• Kristin Cavallari opened up about her divorce from Jay Cutler.
  • She said it was definitely the reason she quit Very Cavallari.
  • The Laguna Beach alum revealed that she and Jay had issues for years and kept a lot off the show.

Kristin Cavallari was an open book when it came to discussing her marriage to and divorce from Jay Cutler in a recent interview with People. While promoting her new cookbook, Kristin revealed she never considered her relationship to be “couple goals” like her fans did. She admitted, “I was like, ‘If you guys only knew.’”

In April, Jay filed for divorce three days before Kristin submitted her own papers. When they announced the news to their followers on Instagram, they chalked it up to a “situation of two people growing apart.”

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Although it seemed like everything hit the fan at the same time for Jay and Kristin this spring, their marital issues were definitely ongoing. “It didn’t happen overnight,” Kristin said. “We tried really, really hard for years and years. It was the hardest decision I’ve ever made.”

Ultimately, Kristin is proud of herself for realizing it was best for them to separate. “When you work at something for so many years and nothing’s changing, I think you have to just make a decision,” she said, later adding, “It wore at me every single day for years. I feel like my whole world is opening up now because of it, and I’m just feeling the best I’ve felt in a really long time.”

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As for the end of their reality show Very Cavallari, which she quit in May, Kristin felt like it was a major weight off her shoulders. “I’m just relieved,” she shared. “I just knew I was going to have to talk about everything, and I didn’t want to. Thinking about filming was giving me anxiety.”

The reality star and designer also said there’s a lot fans didn’t see on Very Cavallari, but don’t get your hopes up that it’ll air eventually. Kristin and the show were very intentional about keeping some things private. She said, “Producers saw stuff, but they didn’t put it in the show—which is good, because I don’t want my kids to ever [see that].”

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At the end of the day, she and Jay may be separated, but they still talk all the time to co-parent their kids. Kristin said, “I still care so much about him and talk to him almost every day. We have three kids together. He’s going to be in my life forever.”