I sat up from my bed, shaking and crying. My nightmare was so vivid that I felt as if the walls of my own room were closing in on me now. I was really panicking and didn’t know what to do. ‘’NASH NASH’’. I kept screaming his name but obviously he wasn’t there. While I was in this state everything that had happened with Nash didn’t even cross my mind, all I wanted was for him to hold me and tell me everything’s gonna be okay so I grabbed my phone off my bedside table and rang Nash.
‘’Y/n?! I’m so glad you called listen I’m so –‘’ he started but soon stopped.
‘’NASH NASH’’ I screamed. ‘’PLEASE HELP I CANT BREATHE NASH I I IM PANICKING AND I CANT BREATHE AND EVERYTHINGS CLOSING IN ON ME N-NASH PLEASE COME QUICK NASH I NEED YOU’’ I cried. I kept saying the same things over and over again and Nash straight away knew exactly what was wrong.
‘’Baby listen to me okay stay calm, I’m on my way it’s alright I’m coming soon, deep breaths baby please stay calm I’ll be there soon okay’’ Nash said with a sense of urgency in his voice, it wasn’t working though. I needed Nash there with me, nothing he was saying was helping because I couldn’t stop shaking and screaming and I wouldn’t feel safe until he was here.
‘’I’m on my way okay baby I’ll be there in 2 minutes, just don’t go off the phone okay keep talking to me y/n come on breathe you’re alright I’ll be with you soon’’ He said reassuringly but he sounded as if he was getting upset now.
A couple of minutes past, but it seemed like hours until Nash used the key I gave him to unlock the door and run up the stairs into my bedroom. I got more and more panicky as time went on but when my bedroom door flew open I instantly uncurled myself from the tiny shaking ball I was sitting in and Nash and I ran to each other with arms wide open. I jumped into him, wrapped my shaking legs around his waist and buried my pounding head into his neck with tears still streaming down my face. He held me so tight and stroked my head.
‘’Shhh you’re alright baby I’m here, it’s all okay now, you’re safe with me’’ he comfortably whispered as he carried me over to my bed and sat down, leaning on my pillows. I unwrapped my legs from around him and put them across his lap, still keeping my head tucked next to his neck. I was still crying and shaking but I instantly felt safer with his strong arms around me to protect me from my nightmare.
10 minutes of me crying and Nash holding me tight while reassuring me went by and I was starting to calm down now. I moved my head onto Nash’s chest and tucked my legs in front of me, still crying but not as harshly anymore. Nash hadn’t let go of me since he got here, he was holding me too tight but that’s what I needed. Every time my body shook he held me even tighter and pulled me into him, somehow he knew exactly what to do.
After I’d stopped crying and gradually started to relax, Nash and I just laid together in silence. He continued to stroke my hair and kiss my forehead but we didn’t say a word, we didn’t need to because right then everything seemed so perfect. After a while the effects of my bad dream wore off and I was alright again, but I still didn’t break away from the moment because at the time, it was just what I wanted and I missed it so much. We tightly held on to each other for what must have been another half hour before Nash squeezed me even tighter and buried his head into mine.
‘’I’m so sorry I wasn’t here’’ he whispered, and I could tell he was crying.
‘’What do you mean?’’ I said as I took Nash’s hand and slightly sat up to look at him.
‘’The one time you needed me more than ever and I wasn’t even here to hold you and look after you, all because I fucked up so much’’ he said, getting even more upset and lowering his head into my chest.
‘’Shhh Nash its okay, you’re here now and I’m fine, that’s all that matters okay don’t get upset’’, now I was the one doing the reassuring and stroking his hair.
‘’I’m so annoyed with myself for letting all this happen though’’ he replied while wiping tears off his face and lifting his head up to look at me. ‘’I’m just so glad you rang me when you did cos I’d of hated myself if you had to go through that alone’’ he said while sniffing and still wiping his tears.
‘’Well, who else was I gonna call?’’ I said jokingly while nudging him slightly to try and make him feel better. We both let out a little giggle then our eyes caught each other’s through the darkness. We just stared at each other, embracing the moment. I was trapped in his icy blue eyes and couldn’t pull myself away. Looking into his eyes reminded me of everything we had before our argument and all my feelings came rushing back, so I leant in for a kiss.
Hope you like it! Part 7 tomorrow, links to previous parts:
PART 1 - http://ahoybros.tumblr.com/post/88488309079/doesnt-show-up-nash-grier-imagine
PART 2 - http://ahoybros.tumblr.com/post/88498313004/doesnt-show-up-part-2-nash-grier-imagine
PART 3 - http://ahoybros.tumblr.com/post/88587048284/doesnt-show-up-part-3-nash-grier-imagine
PART 4 - http://ahoybros.tumblr.com/post/88775313659/doesnt-show-up-part-4-nash-grier-imagine
PART 5 - http://ahoybros.tumblr.com/post/88980927349/doesnt-show-up-part-5-nash-grier-imagine