“Always the bridesmaid, never the bride”

(Tw mental health going 📉📉) Im attending my childhood friends wedding this weekend, while gathering with some other friends before the ceremony (on Saturday, everyone is back in town for the wedding, so we decided to hang out) someone commented that to me, (reference; quote from corpse bride “to Emily, always the bridesmaid, never the bride”)

most of my friends are dating or already married and I have never even dated anyone. I literally am the only one who doesn’t have a date or plus one. The worst part is that everyone laughed, or they treated me as someone who doesn’t put effort in dating, but holy shit I do, i have been trying to lose weight for years, I dedicate myself to hobbies and did therapy, I’m taking care of myself, I have tried tinder, tried bumble, tried EVERYTHING.

I’ve tried going out with so many people but idk, most ppl I’ve had a thing over always ask if we can still be friends bc they really liked my company, which im thankful to be someone nice to be around, but Jesus chirst, can someone please just love me? Is it truly so impossible to be seen romantically?

I have been crying non stop for 3 hours bc of this comment, most days I’m fine with being… alone, having no one, I learned to be independent a long time ago, but this one really hurt me unfortunately