The Perks of being a wallflower

WOW, This is my story..

I ain't prepared and i gotta rewatch it tomorrow but, It touched my because I had my "Sam' in prep school and I was a wallflower too which i just knew the meaning of it :- "someone who's so shy that they typically stand or sit alone rather than engaging with a larger group", I didn't say anything to her even that it was obvious, then my Emma Watson aka " Sam" left us in Secondary stage, I felt like I won't be able to pass these 3 years and I'm not going to college.

first semester in 1st year, I got depressed, bad mood, more isolation even tho I had friends but I preferred to sit alone and imagine her coming back to see us at least, to experience once again how it felt to sit in class and be able look at her and just smile from the inside...

3 years in school and I may say I saw her 3 times ig how awful is life!!!! Somehow I managed to stay focused until I graduated, she joined us in our Prom after I convinced our School principal... The Story begins now, 2 nights before prom we are preparing the celebration hall or whatever you call it was so much fun, we talked and I felt love again..I thought this part died in me !

So PROM, I had one chance I can't fuck it up right >? boom fun night but I couldn't tell her, I was so cloooseeee omg the way we talked and laughed, Now we are going to college a whole new experience I managed to get into civil engineering even though rn I wanna shift to film school and steal jeans from the mall..

I wanted to confess my love to her, my bf had an idea so that we can meet, it's so creepy but she loved it.. we were all one group so her friends told her we are going out and that I was coming but she didn't know that only me was going there XD.. we went out super nervous we talked and waited for our friends but guess what haha no one comes, so we talked remembered our memories in school together and how we are feeling about college, then boom I Love You, I felt free again for a moment nothing else matters.. I just wanted to get it out off my chest.
as Patrick said "I didn't think anyone noticed me " but she did and We dated for a year and half what a lovely time every time I was with her I felt patrick when he said "This is happening, I am here and I'm looking at her and she is so beautiful"...I really felt INFINTE

so happy ending is it ?

well long distance is a bitch, and we couldn't work it out in this period of life, we decided to wait for each other after college better than to waste a whole relationship.. I know it looks missed up but I can manage, it's been 8 months since we talked.. a whole year since we sit with each other.. now I'm about to finish my 3rd year in college, still has 3 more thinking about it makes me wanna vomit.. I wasted a lot my time not experiencing life, I gotta try things on my own and create whom I wanna be..

I will watch the movie again tomorrow and probably will have another opinion and it will reflect on another part of my story and I won't feel the blues after watching it.. We are who we are boyz

If anyone read all that just like it so I do know that someone on the planet knows my story and prob care, thanks <3