I’ve seen these, not sure about this one…

Sunday, June 24, 2012, 12:17:06 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Amazon.com: Silk Stalkings: Season 2, Episode 8 "Scorpio Lover": Amazon Instant Video

I am not interested in the practice of law, I like it because without it there would be too much chaos and destruction…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 10:07:36 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I went to the Employment Security Commission in 1975 after I was discharged from the Army…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 9:18:53 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…to get help with finding a job.  That’s when I found work at the Pitt Theater after getting back into school.

Do I have a brain?

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 8:58:28 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What does my brain do?

Where does the information I see go, when I observe something?

If I am connected to someone, will they see what I see?

I am unable to take the Risperdal…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 8:56:25 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“My husband said she was incorrigible…”

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 8:54:51 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Looking for excuses to hurt people for your coverage.  Better look elsewhere.  I’m not covering your asses.

Polly Nichols…?

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 3:54:23 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…taken 1993 – I had seen nothing of anything about the Ripper.

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Inhibition of fatty acid oxidation enhances oxidative protein folding and protects hepatocytes from endoplasmic reticulum stress - update

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 3:38:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Inhibition of fatty acid oxidation enhances oxidative protein folding and protects hepatocytes from endoplasmic reticulum stress

I wonder if protein misfolding is the cause of brain hyperactivity, like bipolar disorder.

Ms. Van Eyck painting class on TV…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 3:29:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Some Bob Ross is in there as well.

I’m a pencil artist.  I like except when it comes to having to color large spaces when using the oil pencils.

I must tell you Kay is exhausted…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 3:25:29 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

My sister and her husband owned a restaurant, likely collected some movie viewing baggage…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 3:24:30 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Love Crimes (1992) – NS

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 3:23:04 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Love Crimes (1992) - IMDb

…in the airways…it’s getting cleaned up.

Rich and Famous – it was this film…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 3:14:33 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Rich and Famous (1981) - IMDb

Class (1983) - IMDb

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 3:11:26 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Class (1983) - IMDb

I had a serious crush on Jacqueline Bisset in the 80’s…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 2:48:09 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Silent Motive (TV 1991) – Wettig, another of my favorites – really liked Thirty Something…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 2:28:35 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Silent Motive (TV 1991) - IMDb

Silent Partner – Barber

I have seen films by all these actors since Thirty Something.

Mel Harris – another of my favorite actresses…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 2:21:27 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Mel Harris - IMDb

“My beautiful novel is ruined”…update

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 2:17:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…a film about a novelist I think, I recall the novelist’s pages being caught up in the wind and floating through the air.  Set in 18th century England I think.

How interesting.  Need I say more about the internet and the influences television has on pure history.  There is no pure history anymore.  Of course if you are like me then you will use it to your advantage.  Publication constitutes copyright and since I deduced I was being ripped off before the internet existed in my world, I am making sure my work is recognized from me and not some damned frivolous novelist.

The way to fool your opponent…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 2:09:25 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Some jousting film I’ve seen…

…hold your shield so that your vulnerabilities are exposed.  Your opponent will re-enact this so his vulnerabilities are exposed.  That’s when you get him.

Some jousting film I’ve seen…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 2:05:56 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Someone’s asking me a question…update 3

Someone’s asking me a question…update 3

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 2:04:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I feel like someone’s poking a hole in my chest.  My chest between my breasts has sunk in…

The horse with the hole in the back…a point blank shot to the chest.  Point of No Return.

One can be conscious of the unconscious guilt only by knowing it exists before one’s own existence…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 1:58:20 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Read this section sometime ago, Guilt, Man and Society, Nietzsche…

…therefore consciousness of unconscious processes is vital.  Knowledge breeds consciousness.

I was cloning parts of the original colors…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 1:46:43 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Not bad with a mouse and no palette to match colors…

…blending with the PC is not like using paint or pencils.

Someone is having pains in their chest…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 1:41:08 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I have been having sharp stabbing pains in my chest.  No pain in my left arm.

This is a pencil sketch…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 1:39:29 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I have proven this theory to myself numerous times…

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Kay Gibbs does not have a graphics tablet…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 1:38:13 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

My mother has one…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 1:10:01 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Aortic tear, which killed diplomat Richard Holbrooke, often occurs without warning - Los Angeles Times

Everything is some fictional novel…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 12:56:55 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Incoming…

…and we nor our lives ever become real to them unless they draw blood from themselves.  They are stuck in some developmental stage which prevents them from seeing the harm they do.

We owe them nothing.

Incoming…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 12:53:38 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“We’ve got to get the money out of them before they die”.

They are talking about our brain synapses here, which belong to no one.  See how they think about human life and they dare to call Kay Gibbs anti-social.  They are the social problem in America.

I have proven this theory to myself numerous times…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 12:47:39 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I can draw with my left hand but when I draw with my right what I get is like what you see here on the right side of this page.

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“We thought you were queer”…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 12:24:14 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Prejudice and you dare to call me anti-social.

Not bad with a mouse and no palette to match colors…

Saturday, June 23, 2012, 2:55:31 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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The Virgin and Child with St. Anne - Albrecht Durer - WikiPaintings.org

Friday, June 22, 2012, 9:42:35 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The Virgin and Child with St. Anne - Albrecht Durer - WikiPaintings.org

Read this section sometime ago, Guilt, Man and Society, Nietzsche…

Friday, June 22, 2012, 4:33:32 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Death and the Maiden.

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His Girl Friday – seen it

Friday, June 22, 2012, 2:41:04 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

His Girl Friday (1940) - IMDb

…about 4-5 years ago.

This is what happened, I was looking at this Durer to get a feel for what was going on…

Friday, June 22, 2012, 1:32:00 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-MiHzRbcVx6c/TZmcbTwcOwI/AAAAAAAAAHk/fWyaAZ9JimI/s1600/Durer+Nemesis.JPG

…during his time.

Gurney Journey: Escher’s three worlds

Friday, June 22, 2012, 1:26:39 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Gurney Journey: Escher’s three worlds

Polly in the morgue.

This might be a soap opera ~ Twilight Zone Episode, Twenty-Two…

Friday, June 22, 2012, 12:19:26 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Her father accused William of leaving her after he had an affair with the nurse who had attended the birth of their final child,[

Mary Ann Nichols - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Nefertiti like…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 7:54:47 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

4 Portrait of Elsbeth Tucher Nothern Renaissance Albrecht Durer oil paintings for sale and art painting reproductions on canvas

Portrait of Oswolt Krel Albrecht Durer China Oil Paintings Wholesale 42396

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 7:49:26 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Portrait of Oswolt Krel Albrecht Durer China Oil Paintings Wholesale 42396

Incoming…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 2:09:36 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“You have been faithful to the TV”.

Was programmed to look at it, not addicted or faithful.  Still trying to play mind games.

Incoming…"Kay's outlook is negative"...

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 2:08:08 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

No it is not. My outlook is based on my experiences and my experience is very real and from which I have drawn my conclusions. Want to argue with my experience?

This is where the image frame is I found from the film…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 12:54:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Hulu - Woman in the Dunes - Watch the full movie now.

…it was apparently cut from the you tube version to shorten the upload.  I am no longer a member of Hulu so it is clear this harassment is an attempt to get me to re-activate my membership with Hulu for a monthly fee of course.

Could the Greeks have died from gas rather than the plague…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 12:30:53 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…could this be what drugged up Odysseus, natural gas leak from a volcano.

My great-grandmother was a Gaskill ~ gas kills – my grandfather Weston looks a little like the Gaius or Lucius depiction in MMA book.

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I was looking at these images in a book on Greece and Rome…update 3

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 12:24:03 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I was looking at these images in a book on Greece and Rome…updated

Quarternionenadler

Three headed…

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Agrippina ~ gibbon ~ Gibbar ~ baboon ~ Nubian ~ nu boon…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 11:52:16 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Agrippina ~ is a gibbon ~ gibbar…updated

Could be a combination of Japanese and Chinese letters.  I think the black and terracotta pottery represents the gibbon and orangutan species who must have been enmeshed with each other. 

I feel the gibbon is the Greek athlete.

You did say think reality did you not?

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 11:32:25 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: My synapses are worth more than your acrobatics…

My synapses are worth more than your acrobatics…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 11:31:09 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Drastic, desperate measures like pumping another full of glutamic acid or Leucine creating glutamate storms…

…you use the minds of others.  That’s why you live longer than the people you proclaim to be helping.

Think wok…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 11:29:00 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I was looking at these images in a book on Greece and Rome…updated

Agrippina ~ is a gibbon ~ gibbar…updated

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 11:23:16 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The letters are all discombobulated.  Turn the p’s upside down -

Drastic, desperate measures like pumping another full of glutamic acid or Leucine creating glutamate storms…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 11:14:01 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…is very dangerous and damaging to the brain and now it is going to cost them.  This is evil and this is the evil that is among us.   The industries that benefit the most from these tactics claim to be helping us.  They are destructive to our brains and mental well being.

Left to their own devices, unfettered and without spiritual guidance, they could destroy a nation.  The same goes for our Government.

I was looking at these images in a book on Greece and Rome…updated

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 4:11:35 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…from the Metropolitan Museum of Art.  This is like an incense jar or a jar used for potpourri.  It sits on the tripod over boiling water likely.  This is what I am thinking here.  Of course the legs would be shorter and the ring would be closer to the prongs.  This tripod is dated around 12th century BC.

I think the ring is actually the top of a pot.  I think the legs flair at the bottom and the scroll pieces on either side are actually hooks which fit over the lip of the pot.  The jar is placed on the three prongs or possibly the part of the legs above the prongs are actually turned in like the prongs and the prongs are not there and the jar sits atop the legs as the prongs. 

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like this…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 3:52:36 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

http://southstreetantiques.com/yahoo_site_admin/assets/images/HPIM0764.27862841_std.JPG

Thoth on left…?

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 2:25:32 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Salt, just saw this film…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 2:07:12 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Marble portrait of the emperor Augustus Period: Early Imperial, Julio-Claudian Date: ca. A.D. 14–37 | Flickr - Photo Sharing!

http://www.flickriver.com/photos/mharrsch/565837652/

Angelina looks like Augustus in this film…I have seen his face on another as well.

Great film, made some connections…

Maggie Gyllenhaal and James Spader film, Secretary…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 1:53:10 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Maggie Gyllenhaal - IMDb

Secretary

I met Pascal in 1993 ~ almost purchased Pygmalion book in 2002…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 1:47:45 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Gabriel Pascal - IMDb

Came across Pygmalion and Galatea around that time online then at the mall.

Heard this…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 1:43:32 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Why don’t you shove your hands up your ass”.

Part of Brett Somers’ cancer?

My brother in law?

Baseball players – ELH.

My father did attend Masonic meetings in Portsmouth, Va…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 1:34:26 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Woman of the Dunes…update 3

Someone was going to shoot Sherlock Holmes who represents Queen Victoria I think…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 1:27:59 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Woman of the Dunes…update 3

…who was shot at while in her carriage so Woman in Green is part of the story, Queen Victoria is likely the Woman in Green or someone in her court. 

This would draw the animosity of QV’s enemies to the Sherlock Holmes character as well.

“How many turtlenecks do you have?”

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 1:21:01 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I white one, one green one and one black one.

Woman of the Dunes…update 3

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 1:18:30 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: “She needs to be killed”…updated

…about the undershirts.  I have 6 white ones, 3 gray ones and three black ones.  I think 12 people viewed this film, 12 Angry Men has something to do with it, may be Patterns film, which came out a year before 12 Angry Men.  That is not including the three camisoles I have , two white and one black making the total type of undergarments 15.

The 6 white undershirts represent 6 men who had objective or positive thoughts about the film.  The three gray u-shirts represent men who were ambivalent about some parts of the film and the three black u-shirts represent three men who had negative thoughts about the film Woman of the Dunes or Patterns I’m not sure.

Might have been some kind of survey about the film.

Baseball players.  Table salt figures into it.

Just saw this…

Thursday, June 21, 2012, 12:59:57 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Major Barbara (1941) - IMDb

…recognized some of the drama going on in my family, as in most families I think but I mean some of the film.   Stephen looks like Mr. Nichols.  Somewhere in my past I worked with a Mr. Nichols and that is what he looked like or he gave the appearance of looking like Stephen in this film.  A recent image of myself looks like Polly Nichols in the morgue.  I did work at Nichol’s Discount Center in Greenville, NC.

Scene where Barbara passes out looks like Virginia Woolf scene when it was thought she walked into the river.  I gave that Woolf scenario some thought and the weight of enough rocks to cause her to drowned in her pockets would have caused them to rip off her dress unless she was terribly underweight.  It must have been Ophelia who walked into the river or it was John the Baptist who walked into the water to baptize Jesus or another or someone’s thoughts about it.  Baptisms were often in ponds and rivers.  My mother Barbara was baptized in a pond.  Also reminds me of Cher video where girl is on rooftop and Cher rescues her.

I didn’t know crows would do this…

Wednesday, June 20, 2012, 9:53:29 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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The table salt contained lots of silicon dioxide also…

Wednesday, June 20, 2012, 3:41:06 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2

“She needs to be killed”…updated

Wednesday, June 20, 2012, 3:24:17 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“You kill child molestors”?

Hmmm, sounds more like you are looking for an excuse to kill someone.

“They are incorrigible”.

That’s like the pot calling the kettle black.

You apparently know nothing about neurolinguistic programming so I prefer someone else picking through my mind.  I believe we are all curable from any illness.  We ape what we see in our minds, so to cure a sex fiend or rapist you would first treat his habits like viewing pornography.  It is so simply clear this is the core of the problem and I believe how I became the object for sex by two teenage boys in my youth.  It was implanted into their minds from something or they simply were abused themselves or were never taught sexual morality or they were simply possessed of some more primitive peoples whose sexual mores are different from those of my family, I don’t know.  Murdering them is against the law.

CW ~ 

I have 8 of these undershirts I purchased before seeing this film, so someone knew about it before I did…someone viewed this film, I had never seen it before last year, 2011.  It is a very poignant film.

I ate a lot of coffee creamer full of silicon dioxide in the 70’s and 80’s before I knew it could damage my neurons.  You know I hate this industry and the establishment for this.  That’s likely why you see a shrinkage of brain tissue in my xray, it isn’t apoptosis.  

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Incoming…

Wednesday, June 20, 2012, 3:12:38 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Don’t you come over to this mall”.

“He lost control of this girl”.

I see a civil action brewing against you control freaks.

From a High Sierra photograph book someone else read…

Sunday, June 17, 2012, 10:20:39 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I went out into the community and shot several of these images not knowing about the book but the name surfaced many times which I mistook for the song High Sierra by Ronstadt.  Found the book today at the Library book sale.

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The photo on the left was taken by me in 2008…

Sunday, June 17, 2012, 10:15:05 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The one on the right I found at Art.com by accident.  Psychic connection to someone perusing Art.com?  What about all the other people who photograph the moon like this?

I have others to post later.

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A Hebrew letter not Chinese, but maybe Chinese derivation…

Sunday, June 17, 2012, 10:06:09 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Malignant Narcissism…?

Sunday, June 17, 2012, 1:18:56 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Peter Barach Ph.D. Psychologist -- Dissociative Identity disorder MPD as an attachment disorder

…it is more like a love tumor infected with a host of viruses.  A tumor created by the machine designed to control the masses or at the least to keep you forever confused mentally.  You can’t trust people to love you in a healthy way so you have no choice.  You are simply stuck in your narcissistic state and you weed out the tumors and viruses or you risk getting injured again and again and again if you entrust someone else with your already damaged self, because of the self-interests of those who say they won’t harm you or exploit you will do just that in the end. 

So I hardly call it malignant narcissism, I call it vital narcissism, maybe somewhat compulsory if one is to survive.  Some species react differently to injury than others.  I think it erroneous to assert a specific set of criteria to all species of mankind.

Peter Barach Ph.D. Psychologist -- Dissociative Identity disorder MPD as an attachment disorder

Sunday, June 17, 2012, 12:56:19 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Peter Barach Ph.D. Psychologist -- Dissociative Identity disorder MPD as an attachment disorder

Look at what is happening here…

Saturday, June 16, 2012, 1:11:23 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Infogirl :: Journal Archives

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Some of my creativity, straight from my blog – law and order?…

Saturday, June 16, 2012, 12:44:24 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Louis XVI and Marie Antoinette…?

Friday, June 15, 2012, 11:49:16 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Lizzie Borden a manifestation of the spirit held by Helen Blavatsky?

I believe the things of the soul of which I have been speaking, have been spoken of before by Blavatsky and others.  I just read something of Bertrand Russell about The Problems of Philosophy which fit into the things which seem to be manifesting around me of late, the transference of death and so on.  These things were only hinted at by Jung and his predecessors.

Was Lizzie Borden the recipient of the man who murdered both Marie Antoinette and Louis XVI or was she the recipient of transferences that had once been transferred to Helena Blavatsky?   Were these matters discussed between her and her actress acquaintance which later prompted those like Clare Booth Luce to indulge in trips of LSD in order to avoid the Grimm Reaper?  If they were discussed why were they not made public knowledge?  Was Borden’s indebtedness what really saved her own head?

Could William Moultrie have been Lizzie Borden’s other half?

Friday, June 15, 2012, 12:08:02 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Swamp Fox Brigade: The Battle of Stono Ferry Part III: The Conclusion

The Battle of Stono Ferry :: American Revolutionary War

Friday, June 15, 2012, 11:56:57 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The Battle of Stono Ferry :: American Revolutionary War

I said this over and over in 1977 ~ 1779 ~ 1887…?

Friday, June 15, 2012, 11:51:56 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The Lord is my shepherd…update 5 | Neurolinguistic Programming#!/2012/05/lord-is-my-shepherdupdate-5.html#!/2012/05/lord-is-my-shepherdupdate-5.html

…I thought someone was at my window at C-7 Glendale Ct apts.   I wonder if Merrick repeated something he heard from one of the other women.  I was sleeping on a single bed.

Detinue…

Thursday, June 14, 2012, 3:32:07 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I certainly don’t want the garbage back in my property…

Mt. St. Helen’s was detonated…

Thursday, June 14, 2012, 3:28:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Now I have a pot of ivy spiraling up a trellis on my deck…

Thursday, June 14, 2012, 1:58:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: The Woman In Green Scenes I recognize… updated

…my sister has one also.

My friend Angie Tugwell rented an apartment with a spiral staircase in it.  She is about my age.  Her boyfriend committed suicide.  Her mother played basketball.

The Woman In Green Scenes I recognize… updated

Thursday, June 14, 2012, 1:55:44 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I am also mixed up with a Weingarten…update 2

In the film 12 Angry Men…

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While in the 8th grade, I attended a Halloween costume party at the school cafeteria.  I borrowed an old brown suit of my Uncle’s, his felt hat, his cane and an old pair of shoes.  I rolled up the legs of the pants.  This is connected to a dream I had about being at a recital of some sort where something fell off a table, but it was round.

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Priming the audience below.  The first scene below is the one I think I have been re-enacting…

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While at an after meeting gathering of AA friends at Denny’s in Raleigh, we were talking about life and I recall telling him life was like a spiral.  Notice the spiral in the chair, spiral ice cream cones from soft ice cream and I have been eating a lot of ice cream.  I remember eating those twisted up cheese sticks like the cheese puffs and also the red licorice.

I also re-created the face on the wall in this film from a plaster cast and clay.  Laura Clark was the subject.  It was painted white and the wood on which it was mounted was painted black with speckled white around it like stars.

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I am also mixed up with a Weingarten…update 2

Thursday, June 14, 2012, 12:32:24 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

weingarten raleigh - Google Search

…who did pottery and had it on display at the State Fairgrounds Flea Market where I purchased a Shell painting.

Jean and I repeated the same thing that happened to Carolyn and I.  It’s Sherlock Holmes and Dr. Watson…

Felix Weingartner - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Thursday, June 14, 2012, 12:19:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Felix Weingartner - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Joseph C. Weingartner

Thursday, June 14, 2012, 12:19:26 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Joseph C. Weingartner

Watergate tapes were traded for something…

Wednesday, June 13, 2012, 9:21:40 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Marta | Gurusfeet.com

Wednesday, June 13, 2012, 3:53:44 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Marta | Gurusfeet.com

I AM, I listened to this via Emmett Miller tape in the 80’s and in 2005…

Wednesday, June 13, 2012, 3:46:11 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The term "Ascended Master" was first used in the book Unveiled Mysteries [3](1934) by Guy Ballard (1878-1939). Ballard was the founder of the first "Ascended Master Teaching" in modern times, known as The "I AM" Activity (in full: The "I AM" Religious Activity of the Saint Germain Foundation ).[4] The concept of "Ascended Masters" was further popularized by authors such as Baird T. Spalding during the 1930s, and by organizations like The Bridge to Freedom[5] (founded 1951) (known in the 1980s as The New Age Church of the Christ, and later as The Bridge to Spiritual Freedom), The Summit Lighthouse[6][7] (founded 1958), and various other organizations such as the White Eagle Lodge (1936).[8]

Ascended master - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Kuthumi…Kootie bird…Kootie bug – kindergarten, taken from me…

MA trying to kill GB not SH…

Wednesday, June 13, 2012, 3:33:41 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Down under MA…

I lived on Dickinson Avenue…

Wednesday, June 13, 2012, 2:50:47 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Jonathan Dickinson (New Jersey) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

There was a young woman working at Dillard’s who looks like this woman…

Wednesday, June 13, 2012, 2:45:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Meitner

I saw her a few days ago in her car leaving the mall.  She picked someone up.

I have found this to be true…

Wednesday, June 13, 2012, 2:16:41 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

he believed that their egos possessed insufficient cathectic energy, and that it was a lack rather than an excess of narcissistic libido that caused a psychotic individuals' difficulties with the object.

Paul Federn - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…am sure this is part of the drama also…

Otto Rank ~ Eric Berne ~ Leif Ericson – Leif Burned something…

Wednesday, June 13, 2012, 2:07:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Elmo Voliva…updated

Santa Claus…

Wednesday, June 13, 2012, 1:51:15 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Rudolf Peierls - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Otto Rank.

http://kayfgibbs4.blogspot.com/search?q=santa+claus

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I’ve been to the Cole Hahn shoe store in 1985…

Wednesday, June 13, 2012, 1:36:33 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…bought the Aigner’s.  Also went there in 1992.

I went looking for bath salts yesterday evening could not find any…

Wednesday, June 13, 2012, 1:26:00 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…they stopped making them?

This is the tube I purchased in 1992…

Wednesday, June 13, 2012, 1:24:20 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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I purchased two cans of 365 soup yesterday…

Wednesday, June 13, 2012, 12:47:44 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…great soup.  I’ve been buying them for several years now, they need a little boost in flavor though.

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I’m getting a collection of these, started in 1992…

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I have another big one, it is buried in a bunch of stuff.

Lizzie Borden a manifestation of the spirit held by Helen Blavatsky?

Monday, June 11, 2012, 10:44:29 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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She could be Rasputin’s other half…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 10:25:45 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Nance O'Neil - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

“Looking for Wood”, Suspect film…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 9:40:38 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Ernest Wood - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

This is the man my father was mixed up with, his friend calling himself Wood also…

I got this mixed up with Henry Lane Gibbs a relative and steel cut oats…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 9:20:10 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Henry Steel Olcott (American theosophist) -- Britannica Online Encyclopedia

She may have been the one beaten for stowing on a boat…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 8:40:46 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Helena Blavatsky - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…or she was mixed up with someone flogged for stowing on a ship…

This of course seems odd…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 8:35:42 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

"I was sent to prove the phenomena and their reality, and to show the fallacy of the spiritualistic theory of spirits."

Who Is Helena Petrovna Blavatsky?:  A Sketch of Her Life and Work for Theosophy

I think some of this was manifesting…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 8:26:22 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Alexander Suvorov - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

This was in it…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 8:21:41 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/9/9d/Jean-Honor%C3%A9_Fragonard_-_The_Stolen_Kiss.jpg

This man was there…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 7:49:28 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

File:Alexander von Humboldt-selfportrait.jpg - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

There is a bit of this going on I think…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 6:32:47 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Born Yesterday (1993) - IMDb

Christopher ~ Chris Tophet?

Monday, June 11, 2012, 12:14:17 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Henry Steel Olcott (American theosophist) -- Britannica Online Encyclopedia

Monday, June 11, 2012, 12:08:51 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Henry Steel Olcott (American theosophist) -- Britannica Online Encyclopedia

Helena Blavatsky…updated

Monday, June 11, 2012, 12:03:28 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: This weekend…

she visited the Romanovs - “I’m sure we will be seeing more of each other”.

Sokolov ~ Avilov…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 11:55:00 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

This weekend…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 11:44:26 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“You know you can transfer death to another…” – Russian spiritualist.

This looks very similar to the Episcopal Rectory where we lived.  There was no fuse box and only one window on the left and a window on the right.

The room

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Elmo Voliva…updated

Monday, June 11, 2012, 11:32:27 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Avilov – Mole

A > F

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FVVILO – MOLE

LIEM WOOLF – ME LIEF WOOL

MEI LA – Bolshevik Revolution

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Japanese for SO…

Soviet

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Romanovs…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 11:27:37 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Crossbow involved – I wanted to purchase one around 1998, a small one – could be television.

They were marched into a this room…some room in Ipatiev…

http://www.romanov-memorial.com/

Since Sunday morning I have been seeing letters in the alphabet moving like sticks…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 10:32:03 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Pick-up sticks - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Pick-up sticks - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Monday, June 11, 2012, 10:30:33 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Pick-up sticks - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Something of interest this weekend…

Monday, June 11, 2012, 10:08:42 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Jeanne d'Albret - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

http://www.bbc.co.uk/history/british/civil_war_revolution/brighter_lights_01.shtml

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jack_Be_Nimble

During my niece’s graduation party.  A child innocently tossed a rock over this tall fence and broke a solar light in the ground.  Her mother reminded me of Joan III and Ernest Jones.  So does my mother’s second husband. 

The next day it seemed possible the incident was a piece of history re-enacted.  The little girl, when asked to toss the rock elsewhere, was unable to muster the strength needed to toss the rock over the fence.  I wondered if this was how the Great Fire of London was actually started or if someone thought that was how it started.   Someone possibly tossed a rock at a candle stick and set the town ablaze. 

Gamaliel was on the scene a day later.

Isabeau plays a part in the drama I think, he fed alcohol to his construction workers – this is likely also some Egyptian history.

You writers need to clean your own damned dirty laundry first before you start digging into someone else’s…

Wednesday, June 06, 2012, 3:49:01 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Incoming…

Wednesday, June 06, 2012, 3:48:08 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“There goes our stipend”

We did not have a stipend, you (the writer) had a stipend.  I refuse to let you drag me into your problems with accepting money you haven’t made yet, forcing others to burn their brains for your pocket, calling yourselves cleaner or whatever.  I am quite sure I have never been informed of any such arrangement and it certainly isn’t in writing so your claims hold no weight here.  Whatever you may have conjured up in your mind while I was hypnotized is certainly null and void.

Marvin Gaye says it….

What’s Goin On…

Mother, mother
There's too many of you crying
Brother, brother, brother
There's far too many of you dying
You know we've got to find a way
To bring some lovin' here today - Ya
Father, father
We don't need to escalate
You see, war is not the answer
For only love can conquer hate
You know we've got to find a way
To bring some lovin' here today
Picket lines and picket signs
Don't punish me with brutality
Talk to me, so you can see
Oh, what's going on
What's going on
Ya, what's going on
Ah, what's going on
In the mean time
Right on, baby
Right on
Right on
Father, father, everybody thinks we're wrong
Oh, but who are they to judge us
Simply because our hair is long
Oh, you know we've got to find a way
To bring some understanding here today
Oh
Picket lines and picket signs
Don't punish me with brutality
Talk to me
So you can see
What's going on
Ya, what's going on
Tell me what's going on
I'll tell you what's going on - Uh
Right on baby
Right on baby

These writers have been intercepting communications from my mother…

Wednesday, June 06, 2012, 3:21:17 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…and other family members so I have not been privileged to know what has been going on unless I call home on the phone.  My mother is also a victim of these people and their poison from the television.

No permissions are granted  to use anything from my blog.

You have a grave lack of knowledge on how to read minds Helen, I have had to correct numerous errors you have made, of course under guises of creativity, usurping my brain power for your profit, also under the guises of cleaning.

I can clean on my own and I never asked for your help.  Someone else did.

They all (writers) have come here grabbing at all of my property claiming I need help, this that and the other I have never requested.  My position was made clear in 1994 when I published a public notice in the newspaper that no one has permission to use any part of my story for any reason.

The End of our invasion of Kay Frances Gibbs’ privacy.

See you all in court.

It is becoming clear my father’s suicide was due to our enmeshments with the Lyons…

Wednesday, June 06, 2012, 2:54:39 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The Affidavit…another one is in process…

Wednesday, June 06, 2012, 2:51:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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The Government clearly recognizes the “right to privacy”, whether you are only alluding to one’s privacy or not…

Wednesday, June 06, 2012, 2:44:47 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…they will uphold it in a court of law.

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Incoming…

Wednesday, June 06, 2012, 2:35:27 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“…will you permit us to write your story”?

You dare ask me that question?  Hell no.

You have never had permission and you will never get it.

This would be the Blanche that Leslie’s acquaintance was mixed in…

Wednesday, June 06, 2012, 1:57:17 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

After Blanche's death, Joyce learned that Blanche's father had killed himself and Blanche

Joyce Carol Oates - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…she was a psychologist (I think she had some Melanie Klein too).

Joyce Carol Oates here too…

Wednesday, June 06, 2012, 1:42:50 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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See what they are doing to me…

Wednesday, June 06, 2012, 1:37:28 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…selling me out to these writers.

Bonaduce, my neighbor downstairs married a Peruvian…

Wednesday, June 06, 2012, 1:35:19 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Mario Vargas Llosa - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…she stabbed him in the leg with a knife.  He showed me the wound.  Could be Play Misty For Me.

They got into my things.

This makes me think even moreso, with my own personal history…

Wednesday, June 06, 2012, 1:23:54 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I’d say the word likely is symbolic of lovemaking…updated

…that these people were mixed up in the history of The Daughters of Wisdom.

I’d say the word likely is symbolic of lovemaking…updated

Wednesday, June 06, 2012, 1:22:28 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Gymnopédies (Satie) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Quite different from the frenzied activity inferred in many of Tchaikovsky’s works.

I purchased this music and also read some of Madame Bovary (saw the film) and read all of Sentimental Education.

April 1888 before the Ripper murders commenced.

Going to U-Mall for a haircut…

Tuesday, June 05, 2012, 12:47:44 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Incoming…

Tuesday, June 05, 2012, 12:45:25 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“The president sent me to hush you up”.

What?

A Civil Rights Lawyer who is President of a Democracy is going to try and hush me up?

President of a company who preys on the ignorant then hides behind the First Amendment is going to try and hush me up?

Hmm, you need to rethink the possibilities.

I am going to Southpoint Mall today…

Monday, June 04, 2012, 10:27:35 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…there will be music going.

Incoming…

Saturday, June 02, 2012, 2:18:38 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“All you have to do is heat this bitches ass up and she will write all night long”.

“Say suck my dick off to her and she’ll get going”…

She throws her vest across the room…

Thursday, May 31, 2012, 1:37:34 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Damn I went over there expecting to get shot”.

Woman picks up a laptop and throws it across the room.

“Lucera, look what you did, you’ve damaged my laptop”.

You are hurting people Michael”

He grabs her by the arm.

“How many times have I told you we need the money”.

John O. Meusebach ~ lipper ~ I think this photo looks more like a Comanche Indian…

I have a Digital Image of Estes Drive in Chapel Hill like this image, about 2003 I think…

Wednesday, May 30, 2012, 10:31:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I will show it when I get back.

The first is a 2010 image I took.   The second two images are January 2004, they are index prints I never had them printed into photos.

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These are others I took after the first snow picture…

Wednesday, May 30, 2012, 9:00:11 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Street lights and woman on cross…

Wednesday, May 30, 2012, 3:56:41 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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This is a Japanese or Chinese letter…

Wednesday, May 30, 2012, 3:42:03 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Trying to keep me from calling a Lawyer?

Wednesday, May 30, 2012, 3:27:30 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Won’t work.

Incoming-you call this cleaning…

Wednesday, May 30, 2012, 3:03:27 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Helen lashing Elizabeth to a chair…

“You’ll choke yourself to death before you get out of that contraption”.

Kay Gibbs choked on her oatmeal this morning.

Someone’s taping someone to a chair and they keep trying to get out of it.

Silent Fall (1994) – IMDb – I have seen this film, about 4 or 5 years ago…

Tuesday, May 29, 2012, 11:51:28 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Silent Fall (1994) - IMDb

I doubt this is the case…

Monday, May 28, 2012, 11:32:11 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Braden proposed a similar relationship between media coverage and drug users’ experiences when he speculated that newspaper stories about “bad trips” in the late 1960s “might be partly responsible for creating a self-fulfilling prophesy” by making LSD users subliminally anxious.

I suspect those using sublimnal messages in advertising over the television and in theaters were rather anxious and thus created all the negativity regarding the use of the drug.  Of course if one does not know what one is possessed of then one can hardly predict with certainty what one will experience while using it.

This sounds like Cynara with Kay Francis and William Powell…

Monday, May 28, 2012, 10:51:15 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

From Steven Siff’s Journalsim History article on Life Magazine’s coverage of LSD:

“Recent events made things worse: Henry announced that he planned to leave her for a twenty-four-year-old English woman.36 The love affair was in the gossip columns.37 Perhaps worse still, she was forced to recognize that her husband had lied when he had claimed to be impotent twenty-three years earlier. “For almost 58 years—all my conscious life—until last spring—I felt certain that…”

…the importance of LSD and knowing what’s out there one can get into…

Slate Magazine contains the link to this PDF article.

The drug was certainly not out of control in our area and I would use it again under professional supervision…

Monday, May 28, 2012, 9:30:16 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

How Time and Life magazines helped turn America on to LSD. - Slate Magazine

If I had had professional supervision by someone familiar with the drug, then I would have been able to analyze the content sooner which likely would have prevented the many difficulties I encountered long after taking it.  My life would have been more constructive thus more productive to me rather than to others.

This is Gloria Grahame and Joan Blondell combination…

Monday, May 28, 2012, 5:47:35 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Who is this Emceeing these little ones?

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I think this is about Ahkenaton when he took over Egypt…

Sunday, May 27, 2012, 10:51:24 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Kay's Commentary

I think the wrapped up in a blanket is from the Cleopatra film…

Sunday, May 27, 2012, 10:44:20 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Kay's Commentary

I have seen that.

I know a Roland but his last name is not Doe…

Sunday, May 27, 2012, 7:10:00 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Exorcism of Roland Doe - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

He is involved in the DEA.

I can tell you now I know nothing about drug trafficking or selling and I have no interest in being your informant.  I simply am not interested.

I know you’ve been using me that way, why I have been locked up so often.

I’d advise you to stop.

I heard something about a Dr. Dupont this morning…updated

Sunday, May 27, 2012, 7:05:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Dr. Vera Du Pont-Day - 408-492-9569 San Jose Community Focus Online (6523909981) Business Guide | Hypnosis

I recollected a Dupont Circle in Virginia.  I had been looking at Vera Wang clothing at Kohl’s.

They were questioning me about my shoes.

Superman was in the mix when I wrote about my LSD experience.

Then after seeing Tinker, Tailor Soldier Spy I recalled Get Smart, and Don Adams who I think now is in one of my photographs.

I felt sedated, like I had been drugged but I was aware.  I saw myself from the ceiling of my bedroom sitting on the bed.  It seemed like I was messing with my shoes.  Someone must have had a ceiling mirror somewhere.  I thought the apartment was bugged.

I told you I have had hardly no alcohol, I had one sip at Christmas and poured the rest out.  I had one beer in July and one or two beers Christmas of 2010.  I was taking melatonin and taurine. 

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One of the Halls…

Sunday, May 27, 2012, 6:55:22 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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I think this woman is the multicolored lady…

Sunday, May 27, 2012, 6:33:21 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…she’s dressed like a peacock, her hair resembles her husband’s beard…

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Incoming…

Sunday, May 27, 2012, 5:09:42 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Kay Francis I’m sure you are headed for a problem”.

Dr. Renee Dupont, MD, Encinitas, CA - Psychiatry

Sunday, May 27, 2012, 3:46:11 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Dr. Renee Dupont, MD, Encinitas, CA - Psychiatry

Incoming…

Sunday, May 27, 2012, 3:40:44 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“She knows we are ripping her off”.

“Don’t you think its funny Ms. Gibbs”?

“Ha, ha, ha, ha”.

“You must appease me”.

The only appeasement you are going to get is a fist in the face.

Incoming…

Sunday, May 27, 2012, 3:37:04 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“You are a good christian woman”.

You must be talking about my mother because I no longer subscribe to the Christian religion.  So you can take me off your little crosses.

“She’s not cooperating”.

How right you are, have you heard of involuntary servitude? 

All writers and novelists and film makers leave me alone.

Bob Griswald – Self Esteem…

Sunday, May 27, 2012, 12:20:42 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Wake County Alcohol Treatment Report…

Sunday, May 27, 2012, 12:00:27 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Most of my family’s drug and alcohol dependencies were due to noise pollution, my grandfather and uncles having been farmers and fisherman and my uncle having operated a water pumping station to keep water from his land and one uncle also worked on the railroad.

It was while in transit to a therapy session after my second inpatient treatment at this facility that I suffered a panic attack with resulting agoraphobia at which time I had to be coaxed out of the room I was renting. 

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Let me share this with you…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 11:51:51 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Listen because this is the last time I am going to say this to you…

I also posted this to IMDb in response to a reply about the film Death in Love.  I wonder if it shouldn’t have been titled Love in Death.

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“I think rough sex is a sign of a problem, period.”

I can't speak to your family situation which seems you have helped resolve. Relationships are complex, more complex than I ever imagined, which I learned after having to face some of my own problems that involved trauma. Being so distrusting I refused to get professional help and chose to learn as much as I could about all of the issues I was facing based on what I know to be true about my situation and not what someone else wants to make me think is true. A problem arises when you cannot get thoughts/ideas and feelings validated, when you are in doubt and it takes a lot of time trying to find the truest answer. Then you have to deal with all of the doubters because you didn't get your story validated by some professional, as if they have some magic formula or crystal ball that lets them distinguish your truth from a lie. I think basically most people think victims of abuse are merely looking for sex, attention or a check from the government so they believe in their narrow minded way that we are all faking our difficulties, promoted by the likes of Thomas Szaz.

I don't think Bisset's character’s mother in the film was jealous, I think she was resentful of her daughter, kind of like an unresolved post-partum syndrome, where the mother displaces anger and even rage at the husband or newborn for causing her so much pain and even rejecting her newborn by refusing to breast feed which could also be caused by some kind of phobia maybe homophobia. This of course is not true in every case. She could have also simply been nearly starved to death from sacrificing food for her daughter which certainly would have affected her thinking, causing her brain to go into survival mode at all costs, even the cost of her daughter, who both her parents left behind.

Parents often blindly re-enact with their children what was done to them as children and it is sometimes done out of resentment for having endured the abuse, or because the parent is so traumatized that they repress the abuse, which is really the basis of this film and the oldest son is the most obvious victim of his mother's inability to manage her victimization. A book I read by Janet Woititz back in the early 80's about sexual abuse specifically states this fact. It however does not mean this is true in every case.

I have encountered people outside my family who have tried to escape their abusive childhood patterns by using me as a container for their problems. I at times could not separate their problems from my own, often getting into trouble because I was not strong enough, because of my own traumas, to cope with their issues, not to mention the fact that they should have consulted someone professional to begin with but in one case it could have caused them problems with the law. John Bradshaw's The Price of Nice suited me well then.

I did not find this movie entertaining at all, but helpful in seeing the results of what trauma can do and the clear depiction of the results of traumatic bonding which I know every woman and child who has ever been in an abusive relationship can certainly identify with and appreciate for the mirroring that helps us see ourselves. Acknowledging my dual nature I also see and resent the exploitation of our lives and believing ourselves impotent and then acting impotent to do anything about it.

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I think you are trying to confuse that person's statement (who has, sadly, removed it with some kind of racial or sexual prejudice. The person clearly said "I" not these people are problematic. The person is likely not prejudiced at all about what someone else does.

Maybe you really want them to be concerned. That person likely will never engage in rough sex unless it is forced onto him or her.

That was the point of my statement. It is all part of a process and you have to get through the bad and the ugly to get to the good sometimes. Tenderness is something which starts at birth and is cultivated throughout your life - the good. Along the way, you might have been treated in a rough manner which was associated with sexual arousal and so you re-enact this throughout your life with various partners. Cases of agoraphobia, acrophobia, claustrophobia are all a similar cluster of problems. I developed a case of acrophobia in 1995 while homeless. Having climbed trees during my childhood, I discovered later the problem did not originate with me. This was clearly a projective identification, having repressed memories of my own youth and climbing trees for other reasons I won't go into here.

Stansislov Grof's book, Beyond the Brain, taught me there are all kinds of traumas which may seem insignificant to us as adults that can happen to us during our birth and throughout our infancy.  They can become problems in very real ways to us as we develop, we will tend to re-enact until we are able to connect the original trauma with what is happening to us as adults. I have a photograph of myself in 1973, which I now see as a face coming out of a mother's vagina. Some would laugh and call me ludicrous but it is sadly true. Not having been breast fed I was stuck in a prenatal state for several decades, acting out all sorts of things that went on and some which came from outside my immediate family. The origins of our personal history likely also had something to do with our difficulties.

The Matrix films deal with similar issues.

A scratch on the wrist of a tiny baby can be woven into the perinatal script and develop into a compulsive problem later in life if not attended to in a loving caring way. Just having the knowledge I gained from reading his book was enough to help me determine the origins of my drinking problem, I was given paregoric in my infancy for intestinal problems. I remained abstinent until I was 17 when at a sleep over I drank a half can of Budweiser beer. Had I not had other traumas in my youth which caused me to repress the memories of the paregoric I likely would have never touched the beer. This triggered a whole host of problems and set in motion my future drinking habit perpetuated by television's seductive advertising of the product. It has taken a lot of work to end that habit. I had the same problem with smoking, the oral stage of development being contaminated with cigarette smoking where mother's breast and food should be the only thing put into the mouth. I developed anorexia. This too was perpetuated by films of high society and seductive advertising. This is a form of projective identification demonstrated in films and television but rarely the focus of any film. It would be difficult to show I am sure.

We know this has all changed in Hollywood to some degree now.

Again, talking openly is part of the process of curing the problem, rather than repressing it. I got more from the physical affection I received at the AA meetings than I did from most of what was said.

"True to themselves". This sounds like you want to lock people into a way of being. This makes no sense. Life is not that way. Life is flowing and ever changing like a river. One slogan I learned in AA I clung to was "nothing is constant but change". I craved a change in my life but I was helpless to know what to do to change it yet was doing it everyday with the words I spoke.

Hope you find your answers "violin violence".

This is not a side effect of Tranzene itself…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 11:15:45 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Tranxene and Insomnia

…as the drug impedes accelerated brain activity by inhibiting neuronal activity.  This side effect is due to elevated brainwave activity which must be treated differently.  These are the same effects I have discovered with Taurine.

This is how I came to be diagnosed with Multiple personality disorder…updated

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 11:06:24 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I have had sexual encounters with several women in my past, all which sprang from the assaults perpetrated on my person while I was in the Army.

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Listen because this is the last time I am going to say this to you…

Trying to force blame for my mental illness on me…

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Incoming…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 9:20:57 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Do you mind helping me with Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy?”

Yes I do.  You were suppose to be cleaning it last night, it was movie night.  I slept until 2:00 PM this afternoon I thought sure that was sufficient time.  What the hell have you been doing?

I thought these pictures below would be message enough to you people I am in no shape to be helping anyone write a novel and your comments to me have provoked this problem.  Leave me alone.

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Listen because this is the last time I am going to say this to you…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 9:02:09 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…then I am going to have it stopped.  I have asked you to leave me alone and I meant it.

I have had sexual encounters with several women in my past, all which sprang from the assaults perpetrated on my person while I was in the Army.  I was disabled at the time but unaware of it.   I now have attachments with these women however unhealthy it may be.  I am clearly enmeshed in some of their personal issues as well.

It’s Russell…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 8:53:45 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Are you sure”.

100%.  She was angry the day she admitted to deliberately provoking me, then she left the Prison system.

“Did you speak to Mr. Sellers”?

Yes, he was very calm and most pleasant to deal with.  He helped me calm down.  So did many of the other Psychiatrists.  He didn’t seem to think I had a problem.  Dr. Shalom was not pleasant either.

“I tell you what’s the truf”…I keep hearing this often.

Elevator’s going down…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 8:36:14 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Vacate Kay Gibbs’ premises now”…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 8:33:32 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“No way”.

“Rock n Roll”.

“You turn that on and I will break your fingers”.

“She’s such a dumbass”…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 6:39:03 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I’ve been hearing this for more than three years.

If I am so dumb why are you here and why the hell are you trying to write a novel?  STUPID ASS.  Crapping someone else up and I didn’t even give you permission.

I don’t care what you call it.  It isn’t cleaning to me, I call it mooching.  I can do as much as you do and better myself.  So I am telling you to STOP NOW.

Ok, I’m not sure but I think I did this to my shoes while sleeping, I don’t know…updated

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 6:33:44 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Now look what you damned bastards have done…

A lot has been going on to tick me off.  A man propositioned me for sex the other day at the Thrift Store.  I called the police.

Writers have been harassing me for stories.  Someone’s constantly badgering me about “sucking their d--- off.”

Someone’s constantly calling me “sweetheart”, irritating me. 

“She’s such a dumbass”.

“We’ll get the money out of her”, so forth and so on.  “Stop blogging that”. 

They are clearly doing this on purpose and are ashamed of doing it and have no desire to be discovered.

There have been a mountain of things going on psychically, some I have been catching, some I have not.

I viewed Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy last night.  This afternoon I recalled having viewed a couple of Get Smart episodes online and I used to watch it in my youth.  Someone I am connected to must have viewed this film which triggered my memories of the Get Smart episodes and I must have been pretty angry about something which has been intensified by all of the comments being said to me, I clearly know anger me.

I know for a fact my shoes were ok several days ago.  I just don’t know if I did something to them in my sleep.  I don’t know if I was sleepwalking because of the NG episode on sleepwalking or if I actually do it.  I just don’t know.  I have not been drinking alcohol or taking any drugs or chemicals, except melatonin and taurine and a little tyrosine once or twice.

“I’m sorry I am desperate.”

I also recalled an event in 1993 in which I had been assaulted by an African man pretending to help me but only interested in sex.  This was just after I had all of my property stolen in Chapel Hill by Ms. Holland who refused to meet me in a public place so I could pay her for the time I resided in the apartment and get my property back.  I tore up his telephone the next day.  I am likely enmeshed with someone from prison in Raleigh in 1991.  I AM VERY ANGRY ABOUT THIS RIGHT NOW. 

This blog does not mean I am putting things out…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 2:54:38 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I am well aware of projecting  and so forth.  I have created an audio program to help me stop doing that.

“So you own your own problems.”

Indeed I have been working on them since being here and have done so long before getting here in my present location.  Numerous trips to psychiatric hospitals, Alcohol Treatment facilities, and various groups.  But they never seemed to get things going for me until I sat down and just started writing about what has happened to me and reading about these problems.

How did you know how to identify them.  By READING.

You have no idea who I may be connected to or where they are from or anything of the kind…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 3:15:53 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…you don’t have cameras on street corners.

I know for a fact Californians are in and out of Chapel Hill all the time, Wilmington too, where my car happened to have been broken into but only my personal papers taken like birth certificate, Military DD 214 and Discharge certificate.

Nearly a year ago I left the keys to my front door in the door lock overnight…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 3:11:54 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: These are the soles of the shoes…

…the next day I woke up and found my keys in the door.  That alerted me to a problem.

I don’t even wear them everyday…updated

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 3:10:11 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Now look what you damned bastards have done…

…they were only worn once in awhile…LIKE I SAID I HAVE NOT HAD THEM ON MORE THAN TWICE IN THREE YEARS.  I STOPPED WEARING THEM WHEN I WOULD BE WALKING LONG PERIODS OF TIME BECAUSE THEY WORE BLISTERS ON MY HEELS.

THEY WERE FINE THREE DAYS AGO.

I did find my top dresser drawer open a few days ago and the ceiling fan light on in my bedroom which I never do.

Don’t you see, these are the shoes B.H. at the VA wanted off me…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 2:17:19 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I like your shoes”, “won’t you let me have them”.

I heard it.

Don’t you see the message, they were my writing shoes, don’t you see the message, “you’ve cut my shoes all to hell”.

It’s the same freak using that damned mind control I’ve been digging out of all the crap that’s been in my mind.

It’s war now for sure.

These are the soles of the shoes…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 2:08:51 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I haven’t worn them more than 10 times and hardly at all in the past three or four years.  They have been on pavement and concrete, I hardly think they are dry rotted as someone said.

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I AM NOT GETTING OFF THE INTERNET…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 2:03:43 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

YOU SURE AS HELL WILL NOT SCARE ME AWAY FROM MY RIGHTS.

Now look what you damned bastards have done…

Saturday, May 26, 2012, 1:56:30 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

They cut open my favorite shoes.

These are Brown’s Landing Shoes, they’ve cut them open.  I had one of them on a few days ago and it fit fine, today I put them on to wear to the mall and this is what I found.  

I was planning to wear these to my nieces graduation.  I tried them on three days ago to see if I wanted to wear them.  They were fine.  Today I put them on to go to the mall and I noticed they felt awfully loose on my feet, when a few days ago they felt a little tight but they still fit.  I headed out the door with them on and went back in to the apartment to change my shirt because the colors clashed and as I was about to leave, I happened to turn my ankle to the side to check my shoes and it was split wide open.  I surely would have noticed they were split open when I had them on a few days ago and I checked them well to make sure they fit.  I just don’t know what’s happened.  They couldn’t have come apart by themselves in three days.

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I recollect seeing a film about a couple laying out wallpaper…

Friday, May 25, 2012, 3:17:53 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Albrecht Durer: The Shroud and Albrecht Durer…

…likely why I was unable to discover anything further about their histories and of course, it had to be cleaned up but I think this was the basis for whoever was behind the mass marketing of the TV and these ideas to robbed the whole of society of the smartest minds and best talents forcing the rest of society to become criminals creating criminal minds just to stay alive.  So somewhere during that history public education was permitted.  The majority of these talents and intellects did not even come from those in possession of them.   The film They Made Me a Criminal may have alluded to it.

Mutant Spider Monkey Pictures - Strange Mutant Spider Monkey Pics

Thursday, May 24, 2012, 2:01:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Mutant Spider Monkey Pictures - Strange Mutant Spider Monkey Pics

“Miss Gibbs I have to have this novel…”

Thursday, May 24, 2012, 3:02:45 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I hate it for you.

One of my favorite places to visit in Manteo…

Wednesday, May 23, 2012, 11:27:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The Island Art Gallery at the Christmas Shop - Spreading the Sparkle

For the best Bavarian beer this is the place to go…

Wednesday, May 23, 2012, 11:10:41 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Outer Banks Retail Beer Locations in Kitty Hawk, Nags Head, Corolla, Currituck

I happen to love this face the way it is…

Wednesday, May 23, 2012, 1:33:04 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Abcbodybuilding.com

Tuesday, May 22, 2012, 9:02:56 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Abcbodybuilding.com

13 week diet

Everybody’s doin’ a brand new dance now, come on baby do the locomotion…

Monday, May 21, 2012, 10:22:44 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…jump up, jump back…

If this is Hitler then he was definitely boosted into someone else’s racist attitude…

Monday, May 21, 2012, 2:11:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

File:Hitler 1914 1918.jpg - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

He looks like Mandrillus here:

Michael T is trying to hack passwords…

Monday, May 21, 2012, 1:06:21 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I have heard him numerous times.

Or it could be Blue Diamond Baby

I am so not interested in this training you have going on here…

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 11:12:13 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Some of Mirren’s things are in these books…

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 7:24:34 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Fifty Shades Darker: Book Two of the Fifty Shades Trilogy (50 Shades Trilogy) E L James: Books

My mother worked at Rose’s Department Store in 1965…

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 7:11:17 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

My stealing the wallet was probably some shop lifter or someone wanting their husband to buy their son a wallet.  She has been enmeshed with other people in all her meanderings around Portsmouth and Chesapeake.

SO I DON’T REALLY APPRECIATE U PEOPLE TRYING TO NAIL ME TO THE CROSS HERE.

This book has been invaluable to my understanding of what has been happening to me…

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 7:04:54 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Beyond the Brain: Birth, Death, and Transcendence in Psychotherapy - Stanislav Grof - Google Books

I am sure the first copy I purcahsed was in my car when it was stolen in Durham in 1996.  This is the second copy and may even be the one first copy I purchased, just like with my first copy of Crimes of Obedience and $1500 worth of property.\

See pages 202 and 274.

This is how I figured out what happened to Leonardo…

I was in BPM II when I wondered into The Print Shop after more than 30 days of being away from the mall.  It was as described in this book, how I was feeling (I never got around to reading this part of the book).  I had all but stopped eating.  I felt as if all the life had been drained from my body, like I was dead or near death.

I had connected this with a dream I had had sometime ago.  I was in the church, eating a biscuit and all of a sudden the floor opened up and I felt as if I were going to be swallowed up by it…maybe this what I depicted in my sketch only its origin was in a church and not a river or…

It never occurred to me it might have been an earthquake.  It never occurred to me it might have been a film, one of the Exorcist films although I only viewed the first one in 1974.  I have seen The Omen in the last few years and it could have been in there when I had the dream, I avoided these films because they were so frightening to me.

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Now I see GNC has been hooking people up to me along with a lot of other stores at the Mall…

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 5:51:00 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I am in no need of assistance from any book writers…

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 5:22:10 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

LEAVE ME ALONE.

I AM NOT HAPPY…

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 5:02:49 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Fifty Shades Darker: Book Two of the Fifty Shades Trilogy (50 Shades Trilogy) E L James: Books

Kate’s the one who got stuck in Leslie reading Atlas Shrugged…

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 5:00:04 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Fifty Shades Darker: Book Two of the Fifty Shades Trilogy (50 Shades Trilogy) E L James: Books

…she read the whole book.

Incoming…

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 4:36:09 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Scene:

Sitting in the coffee shop.  In comes Bob.  He asks to sit down.

“how are you”?

Blah, blah, blah.

“I am trying to write a book”.

“Oh, nice, I would be happy to read it for you”.

So this is the person who dragged me into the damned Bear Rock Cafe’ for over a year, exposing me to all that music.

Fifty Shades Darker: Book Two of the Fifty Shades Trilogy (50 Shades Trilogy) E L James: Books

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 4:26:48 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Amazon.com: Fifty Shades Darker: Book Two of the Fifty Shades Trilogy (50 Shades Trilogy) (9780345803498): E L James: Books

“Wanda…my beetle…”

And, apparently her birth perinatal matrix was contaminated with speculations about Jack the Ripper…

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 3:27:23 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…she is now trying to interject into my life.

I DO NOT CARE ABOUT JACK THE RIPPER.

See, this is part of my problem, permitting things to be interjected into my perinatal matrix…

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 3:18:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“…this woman’s life hangs in the balance”.

She doesn’t give a damn.  her people were starved to death in Russia.  Why should she care what happens to some Romanov descendant or anyone who cared about them, hmmmm?

Trying to win friends and influence them against the British. 

I see this is where my animosity against the crown came from.  This is why I have had to assume the position I have with regard to the truth.  I can no longer take sides.

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Incoming…

…then I feel guilty and responsible and pay the price because I have not developed enough ego or consciousness to defend my own little life.  Please stop.

Incoming…

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 3:10:06 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“…this woman’s life hangs in the balance”.

She doesn’t give a damn.  her people were starved to death in Russia.  Why should she care what happens to some Romanov descendant or anyone who cared about them, hmmmm?

Trying to win friends and influence them against the British. 

I see this is where my animosity against the crown came from.  This is why I have had to assume the position I have with regard to the truth.  I can no longer take sides.

See the Ritual Aspects of Psychodrama…

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 3:33:40 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The Drama Within: Psychodrama and Experiential Therapy - Tian Dayton - Google Books

Incoming…

Sunday, May 20, 2012, 3:24:00 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Kay stole these laptop computers”.

Wrong Kay was enmeshed with people using those laptop computers.  Nothing has been stolen.

You are not permitted to associate Kay or her story with that kind of false representation of the facts.

Kay’s skull

Saturday, May 19, 2012, 11:33:55 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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I love this…

Saturday, May 19, 2012, 11:05:45 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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INcoming…

Saturday, May 19, 2012, 5:03:24 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I sure hope you change your attitude”.

Not likely to happen in the next 50 years.

Kind of obsessed aren’t you, about my blog that is and my attitude.

FREE FREEDOM

WELL BASICALLY FREEDOM HAS ALL OF THESE MODERN CONSTRAINTS AND REGUlaTIONS AND RULES AND MEMES AND BURDENS.  IT ALL AFFECTS THE BRAIN AND IS NO LONGER FREEDOM.  for example, an iris, a beautiful flower to me is not always a flower to the brain.  the iris flower has now been associated with a soap opera character so when i look at an iris i do not get pleasant thoughts, i hear unpleasant conversations, thoughts i prefer not to entertain. 

Incoming…

Saturday, May 19, 2012, 2:19:06 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“whole lot of stem cells out there”.

You’d like me to believe that.

INcoming…

Friday, May 18, 2012, 7:07:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“she’s going to the mall”.

“We’ll pick it up here when you get back”.

I do hate you novelists with a passion.

I’m not playing those Wealth tapes and I sure as hell am serious about taking you to court for invading my privacy.

MOOCHERS.

Incoming…

Friday, May 18, 2012, 3:58:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I’m going to kill myself off from this novel”.

“It’s entirely up to you”.

Larsson, Girl with the Dragon Tattoo.

I told you that interviewer hypnotized Cher.

“We can bring another one up here for you to use”…

Friday, May 18, 2012, 3:53:29 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What is this?

You drew me here just so you could use me.  You’ve as much as admitted it. 

I guess you will likely call this a novel too.

I am not involved in this…

Friday, May 18, 2012, 3:43:09 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…at least not physically nor have I been informed this was being extracted from my psyche.  I am 150% sure now this is amongst the things I have been re-enacting.  It has been getting clearer.  Last night I viewed several relaxation videos and walking journey’s.  It must have triggered the title of the book.

Like I said I have been hearing, “let me finish my novel”, repeatedly and I have heard, “I hate these people”, “I hate this place”, repeatedly.   Maybe it is why I was riding my bicycle around the cemetery in Beaufort County in 1987 and why I now reside next to a duck pond.

Ms. Edith Pugh my have had the writer I don’t know.   

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Since 1987 I have been mixed up in this novel - have not read it…

Friday, May 18, 2012, 3:17:22 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Summer: a novel - Edith Wharton - Google Books

“Let me finish reading my novel”.

I have been hearing it constantly.

Don’t know who read it.

I am writing no novel, I am writing my history as I experienced it and as it likely relates to other history…

Friday, May 18, 2012, 2:36:16 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

only the truth can set you free.  If we expect to save the future, lying about the past will only compound the burden as I have already witnessed through my experiences.

Like I said, my Howard Leights…

Thursday, May 17, 2012, 4:41:39 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Look at this…

Thursday, May 17, 2012, 7:23:43 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…you call this helping?  I weighed 125 lbs when I arrived in Chapel Hill, NC.

See, how this works is they help us at the thrift store with cheap used clothes, the money goes to help their children at the schools go on trips.  I don’t have children. Then they help us socialize by getting us to go to the mall then to shop which supports them and their children in their jobs.  They us get fat by selling us this crap about high fat low protein.  Then we have to go and get  more clothes then they expect is to donate our old clothes back to the thrift store.  It becomes a vicious circle and the consumer ends up on the losing end. 

This image is brought to you by GNC.  Healthier?  This is me after six years of corporate crap about proteins, high fat, low carbs, vegetarian, this pill that pill, blah, blah, blah, exercise, buy this equipment your sure to lose weight, buy these bands you get fit, buy, buy, buy, buy, buy.  I AM TIRED OF SPENDING.  I now weigh 170.

I am far from ever being the only person this has happened to in America.

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Look at this…

Thursday, May 17, 2012, 7:20:19 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…you call this helping?

See, how this works is they help us at the thrift store with cheap used clothes, the money goes to help their children go on trips at the schools.  I don’t have children. Then they help us socialize by getting us to go to the mall then to shop which supports them and their children in their jobs.  They us get fat by selling us this crap about high fat low protein.  Then we have to go and get  more clothes then they expect is to donate our old clothes back to the thrift store.  It becomes a vicious circle and the consumer ends up on the losing end. 

This image is brought to you by GNC.  Healthier?  This is me after six years of corporate crap about proteins, high fat, low carbs, vegetarian, this pill that pill, blah, blah, blah, exercise, buy this equipment your sure to lose weight, buy these bands you get fit, buy, buy, buy, buy, buy.  I AM TIRED OF SPENDING. I am far from ever being the only person this has happened to in America.

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Save Kay’s Brain.

Thursday, May 17, 2012, 6:43:23 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I repeat, have no intentions of writing Queen Victoria’s story, nor have I ever…

Thursday, May 17, 2012, 1:41:04 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I don’t know where people are getting these ideas.

They are not my people.  My family came to America 200 years before Queen Victoria or Edward VII were even thought about.

These are the hottest slacks, would be great in black…

Thursday, May 17, 2012, 12:32:05 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Jennifer Lopez Soft Tapered Ankle Pants

Kay Gibbs is playing no music…

Wednesday, May 16, 2012, 11:03:34 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

She sold all of her rock and roll music.

My niece listen’s to hip-hop.

I went to University Mall and Stein Mart shopping.

Is it sleep walking?

Wednesday, May 16, 2012, 12:28:29 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…I was in Rose’s deciding to buy a pack of gum and some mints.  I recall saying to myself I did not like Mentos so I picked up a pack of Breathsavers to read the label and suddenly found myself starting to open them and take one out.  Then I heard someone say, “don’t open it Miss Gibbs”.  Then I sort of woke up and realized I had to go pay for them and walked to the check out.  I encountered an acquaintance at the mall just a day or so before this and he went to the same store and purchased a pack of Mentos, which he told me he was going to do, “I’m going to go to Rose’s and get some Mentos", then I’ll walk with you”.  I told him I was going somewhere else at the time so we never met up again.  He was trying to keep me from walking by myself at night.  The day I went to make the purchase he was not at the mall but likely sleeping.  We both had been lifted by two women at The Print Shop, clearly without deliberation, as they were working on a project at the desk, so we both were sort of locked into each.

I woke up when the person spoke to me mentally, not to open them, as I was unraveling the foil on the end of the package and there was a clerk who was looking at me and security cameras all around us.  I was totally surprised to find myself opening them before paying for them.  By the time I left the store it was clear to me I had been asleep before going to the mall and likely fell asleep again before I left.  I know I exchanged a print but it is all sort of vague in my memory.

I remember a few days before this I had fallen asleep or was separated from myself, during a conversation with the sales associate at the Print Shop about the print and could not recall what I was talking about.  It is clear to me now, I have been in many situations like this doing things I would not do under normal circumstances.  It is much the same problem I had when I was elevated by the Iranians in 1975.  I was not intoxicated at the time but had gotten intoxicated on the following weekend.

The day before the incident I walked past the PS going toward the east end of the mall.   A day or so later I ran into Tom and we walked pass the PS going toward the west end of the mall.  Tom was a bit intoxicated.  Several days later I ran into Tom again and he was going to Rose’s for the Mentos.  I was going toward the west end of the mall at that time.  He passed by the PS after I did.   The next day I went to the mall for some breath mints and gum, that’s when I had the sleepwalking like experience.  I did not hear any dialogue about coming to the mall.

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Did you hear me screaming?  I had a horrible nightmare two nights ago.  I woke up at about 4:00 AM screaming in my sleep.  This has happened before a few times.  I was somewhere very dark I could not see very well.   It felt like I was leaning against a car or something.  It felt like I was on the side of the road and I was looking at something on the side of the road.  Then a big man, seemed dark skinned, came up behind me and scared me.  He said, “funny I can see you but you can not see me”.   Then he tried to grab me and I got away and started screaming for help and running, then I woke up.  I thought it was one of the ladies at the PS.  Then I saw someone grab their car keys and get into the car…

Did you hear me screaming?

Wednesday, May 16, 2012, 12:21:56 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I had a horrible nightmare two nights ago.

I woke up at about 4:00 AM screaming in my sleep.  This has happened before a few times.  I was somewhere very dark I could not see very well.   It felt like I was leaning against a car or something.  It felt like I was on the side of the road and I was looking at something on the side of the road.  Then a big man, seemed dark skinned, came up behind me and scared me.  He said, “funny I can see you but you can not see me”.   Then he tried to grab me and I got away and started screaming for help and running, then I woke up.  I thought it was one of the ladies at the PS. 

Then I saw someone grab their car keys and get into the car…then I searched my memory banks to figure out where I was but I could not identify the place.  I could not see a face…Halloween or something like it, maybe Psycho or Someone Behind the Door.

Someone Behind the Door deals with similar issues as my previous post, minds being controlled by various means, often unintentionally.  We see the controlling Doctor talking to the amnesiac as if he were always in his presence but it is possible he could have been speaking to him and controlling his actions with his own thoughts 100 miles away.

The man I was walking with at the mall was intoxicated…

Tuesday, May 15, 2012, 11:44:31 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Neurolinguistic Programming: Evidence of my own sleepwalking…

…it is much the same problem I had when I was elevated by the Iranians in 1975.  I was not intoxicated at the time but had gotten intoxicated on the following weekend.

The day before the incident I walked past the PS going toward the east end of the mall.   A day or so later I ran into Tom and we walked pass the PS going toward the west end of the mall.  Tom was a bit intoxicated.  Several days later I ran into Tom again and he was going to Rose’s for the Mentos.  I was going toward the west end of the mall at that time.  He passed by the PS after I did.   The next day I went to the mall for some breath mints and gum, that’s when I had the sleepwalking like experience.  I did not hear any dialogue about coming to the mall.

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It is a self test to check your hearing…

Tuesday, May 15, 2012, 9:38:08 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Hold out both arms, and rub the fingers together and if you can hear the sound from your fingers rubbing together your hearing is generally ok.  Of course it does not replace a hearing test.

Kay Gibbs shops for products not baggage.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012, 6:26:15 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Here’s what they do to us…

Tuesday, May 15, 2012, 4:30:27 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

They plant half their minds on us, then they control us into looking the TV and or listen to music.  The TV helps keep them upright.  The only thing it does for us is brun up our brains.

That’s why they poisoned us with those films about sacrificing one’s self, just like in the Bible sacrificing first borns, it wasn’t because of Jesus it was because they needed them to keep them upright.

Kay Gibbs is not writing Queen Victoria’s story…

Tuesday, May 15, 2012, 4:17:21 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

No I do not want her baggage.

Incoming…

Monday, May 14, 2012, 10:38:03 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I’m gonna fry this bitches ass tonight”.

You already tried with that piano.  I saw Mr. Blood of the Saints passing through the mall.

Leprechaun Movie

Monday, May 14, 2012, 12:30:15 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I don’t think I’ve seen it all…

Corduroy cap I had, loved this hat…

Monday, May 14, 2012, 12:09:58 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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This is like the hat I used to wear in the late 60’s…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 11:52:06 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Mine was black with green, yellow and red patches with a matching scarf. 

Night Porter came to mind recently.

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I’ve detected What’s My Line too…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 11:33:42 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

This is one, someone bought it, I purchased De Silva mind tapes…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 11:16:54 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Amazon.com: Going My Way: Bing Crosby, Barry Fitzgerald, Leo McCarey: Amazon Instant Video

Have not seen this, have seen the previews…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 11:12:08 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Amazon.com: Ordinary People: Donald Sutherland, Mary Tyler Moore, Judd Hirsch, Timothy Hutton: Movies & TV

…pictures of bridge and bike path may be some of intro…

Euell ~ u-hall…Euell Gibbons…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 11:01:21 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

some construction…

Roman amphitheater

He certainly isn’t a Gibbon monkey.

This is likely what caused their violence…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 10:36:34 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Tyramine - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…I have taken 5HTP and it made me anxious and easily agitated.  It is in aged cheddar cheeses and is a stimulant.  I can only eat small amount.  I did grow up eating a lot of that aged cheddar cheese.

If working with someone who has used this I suggest taking something for the frontal lobes.

This is the Marina I know…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 9:56:19 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Kay's Commentary: There were some Paynes in Hyde County and my 3rd great grandmother Christianna Sewell…updating

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I did see the film Nuts, I do have it…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 9:47:07 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Hey C&S…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 9:46:12 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Shepherdesses – pulling down the gate ~ pulling down the map…

Juanita Young Miller – pulling down the map…

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I am ok…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 8:50:57 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

There was nothing major wrong with the head. 

Yes my amygdala is small and I tend to pop off more than most bigger people and you should never mess with people who are doing cocaine or crack no matter where you are.

I did stay in my cell most of the time.  You should have seen those women yelling and encouraging it…It was Caged too I think.  Everything’s cool.  Yep should have had some training.  Maybe I knew it upstairs just not conscious of it through the brain.

Love you too!   Robert.

Never seen it…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 8:43:07 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

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Someone pulled off a fencing mask…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 8:28:20 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

My friend Kathy Virginia Bumgardner took fencing lessons.  She spells her name with a D not a T.

I did view Highlander, Three Muskateers, and Zorro.

NEED I REMIND YOU ABOUT WHO’S BEEN DOING THE WORK…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 8:16:14 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Need I remind you…

IT CAME FROM OUR SYNAPSES IN OUR BRAINS AND INFORMATION IN OUR MINDS, NOT YOURS.  I THINK MY GRANDMOTHER’S AND AUNT’S PHOTOS SPEAK FOR THEMSELVES ABOUT WHAT YOU’VE DONE TO US WHILE YOU’VE BEEN PUMPING PILLS.  MY HISTORY IS DAMNED PROOF OF IT.

You protected me?????????-updated

Incoming - “I’ve been protecting that girl”. 

I’d hate to know what you call throwing one to the dogs.

Kay's Psychology: So you think you’ve been working your ass off…

Kay Frances Gibbs’ traumas, drug use and hospitalizations

1959-60 - three non-violent sexual molestations

1957 - Hurricane witnessed tree limb break through window

1963 - auto accident thrown into front seat of car

1964 - set fire to woods in back of house, I didn't turn 10 years old until November

1964 - beaten on back and legs leaving bleeding whelps and bruises on back and legs,

1964 - minor head injury, one stitch, hit with swing,

1965 - father tried to kill our canary

1965 - Hurricane

1965 - caught in crossfire between the KKK and NAACP in Middleton, NC, on our way back to VA

1967 - father became severely psychotic put butcher knife to mother's throat he was hearing monkeys in the trees in the backyard and tried to play music for them, he was hospitalized

1968 - concussive head injury (ran into playmate on school grounds, buried his teeth into my forehead, no neurological follow-up

1971 - father tried to kill our dog with a butcher knife

1973 - hit in face, broken nose

1974 - father’s suicide, I tried to commit suicide

1974 - auto accident

1974 - sexual assault in Army, lesbian enlisted woman

1975 - sexual assault in Army, African American MP Officer

1975 - kidnapped and assaulted while on leave from Army

1975 - auto accident

1978 -  auto accident

1989 -  tried to commit suicide

1990 -  assaulted by roommate Susan Becker

1990 -  arrested for damage to property took drug overdose, xanax

1990 -  assaulted in jail Pitt County by African inmate

1990 -  sent to prison

1991 -  arm slammed in cell door by staff nurse and guard, irreparable damage; under duress while incarcerated, took pen top and tried to slash my wrist on my left arm

1992 -  sexual assault, thanks to Susan Becker, by Ken Skinner, never prosecuted

1993 -  homeless until 1998

1993 -  threatened and assaulted by African inmate (Janice Hammond (history?), beat my head on cement floor

1995 -  tried to commit suicide drug overdose in motel room

1996 -  arrested for traffic violations had pistol put to my head (recall the lady in Florida who was pursued by State Patrol and pulled out of car) that's the way it happened.

1997 -  incarceration, was harassed and picked on, placed in segregation

2000 -  flooded out of apartment

2001 -  9/11 WTC attacks

Drugs Kay Frances Gibbs has taken...

A list of all the drugs and alcohol I have been given by doctors or taken on my own, since I was a child. I think I was acting-out a lot of other people's stuff, in fact my life has been nothing but acting-out other people's stuff.

1955 – 1961, Paregoric infancy to about 7 years old
1958 – present, Caffeine
1961 - Ether for tonsillectomy
1969-73 – Theophylline (Tea) childhood to present, heaviest use
1972-1990 - Nicotine
1972-2009 - Alcohol
1972 - Phenobarbital
1972 - Donnatal prescription, too much can also mimic paralysis and I now suspect this is what was causing my sleep paralysis.
1972 - Librax prescription
1973-79 - Marijuana
1974 - Morphine Beaufort Co, Emergency following auto accident
1974 - Ether Surgery
1974 - Speed (black beauties)
1974 - LSD ½ hit of Blue Micro dot. Was so fearful of the experience that I did not want to do it again.
1974 - Tuinol
1974 - Seconal
1974 - PCP
1974 - Acid again at ECU campus party, was intoxicated Did not experience hallucinations.
1975 - Dexedrine to lose weight after getting out of the Army
1975 - Hard Liquor
1975 - MDA
1976 - Plastidyl
1976 - Valium
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Drugs Kay Frances Gibbs took after I living with Beth and then Jean

1978 - Poppers (amyl nitrate) five times
1981 - Flexiril one or two
1979-1983 - No drugs or alcohol went to AA

1983 - One mixed drink

1984 - 4 beers and no more alcohol or drugs from 1984-1986.
1986 - L-Tyrosine over the counter for depression roughly 3 years stopped smoking
1987 - L-Tryptophan for sleep
1987 - Choline Bitartrate roughly 2 years
1987 - Tranxene two tablets for anxiety

1987 – Began using alcohol again
1988 - Ether surgery
1988 - Phenergan nausea following surgery
1989 - Alcohol half bottle of wine was attending Mental health At this time ended up becoming suicidal, hospitalized for three months
1989 - Restoril Pitt Psyche unit
1989 - L-Tryptophan Pitt Psyche unit
1989 - Atarax Pitt Psyche unit outbreak of hives (psychogenic) Demerol and Valium for Endoscopy

Drugs Kay Frances Gibbs took after moving in with Susan

1990 - Ativan person
1990 - Ativan prescription.
1990 - Theophylline sinus tabs 10,
1990 - Buspar Prescription 30,
1990 - Doxepin prescription,
1990 - Glutamic Acid unintentional overdose
1990 - Xanax overdose following overdose of glutamic acid
1990 - Doxepin prescription, forced meds
1991 - Mellaril prescription forced meds
1991 - Buspar prescription
1992 - Klonopin one
1992 - Alcohol one glass of wine
1993 - Alcohol two mixed drinks following sexual assault
1993 - Ether or ? Surgery
1993 - Effexor
1993 - Glutamic Acid
1993 - Alcohol 6 pack
1994 - Lithium carbonate 50mcgs over the counter, 50 tabs

1994 - L-Histidine, 500 mgs, 30 days

1994 - L-Cycteine – 500 mgs, 30 days
1994 - Elavil, two pills
1994 - L-Taurine, an Amino acid, 1000mgs per day, 30 days
1994 - L-Tyrosine, 1000mgs per day, 30 days
1994 - GABA, 500mgs per day 30 days
1994 - L-Methione, 500mgs 30 day supply
1994 - L-Arginine Pyroglutamate, 500mgs 30 tabs
1994 - Trazadone, during psychiatric hospitalization for sleep
1995 - Prozac prescription
1995 - Xanax in combination with prozac, this is a deadly combination
1995 - Ativan prescription, overdosed,
1995 - Choline chloride, took too much became ill administered
1995 - Compazine, for nausea
1996 - Alcohol, wine and beer
1996 - Klonopin prescription for complex partial seizure
1997 - DHEA 100mgs for four days
1997 - Dilantin
1997 - Amytriptylline for sleep
1997 - Ambien for sleep
1997 - Alcohol 4 beers
1997 - Ambien Prescription
1997 - Valproic Acid prescription
1997 - Lithium and Valium prescription
1997 - Dilantin 7 prescription
1998 - Alcohol
1998 - L-Threonine combined with the following three amino acids
1998 - L-Lysine
1998 - L-Taurine
1998 - MSM
1998 - Depakote prescription
1998 - Mellaril prescription
1998 - Thorazine from individual
1998 - Zyprexa sample
1998 - Seroquel sample
1998 - Ativan person
1999 – Prozac prescription
1999 - L-Taurine over the counter
1999 - Depakote prescription
2001 - Risperdal sample from Doctor

Kay Frances Gibbs’ Incarcerations

1977 - Ayden County Jail, Griffin, NC public drunkenness refusing to get into the car of an African Deputy.

1990 - Pitt County Jail, 15 days December 26, 1990 transferred to NCCIW, pre-sentence evaluation Trespassing/Damage to property

1991 - NCCIW 3 months returned to Pitt County Jail pending sentencing

1991 - Pitt County Jail, awaiting sentencing, appealed sentence to Superior Court, placed under $10,000 bond. Remained in jail 45 days, under duress, remanded appeal

1991 - May 12, violated probation, returned to Prison for 5 months

1994 - Wake County jail 55 days

1995 - Wake County jail, forgot court date, 4 months

1996 - NCCIW (mental health unit) safekeeper

1998 - FCCW 4 months psychiatric care (figure that one out) traffic violations

Kay Frances Gibbs’ Psychiatric Treatment History

1972 - Tideland Mental Health – acting out in class which consisted of me defending another student, by voluntarily leaving the class after it was clear she was being made a scapegoat for the rest of the students who were engaging in conversation…there was no violent act or violent confrontation, I simply left the classroom after the instructor threw the other student out for something half the classroom was guilty of at that time. I told him, “he should expel me and half the class from the room”. But I have since realized this was not the sole reason for the school psychologist suggesting that I be seen by someone at the Mental Health clinic. I had written a paper which my US History instructor claimed was an abomination, referring to statements I made about the non-existence of God. I further stated that “one could do anything one wanted to”, but I failed to carry the thought to its logical conclusion, in that I should have stated that, “if you are willing to accept the consequences”. I was not confronted about this, by one single instructor nor the counselor I saw at mental health. I do realize it is not the job of teachers to be parents as well. During my testing (to see if I was a genius I think) and counseling, television was never mentioned nor the consequences of viewing it on the brain and mind. Books were written, I am sure as the result of discovering what was in my head.

1973 - Tideland Mental Health

1973 - Campus psychiatrist after drug overdose

1980 - Wake County Alcohol Treatment Facility outpatient 8 months voluntary

1984 - Wake County Alcohol Treatment facility inpatient 3 days voluntary

1985 - Wake County Alcohol Treatment Facility in and outpatient 7 days, voluntary

1985 - Continued outpatient treatment for 1 year, sexual abuse issues Had to discontinue therapy after Blue Cross and Blue Shield claimed I was being treated for a pre-existing condition. As a result I regressed and went back to previous behaviors.

1987 - Tideland Mental Health - Therapy /Alcohol Treatment, Voluntary

1988 - Tideland Mental Health - Therapy

1988 - Pitt Memorial Hospital suicidal , voluntary

1989 - Cross Roads Psychiatric Facility, voluntary

1989 - ECU Outpatient Psychiatric 2 months, voluntary

1990 - Cherry Hospital - drug overdose 3 days, involuntary

1990 - North Carolina Correctional Institute for Women Mental Health involuntary

1991 - Cherry Hospital 6 days, involuntary

1992 - Nash General hearing voices admitted to Cross Creek Psychiatric facility, three days – prozac, voluntary

1993 - John Umstead 4 days, voluntary

1994 - VA Medical Center Salisbury – suicidal , involuntary VA medical Durham, voluntary

1995 - VA Medical Center Durham- multiple personalities, involuntary

1995 - John Umstead, voluntary

1996 - John Umstead 7 days, voluntary

1997 - John Umstead, voluntary

1998 - Cherry Hospital 2 weeks transferred to VA Medical Center,voluntary

1999 - Orange Person Chatham Mental

Places Kay Frances Gibbs Lived

1954-1961 Portsmouth, VA

1961-1967 Chesapeake, VA

1967-1973 Engelhard, NC

1973-1974 Greenville, NC

1974-1975 US Army

1975 June, Engelhard, home

1975 July, Engelhard, cabin

1975 September, East Carolina Univ

1975 October, Dickinson Ave, Roy Minton, Greenville

1975 December, Trailer, Greenville

1976 February, London Inn, Greenville

1976 April, trailer, Greenville

1977 April, Holly Street, Greenville

1977 August, Glendale Court Apts, Greenville

1979 Raleigh, NC, North Haven Apts

1980 Raleigh, NC, Loft Apartments

1981 Raleigh, NC, Hazelwood Dr

1982 Cary, NC, Circle Dr

1983 Raleigh, NC, Sunrise Ave

1983 Raleigh, NC, Cabarrus St

1984 Raleigh, Circle Ct

1985 Cary, NC

1985 Raleigh, NC, Sunrise Ave

1986 Engelhard, NC

1988 Washington, NC

1989 Greenville, NC, Country, Freestone Rd

1990 Greenville, NC, Country

1990 May, Engelhard, NC

1990 August, Greenville, NC

1991 October, Engelhard, NC

1991 November, Greenville, NC, homeless, hotels

1992 January, Goldsboro, NC, Waynesboro House

1992 March, homeless

1992 October, Raleigh, NC

1992 October, homeless, hotels

1993 January, Wake Forest, NC

1993 January, Raleigh, NC, homeless, hotels

1993 February, Raleigh, NC, Ark shelter

1993 March, Chapel Hill, NC, IFC Community shelter

1993 May, Chapel Hill, NC, Cobb Terrace

1993 June, homeless, hotels

1993 September, Raleigh, NC, Ark shelter

1994 January, Raleigh, NC, Woodburn Dr

1994 April, Raleigh, NC, Ark shelter

1994 May, Raleigh, NC, Jones Street

1994 June, Raleigh, NC, Salvation Army Shelter

1994 July, homeless, streets

1994 October, Raleigh, NC, Woodburn Ave

1994 November, Raleigh, NC, Ark shelter

1995 March, Engelhard, NC

1995 November, Greenville, NC, hotels

1995 December, Wilmington, NC, Salvation Army Shelter

1996 February, homeless

1996 June, Chapel Hill, NC, IFC Community Shelter

1996 July, homeless

1996 November, Engelhard, NC, Mattamuskeet Village

1997 February, Engelhard, NC, Golden Street

1997 April, Carrboro, NC

1998 January, Engelhard, NC, Golden St

1998 February, Engelhard, NC Mattamuskeet Village

1998 May, Engelhard, NC, 264

1998 June, homeless, lived in barn

1998 September, Carrboro, NC

1999 April, Engelhard, NC, motel

1999 May, Washington, NC, Options shelter

1999 June Carrboro, NC

1999 Chapel Hill, NC, my own place, 10 years and counting

Cars Kay Frances Gibbs Owned

1972-74 1967 Volkswagon Beetle

1974 1971 MGB GT hardtop blue

1974 1965 Mustang Convertible

1976 1975 Toyota Corolla

1977 Plymouth Fury III, Chevy Camaro

1978 Honda Prelude

1979 Dodge Truck

1981 Toyota Corolla GT

1982 Chevette

1982 Chevy Van

1984 No Vehicle

1985 Plymouth Belvedere

1986 Ford Escort Pony

1991 Toyota Corolla FX hatchback

1993-95 December, ‘93 to November of ’95, No Vehicle

1995 Ford Escort GT

1996- present no vehicle

Sylvester trying to kill the cat ~ Edgar Alan Poe’s The Black Cat…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 6:14:04 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I think someone must have been a Poe fan as I recall having a liking for his work eventually purchasing the entire collection of his works I personally never read much of, just paragraphs here and there.  I was in the midst of all this mental recovery regaining my knowledge of NLP when I made the decision to buy them, it certainly was a male whoever it was.

So it must have been his wife who became hysterical.

I hate the psychic realm…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 6:04:27 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I think this could have been connected to Durer and his vulture wing painting…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 6:03:41 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

1965 - father tried to kill our canary

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: You protected me?????????-updated

No this has nothing to do with Durer’s painting.  It’s likely the Birdman of Alcatraz film and or the cartoons, Tweety Bird.  I’ve always thought it was The Birdman I just wasn’t familiar with Frederick of Hohenstaufen, who is likely Aristotle.

I still have been unable to locate the paper I read online about it. It was a very informative paper.

One thing is for sure my mother’s romance novels haven’t contributed to violence despite my angst with them…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 5:59:35 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I know some Fishers in the business of writing….

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 5:40:53 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Need I remind you…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 5:32:35 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: You protected me?????????-updated

I don’t want Bach…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 5:29:09 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I am sure of one thing…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 5:27:41 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

It is these writers and historians who have driven people to more violence than anything innate within us.

I have been driven to more outbursts and rages while these people are trying to probe me than from anything, including what I’ve seen on TV.

I am not terpsichord…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 5:24:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…that was a name I chose for a log in…

So I don’t know why there is all this friggin’ harrassment about my blog…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 5:19:18 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

there is plenty of history to have to deal with.

I have used this term friggin’ and frickin’ frequently in the past not so much now…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 5:16:41 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Frigg - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I’ve certainly been seeing these eyes…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 5:09:09 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

File:Quanah Parker photo in Shamrock, TX IMG 6161.JPG - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

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So Mr. Meusebach is likely the Lombard instead of the Gibbses…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 4:55:52 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…he could have been one who loaded supplies onto the ships or came along I was unable to read the entire book and was unable to get a copy of it.

Bernabo looks like possibly an enmeshment of Cro magnon and  Neanderthal man. 

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“Some healing for ‘cleaners’…”

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 4:32:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The film The Blob and all the other euphemisms and sublimations derived from leeches sucking poison from the body has been woven into the psyche of the collective mind.  We are not “leeches”, insinuating we are sucking off the rest of society, nor do we have to be. 

It’s clear this was part of the poison we were pummeled with in order to keep us under the thumb of those with money.

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 4:22:50 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

John O. Meusebach - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

This tells me now that it was possibly the Comanche who were rubbing the dirt all over them probably part of some ritual…

My neighbor Pittman did have flaming red hair.  My Uncle Will also had a bottom lip like that of Meusebach’s in photo.

Not sure about this pic…

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I had already been to visit my aunt and uncle in Fredericksburg, VA..,

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 3:54:36 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Re: life working backwards and forwards…

…when this happened.  This lead me to think there had been enmeshments before we arrived home or even before we left the hospital.  This sounds overwhelming at first and is like the author said in Forest Gump, “Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know wht you’re gonna git”.   Of course armed with this kind of knowledge one could be sought after.  Don’t mean to sound negative but that is a reality.  Of course, if one knows quantum mechanics, one knows this is merely an inconvenience.

Now, clearing that from my thinking I have recognized the possibility Mr. Moesbach was nothing more than an enmeshment with some of my family or other British coming to America.  I do know we arrived here in the 1650’s and had stopped alone the Rhine River before setting sail across the Atlantic.  Is he Moses?  I haven’t really focused on that part of it nor have I even considered I was enmeshed with this man.  This is all just becoming conscious in my mind.

I am sure I have been prompted by those more learned than myself now about what has been going, via the mind.

If it was him, then I believe the Staples’ son would likely have gotten it.  I saw a man on Franklin Street one day who I believed to be Staples.  He was a teenager then and is likely in his mid to late 70’s.

It is possible my brother sister and I actually acted out some of that history again because of the reading of the Bible and so forth.  Of course he would have been a different kind of man then.  This could be the derivation of the kashrut and applied to sheep rather than cattle.

Treaty of Peace by John O. Meusbach and Comanches - Texas State Library and Archives Commission

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 3:32:11 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Treaty of Peace by John O. Meusbach and Comanches - Texas State Library and Archives Commission

Re: life working backwards and forwards…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 3:26:28 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Its the alpha and omega, the ending of one life and the beginning of another.  This is what I meant about history working in reverse of the direction we perceive as our lives moving forward. 

We can inherit lives that will takes us back to some point in which the history has never been sufficiently cleared.  This means even the most primitive today could experience that which occurred 1500 years ago with the first ape in the UK to the first primitive Indians in North America. 

This is why I felt my walking into the street with my mother’s hand bag and heels was something more than just what I had perceived in my brain.  If apoptosis is accurate, those cells may have been lost during my early development. 

Incoming…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 5:12:51 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

"I thought sure she’d cooperate ".

“I'm going grocery shopping.”

“I’m getting the hell out of Chapel Hill, I am fed up with these people.  I had a completely different opinion about this town.  I feel like a prisoner.

"stay here Miss Gibbs till I get this novel written”.

I’m leaving, I am tired of you people. 

"I just thought sure she would cooperate".

Now I am going grocery shopping.

“stay here Miss Gibbs”

Damn it I need to buy groceries. leave me alone .

I want to get this novel written.

There are 300 million people in America for you to get a damned novel from leave me alone.

“I want to your novel.”

“No leave me alone.”

“Who is Alexandra?”

“You are picking through my memories, my brains synapses, leave me alone “.

“I want to get this novel.”

I don't care what you do with your novel you're not going to get it here.

“I had it on good recommendation that you would be cooperative.”

Hmmm like a little robot huh?   That was before I figured out what you bastards were doing to me .

“Call it what you want”.

“That little bitch.”

“I am struggling to get this novel written. “

“I've been getting cussed out over here because of you people.”

“I'm sorry but I have to get this novel. “

Take it somewhere else.  You people disgust me.

“Clearly she has told you to leave her alone. “

this is not a novel this is a warning, a legal warning, stop.

“you don't even have this novel underway” 

“this novel needs to be written”. 

There are millions of pieces of crap out there already, why add another. “

“I will give you $3 million for your brain synapses.

No way.  I’m not wasting what's left my brain over you're stupid novel.

“She's already hit chapel hill up for it.“

I hit chapel hill up for nothing.  They offered me help, I accepted.  I didn’t know there was a game involved.

“are you in the music industry?”

No, not physically. I think I have some psychic connections. I think they use it to cook up novels.  At least that’s what my findings are at this time.

“I want to take you back to the prison - who is it?”

“I want to get this novel.”

LEAVE ME ALONE.

“Do you have any idea what constantly putting these people through these traumas is doing to them”?

“I guess re-enacting traumas are not good for them .

“No it is not at all”.

“I guess we didn't handle this bitch correctly.”

“Is it Shakespeare?”

“Is it Thomas Kyd?”

You are the biggest bunch of sadistic, self involved people I've ever met.  Get out , leave me alone, damn you. 

"then what happened?"

"I'm sorry I have to get my novel".

Get the hell out.  Do you know what involuntary servitude is?

"stay off those law sites”.

I don't take orders from you.

"one of my friends died this morning".

"I'm sorry but I have to get this novel written".

"you cannot drain the mind that way".

“Your draining her brain".  “Stop.” 

"get off that damn thing till I get this novel ."

“You are obviously causing a problem here, she said stop.”

"but I have mortgages to pay".

I don’t give a damn about your mortgages.

"you have to come off her”.

"not until we get this novel".

"we have been walking all over this bitch for years, now when I get in it she wants to do something about it ."

“Stupid fucking novel”.

"so you admit to taking advantage of her".

incoming…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 4:54:30 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“She’s going to suck my dick off”

“He sticks his member in her face”

She turns away, then he strikes her in the face.

“you know I been faithful to you”.

“Would that be Young’s Dirty Dicks”?

Could be I don’t know.

He’s not Kay Gibbs’ husband.

I guess you forgot about all of those Rawlings books and films you copped off me…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 4:41:50 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

You’re through.

Let’s see you netted 15 million dollars from Black Swan.  I can make connections to that film too.

I’ve been paying attention.  All those Sciam articles didn’t fool me.

“Who did this to your head”?

Neighbors down stairs in G-10 I think.

They have a picture of an African Woman walking with something flat on her head on the wall, I happened to see it one day while they were still moving in I think.  It stuck in my mind because I thought, uh oh, that’s a problem.  Then I knew I didn’t want to be mixed up with them.

“Do you think you are really connected to Imperial Beach”?

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 4:33:57 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I don’t know, maybe someone is trying to make me think that.

“Think locally”.

“What meds are you taking”?

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 4:30:22 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Kay Gibbs is getting no meds at all.

Melatonin, and glutamine on occasion.

“Miss Gibbs it would be a privilege to represent you with this novel”.

No thanks.

“There are people out here who are really starving.”

Where is out here?

If they can write novels they certainly can’t be starving.  They need to bum off someone else.  I don’t know how much clearer I need to make myself.

I guess you really do want me to take you to court.  I already have several cease and desist letters prepared.  It’s a simple procedure.

300 million people in America.  Remember that.  I hardly think you are going to starve.  Leave me alone.

Incoming…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 4:21:25 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I have some questions for you Ms. Gibbs”. 

“Were you breast fed as a child”?

According to my mother I was not.  According to my behavior I was not.  According to the size of my brain, I was not.

“Have you had an MRI on your brain”?

Yes I have, 1992.

“What were the finding at that time”.

The Doctor said everything looked normal. 

“Do you believe that”?

No.  I think the amount of glutamic acid I took caused some damage and it just wasn’t seen.

I feel like I have a lot of pressure on my brain right now, like there is a flat head on me or something.

“Would you please stop blogging”?

Why should I, so you can put money in your pocket for your mortgages?  Do you really think I believe you are writing a damned novel for me?

“You get the residuals”.

And how much do you get?  5 to 10 times more than I get in a year.  I don’t think I like that in fact I don’t want your damned residuals.  I think we should have a damned good ole fashioned book burning.

I recognize one of these people from Whole Foods.

How about we just burn your drugged up asses in a good ole fashioned courtroom full of good ole people you’ve abused.

You’d better leave me out of what ever you think Katherine Gibbs was involved in.  I get nothing from that woman.

“Kay Frances talk ‘em.”

Are you crazy?  I am not talking to these damned people.  You need a psychaitrist.  You don’t value your brain at all.

You’re 75, I am only 57,  and I’ve abused a lot more things that have caused damage to my brain that you have.

I don’t like them either.

“We are not welcome here at all”

You are right about that.

“Alright go ahead Ms. Mirinoff and get your novel”…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 3:58:25 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Do you know who that is”?

No I do not.  Sort of sounds like my mother.  I don’t subscribe to my mother’s stupidity.

I don’t want them bother me at all.

“Better get a lawyer Ms. Gibbs…”

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 3:53:59 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Oh, I’ll definitely be getting a lawyer and he won’t be a copyright lawyer either.

“we’ll be stopping that blog”.

Now you see what they are really like.

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 3:48:16 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Streams of conscious, that's all you've witnessed.

“I asked you to let me out of it”

You have to get your damned self out of it.

“God damn it Taylor”.

“Your novel’s…”

“Who made these recommendations”.

How the hell would I know that.

“Maybe it was Iran, what a joke”

Incoming…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 2:43:27 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I don’t know some old lady came to the door”.

“I don’t wanna fuck wiff ha”.

They’ve basically robbed me of the joyful things in my life and I have been stuck with the negative…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 1:41:44 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Because I have been accused of very many things I am not truly guilty of as far as intention goes and like I said, some novelists have already robbed me of content in my mind, films I have seen and likely pieces of my history.

What's In Kay's Mind 2

This was the whole ploy behind the television and getting people to project.  They’ve ruined decent happy people’s lives.

“Get her off there”.

You can copy my families voices all you want I’m not buying it anymore.

We can do this all night long.

Incoming…

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 1:32:57 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

You’re breaking my heart”.  “The National Enquirer can do better than this”.

Why don’t you take your story to them?

"Back to Mrs. Becker, Ms. Gibbs”.  “What else did she tell you”.

“She told me she had had an abortion”.

“How many times have you heard these confessions”?

Three or four times by different people.

“You’ve been made responsible again for these confessions have you not?”

Yes.  I’ve been terribly damaged by all of this baggage I have been unable to manage.

“You now have a criminal record do you not”?

Yes.  It has hurt me and embarrassed me.  These people walk off and write novels to cover up their wrong doing and I have had to go to prison while they get private psychiatric treatment and write novels.

“Why didn’t you ever consider writing a novel”?

Because my father didn’t believe in them and thought educational material was better for the mind.  After discovering the condition of my own mind I just couldn’t do it.

“Why are you doing this now”

Because I have been accused of very many things I am not truly guilty of as far as intention goes and like I said, some novelists have already robbed me of content in my mind, films I have seen and likely pieces of my history.

I also know they use emotionally vulnerable people like me to intimidate.  If anything happens to me there will be a public record.

“I will stop these people right now”

“Do you feel like someone is trying to kill you”?

Yes.

“I can’t pen my novel if this bitch doesn’t get off the fucking internet”.

“Who”.  “I think my mother wants me dead because I don’t have a child”.

“Who do you think that is Ms. Gibbs”?

I think some of it is Kay Francis the actress.  I think we are all acting out a lot of crap that hasn’t been cleaned up.  The law seems to think otherwise.

“Have you discovered any other reasons why you might want to make this public record”?

Yes, just now I realized that’s why Kay Francis made her diaries public record by having them donated to Wesleyan College in Connecticut.

“Have you read the diaries of Kay Francis?”

No I have not.

“Then how do you know these things”?

Reincarnation.

“Do you think all of these things came from Kay Francis”?

No I do not but I do know many people have confused me with her and have assumed I worked for Hollywood.

“I think someone’s been pumping this from my brain and writing it while I am asleep and they are now ticked off because I have pre-empted their game plan for some really hot novel.  I hear them all the time.

They are apparently desperate for a novel. I keep telling them to leave me alone.  I need mental rest.

“What other reasons have you found that lead you to think this way”.

The way my appearance changes all the time.  Often I look like a complete stranger to myself.

“Can you identify these people”?

Some of them.

“Who are these people?”

Some of them are local people, I hear voices that sound like my family but when I call them to verify things I have heard, they say they don’t know what I am talking about.  That frightens me.

“Your relationship is important to us”?

“Who is that”?

I don’t know but they surely don’t act like it the way they harass me.

“Have you broken the law in the past 10 years?”

No.

“That don’t make no difference to me”

You just want me dead don’t you?

“Yes”.

“Who is it”?

Sounds like a munchkin to me.

“What do they want”?

I’m not sure, my soul, revenge I don’t know.

“What movie would that be”?

That’s where I have a problem with you people.  Anything real is a movie or a damned novel to you.  You try to keep people from seeing reality.  I’d like to see you on my end of this deal.

“It is likely Invasion of the Body Snatchers.”, or something like it.

People die because people rob their souls not their bodies.

“I’m gettin outta this bitches shit here, she’s talkin shit I don’t wanna know”.

That’s why people want me to lose my halo, they want me to fall so they feel better about screwing me up, using me and taking my property.

“The older you get the worse it gets”.

What’s that?

“Voices.”

“Do you recognize that voice now”?

Sounds like Ms. Staples.  Sounds like an old Mirinoff.

“you need to be in a hospital”.

There’s another problem.  This jerk is trying to get me to go to the hospital in my mind so he can milk some more off me.  Isn’t this involuntary servitude?

“Yes definitely”.

I WANT IT STOPPED.

As far as I am concerned Katherine Gibbs owes Hollywood nothing.  She earned her salary and they made plenty off of her.  Leave her alone.

Incoming…updating

Sunday, May 13, 2012, 12:14:33 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I can’t believe it, my career’s it’s ruined.”

“My life is falling apart”.

“Where’s the elevator”?

“I’ll get you out of it”?

“That little bitch, she tried to dump it off on Miss Gibbs”.

“You promised me a novel”.

“I don’t want this thing to look like a piece of trash”.

“There’s been harm here”.  Two people are having an argument.

“I’ll be discreet”.

“What’s that”?

I don’t know.

“Do you recognize some of that dialogue”?

Yes, the film Suspect.  Anderson was writing and his spokesperson said, “I’m not sure”.

“Have you seen a therapist”?

Yes, three of them.  I have also seen a psychiatrist.  I was seen by at least 4 psychiatrists while in prison in 1991.

“Tell us what they said”.

They didn’t really say anything they asked questions.  Kathy Russell made a lot of remarks in her report insinuating I was criminally insane and needed to be returned to the prison for inpatient treatment.  Dr. Sellers said I was basically fine and didn’t need further treatment.  Dr. Sellers looked like my Uncle in one of his pictures.  Dr. Griggs tried to dump the DSM IV on me I think.  His report stated I was anti-social, schizophrenic, delusional, borderline personality disordered, depressed, and something else I think.

“Are you looking at that report now”?

No I am not.

“You do have them”?

Yes I have copies.

“Who did Mr. Sellers look like”?

“Didn’t he look like Ms. Schrum’s husband”.

I don’t know Ms. Schrum’s husband.  I don’t know anything about Ms. Schrum.  Prison was the first time I had seen her.

“I’m trying to get my boy’s novel out of it”.

“Who is that”?

I don’t know.

“Continue about Dr. Sellers”.

His presence seemed more calm and investigative.  Ms. Russell seemed aggressive.  Dr. Griggs was down right nasty to me and made a hateful remark, “people like you”.

“Why were you in prison”.

Several counts of damage to property and second degree trespassing.  I was sent there for a pre-sentencing evaluation.  I damaged property in Susan Becker’s home where I lived, after a huge disagreement.  She attacked me, flailing her hands about striking me on both sides of my neck.  I pushed her away with my foot and left.  I went to the police department.  I didn’t want any further trouble.

“How did you damage her property”?

I returned to get my property.  She was not there.  I still had a key.  I went in and in the process of gathering my things I just sort of exploded.  I tore up everything in her room where we were sleeping together.  I then took a pipe and beat a hole in her bedroom door.

“Thank you Ms. Gibbs that will be all”.

“How did you plea in this case”?

At first I pled not guilty because I felt I had been subjected to Susan’s condition and her rage over a previous relationship that ended in a similar manner.   A lawyer was appointed for me who I felt was more interested in hooking up with Mrs. Becker than with helping me.  Her cousin represented her and he was an attorney in that town.  I felt like I was being abused.  Once I saw the judge was going to entertain their little game I decided to change my plea to nolo contendre.  I did not deny doing the damage when they presented photographs.  The DA agreed to dismiss all of the charges of damage to property but one and one trespassing charge.

“Didn’t Mrs. Becker tell you she had been assaulted by her Uncle in the Doctor’s Office”?

Yes.

“You stated you had had a surgery in 1988 to remove a lump in your breast”.

That’s correct.

“Were you anesthetized”. 

Yes.  They had some problems getting the needle in my arm, they finally stuck it in the top of my hand.  It was during the time I was coming too from the anesthesia I started feeling really angry and I couldn’t explain it.  It was later I felt like the doctor had done something to me while I was anesthetized.

“How did you get mixed up with Mrs. Becker”. 

I didn’t know at the time she told me what had happened to her.  Now I see it was likely at the Mouse Trap in Raleigh, NC in 1985. 

“Did you frequent the Mouse Trap”.

Yes alone a few times, but with Jean most of the time.

“You were living with a woman'”?

Yes for three years.

“Cut her off”.

“We are sorry this blog is now going to be blocked”.

“You stated Mrs. Becker worked for the Employment Security Commission”.

Yes, she said she had worked there.  I can not say for sure she did.

“You had an occasion to know someone else who worked at the Employment Security Commission.”  “Who was that”?

CW.

“How did you know CW”.

Through AA for about 8 to 10 years.

“CW confessed something to you, what was it”?

He told me one afternoon after we had gotten to my house from work that he was a pedophile.  He said he needed to tell someone.  He said he couldn’t confess it to a therapist.  I had long forgotten my own childhood molestations and I began having all kinds of panic attacks.  I admitted myself into the treatment facility to prevent drinking again.  After getting out I had a panic attack and a period in which I was agoraphobic.

“I”m sorry I just can’t see Mirinoff’s novel…”

This is not Mirinoff’s novel.

“Have you had an occasion to be in a court room before Miss Gibbs”?

Yes quite a few times since 1990.

“How many times before 1990”?

None that I recollect.

“This is a girl with a juvenile mind”.

“You are familiar with court recorders and court reporters”.

Yes I used to work for a court reporting service.

“You had to be bonded didn’t you”?

Yes.

“You also are familiar with court records and you also proof read numerous records, correct”?

Yes.

“Do you recall any of those cases”?

No I do not.

“How is it you are able to recall what CW said to you”.

I didn’t know the answer to that before I read a book on PTSD in about 1995 or so.  It is because of my own traumas which became entangled in CW’s confession which caused me to be able to recall what he said and I thought it was a bad thing so to speak for lack of a better word.  I was shocked when he told me as I had him pegged as just an after work, weekend boozer at the bar for a few hours

“Do you think this blog is like a court recording record”?

I don’t think it is much different than having a trial only there is no judge sitting on a bench.  The public has access to court recording’s I believe.  I have a copy of my own court case from 1997.  All I had to do was pay for a copy.

“Did you know writers were able to obtain those kinds of records”?

No I did not.  I guess they can though.

“I better not hear anymore coming outch your mouf”

“Who’s that”?

I don’t know.  Pam maybe.

Yes.

________

Yes, a lot.

“Is it possible CW confessed someone else’s problem”?

Yes it is entirely possible.  You know stuff rains down from higher up.

“You believe I am innocent don’t you”?

I don’t know I cannot say.

“Who was that”?

Mirinoff.

“Is Ms. Becker a married woman”?

I don’t know about now, she was divorced when I met her.

“Was Jean married”?

No.

“What’s the real reason you have been blogging all this very personal stuff”?

I discovered I was being ripped off by writers and I figured the only way I would stand a chance of defending my rights and proving anything about my story at all would be to make it public before or while they were trying to rip me off.

“Do you know who is asking you these questions”?

No, I do know they are not coming from me.  Could be the law for all I know.

“Do you recognize that voice”?

Sounds like Elizabeth II to me.  Could be Ms. Waters who wrote Millbank Prison.

“How right you are”.

That sounds like Mirren.

Incoming…

Saturday, May 12, 2012, 10:24:08 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

No I do not.  I know of a Ms. Schrum who claimed to be a social worker at NCCIW.  On my way out to the courtyard for our daily 20 minutes we passed her going in the opposite direction.  She asked me where I was going and I said “out to smoke”.  I heard her reply, “yes do smoke”, with her mind I understand now to be a transference.  I know exactly where she was when she said it.

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“have you talked to anyone about Ms. Schrum”?

Yes I have.  I told Moreen Showers what she said to me.  I believe she did speak to me with her voice rather than her mind.  I was shocked that she would tell someone to smoke.  It was as if she were saying, kill yourself, to me.

“Jumping jupiter”.

“Do you know who that is”?

No I do not.

_________________

“What’s happening with this blog Miss Gibbs”

It’s like someone is trying to erase my memories of things that have happened so I cannot remember them just like I am unable to recall details of some films I have seen. 

“I’m a gentle woman”.

“Do you know who that would be”?

I’m not sure.  I have seen several therapists since I’ve at my present address.  I have felt I was being impeded from pursuing my case against the State for injury to my arm while I was in prison.

“Tell us what they said”.

They didn’t really say anything they asked questions.  Kathy Russell made a lot of remarks in her report insinuating I was criminally insane and needed to be returned to the prison for inpatient treatment.  Dr. Sellers said I was basically fine and didn’t need further treatment.  Dr. Sellers looked like my Uncle in one of his pictures.  Dr. Grigg tried to dump the DSM IV on me I think.  His report stated I was anti-social, schizophrenic, delusional, borderline personality disordered, depressed, and something else I think.

“Are you looking at that report now”?

No I am not.

“You do have them”?

Yes I have copies.

“Didn’t he look like Ms. Schrum’s husband”.

I don’t know Ms. Schrum’s husband.

“Get her off that blog”.

“Forget it she won’t do it”.

Incoming…

Saturday, May 12, 2012, 7:12:36 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“If you open your mouth while I am trying to get this novel I swear to god I am going to, beat your ass”.

“Get off’n it”.

“Get her off’n it”

“Get her off there”.

Incoming…

Saturday, May 12, 2012, 7:10:38 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I am seeing a man put his hand on someone’s face and push them away saying, “get over there and sit down”.

You’re upsetting the apple cart”.

“Now wipe him off”, seems to be referring to his male member”.

“Do you know Paul Schrum”? 

No I do not.  I know of a Ms. Schrum who claimed to be a social worker at NCCIW.  On my way out to the courtyard for our daily 20 minutes we passed her going in the opposite direction.  She asked me where I was going and I said “out to smoke”.  I heard her reply, “yes do smoke”, with her mind I understand now to be a transference.  I know exactly where she was when she said it.

“Were you smoking”.

No I was not smoking at the time and had not smoked since September of 1986.  I had just moved to my hometown after being laid off from Data General in Apex where I had been employed for 6 months after being laid off from ITT.

“That will be all”.

STOP.  I TOLD YOU FILM MAKERS TO STOP.

“Just answer the questions”.  “I am not a film maker”.

“I have been collecting information on Miss Gibbs for more than 30 years.”

“Do you know who that is”.

No I do not.

“Do you know Paul Schrum”?

“I don’t give a damn I’m going to get my novel”.

No I have no knowledge of a Paul Schrum.  I did look it up on the internet just a few minutes ago and discovered a Paul Schrum listed on IMDb.  It states he is an actor.

“Have you ever seen his movies”? 

Not to my knowledge I would have to read a list of his films.

“Now do you recognize him”. 

Someone hand’s me a piece of paper.

Not really I have seen Terminator 2, Gimme a Break, and I have seen old tin posters of the Coca Cola Santa Claus.  I have not seen Hulk.  I would not know him if he stood in front of me.  I would have to view a clip from Terminator 2 to be able to recollect what he looks like.  I don’t even recall the character he played.

“You mentioned you took your cousin’s shotgun”.  “Do you think it came from this film”.

I cannot say for sure.

“But you have seen this film”?

Yes I have seen 2 or 3 of the Terminator films I believe.  Yes, I have definitely seen Terminator 2.

'”I order you to stop blogging this stuff”.

“Do you feel like you are being battered Miss Gibbs”.

Yes I do, I have felt this many times and even mentioned it before.  I feel I am being battered by film makers, novelists, and anybody who feels the inclination to pick through my mind at their own leisure.  I’m being forced to think one way about a matter and then another with total disregard for my own personal feelings.  I am being forced to submit to people deliberately making me angry and I have now deduced they are doing this to create energy so actors and actresses can perform their various feats and behaviors at no cost to them emotionally.

“Did you smoke”.

No, I was angered by what I heard and decided I would not.

“Get over there and sit down”. “Do you know who made that statement”?

No I do not.  Sort of sounds like my Aunt Wanda.  She’s never hit anyone or pushed anyone.

“Do you know why you started this dialoguing on this blog”

I was not conscious of it until just now, it would be the film Suspect.

“What character would you be like in that film”?

It would be Liam Neeson’s character.  He was a deaf mute, a Vietnam vet. 

“Did you identify with him?”

I’m not sure I felt a great deal of compassion for him, he was being framed and abused –“

“He was being a scapegoat wasn’t he”?

Yes. 

“And you stated you had walked out of your high school English class because one of your classmates was being made a scapegoat”?

That is correct, I walked out and sat on the bleachers until class was over.  

“You mentioned in your commentary the criminal laws regarding sexual assault should be changed”.  “Can you explain that”?

Yes, I was assaulted by a lesbian enlisted woman in the Army.

“Does it make you angry Miss Gibbs”?

Very angry.

“Can you explain your assault”.

Yes, I had been there for only a week when MF busted into the latrine, grabbing me between my legs and then grabbed my hand and put it between her legs.  A week later, while I was on CQ duty, she came into the duty station.  She was suppose to be asleep.  It shocked me when she came in.  She gave me a bottle of Southern Comfort liquor, a pint and told me to drink some.  I did drink some I was stressed after she came because of her actions toward me before this night.

“What does that sound like to you”?

Now, now that my mind is clearer and I am more knowledgeable, it sounds like when I was a little girl and my mother was checking my diapers or something.  She did give me paregoric as a child. 

“Isn’t this what you call, acting out behavior”?

Yes. 

“Who was the parent in this case”?

MF.

“You were a little girl mentally”?

I don’t know, I guess.

“Ms. Gibbs are you gay”?

I care about my parents.

“Just answer the question”.

I don’t know, I don’t like things about either of my parents.

“Thank you that will be all”.

“Ms. Gibbs what else do you recognize going on right now”?

Mr. Levinsky’s talking to his client Claudia Draper, he brought her some of her personal things and she got upset because he went into her things without permission. 

“Do you like Mr. Levinsky”?

I don’t think he should have gone into her property without asking but I do like him he is one of the good guys.

“What do you think about Claudia Draper”.

I think she was lying about liking her means of supporting herself.  I don’t think any woman who is involved in it truly likes it.

“What is it”?

Prostitution.

“What else do you think about Claudia”?

I think she wanted to kill her father.  I think she hadn’t gotten over her childhood molestation.  I think she was acting out.  I think she was smart not to let them make her think she was criminally insane and stuff her into some hospital where she’d likely really go insane.

“Do you think she was acting out to spite her parents”?

I had not thought of that but yes I can see now that that might be what she was doing.

_______________________________________

“State rests.”

“This competency hearing is now over”.

____________________________________

“Now what do you see Miss Gibbs”.

The Judge has tapped his hammer and concluded the preliminary hearing for Claudia Draper’s competency hearing.

“Have you ever been a prostitute Miss Gibbs”.  “Yes or no”?

No I have not.

“Was Ms. Draper portrayed as one who frequented films or as a television viewer”?

No she was not.

_____________________________________

“What else have you seen Miss Gibbs”?

“I’ve seen something spinning around on something long, could be like a woman dancing around a pole.

“What else have you see”?

I’ve seen someone who looks like Richard Dreyfus put something in a brief case very anxiously.

“What did he say”?

“I we’re wrecking our own selves with this one.”

INcoming…

Saturday, May 12, 2012, 3:20:26 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I’ll be keeping your rotten dam ass off that blog”.

Not likely to happen unless I decide that for myself.

“This woman’s asleep now”.

I have seen the Mirren version of this film…

Saturday, May 12, 2012, 1:06:18 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

The Roman Spring of Mrs. Stone - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I don’t know if it was in there so it is hard for me to verify that is some of the things I found were from Bessie Love but there has been information reported to me to that effect.

Incoming…

Friday, May 11, 2012, 5:54:58 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I told her to give it to us”.

I see your modus operandi clearly HM.

You’re jeopardizing your career, Ms.”

“I don’t give a shit”

“..., now you will do as I tell you”.

I am never going to help you write a novel so stop asking…

Friday, May 11, 2012, 7:32:54 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Leave me alone.

Incoming…

Friday, May 11, 2012, 6:20:42 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

"Miss Gibbs it’s easy to get mixed up with those people”.

I never heard that or recall anyone saying it to me, but apparently I received the message as I started separating myself even from AA.

Kay Gibbs is no lyricist, I have never written music…

Friday, May 11, 2012, 4:53:43 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

…Kay Gibbs may have authored some music.

“Do you really believe you are an introvert?”

No I don’t truly believe that, I believe I have a degree of introversion but I think it’s more because of my history than because of my true nature.  I think we all have a degree of introversion or introspection.

“Ms. Gibbs are you being looked after by the Halls”.

Not to my knowledge.  I don’t care to be a kept person, independence is a strong trait in my family on both sides.  I come from a family with a strong work ethic.  All of my family I have knowledge of have always been employed.

I was determined to be mentally ill while in prison.  I think some people I am connected to are trying to make excuses for milking my mind.

“What do you find to be the cause of your mental illness”. 

My personal family history, television, my mother listened to soaps on the radio when I was a child and I have clear recollection of her listening to the Lone Ranger.  She also viewed soaps on TV.  I didn’t think her to be any different than any other American homemaker in the 60’s raising children.

“What made you feel introverted”?

My father beat me.

“why did your father beat you”?

Where is this going?

Just answer the question.

Because I think he told me to get off the boat I was playing on but I did not hear him.  The second time he told me he came and got me and beat me.  That’s what I put together about it.  I was unable to think much after that.  I read books, the encyclopedias and the dictionary.

“Do you recognize this belt”?

I see it but I cannot tell you what it looks like.

“Do you think your situation you described above which you now possibly relate to Ms. Little has anything to do with the news”?

I am not sure.  It is totally possible it could be history that has never been recorded.

“Who is Larry Weston”?

He was the Deputy in my hometown.

“Is he African”?

Yes he is.

Is he related to you?

Not to my knowledge.  He does not look like my mother her, her mother or my grandfather.  He might look like the Gaskills I don’t know I don’t know them, I’ve never met any of them.  He does look like Woodard a bit.

“Did you graduate with Larry Weston”?

No I did not.  He is older than me.

“Explain a phone call you heard after your mother was married”.

I spent the night at my mother’s shortly after she was married the third time.  She received a phone call.  Someone asked her if she had a son and I distinctly heard her say she did not.  I know I have a brother, as I grew up with him but it started making me doubt my own mind, it made me feel crazy.

“Is your mother alive Ms. Gibbs”?

I don’t know, I’ve heard she was dead numerous times. All of my grandparents are dead.  My mother could be a fraud for all I know.  After discovering how my appearance has changed I’ve begun to wonder if people really could stealth themselves so much they were not recognizable.  I have thought that and I have had thoughts someone had killed my family off and I was the only one left and they were after me now.  I thought it because of these physical changes I’ve witnessed. 

“Do you see dead people, Ms. Gibbs”.

Definitely.  Someone told me this was because of my nature, what ever that means, physiology or what I don’t know.

“You are paranoid Ms. Gibbs”.

No, I’m not or have not been paranoid since discovering the truth about The Exorcist

“What do you think is causing this paranoia?”

I think my paranoia is likely caused by something I have seen on the television.  When I was viewing movies I preferred Science Fiction.  I have always preferred them over other types of programming.  They seemed smarter than other things I viewed.

“I’m pregnant Ms. Gibbs”.  Didn’t sound like my sister.

“Who was that”?

I have no idea. 

“Do you think you can be possessed’.

Of course.  I have come to terms with that.  I would have preferred  that my parents had explained that to me or some other knowledgeable person.  I did ask questions but my parents usually told me to look things up or find the answer in a book.

INcoming…

Friday, May 11, 2012, 1:20:21 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“son of a bitch I will never get this damned novel”.

“Now I recognize the voice”…

Friday, May 11, 2012, 1:08:56 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Mr. White.

Incoming…

Friday, May 11, 2012, 12:57:11 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Your father’s nothing but a drunkard”.

I beg your pardon?

INcoming…

Friday, May 11, 2012, 12:33:01 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I’m tired of these people”, “I am fucking tired of these people”.

The face in the scenes…

Friday, May 11, 2012, 12:21:38 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Here’s what the face looked like.  Of course younger than this one.

I think he was in my things when I was a little girl.  I think that’s where he got one of his films about the woman who was hit by a car.

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“Your daughter is dead”…

Friday, May 11, 2012, 12:05:38 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“My daughter is not dead”

I heard someone tell my mother this.

I called her on the phone a day ago and spoke to her.  She sounded childish too.

“Who is that voice Miss Gibbs”?

Friday, May 11, 2012, 12:03:48 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Well I thought it was Elizabeth II but I didn’t think she would be talking to me or even connected to me, then I thought it was her daughter Princess Anne.

It sounds like an older person at times too, the voice.

Early interceptions…updating

Thursday, May 10, 2012, 11:58:13 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Re:  “Are you writing a novel”?

No Kay Gibbs is not writing a novel.

“Perhaps it is you Ms. Mirinioff, trying to write a novel”.

“perhaps it is”.

“Can you show me the person who’s voice you recognize”?

Yes I can.

“Would you do that please”?

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“Is it yourself Ms. Mirinoff”.  “Yes that’s exactly who it is”.  “you’ve been priviledged haven’t you”?  “In a manner of speaking.”

The person speaks a little differently that Mirren, has a bit of an over bite I can tell.  Sounds more like a child.  I’ve heard it a lot.

Yes, if I can.  There are two films, they are both Mirren films, one is The Roman Spring of Mrs. Stone and the other is Mosquito Coast.  It will take a few minutes.   He also looks like the character in a Donald Sutherland film.  Kind of reminds me of my landlord.  I saw a woman in Southern Season who looked like it too.  I think its why I viewed all those Mirren films, someone was hot for her.

I cannot find the scene in Mosquito Coast, it is in a scene when they are on the raft and Ford had been shot and she is holding on to the raft while it is being thrown about.  She doesn’t look like herself.  The same thing goes for Roman Spring of Mrs. Stone.  Oh yes it looked like the person in the scene when Chase is talking to Elizabeth in the kitchen after Richard confronts her about their relationship.

“It’s me Kay”.

I don’t know who me is.

“I promise you it will be the greatest novel written”.

I don’t care.  I said no.

“Why don’t you give it to’ em Helen”?

“Are you serious”?  “After what we went through trying to film that god damn thing”?

Hmmm, they get paid to suffer, oh play, while I get run to the ground,locked up and labeled CRIMINAL.

“I told you to bring your stupid ass over here”.

I DIDN”T WANT TO BE AN ACTRESS I”VE HAVE SAID THIS REPEATEDLY OVER AND OVER 1000 TIMES>

GUESS WHAT I HEARD PLAYING AT THE MALL BEFORE I LEFT.

DOBIE GRAY – I’M BEGINNING TO THINK  I’M WASTING TIME.  I DON’T UNDERSTAND THE THINGS I DO, THE WORLD OUTSIDE LOOKS SO UNKIND…GIVE ME THE BEAT BOYS AND FREE MY SOUL, I WANNA GET LOST IN YOUR ROCK AND ROLL AND DRIFT AWAY.

Incoming…

Thursday, May 10, 2012, 11:50:29 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I’m sure a bullet will go through your front door”.

I doubt it.

“Get her of that god damn blog”.

“There are people watching this blog”.

Now you want to buy this story.

“Why did you do it Mirinoff”?

“I do not believe this country is evil”.

“I’m sorry but I do”.

“Are you in music”?

Thursday, May 10, 2012, 11:07:11 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

NO I AM NOT IN MUSIC.  I play no instruments and do not sing professionally I occasionally sing at home in private.  I am not a performer.

I get no damned residuals I don’t knwo who told you that.

I get disability benefits from Pennsylvania, probably the Halls.

“Jumping jupiter”…

Thursday, May 10, 2012, 10:54:50 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Is that River Phoenix”?

“You bet your ass it is”.

“He died from a cocaine overdose”.

Kay Gibbs has never used cocaine.  I tasted it once in 1994 but that wasn’t enough to write home about.

“let her go”…I keep hearing it.

Incoming…

Thursday, May 10, 2012, 10:13:29 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Ms. Gibbs that speech software has been disabled.  I have to get my novel out of it.”

That’s interesting.  You entered my premises without my knowledge or consent.

“I want $50.00 Miss Kay”.

Not giving you $50.00.

“Hold on here comes Ms. Mirinoff…”

Thursday, May 10, 2012, 7:45:56 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I need to get something to eat”.

“I’m warning you what you are about to tell could wreak havoc on your career”.

I DON’T HAVE A DAMNED CAREER.

“Need I remind you you are under oath”.

“You are dealing with some powerful people here”.  “They are not to be toyed with”.

I believe in truth and I believe the truth speaks for itself.  I have no fear of the truth and since my involvement in Alcoholic Anonymous I know it is the only way I can stay sober.

“Have you had any alcohol since Christmas”?

No I have not.  I had two sips of beer at Christmas and poured the rest out.  My sister got ticked about it, I wasn’t thinking, I just poured it out.

More Q &A…

Thursday, May 10, 2012, 7:35:59 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“What films did you find about you and Susan”

I found Scorned and Mumford for starters.

“Did you write those”.

I have written no novels.  I deduced Susan had written them as she brought a typewriter into my room and put it on a card table before we had the blowout. 

“Did you author them”?

I cannot say for sure as I think Susan wrote them and they were based on our experiences and some of her own with another person with whom I resided in  October 1992 until November 1992.  Unlawful Entry would be the film about my going into her home to retrieve my property but it was not unlawful as I still had the key to the house and had not been asked for it.  I left while she was away and only returned to get my things.

Again as I understand cleaning, I think she was doing this and got me involved in what she was doing – in the acting out of a lot things that someone didn’t want publicized.  That’s what I think about it now.

“Are you making this up”.

All I have stated is the truth, these are the things that have happened to me and they are dramatized in these films and written about in these books.  Who is going to go digging through a mass of books of films for evidence?  Hardly no one.

“have you experienced these things”?

Yes all of them, even the wrist cutting myself in 1973 while in college.

Incoming…

Thursday, May 10, 2012, 7:17:00 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Your sister’s asked us to represent you”.

That is a lie.  My sister only learned recently we had a psychic connection.

I assure you I speak for myself and I you have not been contacted by me.

I assure you she will hire an attorney if necessary.

“are you a cleaner”.

I have no connections to Hollywood and I have never been to California and I have never been on a Hollywood payroll.

“Has Ms. Becker been to Hollywood”?

Yes she went to Davis University in California.  That’s what she told me.  She also said she worked at the NC ESC and was forced to go to the Psychiatric Hospital. 

“Did she have a mental illness”.

I am not a Doctor but she certainly had a stress problem which I think she acted out by cutting herself.  She was also overdosing on the prescriptions the doctors gave her, then running back to the hospital. I think now, she must have been threatened or something and didn’t want to be alone in the house.  Her daughter moved onto campus and I think that’s why she was stayed in the hospital so long. 

It is hard for me to have to think about her problems when I have so many of my own still going on.  I do think my mother and I were enmeshed in her things with her mother.

Incoming…

Thursday, May 10, 2012, 1:25:41 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Looks like we’re operating at a deficit doesn’t it, hmmm?”

No, HM, you not we, are operating at a deficit, leave Kay Gibbs out of your problem.

“I’m sure people are desparate Ms. GIbbs”.

Desperate to the tune of $16 billion dollars in debt to the government and $1 trillion dollars in debt to China.  You decided your lives were more important than the people you have imprisoned mentally and emotionally, wrecking their lives and making them think they and their families were the cause of their problems, sending them to an industry that would then milk their minds to the tune of millions of dollars, including their own well contrived ideas preventing them from entering into the free market.  This is what a damned Capitalist is all about, they don’t care about human beings, only as a resource for their stinking professions and they smell to high heaven these days.  Your net worth isn’t even the billions of dollars you cost this country.

You want a damn novel go to Hollywood and mooch off those $25 million, $10 million, $5 million dollar actors and actresses.  Leave me alone.

Incoming…

Wednesday, May 09, 2012, 9:57:57 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Please let me get this novel”.

Sorry no can do.

“You did play softball”…

Wednesday, May 09, 2012, 7:26:34 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Yes I did. 

“You are a left handed batter”.

Yes I am.

Incoming…

Wednesday, May 09, 2012, 3:17:23 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“She’s not salivating”…

Little Ice Age.  Has nothing to do with any particular species.  If people can act out, animals can certainly act out to a degree.  I suspect the violence witnessed by Sapolsky and his baboons may have been influenced by some more human history.

Someone’s doing sign language…

Tuesday, May 08, 2012, 5:55:16 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“you’ll not get anything out of Mr. Hill, he’s a fraud”…

Tuesday, May 08, 2012, 5:54:23 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I have discovered Melatonin will do the same this as LSD if you can get passed the sleepiness…

Tuesday, May 08, 2012, 5:46:37 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

LIFE - Google Books

…I have used it frequently with excellent results.  I did take some last night and fell asleep in the sofa for about 2 hours so it does not last very long.

The drug blocks most of the frontal lobe activity.  I have taken as much as 30mgs but the rebound effects were terribly uncomfortable.  Since discovering writers were pecking through my brain and mind and had been bombarded with so much music I have been using it at night to protect my frontal lobes to prevent dementia.  So far it seems to be working.  I remembered a television ad about this and that one should protect their frontal lobes, I can’t recall exactly when this was and now it seems the man looked a bit like Skinner.  I was using GABA for a long time but at certain doses it becomes excitatory.  I have had a difficult time trying to find something to turn off the frontal lobes until I found melatonin.

I ate a pile of those chocolate fudge cookies in the magazine…

Tuesday, May 08, 2012, 5:36:08 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

LIFE - Google Books

…I’m sure my mother never read this magazine .

Have not seen this but have had an obsession with chocolate for most of my life…

Tuesday, May 08, 2012, 5:28:22 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Women in New York (TV 1977) - IMDb

Chuck Traynor - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Tuesday, May 08, 2012, 4:34:03 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Traynor died aged 64 of a heart attack in Chatsworth, California on July 22, 2002, three months after Lovelace died from massive trauma and internal injuries as a result of a car accident. Lovelace's sister, Barbara Boreman, later said in an interview in Inside Deep Throat that she was disappointed that Traynor died before she could kill him.

Chuck Traynor - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

“Accident’s can happen you know…”

Tuesday, May 08, 2012, 4:32:49 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: “That drag outfit you had on the other day did not work…”

I heard this just before this post then I got locked out of my blog.

I have heard some of this going on of late…I have never seen this film.

Tuesday, May 08, 2012, 4:20:40 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Deep Throat (film) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I saw a clip of a Rock Star getting his voice box examined.

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I do have an aunt via my step father Joseph Tillman Gibbs named Clara…

Tuesday, May 08, 2012, 2:47:55 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Hannibal Hamlin - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Tuesday, May 08, 2012, 2:47:08 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Hannibal Hamlin's great-granddaughter Sally Hamlin was a child actor who made many spoken word recordings for the Victor Talking Machine Company in the early years of the 20th century.

Hannibal Hamlin - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I have collected over 3000 pieces of information…

Tuesday, May 08, 2012, 2:44:46 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

.some in the form of posts which likely are conversations going on…168 letters to mental health, might be one of Skinner’s patients or a Hollowell prisoner.  I have collected numerous audio files as well.  I have not been talking much out, not anything I thought was relevant to what I thought was going on.

I need some rest...

I’m sure this writer’s been in here…

Monday, May 07, 2012, 6:14:07 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Harlequin eBook Store - The Prophet

I don’t read novels, my mother did and doesn’t anymore.

She is watching goddamn Bonanza right now.

I’m sure Skinner doesn’t have anything to do with stem cells…

Monday, May 07, 2012, 6:08:49 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I am certain now this is the battle going on with him and maybe his colleagues…

Monday, May 07, 2012, 5:34:01 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

In this way we repair the major damage wrought by mentalism. When what a person does [is] attributed to what is going on inside him, investigation is brought to an end. Why explain the explanation? For twenty five hundred years people have been preoccupied with feelings and mental life, but only recently has any interest been shown in a more precise analysis of the role of the environment. Ignorance of that role led in the first place to mental fictions, and it has been perpetuated by the explanatory practices to which they gave rise.[16]

B. F. Skinner - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Hall was like mixed up in some of it also…There were a large family of Burruses living in our hometown so I am guessing the name is a derivation…we all went to school with them.

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Association for Behavior Analysis International

Monday, May 07, 2012, 5:29:13 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Association for Behavior Analysis International

This is who it is, he’s the linguist..

Monday, May 07, 2012, 5:10:47 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

B. F. Skinner - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

His tombstone looks like my father’s…

Monday, May 07, 2012, 5:10:03 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

File:BF Skinner Grave.JPG - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Inocming…

Monday, May 07, 2012, 4:25:15 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I’m sorry I’m going to get my novel written”.

It will be elsewhere I assure you.

Incoming…

Monday, May 07, 2012, 4:20:16 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I can’t believe what we do to them”.

You don’t know the half of it.

Incoming…

Monday, May 07, 2012, 4:09:53 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I’m a gentle woman”.

I don’t give a damn I’m a monster and you will get your novel elsewhere.

INcoming…

Monday, May 07, 2012, 4:06:20 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Well this novels off”.

Not buying it I still hear you.

Incoming…

Monday, May 07, 2012, 4:05:44 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I don’t care what she says I’m going to get my novel”.

You will be met with great opposition I assure you before you get my cease and desist letter as I mean to stop you here.  I don’t care if I have to stay up for the next week.

“This girl’s taken an overdose before”…

Monday, May 07, 2012, 4:03:19 PM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“I know it”

Yes I did I took 20 ativan and chased it with a bottle of beer because of you stupid asses.

“I’m a failure”.

Call it what you want you cost me my life, a career, a home, a family…

Incoming…

Monday, May 07, 2012, 7:09:12 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

“Mrs. Green you are getting smaller”.

Incoming…

Monday, May 07, 2012, 7:04:45 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

I see a car crashing.

“Be careful what you say do you want to make more trouble for us?”

“Ms. Gibbs I already had a car crash for you”.

What the hell, they’ve already stolen most of the country’s economy from us anyway…

Monday, May 07, 2012, 6:58:11 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

Why should I be scared?  My life’s been ruined already.  I want to live and I surely am never afraid to speak up in my own country that protects the right to do so.

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots

…what the hell are they yapping about my blog for?

“haven’t you learned something”…continued from What’s In Kay’s Mind…

Monday, May 07, 2012, 6:43:19 AM | kayfgibbs@gmail.com (Kay F Gibbs)

There are better more productive ways to learn.

“This woman is constantly blogging my novel.”

IT IS NOT YOUR NOVEL, MY BRAIN OR MIND IS NOT AT YOUR DISPOSAL.

“How are you doing Ms. Gibbs”

“Boy them rascals”.  “They can cause a problem”.

“I need to get a novel from you”.

Sorry the answer is no, so leave.