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Rikers Island is the centerpiece of the New York City Department of Corrections, a sprawling prison city of concrete and steel with housing for more than 16,000 inmates. Early in 1995, it was also the temporary home of legendary rapper and actor Tupac Shakur, incarcerated for a crime he swore he did not commit. And it was there that Angela Ardis, acting on a late-night wager among her friends and coworkers, sent a letter, along with a photo and her phone number. To her utter delight and amazement, Angela's phone rang a short while later. Tupac Shakur was on the line.

Over the next several months, Angela and Tupac shared a near-daily exchange of letters, poems and phone calls, and their the relationship quickly grew into something neither of them could quite define, a kinship of souls that touched each in unexpected ways. Those original poems and letters, many of them written after Tupac's transfer from Rikers to Dannemora State Prison, are presented here, along with the increasingly passionate and personal phone calls that touched on every subject imaginable. Far from the media spotlight, Tupac was by turns playful, sensual and serious, offering sharp observations on prison, music and the uncertainties of life. His letters to Angela reflect how he felt about being shot five times and left for dead one terrible night in New York in 1994, and his heartfelt verse encapsulates his dreams for the future--a future that would be so tragically cut short just over eighteen months after their correspondence began.

Tupac Shakur was shot on September 7th, 1996 and died a week later from his injuries. His murder remains unsolved, an ending as enigmatic as his life. But while Tupac may be gone, his words live on here, giving every fan a rare glimpse inside the mind and unbroken spirit of a passionate and unpredictable musical icon.

Angela Ardis is an author, screenwriter, actress and model.

241 pages, Hardcover

First published January 1, 2004

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487 reviews2,408 followers
April 24, 2012
This book is pretty much every teenage girl fantasy come true. Angela Ardis was an ordinary woman who decided to write a letter to 2Pac, when he was in prison. The whole thing was a result of a bet Ardis had with her co-workers. She was prepared to lose it but then, shockingly, 2Pac called her back.

And this is how 2Pac and Ardis became pen-pals. 2Pac had quite some time on his hands, so he could write her letters and poems to entertain himself, and Ardis was having an epistolary affair with the world number 1 bad boy. They were both winning.

Women love celebrities and they love men in prison. A celebrity in prison? It hardly gets better than this. The reason women love men in prison is because men in prison are what women want men to be. They won’t try to have sex with you for the simple reason that they can’t, they are behind bars. Men in prison can only talk and listen, words is all that they have. So all their concentration goes into talking and listening. They will write you letters! What other man will write you letters these days? Only a man in prison!

Taking all that into consideration, you will be hardly surprised to learn that Ardis ditched the perfectly sweet guy she was dating and got carried away.

It reminded me of my private obsession with 2Pac. When I was about 13 I was quite positive we would get married one day. If you think it a bit weird that a little white girl in post-communist Poland was in love with 2Pac, let me just tell you that the only language this little book has been translated to was Polish. There was quite of a cult following of 2Pac in Poland back in the day.

What’s interesting about 2pac’s and Ardis’ correspondence is that after the first letter Ardis sent him, which consisted of a few rather uninspired lines, 2Pac was relocated a few times and Ardis’ letters weren’t reaching him. This, however, didn’t stop him from writing to her. 2Pac was going deeper and deeper into the whole thing without any activity on her part. This leads me to conclusion that Ardis could've been anyone. 2Pac was just lonely and sad, and probably quite bored. This provided entertainment and opportunity to create an ideal partner who he could write to.

I mean, their whole correspondence is soft porn intercepted with assurances about how ‘real’ their thing is. There is no real substance to it, no firm base to build any meaningful relationship. It was just like an endless r’n’b song where they constantly repeated how much they were feeling each other. It seemed to me it just provided 2Pac with an outlet for his creativity. He was an artist and on that occasion he decided to play a game of seduction.

At some point, 2Pac admits to Ardis that there is another woman in his life, whom he calls Queen. He then goes into some very illogical, juvenile explanations of how all three of them could live happily ever after. Ardis, despite her slight infatuation and 2Pac’s celebrity status, calls bullshit. Then 2Pac complains that women always say they want honesty but when they get it, they can’t handle it. Of all the stupid lines, this one must be my favourite. Women want honesty, but not just in words, in actions too. If you are a dick and tell me honestly about it, it doesn’t make it better. It doesn’t make you an honest man, you’re actually still a dick.

Anyway, beware of men who call you Queen. That’s usually a sign of something fishy going on. I was dating this guy once who was calling me a princess and telling me I was his only Princess. And guess what, I WAS his only Princess. Because the other two were called, respectively, Queen and Wifey.

‘Inside a Thug’s Heart’ was quite a short book. If I don’t stop writing this review soon, it will probably be just as long as the book. Ardis tried to stretch it out by including her reveries that featured 2pac, their imaginary conversations and loves scenes. Ah, I remember... I used to have loads of those with Ginuwine when I was 16.

And you know how the whole thing ended? She went to visit him in prison, they kissed, and then he never called her or written her again. Men, eh?
Sometime later he got shot, so girlfriend could at least cash in on the whole thing.

As a matter of fact, this gives me an idea… Do you know of any celebrities that are currently in prison? Didn’t Wesley Snipes get busted for tax evasion or something?
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1,378 reviews1,396 followers
February 7, 2022
I wish I was the type of person who keeps a journal or who hangs on to old letters but I'm just not. In middle school into high school I had a pen pal from Ghana. I got rid of the letters at some point but I did at least hang on to the pictures she sent me. What I'm trying to say is that I'm not sentimental

But if Tupac had been my pen pal I think I would have kept those.

Inside A Thugs Heart is about the relationship the author Angela Ardis had with rapper Tupac Shakur back in 1995 while he was in prison for rape. This is such a weird book and I don't know how I feel about it. It was an interesting look at the more personal side of a legend but it also made me feel uneasy for reasons I can't quite verbalize.

There's something off-putting about this book. Maybe it's because at various times Tupac says these letters are private and the author wrote this book after he was murdered. Or maybe it's because of that old says "You shouldn't meet your heroes" because Tupac comes off as both corny and a Hotep, which if you listen to his music you know he could have some Hotep traits but man I would have never considered Tupac corny before this book.

I didn't like this book but I'm not sure why exactly. I kinda want to recommend this book just to see if other people feel the same way. But I don't think you'll miss anything if you don't read it.
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November 16, 2012
I picked up this book and absolutley could not put it down!
I read the whole entire book in just two days. I was glued to it,it was so interesting and so real, It told his whole story, and every letter he sent back and forth from his girlfriend while being imprisoned,had copies of real letters and poetry he wrote himself, in his handwriting. He is an amazing poet, he was real and inspirational.
I cried throughout this book, there was many parts where it was very emotional and while I was reading it, i felt like i could feel every feeling and emotion he did. I give this book 5 stars, and I wish he was still alive. He would be inspiring and giving people hope still to this day. That is all.
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687 reviews52 followers
December 9, 2021
I learned so Much from his words alone . Like can you really love more than one person the same as in the relationship sense . This was a good book like a deep intense fan fiction i love everything PAC ! so I had to cope this . I was so caught up w| this beautiful unique story I wished I was Angela . Tupac was loved by many especially me & his mother ! I can’t wait until i get to heaven to embrace my spiritual husband . This was so intimate I wouldn’t have ever shared Tupac’s lovely letters &! Stories with a soul. May he RIP& be waiting in heaven for me .
Profile Image for Casey Wesley.
3 reviews
July 26, 2010
This book is one of my favorites. It gives you pomes and letters that the artist know as Tupac, wrote to a women named Angela, from Rikers Islans Prison. In the book are real poems and letters. It all started as a bet with a women and her friends and ended up as a physical relationship from prison and ended up on the outside. This story goes back and forth between the two, throughout Tupac's time in prison.They shared a daily exchange of letters, poem, and phone calls. The increasingly passionate and personal calls touched on every level imaginable. His letters reflect on how he felt about being shot five times and being left for dead in New York in 1994. He was shot on September 7th, 1996 and died a week later from his injuries. His murder remians unsolved. This book gives every fan a rare look inside the mind and unbroken spirit of a passionate and unpredictable musical icon. I love this book. This my third time reading it.
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689 reviews54 followers
December 14, 2011
How many of your conversations with friends started off with "I bet you won't..."? How many dares/bets involved a celebrity? In 1995, Angela Ardis accepted a bet to try and reach rapper, poet and actor Tupac Shakur even though he was incarcerated in Rikers Island, New York City's primary jail complex. She sent a brief letter with her contact information and a photograph. A few days later there was a message waiting on her answering machine: "Hi, Angela. This is Tupac."

And so an intense pen pal relationship develops over the next several months. Inside a Thug's Heart includes original poems and letters by Tupac Shakur and Angela Ardis. The letters reflect their growing unorthodox bond and feelings on life, sex and personal matters. If you've ever read Tupac's poetry or did more than just skim through his lyrics, you would recognize his words and appreciate the access this book provides. However, don't assume that Angela Ardis was the girlfriend we never heard about. Tupac made it clear there was a "Queen" in his life and his relationship with Angela was special, yet separate.

Although the book didn't divulge super secrets, Tupac stressed in his letters that they should not be shared. It made me wonder if he would approve of this book being published. Even though the acknowledgements begin with thanking Afeni Shakur, Tupac's mother, for allowing the book "to see the light of day." Hmmm...

It's not the usual fan perspective (unless you include the unnecessary breaks in correspondence that were filled with the author's fantasies and dialogue with her roommate). It is more personalized, intimate and offers a little closer look into the man behind the "Thug Life" tattoo.

Literary Marie
3 reviews
April 2, 2008
This book really made me understand Tupac and his life better. The poems in this book are good. I think if you liked the poems in "The Rose That Grew From Concrete" then you'll like the poems in this book. This book also has a nice story to it as well.
5 reviews
June 26, 2007
This book is about the correspondence between Tupac and a woman who began to write to him when he went to jail.
3 reviews
January 16, 2018
a wonderful story on how two distant souls can connect so deeply to each other via letters one in prison and the other out in the world but that doesn't stop them from wanting each others company
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December 9, 2008
I was first told about this book in my English class. I bought it at the store and I loved it. It is about a woman, Angela who makes a bet with her friends to send Tupac a letter. he responds to her and they become really good friends. They continue to write eachother including poetry in some of the letters. She made arrandements to come and visit him in the correctional facility he is in. After the visit they stop talking for a while. I guess they just got busy. A few months later Tupac died. I recommend this book for people to read because it takes you inside the mind of Tupac. A lot of people compare him to his music and whatever he raps is what he is. To find out more about the real Tupac Shakur you need to read this book.
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191 reviews3 followers
May 10, 2012
This book tells the story of a lovestruck girl who makes good on a bet to write 2Pac in prison. He writes back, and what ensues is a series of letters and phone calls mixed with her fantasies. The book doesn't contain anything special, and it ends exactly how you would predict it would, with the celebrity ditching the girl.
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June 12, 2013
like it a lot. really interesting important historical document but also trashy romance in a way too. i LIKED the trashy romance stuff. lot's of complex interesting stuff about race and patriarchy. very gritty and romantic at the same time. both of them were really smart and creative and it's fun to see them interact.
25 reviews2 followers
January 17, 2018
This was a good read Start to Finish ! The anticipation on certain parts was well worth it , From getting her first Phone call to actually meeting him , to find out that he died . The poems written between those two was also a plus , it showed me how much of an itellectual person Tupac was and how creative his mind was . I definetly would add this book to my list of Favorites.
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155 reviews25 followers
November 7, 2008
this was not what i meant to read. i wanted to learn more about tupac's philosophy and wound up reading erotic letters. not the fault of the book that it wasn't what i was looking for, but man, it wasn't want i was looking for.
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56 reviews
April 2, 2010
this is a really good book!! i wish i had a copy of this, for nay 2pac fan its like gold....and even to those who are not so much a fan, it gives an insight to the 'inside of a thug's heart'. and its written soo beautifully, deffinently deserves 5 stars.
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763 reviews12 followers
June 2, 2013
Short book of letters to Tupac and from him while in prison to a fan. She became totally infatuated. The letters were quite juvenile.
2 reviews
March 26, 2021
Phenomenal book touched me in so many more ways then I was expecting! So moving and intimate on levels I was not prepared for!! Highly recommend! I could not put this book down! Could partially be the slight hopeless romantic its nice to see the intellectual and sensual relationship you idealize be obtained even if it's in a book. There is no doubting he is a lyricist like no other and had a way with words especially when it came to charming the ladies!

I'm not a huge fan of the aspect of him having another women however it was a very stimulating concept in many other ways a slight fantasy for some (not necessarily the relationship with a celeb at least not for me) however it was so intellectually appealing and how i imagined a relationship is supposed to be since i was a little girl something that appeases your mind soul and body if he can stimulate your mind enough to trigger a physical response without the physical aspect that is truly something!!

It is an interesting read and insight into the mind of lyricist in ways most people wouldn't expect which is a fact that i love the juxtaposition of what is "normalized" as to of what a thug is, when in actuality there is many levels to each individual no matter how you may initially perceive someone.
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November 12, 2018
In this book it talks a bout a love story between Tupac and Angela. Angela sends innocent letters to Tupac who is in prison && does not expect him to send anything back but she gets a letter from him and the story turns into a story of letter sending back and forth making things more intimate in between both of them. In the book you get to learn more about Tupac’s experiences in and out of jail which is fascinating to me because I bump his music from now and then and it’s crwzy to hear how he spoke to other people about himself. I recommend this book to anyone , the book also includes the letters sent from Tupac and some music so while you’re reading it you will encounter his song lyrics and letters
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5 reviews
June 4, 2021
I quite enjoyed this book mainly because of the person that it is about. Tupac is one of my all time crushes and it was very interesting to see a side of him that we usually don't get to see. I'm not going to lie, I was giggling like a teenager when I was reading some parts.
The relationship between Angela and Tupac was not serious. Is pretty clear to me that this was a relationship that was born out of pac's need to escape and fantasize and the relationship was never going to fruition into something real and palpable.
If you want to read a lot of sweet talking, sex fantasies and so forth you are going to like this book. If you want to read something deep and significant you're going to be disappointed.
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148 reviews
May 23, 2024
Być może jest to wina formy książki - opowieści z realu przeplatają się tutaj ze snami, listami, opowieściami z odwiedzin. Ten bałagan nie bardzo dał mi możliwość poznania całej historii (a na końcu książki autorka wspomina, że po śmierci Tupaca nagle "skończyła się jej przygoda"). Myślę, że tę książkę lepiej przeczytać w oryginale - przytoczone wiersze są ciekawym przedstawieniem formowania się niecodziennej relacji międzyludzkiej. Warto się z nimi zapoznać w kontekście całej twórczości Tupaca, i zobaczyć jego prywatne oblicze.
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108 reviews1 follower
June 17, 2021
This book was written with such vulnerability. Not only did we get to peek into Tupac's goals, his dark days, and high points, but also that of the author's. It was like reading someone's diary which was a different kind of read that what I generally consume. I really enjoyed this one. I question(ed) some of his ideals, but Angela did a great job of working what you would question into her writings. Well done!
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19 reviews3 followers
December 26, 2021
Very intriguing read. I will say don’t go reading this book with high hopes of getting into & understanding the extraordinary depths of Tupac’s heart, the description of the book is exactly what it gives. The letters & phone calls are what kept my eyes glued to the pages. They are where you get to see a glimpse of Pac’s intimate/vulnerable side. Almost feels like the letters were written directly to you, I blushed at some points if I’m being quite honest lol
1 review
June 30, 2020
Great Story!

I truly enjoyed this book! It's so intriguing and intense that I couldn't put the book down! I'm a huge Pac fan, so it's refreshing to read his inner most perspectives involving relationships. It was sad to read that he flaked on Angela in the end without an explanation. However, Pac was a complicated KING that was true to himself. RIP PAC 🙏
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49 reviews1 follower
March 3, 2021
While I appreciated the letters and poems written by Tupac, I did not like the insertion of the author's (Angela Ardis) daydreams etc. But, the letters were very interesting and revealed Pac's vulnerability during his incarceration.
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1 review3 followers
August 28, 2016
At first I was reluctant to read anything by someone that could betray a mans trust by printing his correspondence while incarcerated but eventually decided to keep an open mind if only out of respect for Tupac. I spend a lot of time defending Tupac, his intelligence and lyrical prowess when standing up against the USA and its penchant for discrimination against African Americans, from those that deem him a 'thug' or a 'gang banger'. He was more educated than most that mock him and I wasn't going to let one (assumed) groupie ruin my perception. I found this book well written and loved seeing Tupacs handwriting (although almost illegible in some places - so typically male). I'm not shy to say I spent many an afternoon daydreaming it was me that opened my door to a newly released and devestatingly handsome Tupac...... Alas, it will never be and I'm content with living vicariously through my own visions. If you adore Pac as I do, you'll enjoy this but don't expect too much info on him or how he handled jail. There's no steamy sex scene either which I'm pleased to say. I applaud the author and her ability to not cheapen a story that had the potential to do so.
November 29, 2014
Loved this book!

First of all, I am a fan of Tupac Shaker. He's an excellent writer, a wonderful rap artist (even though I don't like some of the things he raps about, I can understand each and every word), a terrific actor (who knew?) and a extremely deep and intellectual thinker. I loved how this story was told by Ms. Ardis. She told from a real person's point of view. I felt everything she felt. I loved her poetry and his! I'd recommend this book to anyone regardless if you're a fan of Tupac or not. I am going to read it again just for the poetry.
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